I keep....trying for you

- Sade

its like lighting a candle on a windy day...
its like grasping for a towel in the shower knowing you really did forget to bring one
its like watching The Proposal or The Love Affair for the nth time
its like.....being unable to breathe...... and you remember.....you can't......

“You expected to be sad in the fall. Part of you dies each year when the leaves fell from the trees and their branches were bare against the wind and the cold, wintry light. But you knew there would always be the spring, as you knew the river would flow again after it was frozen. When the cold rains kept on and killed the spring, it was as though a young person had died for no reason.”

—	Ernest Hemingway

Three days ago, I loathed you. I used to dream about you getting hit by a cab. Then we had our little adventure up in Alaska and things started to changed. Things changed when we kissed. And when you told me about your tattoo. Even when you checked me out when we were naked. But I didn't realize any of this, until I was standing alone... in a barn... wifeless. Now, you could imagine my disappointment when it suddenly dawned on me that the woman I love is about to be kicked out of the country. So Margaret, marry me, because I'd like to date you


bakit pa ba ko nanonood ng mga ganitong movie?

i got my calculator and did the math..to be honest i've forgotten how old I was....im not trying to hide my age but for some reason..maybe sa tagal i really did forget na...i got a total of 3 cakes and 1 ice cream on my birthday..sarap. thanks to Ace, Van, Batch 68 and Arlyn for the cakes and Ice Cream from Tin. You added more calories to my calorie laden body :D

What did I do since I was on a 3 day weekend...nothing much...treated my family to Amber's Pancit and pichi-pichie...then slept...on wednesday the kids (4 toddlers!!!) and ate lunch in McDonald then played for an hour in Fun Ranch. We left when there was bus load of kids from a chinese school that had their field trip in Fun Ranch (why do they go to play gyms and malls nowadays instead of the Planetarium, Manila Zoo, etc?). They were 6-7 yrs olds so my posse was not only outnumbered but bullied as well so I decided to bring them somewhere else. Went to Tiendesitas to look at the spiders, snakes and scorpions...Miggy kse was looking for Spiderman so I gave him the real thing..hehehe...we had dirty ice cream then went home before the color coding window was up...

the next day, we went to Greenhills and fixed our milyones in the bank then spent a a few hrs in Krispy Kreme to update my Ipod Touch apps and laptop. slept when i got home..then that was it....nothing great happened..after all it was just another birthday.....

“Right under my feet is air made of bricks
That pulls me down turns me weak for you
find myself repeating like a broken tune
And I’m forever excusing your intentions
And I give in to my pretendings
Which forgive you each time
Without me knowing
They melt my heart to stone
And I hear your words that I made up

You say my name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head I’m the only one in love
I’m the only one in love

Each and every time I turn around to leave
I feel my heart begin to burst and bleed
So desperately I try to link it with my head
But instead I fall back to my knees
As you tear your way right through me
I forgive you once again
Without me knowing
You’ve burnt my heart to stone

And I hear your words that I made up
You say my name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head I’m the only one in love
I’m the only one in love

Why do you steal my hand
Whenever I’m standing my own ground
You build me up, then leave me dead

Well I hear your words you made up
I say your name like there should be an us
I best tidy up my head I’m the only one in love
I’m the only one in love.”

—	Adele | Melt my heart to stone

misan itatanong mo..bakit nagkaganito...at wala kang masasagot kungdi ..kibit balikat

my little brother's here in the country. he unexpectedly arrived last sunday w gf and 2 sons...where he is now? i dunno..he went off to some province and hasnt come back yet....kuwawa wla pa naman Eye to Eye na ngayon...anway, i got some new toys again. a new graco duo glider stroller for my kids, my dad gave me his old school camera w long range lens pa plus a hew hp laptop...ahlavet.

i dont even want to blog about whats been going on sa office. bottomline is.....it sucks. the pay doesnt commensurate w the amout of work anymore. its takes away a lot of my time everyday. thats time away from my kids..not counting for my self anymore but my kids.

i havent been attending a lot of get togethers w my friends lately. why? #1 rest. i barely have time to rest anymore. halos wala na so as much as i would want to go out w my friends i cant. its not that i dont want to but i cant. sorry marc. sorry tin. #2 time in conjuction w #1 na din but i can usually meet up if its immediatly after my end shift but if its before..naku good luck. even if its my rd i'd rather spend it w my kids. #3 for some strange reason i dont have the stamina anymore. after taking care of 2 rumbunctious boys all day plus the neverending thankless work wla na..bottomline..wag na magtrabaho.

so its been busy busy buys

on the 18th we celebrated Inigo's 1st birthday at our favorite ice cream place Magnolia House ...errr Nestel Creamery....i'm used to calling it thge old magnolia house since that is its original name...we chose the place not just because its my happy place when I was a kid and ergo i want it to be my kids' as well but becaue their food is great and their host is very good. thank you for all those you celebrated with us


Times like these, dark times, they do funny things to people. They can tear them apart.
watched the 6th series last Wednesday at Greenhills Theatre Mall. not tht great but it was ok. dunno why people think it was pffttt

i'm not giving up...one day he'll say yes and i have it ready....

WTMB

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