Jun 5, 2004

"There's nothing lonelier than being with the wrong guy."

Remember the guy that my mom was pairing my with? The one from the states? Well, he's been sorta making me ligaw...weird huh? in this day and age, one can make ligaw over a thousand miles away...he's 34 y/o and yet he's such a romantic...he keeps on saying i love you and that I'm he's baby and he calls me just that. It's so sweet of him. And I know that he's waiting for me to tell him na I love him but I can't. I told him na I don't love him. I wasn't being cruel and he understands. I told him na I have never fallen in love with someone 6 meters away from me nor am I gonna fall in love with someone who is about an ocean away from me...but despite of that he still keeps on telling me na he loves me and that I'm his baby...such a sweetie ...but then again...i don't wanna keep his hopes up nor do I wanna put some insane idea in my head and heart that I love him just because I need to be with someone right now. Right now, my heart is off limits. Pahinga muna ako. After all the bruises, cuts, scrapes and wounds that I got, I need time to heal. When I'll be ready..my heart will know...


"Best to wait for the one you love than one who is around.
Best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone."




bloghopping...i read these..aren't they sweet aawwwww...

At Darkwinter's, blog links, she described me--errrr--my blog pala as this :

Beautiful words from an equally beautiful person. Peer through the eyes of a real romantic who seem to have fleed from love's grasp just to dip her toe in the water. Good things!


In Merry Christmas' blog, she had this to say :
Her name means beauty in French. So, I guess that says it all.




Rare Transit of Venus: June 8, 2004
Get ready for an extremely special, very rare astronomical event: On Tuesday, June 8, the silhouette of Venus will cross the disc of the Sun. It's like an extraordinary kind of eclipse -- the last time it happened was in 1882. This won't happen again until 2012, and after that not until 2117.

The Strangest Secret
"Our Changing World" Radio Transcript
By Earl Nightingale


When we say "nearly five percent of men and women achieve success" then we have to define success. The following is the best definition we've found: "Success is the progressive realization of a worthy ideal."

If a person is working toward a predetermined goal and knows where to go, then that person is successful. If a person does not know which direction they want to go in life, then that person is a failure.

"Success is the progressive realization of a worthy ideal."

Therefore, who succeeds?

The only person who succeeds is the person who is progressively realizing a worthy ideal The person who says, "I'm going to become this"… and then begins to work toward becoming it.

Have you ever wondered why so many men and women work so hard and honestly without ever achieving anything in particular? Why others do not seem to work hard at all and yet get everything? We sometimes think it is the magic touch or pure luck. We often say, "Everything they touch turns to gold." Have you ever noticed that a person who becomes successful tends to continue this pattern of success? Or on the other hand, how a person who fails seems to continually fail?

Well, the answer is simple -- those who succeed have established personal goals.

Success is not the result of making money; making money is the result of success and success is in direct proportion to our service.

Here are five steps that will help you realize success:

Establish a definite goal.
Stop running yourself down.
Do not think of all the reasons why you cannot be successful -- instead think of all the reasons why you can achieve success.
Trace your emotions back to childhood -- discover where you first got the negative idea you would not be successful -- face your fears.
Renew your self-image by writing a description of the person you want to become -- Act the part -- You are that person!
George Bernard Shaw said:

"People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they can't find them, make them."

Well, that is pretty apparent, isn't it? And every person who discovered this believed – for a while – that he was the first one to work it out. We become what we think about.

Now, it stands to reason that a person who is thinking about a concrete and worthwhile goal is going to reach it, because that's what he's thinking about. And we become what we think about.

Conversely, the man who has no goal, who doesn't know where he's going, and whose thoughts must therefore be thoughts of confusion and anxiety and fear and worry, becomes what he thinks about. His life becomes one of frustration and fear and anxiety and worry.

And if he thinks about nothing…he becomes nothing.

So decide now. What is it you want? Plant your goal in your mind. It's the most important decision you'll ever make in your entire life. All you've got to do is plant that seed in your mind, care for it, and work steadily toward your goal, and it will become a reality.

How do you begin?

First: It is understanding emotionally as well as intellectually that we literally become what we think about; that we must control our thoughts if we're to control our lives. It's understanding fully that…"as ye sow, so shall ye reap."

Second: It's cutting away all fetters from the mind and permitting it to soar as it was divinely designed to do. It's the realization that your limitations are self-imposed and that the opportunities for you today are enormous beyond belief. It's rising above narrow-minded pettiness and prejudice.

Third: It's using all your courage to force yourself to think positively on your own problems, to set a definite and clearly defined goal for yourself. To let your marvelous mind think about your goal from all possible angles; to let your imagination speculate freely upon many different possible solutions. To refuse to believe that there are any circumstances sufficiently strong to defeat you in the accomplishment of your purpose. To act promptly and decisively when your course is clear. And to keep constantly aware of the fact that you are, at this moment, standing in the middle of your own "acres of diamonds."

And fourth: Save at least 10 percent of every dollar you earn.

It's also remembering that, no matter what your present job, it has enormous possibilities – if, you're willing to pay the price by keeping these four points in mind:

You will become what you think about.
Remember the word "imagination" and let your mind begin to soar.
Courageously concentrate on your goal every day.
Save 10 percent of what you earn.
Finally, take action – ideas are worthless unless we act on them.
***

Eight Steps to Problem Solving
by: Brian Tracy

There is a simple eight step method for systematic problem solving. By solving problems in an orderly way, you can dramatically increase the power of your thinking.

First, approach the problem with the expectant attitude that there is a logical practical solution just waiting to be found. Be relaxed, calm, confident and clear in your mind.

Second, change your language from negative to positive. Instead of the word "problem," use the word "situation," Problem is a negative word while situation is a neutral word. "We have an interesting situation", is better than, "We have a problem."

The third step in systematic problem-solving is to define the situation clearly, in writing. "Exactly what is the situation?" Then ask, "What else is the situation?" Sometimes stating the problem in different words makes it much easier to solve.

Fully 50% of situations can be resolved by accurate definition.

Step number four is to, ask "What are all the possible causes of this situation?" Failure to identify the causes or reasons for the situation often causes you to have to solve it again and again. Fully 25% or more of situations can be effectively dealt with by discovering the correct causes.

Step number five is to ask, "What are all the possible solutions?" Write out as many solutions or answers to the situation as possible before moving on. The quantity of possible solutions usually determines the quality of the solution chosen.

Step number six is to "Make a clear decision." Usually any decision is better than none.

Step number seven is to "Assign clear responsibility for carrying out the decision and then set a deadline for completion and review.” Remember, a decision without a deadline is just a fruitless discussion.

Finally, step number eight is to follow-up, monitor the decision, compare actual results with expected results and then generate new solutions and new courses of action.

Now, here are two ways you can apply this technique to think more creatively.

First, state the problem clearly, in writing, so that you know exactly what it is that you are trying to solve. Ask, “What else is the problem?”

Second, develop as many solutions as you possibly can, including doing nothing, before you make a decision. Quality of ideas is in direct proportion to the quantity that you generate.

Jun 4, 2004

no choices in the horizon right now just a lonely road ahead with no sight of a friend or foe..just me...and here I am walking on this road not knowing where I am headed or where I'm going..all I know is that I'm on my way wherever my tired feet will take me...and of course, with a smile on my face...


Under the Tuscan sun:

"Life offers you a thousand chances ... all you have to do is take one." under the tuscan sun

"Frances:Do you know the most surprising thing about divorce? It doesn't actually kill you. Like a bullet to the heart or a head-on car wreck. It should. When someone you've promised to cherish till death do you part says "I never loved you," it should kill you instantly. You shouldn't have to wake up day after day after that, trying to understand how in the world you didn't know. The light just never went on, you know. I must have known, of course, but I was too scared to see the truth. Then fear just makes you so stupid.

Martini: No, it's not stupid, Signora Mayes. L'amore e cieco.

Frances: Oh, love is blind. Yeah, we have that saying too.

Martini: Everybody has that saying because it's true everywhere.
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Frances: What is it about love that makes us so stupid?
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Frances: What are four walls, anyway? They are what they contain. The house protects the dreamer. Unthinkably good things can happen, even late in the game. It's such a surprise.

Jun 3, 2004

In line with the karma topic, I'm posting an e-mail that I got from Carroll a couple of years back that I stored in my inbox for years.

The 90/10 Principle

Discover the 90/10 Principle. It will change your life (at least the way you react to situations at work and at home...)

What is this principle? 10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided by how you react. What does this mean? We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us. We cannot stop the car from breaking down. The plane be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic. We have no control over this 10%. The other 90% is different. You determine the other 90%. How? By your reaction. You cannot control a red light., but you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react. Let's use an example.

You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just happened. What happens next will be determined how you react. You curse. You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over.

She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus. Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit. After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 (traffic fine) away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started terrible. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home, When you arrive home, you find a small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daug! hter. Why? Because of how you reacted in the morning. Why did you have a bad day?

A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?

The answer is D. You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day. Here is what could have and should have happened.


Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say, "It's ok honey, you just need to be more careful next time". Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and waves. You and your spouse kiss before you go to work. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff. Your boss comments on how good the day you are having. Notice the difference? Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different. Why?

Because of how you REACTED. You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other 90% was determined by your reaction. Here are some ways to apply the 90/10 principle.

If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you! React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed out etc.

How do you reach if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your temper? Pound on the steering wheel? (A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off) Do you curse? Does your blood pressure skyrocket? Do you try and bump them? WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at work? Why let the other motorists ruin your driving? Much more you day?

Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.

You are told you lost your job. Why lose sleep and get irritated? It will work out. Use your worrying; energy and time into finding another job.

The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take out your frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over what is going on. Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger. Why get stressed out? It will just make things worse. Now you know the 90-10 principle. Apply it and you will be amazed at the results. You will lose nothing if you try it.

The 90-10 principle is incredible. Very few know and apply this principle. The result? Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress, trials, problems and heartache. There never seem to be a success in life.

Bad days follow bad days. Terrible things seem to be constantly happening. There is constant stress, lack of joy, and broken relationships. Worry consumes time. Anger breaks friendships and life seems dreary and is not enjoyed to the fullest. Friends are lost. Life is a bore and often seems cruel. Does this describe you? If so, do not be discouraged. You can be different! Understand and apply the 90/10 principle. It will change your life.

Love is like war,
Easy to begin but hard to end.
~ by Anonymous ~


THE GREATEST ADVISES

Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate.

Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr/Mrs Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr Wrong because your biological
clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won. Only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.

To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be.
Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and
dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.

Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.

It is true that life does not get easier with age. It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.

Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in your God.
Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!

Jun 1, 2004

I read in the news that a Filipina American won a Pulitzer Prize for photojournalism...I've long wanted to be a photographer. I always took note of photographs that I came across when surfing the net or browsing thru the paper or a magazine. I was in HS when I started to take pictures. I was even our HS school photographer. I had a professional nikon camera that sadly got stolen during one of our HS fairs. Bwisit. After that I stopped taking pictures. When I got my Nokia 7650, I took pictures whenever I can. You'd be amazed that some of the pictures I'll be posting were taken by my flying phone. When my dad gave me my wonderful Dc..ay naku, I started taking pictures again like a madwoman...So if you wanna see some of the pics that I took go to Joyful Wisdom

"Astrology is the best kind of general absolution. It's not your fault, it's in the stars."

Charmed's last episode in Channel 23 was about karma. Paige said that there is no spell to cleanse one's karma. That there are spells to cleanse one's aura but there is simply no spell for karma. In Cosmo Philippines' June edition, they wrote about karma, too. Last night, Jon and I talked about karma. After what happened to be, I figured out that it was my karma that's why I got hurt the way that I got hurt. It was karma why I i cried the tears that I cried. It was my past coming back to haunt me. For my exes. When I realized that a couple of months ago, I thought of ways that I could clean my karma. Sorta cleaning my slate. I made peace with Carroll. We've been friends for some time na. Even before my break up with A but we never spoke about what happened. He was the first person I spoke to when A and I broke up. He was such a friend. I never expected him to be one and and if he turned away from me then I would've understood but he didn't. We're better friends now and we can talk about anything under the sun. We text and ym almost everyday. He never fails to ask how I am and vice versa. I also made peace with the first guy who broke my heart. William. All these years I never knew why he broke up with me and recently I just found out why. I also found out why he has been trying to come back to me all these years. We're not very good friends kse I chose not to be or we really can't be close friends anymore since we're so different na but we can talk and we don't hate each other. All my anger and resentment were still there pa pala. deep seated anger and resentment towards what he did. But everything's all right now. Now I just need to make peace with Mike. He was the guy I had a relationship with years after William. I didn't love him as much as I should've. My term then was "mahal ko sya kse mahal nya ko". I dunno how to make peace with him since I dunno how to contact him. I'm just gonna pray for him nalang. Now I am more appreciative of people (but still a laitera). I am more aware of how I interact with people-if they got hurt of something that I said or did. I also try to say sorry as much as I can and thank you, too. To simple opening a door for you or saying thank you's. For Little things done done for me. For encouraging words

Hopefully I've really cleaned my slate and my karma is now leveled.

Why can't life ever be easy?


"Joy seems to me a step beyond happiness -- happiness is a sort of atmosphere you can live in sometimes when you're lucky. Joy is a light that fills you with hope and faith and love." --Adela Rogers St. Johns



This was taken from a website I chanced upon while browsing.

On 25th May 2004, fifty bottles were released into the sea off the south east coast of England near Ramsgate Maritime Museum, Kent.
The intended destination of the bottles is The Chatham Islands in the South Pacific Ocean. The islands, which are 800km east of mainland New Zealand, are the nearest
inhabited land to the precise location on the opposite side of the world to Ramsgate Maritime Museum. Each bottle contains a message from residents of Ramsgate to the residents of the Chatham Islands, a pencil, an instruction leaflet as well as details of this website.

Several of the bottles are being tracked using GPS technology and are programmed to send their longitude and latitude coordinates back to Ramsgate every hour. The data they send has been used to create a live drawing which is automatically updated in real time.

Got this from CNN: Andrew Mesta suffers a "brain freeze" on May 26 while eating ice cream and brownies as a reward for good behavior and attendance at his grade school in New Mexico

*cute nung kid in a poor way :(


Cielo, a former team mate, said that when she saw this shirt that it reminded her of me...honga! i love shoes..nope, I adore them...shoes and bag are my addictions! When I last counted I had around 37 pairs of 'active' shoes and counting....hehehehehe...my bags..ay, I'd rather not count na...


The question is not why fools fall in love. It is expected of them. When "smart" people fall in love - that's the problem.

A guy that my mom tried to set me up with before asked me the question below:

R: just wanted ask if your open for a new man in your life

I answered yes but deep inside I was still asking myself if I really was...am I? Am I really ready to go into another relationship? Am I ready to go into another relationship without the ghost of the past hanging over me? Am i ready to fall in love again? Am I ready to care about someone again? Am I ready to open myself up to a myriad of emotions again? Am I ready to open my self to getting hurt again?

Am I??? I'm not so sure...I think I'm not ready yet..my rational self says that I'm not but my lonely self says that I am...I followed my heart before and look where I ended up so this time I'm following my brain. I do not want to go into another relationship knowing that deep inside I am still in love with y-know-who. That deep inside my happy strong facade that I put up everyday, I still pine for him and wish that he is here now with me...I need to be fair to myself and to whoever it is I'm gonna be with next that I'm getting into the relationship with no excess baggage and no hang ups. Unfortunately, that time hasn't arrived yet. Here I am still trying to heal myself. Still picking up the shattered pieces of my heart. Still trying to rebuild my life and myself. I just wish that tomorrow when I wake up my love for him has totally vanished into thin air...I wish...I wish...
~o~o~o~o~o

"Someone I cared about said to me that maybe he just can't handle relationships. And
those words broke my heart. It's like hearing someone say he'll be an emotional cripple for the rest of his life because sustaining any kind of relationships be it as a friend or a lover is what makes us human. I don't believe there's "handling" a relationship as much as "building" one, do you? And then I came across these... really good reminders if we want our relationships to stay and for keeps.

1. Don't think in terms of forever. Think of now, and forever will take care of itself.
Recognize that all relationships cannot be forever. Recognize their temporary quality, but continue to act as if they are permanent.

2. Expect to invest a great deal of time and energy in your relationships. Lasting
relationships don't just happen, they are created.

3. Respect the other person's relationships apart from you. If they are important to the
one you care about, they should be important to you.

4. Never idealize others. They will never live up to your expectations.

5. Don't be afraid of giving. You can never give too much, if you're giving willingly.

6. Never force anyone to do anything for you "in the name of love." Love is not to be
bargained for.


7. Don't allow experience to harden your heart; rather use it to become more aware and sensitive.

8. Don't lose touch with the craziness in you. This, with a large dose of caring, will assure that your relationship will never be boring.

9. Don't brood. Get on with living and loving. You don't have forever.


10. Always start a relationship by asking: Do I have ulterior motives for wanting to
relate to this person? Is my caring conditional? Am I trying to escape something? Am I
planning to change the person? Do I need this person to help me make up for a deficiency in myself? If your answer to any of these questions is "Yes", leave the person alone. He or she is better off without you.

11. Keep the child in you alive and playing.

12. Divorce, fighting, arguing will never solve your problems; better to try
understanding, warmth and flexibility.

13. Stop going through life in self-pity, self-blame and "mea culpa" syndrome. We are not as bad as we think.

14. Write down all the reasons why you love each person you relate with. Then, when the
going gets tough, take the list out and reread it. It resolves problems quickly.

15. Don't be afraid of disagreements and arguments, the only people who don't argue are
people who don't care or are dead. In fact, don't have short arguments. Make certain they
are thoroughly over and done with. After an argument is over, forget it.

16. Watch out for little irritations, they grow into destructive monsters.Verbalize them
at once.

17. Let go of pride. It is usually false, creates barriers and prevents closeness.

18. Acknowledge the humanness of the other.

19. Exercise feelings. Feelings have meaning only as they are expressed in action.

20. Be compassionate. It is the sure way to understanding and acceptance.

21. See all criticism as positive for it leads to self-evaluation. You are always free to
reject it if it is unfair or does not apply.

22. Expect what is reasonable, NOT what is perfect.

23. Stop playing games. A growing relationship can only be nurtured by GENUINENESS.

24. Even though you are only half of a relationship, you must remain a whole person,
apart from the relationship.

25. Remember that moral and spiritual values don't restrict, they PROTECT.

26. What you learn about yourself will infinitely help in trying to understand others.

27. See problems as small MIRACLES which can bring about KNOWLEDGE AND CHANGE.

28. Don't allow your relationships to die of NEGLECT.


SOMEONE SAID:" Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end."

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8 Beatitudes of Single People

1. Blessed are the single people, for theirs alone is their income.

2. Blessed are those who are detached, they can go where they please, when they please.

3. Blessed are the non-couples, they shall inherit no one else's problems but their own.

4. Blessed are the uncommitted, they have no phone calls to wait for.

5. Blessed are those who do not thirst for companionship, they do not have to share the
remote.

6. Blessed are the purely unattached, for they will see what they want in a shop and go
buy it without any thought as to whether their mate will approve of the purchase. In other
words, they can indulge without guilt...

7. Blessed are those who are persecuted when Valentine's Day rolls in, they do not need
some stupid special day declared to remind them that they are happy in their present
state.

8. Blessed are you when couples walk by arm in arm on a rainy day, you are not getting
wet, they are.

~ All the BEAUTIFUL sentiments in the world weigh LESS than a single lovely ACTION.~ -in
short- Actions speak louder than words! so dont just stare --- do something about it!!!


May 30, 2004

Even Shakespeare agrees with us:

"Sigh no more ladies, sigh no more,
Men were deceivers ever,
One foot in sea and one on shore,
To one thing constant never.
Then sigh not so, but let them go,
And be you blithe and bonny,
Converting all your sounds of woe
Into hey nonny, nonny, nonny."


~William Shakespeare

I remember the days when I'd stay home all day just watching tv. My favorite channel then was Hallmark. I absolutely love their home-movies. Some of my favorites are: Arabian Nights, Alice in Wonderland, Helen of Troy, Merlin....sus! lahat na ata...what I like about their TV movies is that they do not scrimp on the (i dunnot much about movie terms) design of the movie. I mean the costumes, sets and all the background chorvaness...they also do not deviate from what the story really is. Imma history buff so whenever I watch a movie I tend to check on the "historical" foundation of the movie...one example is Queen of the Damned by Anne Rice. The book is one of my all time faves but the movie >>>>>blech<<<<< walang wenta...wasted my money when I watched it >>>>>blech<<<<<


"Frontin'"
Pharrel Williams(feat. Jay-Z)

Don't wanna sound full of myself or rude
But you ain't looking at no other dudes cause you love me
(I'm sorry but.. so sexy)
So you think about a chance
You find yourself trying to do my dance
Maybe cause you love me (Uh, you do it well)
So then we tried - singing it slow now
Because you weren't used to how fast we touched (fast we touched)
Then we locked eyes - and I knew I was in there
And I was gon' tear ya ass up (tear ya ass up)

I know that I'm carrying on, nevermind if I'm showing off
I was just frontin (you know I want ya babe)
I'm ready to bet it all, unless you don't care at all
But you know I want ya (you should stop frontin babe)

Trying to be the best girlfriend you could be
But still you sneak and look at me, and girl I love it
Then you give your other girl a show
Tell her you gon' call her ass how it was
And she's gon love it (whoa-oh whoa, yeah yeah)
So then we tried - singing it slow now
Because you weren't used to how fast we touched (fast we touched)
Then we locked eyes - and I knew I was in there
And I was gon' tear ya ass up (tear ya ass up)

[J:] We got another one Pha-real [Pharrell]
[P:] Dance, ooooooh ooooh
[J:] I call you Pha-real cause you the truest, haha, Young!
[P:] Whoa-oh, oh ohhhh
[J:] Uh, yeah
[P:] Dance, ooooooh ooooh
[J:] Yeah, lemme talk to em
[P:] Whoa-oh, oh ohhhh
[J:] I'm a keep it real

Everytime your name was brought up
I would act all nonchalant infront of an audience
Like if you was just another shorty I put the naughty on
But uh, truth be told you do me for a loop, this Hov
I'm too old to be frontin when I'm feeling Denzel
And you acting like you ain't appealing but you are
Stunting like you ain't my only girl but you are (I was just frontin)
I'm ready to stop when you are

Consider the Consequences
By: Brian Tracy

Discipline yourself to do what you know you need to do to be the very best in your field. Perhaps the best definition of self-discipline is this: "Self-discipline is the ability to make yourself do what you should do when you should do it, whether you feel like it or not."

It is easy to do something when you feel like it. It's when you don't feel like it and you force yourself to do it anyway that you move your life and career onto the fast track.

What decisions do you need to make today in order to start moving toward the top of your field? Whatever it is, either to get in or get out, make a decision today and then get started. This single act alone can change the whole direction of your life.

Six Steps to Success
There is a powerful six-step formula that you can use to set and achieve your goals for the rest of your life. Every single successful person uses this formula or some variation of this formula to achieve vastly more than the average person. And so can you. Here it is:

Decide What You Want
Step number one: Decide exactly what it is you want in each part of your life. Become a "meaningful specific" rather than a "wandering generality."

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Write It Down
Second, write it down, clearly and in detail. Always think on paper. A goal that is not in writing is not a goal at all. It is merely a wish and it has no energy behind it.

Set A Deadline
Third, set a deadline for your goal. A deadline acts as a "forcing system" in your subconscious mind. It motivates you to do the things necessary to make your goal come true. If it is a big enough goal, set sub-deadlines as well. Don't leave this to chance.

Make A List
Fourth, make a list of everything that you can think of that you are going to have to do to achieve your goal. When you think of new tasks and activities, write them on your list until your list is complete.

Organize Your List
Fifth, organize your list into a plan. Decide what you will have to do first and what you will have to do second. Decide what is more important and what is less important. And then write out your plan on paper, the same way you would develop a blueprint to build your dream house.

Take Action
The sixth step is for you to take action on your plan. Do something. Do anything. But get busy. Get going.

Do Something Every Day
Do something every single day that moves you in the direction of your most important goal at the moment. Develop the discipline of doing something 365 days each year that is moving you forward. You will be absolutely astonished at how much you accomplish when you utilize this formula in your life every single day.

Action Exercises
1. Decide exactly what you want, write it down with a deadline, make a plan and take action - on at least one goal - today!

2. Determine the price you will have to pay to achieve this goal and then get busy paying that price - whatever it is.

Since I got back to work, I've been seeing him almost everyday...glimpses here and there and my ws is near his area so I also get to hear him. bwisit. nakaka miss. pwede wag na please...+++stabbing heart motion+++...what I started doing is to make sure that I eat early (before his shift) and when I'm in the ws is to just stay there and work with music blasting in my ears so I won't hear him...

"You may have to fight a battle more than once to win."
~Dame Margaret Thatcher

So how many battles do I have to fight before I win the war? Before I am finally able to lay down al my battlegears..before I am able to put down the walls I created around me...before I am able to live in peace time? How many battles more...

On a lighter note...MJ going to Pinas???
According to NBA.COM


Jordan in Tokyo
Talking to Michael at the end of Asian tour
Philippine Basketball Association (PBA) commissioner Noli Eala has invited Michael Jordan to attend the opening of the league's 30th season in Manila on Oct. 2 in a grand ceremony as guest of honor.

I handcarried Eala's letter of invitation and personally delivered it to Jordan during a 45-minute interview arranged by Nike in a 50th floor suite at the Park Hyatt Hotel in Tokyo last Monday (May 24).

Jordan, 41, was in Tokyo for two days on the final leg of a week-long Asian tour that started in Beijing, proceeded to Hong Kong and stopped in Taiwan.

Jordan said it was his first trip to Asia in eight years and welcomed the opportunity to meet fans, the press, and retailers of his personal footwear and sports apparel brand.

"I've gotten older and bigger," said Jordan. "I hope to keep coming back to Asia, see old friends and say thanks to the fans for their support. The main purpose of the trip was to kick things off in terms of marketing our brand. In the future, we hope to bring athletes over and introduce more products. I'm doing a lot of brand work now that I'm retired. The Asian fans are great and I'm grateful that they appreciate my expertise."

In his letter, Eala told Jordan "how rabid basketball fans the Filipinos are and how much Michael Jordan is loved in the country." He said Filipinos are known to be among the most passionate Jordan and basketball fans in the whole world.

"While we may have missed out on being part of your Asian tour this time, the PBA would like you to be part of a forthcoming milestone in the rich history of Asia's first professional basketball league," said Eala.

"It is with great pride and honor that we formally invite you to be our guest of honor when the PBA opens its 30th season with a grand ceremony on Oct. 2, 2004. Your presence will not only add prestige to the occasion, it will most certainly make our opening rites the most important date in the Philippines' basketball calendar. It is our hope that you will act favorably to this invitation. Our basketball fans are just aching to let your experience the Filipino hospitality that's known the world over and shower their basketball idol with the love and adulation like no other."

With the letter, Eala sent the PBA's hard-cover, coffee-table book "The First 25 Years" and a league pin to Jordan.

Jordan was in Yokohama on the Nike Hoop Heroes tour in 1996 and said he hardly did sightseeing or shopped during the visit.

"Japan still looks the same," he said. "I was able to do some shopping this time. I bought watches for my kids, purses for my wife and I even got myself a watch."

Jordan's first public appearance in Tokyo was at the Mitake Park in the Shibuya district last Sunday afternoon (May 23). He was surrounded by about 100 fans, mostly kids, to dedicate the first outdoor basketball court in Japan.

"I hope someday one of the kids gets to play in the NBA," said Jordan. "The court is made of recycled shoes. It's a good start. It's a court for kids to play on. It's all about communities evolving."

Later that afternoon, Jordan appeared on stage with Jordan brand president Larry Miller for about 30 minutes in a media presentation at the Park Tower building beside the Park Hyatt Hotel. Jordan and Miller spoke to the press and answered questions from a Japanese announcer.

Miller said the Jordan brand, a division of Nike, reflects excellence, sophistication and confidence. "We cultivate a combination of style and sport," he said. "We are the leading edge in product design Our vision is to build a premium brand that reflects excellence on and off the court."

Jordan said he participates in the design of the products. The Air Jordan shoe series, now up to the 19th version, is the heart and soul of the product line. The 20th version is due next year and is now being worked on.

The Jordan line endorsers were personally handpicked. They include NBA stars Gary Payton, Jason Kidd, Mike Bibby, Ray Allen, Eddie Jones, Mike Finley, Derek Anderson, Quintin Richardson and Carmelo Anthony.

Before they came on stage, 15 male models paraded in a dazzling light-and-sound fashion show that unveiled the extensive Jordan line of footwear, apparel and accessories. The models walked to the beat of hip-hop music, wearing jerseys, caps, armbands, wristbands, different kinds of shoes and an assortment of lifestyle apparel for all seasons.

The next morning, Jordan met with selected members of Asian media for 45 minutes in a private suite. Korea, Malaysia, Singapore, Thailand and the Philippines were represented in the exclusive interview.

In the interview, Jordan said he knew some of the imports playing in the PBA and nodded his head when the names of Art Long, Jerald Honeycutt and Torraye Braggs were mentioned.

Jordan said "it's great for the Philippines" that NBA players find their way to the PBA. "It's all about the evolution of the game on a global basis, about raising the level of competition all over the world," he added.

Told that a PBA team tried to bring in Dennis Rodman, Jordan smiled and simply shook his head without saying a word. It was obvious what he meant.

On the possibility of a Filipino someday playing in the NBA, Jordan said it won't be easy but it can be done.

"Small players are making an impact on the game," said Jordan. "Guys who are 5-3, 5-7 and look at (Allen) Iverson, he's barely six feet tall. It's like David against Goliath There are no shortcuts to making it. You gotta believe you can do it, that you can make it happen. It'll take a lot of hard work but if you set your mind to it, you can do it."

As for more Asian players breaking into the majors, Jordan said the level of competition in the region is not like in the US. He explained that there is much so talent in the US where playing the game is more prevalent. But he pointed out that international players, especially in Europe, are improving.

Jordan said he has played with Chinese center Yao Ming and described him as "a great shooter and passer." He added that with more experience, Yao will get better and better. "I've seen him play," said Jordan. "He has improved tremendously and he's building up his knowledge. You can expect a better performance from Yao in the future."

Jordan said his parents taught him to be positive in life. He recalled being cut from his high school basketball team and bouncing back from the disappointment. "My parents taught me to turn it around," he continued. "Sure, I was disappointed but I turned the negative into a positive. It's what I tell the kids. It's okay to not succeed. But it's not okay not to try. Don't be afraid to try something. But if you don't succeed, you work harder until you do. And if that still doesn't work, maybe it's not meant to be and you try something else. The thing is you don't give up trying."

Jordan said he doesn't play the game anymore and just shoots around with his kids. "No more double-clutch and fadeaway jumpshots," he went on. "Just shooting around with my kids who love sports. Like them, I grew up with sports. Why basketball? I grew tall. I was six when I began playing baseball. As I got older, my skills were more tuned to basketball than baseball. Now, I play golf about three or four times a week. My favorite course is Augusta where they play the Masters. Will I ever be a pro golfer? No. I'm not that good."

Jordan said it's hard to imagine he's been involved in the game over 20 years.

"I can't believe it's been 20 years," he said. "It's difficult to live up to the fans expectations. It's like I'm on a pedestal. The respect I've gained was generated by the way I played. I'm thankful that I was able to play at a high level. It's given me a lot of respect and made my job now easier to promote my brand. Whatever I did on the court is how I'm respected when I stepped off. It's great to be admired, to be able to be of influence and inspire people. The advantage is I'm able to talk to kids, to people. The disadvantage is it's tough to move around, to go to movies with my family and just hang out."

Posted by Joaquin Henson - May 27 2004 11:54PM
"I get knocked down but I get up again, you ain't never gonna bring me down" Chumbawamba

After all the hullabaloo of the past months I often thought what others think of me now...do they think me weak? impulsive? martyr? stupid? tengengot? strong? Whatever they may think of me now may it be negative or positive, one thing is for sure, that I have to work double time to be able to earn people's respect again because I know that is something that I lost when I was going through my insanity stage...I have to make people believe in me again just as I am also starting to believe in myself again...


If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am



Earn the Respect of Others
By: Brian Tracy

Being respected by others is very important to each of us. A survey done by the Gallup organization found that the most prominent living Americans rated the respect of others as the most important measure of success in life. They worked very hard to earn the respect of their parents, the respect of their spouses and children, the respect of their peers and colleagues, and the respect of mankind at large.

Why You Respect Yourself
It seems that we truly respect ourselves only when we feel that we are respected by others, and we will go to great lengths to earn and keep that respect. When we feel that someone respects us for who we are and what we have accomplished, we tend to be more open to that person's influence.

Two Things You Can Do
We can do two things to put ourselves in a position to be respected by others. The first is to develop our knowledge of our field. The more people perceive you know about your subject, the more they will respect you. The highest-paid people in almost every field are those who know more than the average people. They are recognized as experts, and they develop what is called "expert power." Because of their superior knowledge, they are looked up to and listened to, and they are much more capable of influencing others to act in a particular way than they would be if their knowledge level were just average.

Know Your Business Well
The best salespeople are those who know their products cold. They deeply understand every aspect of their products and the ways in which their products can be used to achieve the most important goals of their customers.

Mary J. Blidge - Not Gon' Cry

While all the time that I was loving you
You were busy loving yourself
I would stop breathing if you told me to
Now you're busy loving someone else
Eleven years out of my life
Besides the kids I have nothing to show
Wasted my years a fool of a wife
I shoulda left your ass a long time ago

Well I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon shed no tears
No, I'm not gon cry,
It's not the time
Cuz you're not worth my tears
Well I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon shed no tears
No, I'm not gon cry,
It's not the time,
Cuz you're not worth my tears

I was your lover and your secretary
Working every day of the week
Was at the job when no one else was there
Helping you get on your feet
Eleven years of sacrifice
And you can leave at the drop of a dime
Swallowed my fears, stood by your side
I shoulda left your ass a thousand times

Well I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon shed no tears
No, I'm not gon cry,
It's not the time
Cuz you're not worth my tears
Well I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon shed no tears
No, I'm not gon cry,
It's not the time,
Cuz you're not worth my tears

I know there are no guarantees
In love you take your chances
But somehow it seems unfair to me
Look at the circumstances
Through sickness and health 'till death do us part
Those were the words that we said from our hearts
So now when you say that you're leaving me
I don't get that part

Well I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon shed no tears
No, I'm not gon cry,
It's not the time
Cuz you're not worth my tears
Well I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon cry,
I'm not gon shed no tears
No, I'm not gon cry,
It's not the time,
Cuz you're not worth my tears

.:: 150 Questions ::.


[1] What did you want to be when you were younger? a fighter pilot
[2] What's your favorite type of music? Anything that sounds good
[3] What do you spend most your time doing? surfing the net and reading and watching tv (sometimes all at the same time)

[4] Would you rather stay at home or go out? Depends...
[5] What is your favorite 'fast food' restaurant? im not so sure kfc mc donald's or wendy's
[6] What is your favorite restaurant? I don't have one
[7] Are you a farmer? Nope
[8] If you could marry anyone who would it be? someone who will love me honestly and faithfully
[9] How much do you think about the opposite sex? i hate them right now
[10] What's your favorite toothpaste? Colgate
[11] If you could go anywhere where would you go? Europe
[12] How many people do you live with? 2 ( i counted stupid dog since Imma feeling mabait today)
[13] What is your favorite sport? Badminton and Slam ball!
[14] How many kids do you want/ have? 6? i want lots of them :) sigh
[15] What are their names? they will have long names...
[16] What color lipstick do you usually wear? i werar lipgoss usually
[17] Coke or Pepsi? coke
[18] What's the last thing you bought from a Pharmacy? My anti depressants, my allergy and migraine pills
[19] Have you ever been in a wreck? Yep....
[20] When do you usually go to bed? depends what time I woke up
[21] Whats the worst thing you ever did? fell in love with someone
[22] Do you attend church? Yes
[23] How many friends do you have? I believe in quality over quantity.... I really couldn't say...
[24] What's your greatest accomplishment? Being alive!
[25] Are you afraid of the dark? No
[26] Are you bored? Not really
[27) Do you wear a lot of black? no
[28] Do you get along with your parents? Yes finally!
[29] Would you consider yourself 'popular'? nope
[30] Do you live in the country, burbs, or city? city
[31] Most painful experience? When I got my heart broken
[32] Most happy experience? that's something that I can't remember right now but Im usually happy when I'm with friends
[33] Have you ever been stalked? Yes....gggrrrrrr....
[34] Have you ever egged a house? Nope
[35] Do you go hunting (deer,duck,etc)? No
[36] Do you support P.E.D.A.? whats that??
[37] Do people think you're crazy? Most do
[38] How many people on your buddylist? i dont wanna count now
[39] Do you ever scream into a pillow? yes and cry and drool...
[40] Have you ever drowned a fish? Had the itching but no
[41] How many songs do you know all the words to? lotsa!
[42] Do you listen to The Beatles? Yes
[43] Do you listen to Eminem? just lately
[44] Do you know anyone who thinks they're Eminem? No
[45] Do you read books often? Yes
[46] Do you strive to fit in? Strive? No
[47] Fave gum? The new Orbital gum for Kids
[48] Do you snore? Yes
[49] Are you afraid of thunderstorms? yes
[50] Do you care what you look like? YEs Imma vain
[51] Is your hair color fake? Yep... right now it is
[52] When's the last time you kissed anyone? what kind of kiss?
[53] Do you 'fall in love' easily? No.... never have
[54] What's your best physical feature? Imma perfect!!!!
[55] What attracts you most to the opposite sex? Eyes, smile, how they speak, how they carry themselves...hey! im not perfrct for nothing...

[56] Are you picky about who you date? Somewhat
[57] What's your favorite cologne/ perfume? Ralph and Hawaiian ginger
[58] Do you like roller coasters? Yeah
[59] Have you ever flown in a airplane? Yes
[60] Do you have 'big' feet? for my size yes
[61] Do you wear make-up? Yeah
[62] Have you ever went bungee jumping? No
[63] Ever been to Paris? No ..i wish
[64] Do you believe in Vampires? Yes
[65] If you could become a Vampire, would you? Yes
[66] Would you call yourself normal? What's normal?
[67] Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Nope
[68] Have you ever stolen anything? Yeah
[69] Do you eat seafood? Yep
[70] Have you ever been trashed or extremely intoxicated? I dont drink
[71] Ever drove while drunk?
[72] Do you drink a lot or at all? Just sometimes , and usually with friends
[73] Have you ever lit yourself on fire? Nope
[74] How many people do you trust with your life? I can't answer that question
[75] Are you considered intelligent? perfect yes so..it follows na...
[76] Are you considered a nerd? i think so
[77] Do you talk on the phone a lot? nope
[78] How often do you take a shower? pag leap year
[79] What kind of bodywash do you use? johnson's milk bath
[80] What's your favorite candy bar?
[81] Ever blew a beverage out your nose?
[82] Do you like jaw breakers?
83] What color is your room?white
[84] What do you say a lot? squatter, kadiri, ohey, whatup
[85] What's your best personality trait?
[86] What's your worst personality trait? laitera, cry baby, i hold grudges
[87] Do you have any medical problems? yep
[88] Are you listening to anything? yes
[89] What's the last movie you've watched? ? starsky and hutch
[90] Have you ever been in a fist fight? Yeah
[91] Do you talk too much? YEs!!!!
[92] Sneakers or open-toed shoes? opem toed
[93] Can you do a cartwheel? Yep
[94] Ever been camping? Yep
[95] Shorts or jeans? shorts
[96] Double dates or just the two of you? Depends
[97] Can you rhyme well? no
[98] Have you ever belonged to a gang? no
[99] Know people who belong to a gang? yes
[100] Do you smoke cigarettes? yep
[101] Indoors or outdoors? depends
[102] Have you ever gotten beaten up? nope
[103] Do you know how to cook? little
[104] Do you know how to do laundry? Yeah
[105] When you get a pizza, how many slices do you eat? 2
[106] How much do you weigh? :P
[107] Do you consider yourself too fat/skinny? ffaatt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[108] Do you watch the superbowl? before yes
[109] What's your least favorite color? i dunno
[110] Have you ever faked being sick? Yeah
[111] Ever done something illegal? Yeah
[112] What's the longest you've stayed up? 3 days
[113] Are you afraid of dying? Yes
[114] What's your biggest regret? Lots
[115] Ever picked up a hitch hiker? No
[116] Is your name on any bathroom walls? Hope not
[117] Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? No
[118] What annoys you most? annoying people
[119] Do you have an accent? No
[120] Who is your role model? myself....imma so perfect!
[121] Do you like surprises? yes
[122] What's the ideal age to die? let you know when i reach that age
[123] Do you like to dance? inside my room yes
[124] Ever took ballet? Yep
[125] Bold or pastel colors? depends
[126] What do you normally watch on TV? AI, CSI, Monk
[127] Do you have any 'special' talents? I'm perfect na e
[128] Can you swim? Nope
[129] Can you play a musical instrument? Nope
[130] What Zodiac sign are you? Virgo
[131] Do you prefer public schools or private? Private
[132] Do you care what people think? yes
[133] Have you ever shot a gun? No
[134] What's you biggest fear? Being alone :(
[135] How many hours of sleep do you normally get? sleep? whats that???
[136] Regular ice or crushed ice? Regular if I have to
[137] Blue ink or black ink? black
[138] Are your clothes mostly loose or tight fit? depends
[139] Have any piercing? Ears
[140] Gold or silver? both
[141] What kind of shampoo/conditioner do you use? Pantene
[142] Do you blow dry your hair? No
[143] What do you sleep in? tattered shirts over pajamas
[144] Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera? britney, i guess
[145] Spiderman or Dare Devil? none
[146] Have you ever broken a bone? yes
[147] Shower or Bath? Bath
[148] Do you have an cavities? yes
[149] Have you ever wore braces? nope
[150] Would you choose true love or to be rich? tuwo-wuv!

"Shoot for the moon and even if you miss, you'll land among the stars