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Remember to bre-athe,And every-thing will be o-kay

marc "my closest guy friend" is how he described himself when he protested when I told him that he can't read my blog...was such a dear when last wednesday when he suddenly asked how I was...we had coffee and cigs during my 1 hour lunch..he went back to the office to fetch me when my shift ended at 12mn...we had our usual where are we going routine...let's go to gweilo's..marc you're driving in circles..dude, i know where i'm going...foolish you went around pa e hello sana you made daan nalang here o..see!...e..e..i hadn't decided yet that we go to gweilo's when we passed by that street e...dude, do we hafta to go there?..why you don;t want?..nope, i'm in my pambahay clothes...e me din naman e...a basta not to gweilo's...o sige where do we go..let's try if gonuts is still open..yeah right at 1230am????..let's just check nlang ok!?!?!?!..see! they're close na!....see they're close na..told you so told you so...got some cigs and gum in shell fort...o where to?..the usual triangle...greenhills-makati-forbes/fort..bahala na....next thing we know we were driving south and there i was listening to marc's singing..dude, never knew you sang well pala...there are a lot of things you dunno about me...hhmmm...y'know this is the 2nd time palang since my break up that I've been to south..whaddya mean...well after the breakup i kinda made it a rule to neve venture south...territoryo ko till makati sa kanya na ang south...ddirrtyy south...foolish...you make your world small because of him...a basta just make me kampi ok...how many times did we see each other when you guys were together...aahhmmm...once lang ata e and i think i had to ask his permission pa and that was in the office pa...why ba?...ayaw nya lang..he was jealous of me..yuh...marc snickers...come to think of it i barely or almost didn't see my guyfriends when we were together...loser!..who me? no foolish! loser ka naman tlaga e i meant him...a ok...me shuts up...san na yung mga big bottles of sodas to mark our exit...malayo pala tagaytay..how come we never noticed that before...i dunno...you watched (some scary movie)..nope i hate horror movies e i'm scaredy cat...marc then tries to scare me...marc, d'y'know that i have a very open third eye...huh?...i can hear see and feel...aaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! stop it...bwahahaha..you started it..there was this time when I saw..aargghh stop stop!....ha! backfired no...marc grumbles...arrives in tagaytay...whoa! fog's so thick..yea!drive slowly shu-MARC-er...opens moon roof...what's the difference between a moon roof and a sun roof..i dunno..then why did you get one..meron na agad dyan e..how'd you know that it's a moon roof and not a sun roof..coz that's what they said sa dealership..are you sure are you sure..argghhh!...cool ng light effects pala when there're fog..honga e...o where do we go..i dunno..back to manila...ok..can i sleep for 5 minutes?..yeah sure..o pull down the seat..ok...wakes up in shell mckinley..told u to wake me up sa expressway na shell a.. you were sleeping SOUNDLY e..i was snoring?..yeah and it was very disturbing...di nga?!?!...foolish, i was just kidding...medyo lang..slaps marc...stupid...cna we go home na..ok...text me when you're home..ok..330Am: i'm home na...thanks marc...sure...




Remember, when you're with me, it's the only time you're not the strangest person in the room. So go ahead, get weird with me. (Ally McBeal)

how are you?

kamusta ka?

kumusta na lolo mo?

ok ka lang?

HINDE!!!!! <--- understatement of the year can I die now!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

So no one told you life was gonna be this way,Your job's a joke,You're broke,Your lovelife's DOA...It's like you're always stuck in second gear...And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month or even your year...


Annus horribilis

...and its 25 days till my birthday...its obvious to everyone that I know that it hasn't been my year...i think at the end of the year I'd have my annual assessment of how my life has been so far and the only phrase that can best describe my year and ultimately my life is..ANNUS HORRIBILIS...

4 more months to go..maybe i'd fare better next year...but for now..konti tiis...punyeta..di ka pa ba tapos sa kakabato ng kung ano ano sa akin? what else what else...maybe one of these days you'd have mercy on my soul and just take me instead...who am i kidding?!?!?!

you bleed just to know you're alive...

monday afternoon found out that something happened to my dear lolo...my dear brother, Stupid Dog,didn't even tell me agad..i had to find out through my younger brother who's in the states. He suffered a mild stroke daw when he was in Tarlac (where he has a second family) and hadn't been eating for almost a week and last thursday, he asked that he be brought home to his house in San Jose (our house)...we dunno why since he was more fond of his 2nd family anyway...when he was brought home my tito's and tita's (the real ones) brought him to the hospital where he was s'posed to be confined but being the stubborn and hard headed man that he is he adamantly refused to be confined. The doctor said that he be stripped off of any "pananagutan" from my tita letty who used to be the Doctor General of Pampanga and who used to have a clinic in the same hospital before she went to New York. Must've been an funny sight since the doctor was older than my tita letty and a scant younger than my lolo lang. When I found out what happened to my lolo, i went home early tuesday morning all alone and with pequeno knowledge on how to go home. All my knowledge on commuting home is from observing on how my dad used to make hatid my lola ima sa Bus terminal. The bus terminal, I thought, would be my ticket to paradise just as long as I remember where it is pa....but Lo and behold, the terminal that used to be there had folded up na pala...so there I was not knowing where to go and what to do...aaaa! bahala na! so to cut the story short...nakarating naman ako despite the several maling nababaan and nasakyan and over charging incidents...whew!

When I arrived sa hws ng lolo ko there were 2 faces who I had never seen before but seemed awfully familiar...hhmmmm eto ata yung mga anak ng lolo ko sa 2nd family..ggrrr at paano nakatuntong yan mga yan dito!...transferred to the house of my tito...naghanap ng kakampi-este kakilala pala...i was like a kid who was making sumbong sa mommy na there were strangers in our house!...ggrrrr...my tito and titas explained who they were...aba! sa inyo pala kme pinagpalit ng lolo ko...beee! ako pa din ang favorite....hhaaayyyy..nonsense nonsense...i'm just trying to be happy here....so anyway, on with the drama...when I had ksama na, I went back to my lolo's house...he was asleep...or so i thought he was...awake na pala sya...since he was hard of hearing na and can't see na din my tita had to shout at him na I was there...my lolo's answer: "nino ita?" ...i just got stabbed and left for dead....my knees turned to jelly...tears sprung from the corner of my eyes..."nino ita?"...sino daw ako...i was the favorite apo and he couldn't even remember me...my tita had to explain who I was pa kaya he remembered me...i wanted to leave...i wanted to run...i wanted to die...but i couldn't...i had to stay and talk to him...stayed for 5 minutes lang...sandali lang i have to go...i have to gather enough strength after that just kill me nalang incident...my tita explained that of all his apos I was the only one he remembers nalang...my other cousins he couldn;t remember na tlaga...so come to think of it ako pa din pala ang favorite...i stayed the night...i wanted to stay till sunday and just call in sick nalang but the atmosphere in my lolo's house got to me...it was as if there was a deathly pall all over the place...it was so draining...the commute was tiring but the stay in my lolo's house drained all strength...thus i decided to go...i couldn't stay there...it was like waiting for death to come knowing that he is just around the corner biding his time...it's the waiting game that got to me....i had to leave...and so the next day with a heavy heavy heart I went back to Manila...again, with no knowledge on how to go back...punyeta mag strong strongan kse e!...

hafta end that story...putting my emotions and the events of the past few days just, again, drained my strength or whatever's left of it..hala sige magpakasaya ka sa mga mumo at tira tira kung may makukuha ka pa....

i just wish the real world would stop hassling me (real world, matchbox 20)

I ask everyone to please pray for my lolo

Blogger's night...

Kroc GB3...dame tao...tagal ng table...sino ba kse nag suggest ng Kroc...aahhhmmmmm...ahem ahem...finally a table..kaso the rain! the rain! transfer tables...kulang seats...kain kain...kwento kwento...still raining ng malakas...after dinner Summer had to go kse nka lunch lang pla...Dude and Ipis had to leave..may date pa sila...transferred to Segfredo with Tin, Orbital and date, aMgiNe, Radix and friend...went home around 130am...instead of going home as we planned aMgiNe and I stayed in Seattle's GB3 till 330am...kwento kwento kwento..kwento and more kwento...

Blooger's night out