"I’" going to get out of bed every morning and breathe in and out all day long. Them after a while, I won't have to remind myself to get out of bed in the morning and breathe in and out. And then after a while, I won’t have to think about how I had it great and pefect for a while" (Sleepless in Seattle)

I do not want to go back to the hellhole that I was in when all these started...I WILL NOT I WILL NOT I WILL NOT!!!!! So as the newbie master said (yes, Jon that's you!) I should learn to forget about him.

Wala akong fone.....ang hirap pala ng wlang fone..shiettttt..as Ces said "sayang yung 7650 mo. They're not worth it."

So for anyone out there who has an extra fone ...pwede pahiram... :)

Lord, give me strength...

“If you wanna kiss the sky,
better learn how to kneel.” (Bono, U2)

Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong...
it is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there...you'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a "right person" for you...and don't rush things coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you."

Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it. Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are,
and what you really want in a relationship. You're right, there's no such thing as a perfect relationship,
but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it.
If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try.
You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made.

If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it. you'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell for the rest of your life. It's really hard to say goodbye though,
but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings. Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a
much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself.

We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go.
We are wrong, it's just pity. We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life.
We misunderstood, its just that we're too much dependent to them. We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave, no one would accept us and our past. We are mistaken, its just insecurity.

But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy or beg. It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart.
You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come.
It can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it can also make you the
most miserable person in the whole galaxy...

Its official..I am back to square one...one comment and there I was bawling my eyes out...

fuck myspace and friendster!!! I'm gonna kill the loser who invented it...shit, come to think of it..mas loser ako kse I patronize it...LOSER KA BELLE...

There was a comment in myspace by a friend of THAT GIRL affected me soooo much....that I called him and while talking to him....threw my dear phone and broke it in half..so now I'm not the only one broken but also my phone that..the one that he bought me :(

The message was this:

SO SO SO SO!!! ITS MARCH 7, 2004 HUH?? HAHAHHAHAHAA.....SO YO FEELIN GOOD MAN! HAHAHAHHAHA WELL CONGRATS!!HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA I HPE GNET WNT KICK ME FOR THIS HAHAHAHHA THANX FOR THE COOKIES HAHAHA :p

The girl who posted that there was nothing going on with the other girl and A and that it was just a joke but I told her na sana the next time she thinks about other people naman before she does something like that kse nakakasakit sya...she seemed nice naman but then again she is her friend so hanggang myspace lang kme....

So now I...back to square one ako.....shit...when will this stop!!!!!!!! But its ok....just give me strength Lord. Just give me strength and I will be ok.

"In life, God doesn’t give you the people you want, instead he gives you the people you need. . . to teach you, to hurt you, to love you. . . to make you exactly the way you should be."

Today, I wasn't s'posed to go to work coz I wasn't feeling good when I woke up but when I was about to call the office, I saw my messages from other sups asking me to take care of some things...so I guess, sick or not, I have no other choice...pasok po tayo...i'm sick..tired...badly in need of sleep...emotionally and physically drained but we still have to work...I just hope that something comes out of it though...Im not asking much..I just wanna prove something to someone and of course gusto po natin ma promote....since I sacrificed another offer for this.


"I believe in the sun, even when it is not shining.
I believe in love, even when i do not feel it.
I believe in God, even when He is silent."

I miss him.... :( I haven't been crying lately except last night...I cried sa cab until I fell asleep....please...sana I won't go back to how I was before....I can't endure going through that again...this time baka maloka na tlaga ako ng tuluyan....PLEASE LORD NOT AGAIN....

SMILE by Tamia

Sometimes I sit at home and wonder how it'd be
If he had loved me
Truly loved me yes
I learned a while ago that kind of thing
Never happens for me
And so I go around
And just pretend
Loving life for me
I play the circus clown around my friends
Make them laugh and they won't see
That you never let them see you sweat
Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me

So I put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I’m laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause I’m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face

Sometimes I sit at home
By the phone hoping he might call me
But he don't call me
But then I realize
Dreams come true aren't for girls like me
Not like me
And so I go around with my head up
Like it ain't no thing
And when the boys around with all my friends
I’m into other things
Because you never let them see you sweat
Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep
Lord knows it's killing me

So I put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I’m laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause I’m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face

It’s not an easy (thing)
Sometimes it’s hard to (face the truth)
It’s not the life that I would choose (that I

would choose)
But what else can I do?
If he don’t love me
If he don’t want me
I’m not about to sit around
Let myself go

So I put on my make-up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone asks me
Everything is okay
I’m laughing cause no one
Knows the joke is on me
Cause I’m dying inside
With my pride and a smile
On my face
On my face

haaayyy so kelan ba magkakatotoo iotng horoscope ko????

When it comes to love and romance, things are definitely in your favor lately, dear Virgo.
The thing to be aware of today, however, is that there might be some manipulation on the part of someone close to you. Take care that someone else's need for freedom isn't negatively affecting your relationship in any way. Communication is key in order to maintain a healthy romance at any level.

Suicide! (and you know it, so... dont u have
something to do?)


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Sandals- peaceful, daydreamy, and thoughtful, you
often find yourself staring into space. When
you aren't out volunteering you are often just
dreaming away. You enjoy the company of
friends sometimes but enjoy peace and quiet.
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My Immortal.

Your Lyrics

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me


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How does one know when one should stop holding on and hoping for the one you love to come back????

"It's when you are the only one left in a battle. And you are the only one too eager to stay."

Just saw a pic of Vanessa's baby Van Antoinette...she is absolutely the cutest baby that I have ever seen.. ***gosh*** I WANT ONE!!!!!

I've always been vocal about wanting kids...whether biological or not it doesn't matter...I love kids...I love babies...sana nga my own pero since di pwede sana merong stork bna bigla nalang magdadala ng bata sa akin...sana kamukha ka..cute...hahahahaha feelingera...I tried asking na sa mga adoption houses pero since I'm young and single they won't allow it...kj!

Inaangkin ko na nga yung baby ni Van e...I'll post a pic once I am able to upload it...