ONCE IN A LIFETIME

Once in my life I have the chance to find
once in my life I have the chance to find

Once in a lifetime
I have the chance to find the key to my dreams
and I know, that it's so good for me

Once in a lifetime
I have the chance to find the key to my dreams
and I know, that it's so good for me

In the beginning trouble times in my life
I needed a shoulder to cry on had no direction until i met you
everything is gonna be all right looking out beyond the stars
searching always wishing often i thought that love would escape me
you got the key babe

Once in a lifetime
I have the chance
to find the key to my dreams
and I know, that it's so good for me

Once in a lifetime
I have the chance
to find the key to my dreams
and I know, that it's so good for me

I was lost couldn't find my way
you took my hand and chased my blues away
your inspiration is guiding me through
I'm feeling brand new
memories of days gone by
hurting always hurting
you've taken my pain away finally
you set me free babe

Once in a lifetime
i have the chance
to find the key to my dreams
and I know, that it's so good for me

Once in a lifetime
I have the chance
to find the key to my dreams
and I know, that it's so good for me

"The saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone and then one day you look into their eyes
and listen to them talk and realize that they are gone. All you see in front of you is a stranger with just a known name."

another lonely day...to borrow a cheesy status from one of my Ym friends "when will the hurting stop". Cheesy but true. Corny but true.

It's not trying to live everyday as if it was your last but it feels more of trying to live everyday hoping it's the last. Falling asleep crying every night (especially the last couple of days) doesn't help. Everyday my body feels drained and tired to the point that I pray that sana it's my last day na. When will the hurting stop.

In Friendster, someone sent me a message and added me as a friend. WHO? The profile: Perfect couples. Sige I-add para dumami ang friendsters natin. Nakakatawa lang considering the current situation. Eto yung message:

From: Perfect Couples
Date: January 13, 2004 3:22 AM
Subject: hi there!

Message: i've chosen you to become part of the club! add
me up perfect_couple@most-wanted.com

thanks! :)


Meian, much to my better judgement I'm posting a pic of liha. di kita yung yucky face nya pero she's still there



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Me and my favorite brother kupsie!



Trying to be bad::::::


Finally together (L-R) Tito Mandy, My dad (the eldest), Tito Rey, Tito Allan and Tito Noli

My cousin Karen and sister. posing posing

what I need right now are your prayers. do not ask why but i need them. Agnostic, unbelieving me needs all the prayers right now.

"Lord, help me walk another mile, just one more mile. I'm tired of walkin' all alone. Lord, help me smile another smile, just one more smile. I know I just can't make it on my own. I never thought I needed help before. I thought that I could do things by myself. Now I know I just can't take it any more. With a humble heart, on bended knee. I'm beggin' you, please, for help." Johnny Cash

i've been thinking a lot about resigning lately...it's this goddamn company! Well, maybe I should I have a lot of options naman e and frankly speaking money is not a problem. i can stay home and take care of the business that my parents left and at the same time take care of the house na din. Another would be to go back to school. If i go back to school naman may options ulet. It's either I take a(n) MA in Education or to continue law (this will make my dear father the happiest man or earth). Not so many people know that I took up 2 courses in College. First is Political Science and second is Seconday Education Major in English. I'm also thinking of learning another language. I already can understanf Spanish although I cannot speak it. Thanks to my lola maybe I should, this time, learn how to speak Spanish or maybe Chines since this is a language needed in the business world. duh-see-syons duh-see-syons

whew! back to reality after 4 days of rest day...if you can call it resting. natapos na din yung wedding ni stupid dog. whew! good thing my mom was there to fix everything all in 3 weeks! it was a nice and organized wedding save for some glitches. 2 didn't people who were part of the entourage didn't bother to show up or at least send word that they wouldn't be able to attend. some guests of liha wore jeans! sabe nga sa invitation FORMAL e.

i walked down the aisle twice! was that a sign? a good one or a bad one? am I destined to be a bridesmaid forever and never to be the bride or was it a precursor of things to come...


AM: Belinda
I WANT: to be happy and content
I HAVE: almost everything i'd dreamed off ((:
I WISH: peace In my heart and and for everyone else
I HATE: myself
I MISS: Adrian
I FEAR: loneliness
I HEAR: music of Anton
I SEARCH: to find my inner self
I WONDER: what i did to deserve this
I REGRET: falling in love with you.
I LOVE: everyone.
I ACHE: in my heart.
I ALWAYS: dream
I AM NOT: who you think iam.
I DANCE: whenever i feel like.
I SING: anytime i want.
I CRY: when i am hurt.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: a bitch.
I WRITE: in my journal.
I LOSE: myself in you.
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: you :(
I SHOULD: try to forget you