....friends, allow me to regress...indulge me...

its been a little over a year...when a life turning event changed my life...it changed me....

finally... a year after I am gonna say my piece...but lest the gossip mongers feast on this I tell you now that I am over "it"...it took time, yes...it took A LOT of time...but here I am over and not ever, EVER looking back...it was a year ago when I lost someone I love...someone i trusted...someone who I thought was the one...we made plans to spend our life together..oh yes we made plans...but he made plans, too..but not with me...the one person who i thought would never hurt me did just that...the one person I trusted betrayed me...

no need to go into all the nitty gritty details of that horrendous "event" no use in re-living all the pain...no use in re-living all the hurt...

"...nobody told me that you fell out of love for me
so I'm setting you free..."

that episode taught me a lot of lessons...
1. never give your trust blindingly
2. never trust Cebuanas
3. never discount your friends or forget them or let them feel that they come second best to your man
4. know who your real friends are
5. remember God even in times of happiness...
6. have faith in God and in yourself
7. your tears ...even if they seem like they will never dry up...eventually will...
8. that the male specie do get over someone really fast
9. leave a little bit of love and dignity for yourself
10. fight for someone you love if its worth fighting for
11. know when to say sorry
12. learn from your mistakes
13. learn to appreciate the simple things in life
14. love my mom no matter how she fucked up my childhood
15. when people want to leave you...let them...
16. tell people how much they mean to you
17. say thank you and sorry
18. LIVE EACH DAY AS IF ITS YOUR LAST
19. be extra nice to people...
20. never cheat or lie to anyone esp to people you love
21. be forgiving..............................

...my list can go on and on and on but those are just some of the lessons that I learned...the hard way...

My Happy Ending

So much for my happy ending

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

Can't blog muna coz my PC's sira...thank you for The King of Sablay for taking time out to go to actually set aside some time to fix my porno filled PC..sige na bati na tayo :D

o sige na nga..something to blog about lang:

I've been tagged!

Madness in Music - Tag Along

I've been tagged by Tin.

Random 10:
1. Can you help me by Usher
2. 1000 Oceans by Tori Amos
3. Blame it on my youth By Jane Monheit
4. All out to see by Jamie Mcullum
5. Karma by Alicia Keys
6. 32 Flavors
7. People are People by D'Sound
8. Here is gone
9. Comfort in your strangeness
10. Blurry



1. What is the total amount of music files on your computer?
...i dunno na...my pc's sira


2. The last CD you bought is:
Live's Greatest Hits


3. What is the last song you listened to before this message:
People are People by D'Sound

4. Write down five songs you listen to a lot or mean a lot to you:
1. Journey by Angela Zhang (Si gay kse!!!)
2. Barely Breathing
3. Selfish N'Sync
4. Love Affair (all time fave)
5. L' Vie En Rose


5. Who are you gonna pass this stick to? (3 persons and why)

Chris , Vitto, Prada Mama ---> too tamad to think of why :D