Real loss is only possible when you love something more than you love yourself.”
-Good Will Hunting
Apr 24, 2004
i am trying to help myself and I am trying to help you because I can't do it alone....
How to Help Someone Who is Feeling Suicidal
When a friend or loved one is feeling suicidal, this can be a frightening experience. There is no fool-proof formula to prevent a suicide, but the following are steps compiled from what most suicide prevention organizations recommend
Here's How:
1. Be aware of the warning signs: depression, final arrangements, giving away of possessions, sudden elevated mood, self-destructiveness, and talk of suicide.
2. Be calm and accepting.
3.Give them your full attention; show that you take their feelings very seriously. A suicide attempt is never just a ploy for attention. It is a cry for help.
4. Do not be afraid to ask if they are thinking of suicide. You are not giving them ideas that they haven't already had.
5. Ask if they have a plan and a means to carry out a suicide. Those who have a definite plan are in the most immediate danger.
6. Don't leave them alone. If you must leave, contact someone you trust to take over.
7. Listen attentively and encourage them to share what they are feeling. Allowing them to vent will lessen some of the pressure they feel inside.
8. Avoid the urge to problem-solve or offer judgment on how bad things really are. How serious the problem is is less important than how serious it feels to them.
9. Keep them talking. As they tire, they will lose momentum and be less likely to act on their feelings.
10. Offer them a reason to go on in whatever form they will accept. Love of their children, hope that they can get well, even fear of a failed suicide attempt: all can help them hang on a bit longer until they get the treatment they need.
11. Encourage them to seek professional help as soon as possible. Let them know that depression is an illness and that it is very treatable. Help them make arrangements and take them to their appointment if necessary.
12. If you feel they are in immediate danger, don't hesitate to the emergency number in your area. It is not a betrayal of friendship to get your loved one help. They may feel angry at the time, but this will pass.
Tips:
There is no right or wrong thing you can say. Just be yourself.
Seek support for yourself afterwards to talk about your own feelings.
Places you can take a suicidal person for help: a crisis center, ER, mental health center, or their own psychiatrist or family doctor.
What do people who feel suicidal want?
Someone to listen. Someone who will take time to really listen to them. Someone who won't judge, or give advice or opinions, but will give their undivided attention.
Someone to trust. Someone who will respect them and won't try to take charge. Someone who will treat everything in complete confidence.
Someone to care. Someone who will make themselves available, put the person at ease and speak calmly. Someone who will reassure, accept and believe. Someone who will say, "I care."
What do people who feel suicidal not want?
To be alone. Rejection can make the problem seem ten times worse. Having someone to turn to makes all the difference. Just listen.
To be advised. Lectures don't help. Nor does a suggestion to "cheer up", or an easy assurance that "everything will be okay." Don't analyze, compare, categorize or criticize. Just listen.
To be interrogated. Don't change the subject, don't pity or patronize. Talking about feelings is difficult. People who feel suicidal don't want to be rushed or put on the defensive. Just listen
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Ambivalence is a marked feature of a suicidal person. Many don't want to die, but simply want a way to escape an unbearable situation.
How to Help Someone Who is Feeling Suicidal
When a friend or loved one is feeling suicidal, this can be a frightening experience. There is no fool-proof formula to prevent a suicide, but the following are steps compiled from what most suicide prevention organizations recommend
Here's How:
1. Be aware of the warning signs: depression, final arrangements, giving away of possessions, sudden elevated mood, self-destructiveness, and talk of suicide.
2. Be calm and accepting.
3.Give them your full attention; show that you take their feelings very seriously. A suicide attempt is never just a ploy for attention. It is a cry for help.
4. Do not be afraid to ask if they are thinking of suicide. You are not giving them ideas that they haven't already had.
5. Ask if they have a plan and a means to carry out a suicide. Those who have a definite plan are in the most immediate danger.
6. Don't leave them alone. If you must leave, contact someone you trust to take over.
7. Listen attentively and encourage them to share what they are feeling. Allowing them to vent will lessen some of the pressure they feel inside.
8. Avoid the urge to problem-solve or offer judgment on how bad things really are. How serious the problem is is less important than how serious it feels to them.
9. Keep them talking. As they tire, they will lose momentum and be less likely to act on their feelings.
10. Offer them a reason to go on in whatever form they will accept. Love of their children, hope that they can get well, even fear of a failed suicide attempt: all can help them hang on a bit longer until they get the treatment they need.
11. Encourage them to seek professional help as soon as possible. Let them know that depression is an illness and that it is very treatable. Help them make arrangements and take them to their appointment if necessary.
12. If you feel they are in immediate danger, don't hesitate to the emergency number in your area. It is not a betrayal of friendship to get your loved one help. They may feel angry at the time, but this will pass.
Tips:
There is no right or wrong thing you can say. Just be yourself.
Seek support for yourself afterwards to talk about your own feelings.
Places you can take a suicidal person for help: a crisis center, ER, mental health center, or their own psychiatrist or family doctor.
What do people who feel suicidal want?
Someone to listen. Someone who will take time to really listen to them. Someone who won't judge, or give advice or opinions, but will give their undivided attention.
Someone to trust. Someone who will respect them and won't try to take charge. Someone who will treat everything in complete confidence.
Someone to care. Someone who will make themselves available, put the person at ease and speak calmly. Someone who will reassure, accept and believe. Someone who will say, "I care."
What do people who feel suicidal not want?
To be alone. Rejection can make the problem seem ten times worse. Having someone to turn to makes all the difference. Just listen.
To be advised. Lectures don't help. Nor does a suggestion to "cheer up", or an easy assurance that "everything will be okay." Don't analyze, compare, categorize or criticize. Just listen.
To be interrogated. Don't change the subject, don't pity or patronize. Talking about feelings is difficult. People who feel suicidal don't want to be rushed or put on the defensive. Just listen
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Ambivalence is a marked feature of a suicidal person. Many don't want to die, but simply want a way to escape an unbearable situation.
Emotionally you're an idiot.
Almost didn't make it last wednesday...almost didn't...I almost lost it if it weren't for my persistent friends and for the prayers of everyone...i already disconnected the phonelines...made sure I was alone...fixed my stuff...wrote my goodbye letter...prayed the rosary and 300 "souls in the purgatory prayer"...and I asked God for forgiveness...until someone made a desperate attempt to reach out to me...God bless his soul ( and mine na din...)...I was crying and crying the whole night...asking God to take away the pain and the hurt...bargaining with him that if he does I'd be a good girl for the rest of my life...and he did. just for that night lang naman, he took away the hurt because he made me sleep and the next thing I know I had the sun in my face...
That episode was my cry for help...it means that I really don't want to die but I need help...it means na i want to die because the pain and hurt was so unbearable........and because I feel that I am already a burden to everyone...an emotional vampire...and i never want that to happen...it means na...i need help because I can't help myself
"Sometimes an attempted suicide is, in effect, a cry for help. And surely family members and friends want to do the right thing for the one who has lost hope. Of course, it will not help to use expressions such as: "Stop feeling sorry for yourself," "A lot of people are worse off than you are" or, "All of us have a bad day now and then." Instead, why not be a real friend and a good listener? Yes, try to help the despondent one to see that life is worth living.
French author Voltaire wrote: "The man who, in a fit of melancholy, kills himself today, would have wished to live had he waited a week." Well, then, how can people in despair discover that life is worthwhile?
"Suicide is not about dying, it's about stopping pain,"
In the future...if this happens again...say a prayer for me...whenever you have time..say the Souls in the purgatory prayer..you never know..It might be my soul you're helping.....
"ETERNAL REST GRANT TO THEM, O, LORD AND PERPETUAL LIGHT SHINE UPON THEM."
*******
I will dedicate and sacrifice my every thing for just a second's worth to find my story's ending.
And I wish I could know the directions that I take,and all the choices that I make,
will end up all for nothing.
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Is it something more than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Help me carry on.
Show me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
to navigate the darkness.
You'll be ending me, if I come in suddenly.
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.
Is it something more
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.
So when the hell will I know (know know know know know know...).
How much further do I have to go?
And how much longer 'til I finally know?
'Cause I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me,
in front of me!
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Is it something more than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer
Almost didn't make it last wednesday...almost didn't...I almost lost it if it weren't for my persistent friends and for the prayers of everyone...i already disconnected the phonelines...made sure I was alone...fixed my stuff...wrote my goodbye letter...prayed the rosary and 300 "souls in the purgatory prayer"...and I asked God for forgiveness...until someone made a desperate attempt to reach out to me...God bless his soul ( and mine na din...)...I was crying and crying the whole night...asking God to take away the pain and the hurt...bargaining with him that if he does I'd be a good girl for the rest of my life...and he did. just for that night lang naman, he took away the hurt because he made me sleep and the next thing I know I had the sun in my face...
That episode was my cry for help...it means that I really don't want to die but I need help...it means na i want to die because the pain and hurt was so unbearable........and because I feel that I am already a burden to everyone...an emotional vampire...and i never want that to happen...it means na...i need help because I can't help myself
"Sometimes an attempted suicide is, in effect, a cry for help. And surely family members and friends want to do the right thing for the one who has lost hope. Of course, it will not help to use expressions such as: "Stop feeling sorry for yourself," "A lot of people are worse off than you are" or, "All of us have a bad day now and then." Instead, why not be a real friend and a good listener? Yes, try to help the despondent one to see that life is worth living.
French author Voltaire wrote: "The man who, in a fit of melancholy, kills himself today, would have wished to live had he waited a week." Well, then, how can people in despair discover that life is worthwhile?
"Suicide is not about dying, it's about stopping pain,"
In the future...if this happens again...say a prayer for me...whenever you have time..say the Souls in the purgatory prayer..you never know..It might be my soul you're helping.....
"ETERNAL REST GRANT TO THEM, O, LORD AND PERPETUAL LIGHT SHINE UPON THEM."
*******
I will dedicate and sacrifice my every thing for just a second's worth to find my story's ending.
And I wish I could know the directions that I take,and all the choices that I make,
will end up all for nothing.
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Is it something more than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Help me carry on.
Show me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
to navigate the darkness.
You'll be ending me, if I come in suddenly.
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.
Is it something more
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.
So when the hell will I know (know know know know know know...).
How much further do I have to go?
And how much longer 'til I finally know?
'Cause I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me,
in front of me!
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Is it something more than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer
Just a clarification re: the YM conversation that I posted. My tone was angry and hurt because for 2 weekends he was always "cannot be reached". No explanation was given to me as to why every weekend he would be supposedly asleep and cannot answer the phone. For 2 weeks. Imagine worrying about someone for 2 weeks and he did not even deign to give me any plausible explanation as to where he was basta he was asleep or he was sick and did not hear the phone...how could someone be sick enough to not answer the phone but can go to work??? Mas mahirap ata pumasok kesa sumagot ng telepono...
Apr 21, 2004
Lord, help me walk another mile, just one more mile. I'm tired of walkin' all alone.
Lord, help me smile another smile, just one more smile. I know I just can't make it on my own. I never thought I needed help
before. I thought that I could do things by myself. Now I know I just can't take it any more. With a humble heart, on bended knee. I'm beggin' you, please, for help.
Lord, help me smile another smile, just one more smile. I know I just can't make it on my own. I never thought I needed help
before. I thought that I could do things by myself. Now I know I just can't take it any more. With a humble heart, on bended knee. I'm beggin' you, please, for help.
Apr 20, 2004
EXORCISE ALL MY GHOSTS:
braveheart0731: hon
braveheart0731: uy
braveheart0731: pansinin mo naman ako
braveheart0731: :(
braveheart0731: alis na ako
braveheart0731: i love you
braveheart0731: i hope that you can forgive me for the silliness that i've done
braveheart0731: i very sorry for insulting and hurting you
braveheart0731: i really am
braveheart0731: i hope we can talk
braveheart0731: please take care
braveheart0731: i love you
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braveheart0731: hon
braveheart0731: how r u na?
braveheart0731: i want to talk
braveheart0731: pansinin mo naman ako please
hundun1124: i'm sorry but i'm done talking
braveheart0731: we haven't talked yet
braveheart0731: all that you did was to give up on me
braveheart0731: i didn't do anything to hurt you
hundun1124: i tried to but you hid
hundun1124: that's enough
braveheart0731: i didn't hide or intentionally not answer your calls
braveheart0731: i was very sick
braveheart0731: and am still sick
hundun1124: o yeah right
braveheart0731: hindi ba ako pwede magkasakit
braveheart0731: ?
braveheart0731: hindi ba ako makatulog kasi may sakit ako
braveheart0731: ?
hundun1124: o yeah you WERE sick
braveheart0731: I am not making excuses
hundun1124: i called 2x sa hotel, sa cell mo, sa ofc cell
braveheart0731: yes i know
braveheart0731: that's why i texted you agad when i woke up kanina around 3am
braveheart0731: bec i knw you were worrying
braveheart0731: i didn't call na coz i was thinking that it was already late and you could already be sleeping
braveheart0731: m sure you were not already in the mood to talk
braveheart0731: i let the day pass coz i knw that you're angry at me
braveheart0731: and i wanted to make sure that we can talk na hindi ka na masyado galit
braveheart0731: i was sick and still am
braveheart0731: i forced myself to go to work lang coz 3 lang kame sa GY tonight
braveheart0731: i barely eat bec wala akong gana and panlasa
braveheart0731: i hope you can forgive me
braveheart0731: please understand
braveheart0731: i wasn't doin anything foolish, and i never want you to get hurt
braveheart0731: please hear me out
braveheart0731: m sorry for making you worry last night
braveheart0731: i didn't mean to
hundun1124: of course we never mean anything right?
hundun1124: but we still do it
hundun1124: pero we don't mean it
braveheart0731: i was sleeping
braveheart0731: i can't stand up hanggang kaninang hapon
braveheart0731: m at work right now bec i drank yung energy drink ko
braveheart0731: so ast makayanan ko lang at least to sit up straight
braveheart0731: and try to finish kung ano lang kaya ko
braveheart0731: please believe me
braveheart0731: please
braveheart0731: i know that you're having a hard time trusting and believing me, but please try
braveheart0731: i won't waste our relationship because you are important to me
braveheart0731: i need you
braveheart0731: and i love you
braveheart0731: please believe me
hundun1124: you just wasted it
hundun1124: you had enough energy to go to work but you couldnt pick up the phone
braveheart0731: i was so sick and was sleeping the whole evening
braveheart0731: i didn't intend not to pick up the phone
braveheart0731: please naman believe me
braveheart0731: if i heard that you we're calling, then i would have answered
braveheart0731: i am not making any excuses
hundun1124: how can you hear me calling when you turned off your phone?
braveheart0731: i didn't turn off my phone
braveheart0731: my battery went dead
braveheart0731: ikaw din naman namamatayan ng phone
hundun1124: how can you not hear me calling when i called your hotel phone and you disconnected me?
braveheart0731: imposible ba yun na mawalan ako ng battery?
braveheart0731: i didn't hear any calls
braveheart0731: i never picked up my hotel room phone
braveheart0731: what time did you call ba?
hundun1124: ask the receptionist
braveheart0731: i already slept when we last talked on the cellphone til 3am kanina
braveheart0731: i didn't pick up the phone bec i didn't hear any calls
hundun1124: akala ko ba alam mo
braveheart0731: you texted me na you called and i saw your missed calls sa 2 phones
braveheart0731: i am not throwing our relationship away just like that belle
braveheart0731: and m not gonna make you end it
braveheart0731: i want to live the life that i wanted for us
braveheart0731: and m not goin to waste it
hundun1124: too late
braveheart0731: y did you disconnected my call
braveheart0731: look
braveheart0731: i need you to believe me
braveheart0731: please
braveheart0731: you have to
braveheart0731: please talk to me
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hundun1124: bye
braveheart0731: hey
braveheart0731: i want to talk to you
braveheart0731: hindi mo naman sinasagot tanong ko e
braveheart0731: can we talk?
braveheart0731: please
hundun1124: what for
braveheart0731: ayaw mo na ba sa akin?
hundun1124: y?
braveheart0731: dahil may sakit ako and wasn't able to answer you call?
braveheart0731: i don't want to lose you
hundun1124: your actions speak otherwise
hundun1124: you're losing me everyday
braveheart0731: at bakit?
braveheart0731: ano ba ginagawa ko
braveheart0731: ?
hundun1124: anong at bakit?
braveheart0731: what did i do ba?
hundun1124: nothing
braveheart0731: ayaw mo naman pag-usapan
braveheart0731: how can we ever make this work
braveheart0731: how can i avoid hurting you?
hundun1124: nothing works
braveheart0731: if you don't wont lemme know
braveheart0731: you always give up easily
braveheart0731: ayaw mo ako bigyan ng chance
braveheart0731: you think that im a hopeless case
hundun1124: chance to what?
hundun1124: to hurt me?
braveheart0731: a chance to make our relationship work
hundun1124: that's it! nothing works
braveheart0731: can't we try to make it work?
hundun1124: what work?
braveheart0731: our relationship
braveheart0731: i want it to work out
hundun1124: why?
hundun1124: for what?
braveheart0731: because you are important to me
hundun1124: i dont think so
braveheart0731: bakit mo naman nasabi yun?
hundun1124: you have double standards when it comes to our relationship i cannot do the things that you dont want me to do while you can
hundun1124: your work is more important than me
braveheart0731: hindi ba kapanipaniwala na may sakit ako now and i was not able to answer your call
braveheart0731: my work is not important compared to you
hundun1124: that just comes second to the actual issue
braveheart0731: i came here bec i want to have a better future for us
hundun1124: so you'd have a better life
braveheart0731: i want a better life for us
hundun1124: you can do better w/o me
braveheart0731: paano mo naman nalaman?
hundun1124: your life will be better w/o me
hundun1124: you can do the things that you wnt to do w/o me
braveheart0731: but then i can't say that i have a life w/out you
hundun1124: u dont need me
hundun1124: you never did
hundun1124: i never felt that you needed me
braveheart0731: so everything is nothing pala
braveheart0731: for you
hundun1124: i love you and you are my life
braveheart0731: i love you too
hundun1124: you know that
braveheart0731: and i can't go on without you
braveheart0731: lemme know when you're ready to talk
hundun1124: but you will never need me
braveheart0731: l be waiting
hundun1124: i was ready to talk then
hundun1124: but not now
braveheart0731: if i didn't need you, nor wanted you then i wouldn't be taking an extra mile to explain to you what happened
braveheart0731: i was sick
braveheart0731: and m sorry if i was not able to answer your call
braveheart0731: i really am
braveheart0731: i was not making ganti or sumtn
braveheart0731: i didn't hear your call wen i was asleep
braveheart0731: that's it
braveheart0731: i know you're hurt and tired
braveheart0731: just lemme know wen you want to talk
braveheart0731: m not soliciting pity from you but i wan't you to know that i've been sick since the weekend.
braveheart0731: take care hon
braveheart0731: i really miss you
braveheart0731: remember that i love you
hundun1124: i know
hundun1124: and it hurts
braveheart0731: It shouldn't hurt lalo na if you know
hundun1124: if i know what?
braveheart0731: that i love you so much
hundun1124: it hurts because you do
hundun1124: and because i do
hundun1124: i want to say goodbye na but i can't
hundun1124: because i need you even if you dont
braveheart0731: don't you do that
hundun1124: because you're my life even if i'm not
braveheart0731: i don't want to lose you
braveheart0731: you are my life hon
braveheart0731: i just need to make this move for our future
braveheart0731: if you weren't my life then i wouldnt be making sacrifices for us
braveheart0731: i would not even bother
braveheart0731: this not a comfortable situation
braveheart0731: bein away from you
braveheart0731: and its so hard
braveheart0731: i don't want to part ways with you
braveheart0731: not now
braveheart0731: not ever
hundun1124: we have to
braveheart0731: please hear me out
braveheart0731: we don't have to
braveheart0731: you know that
hundun1124: ill talk to you latet
hundun1124: later
hundun1124: my sisted is sleepy na
braveheart0731: where is she?
hundun1124: and wants to go home
braveheart0731: sige
braveheart0731: text me na lang so i can call you
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summerwells_18: hey
hundun1124: hey
summerwells_18: san ka nagpunta kahapon>
hundun1124: wala sa hws lang
summerwells_18: e ano yung ni text mo?
hundun1124: aids asked where i was and i told him i was with you
hundun1124: and sabe ko di na ill leave muna and if he wants to reach me to text you and kaje
summerwells_18: sos
summerwells_18: o, ano nang nangyari?>
hundun1124: wala
hundun1124: he needs time off daw tlaga
hundun1124: you read my blog
summerwells_18: yuh
summerwells_18: tsk..tsk...haay
summerwells_18: crying ladies indeed
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: you'll be able to sort it out...
hundun1124: parang hindi na ata e
summerwells_18: well at least be ready for anything taht'll happen...it's either you reconcile wit him or now
hundun1124: yeah i know
summerwells_18: not apla
hundun1124: sana we get back together
hundun1124: sana
summerwells_18: sana
summerwells_18: que sera sera
hundun1124: because i dunno na tlaga what ill do if hinde
summerwells_18: sos...you'll survive if ever mangyari ang ayaw mo
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: *hugs*
hundun1124: tangina
hundun1124: ganito ko pala sya kamahal
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: yuh
summerwells_18: tignan mo..
summerwells_18: haay
hundun1124: mei, honestly, di ko tlaga alam
summerwells_18: i know..and it's doubly hard coz he's not here
hundun1124: babalik sya this sat
summerwells_18: yun nga
hundun1124: pero di ata kme magkikita
summerwells_18: but i bet you can't wait til then
hundun1124: next thursday kme maguusap
summerwells_18: nyarks
summerwells_18: bakit?
hundun1124: kse yung yung restd day namin
hundun1124: pareho
hundun1124: same rest day na kme
hundun1124: tapos balak ko pa mag gy na din para makasam sya tapos ganito pa nangyaro
hundun1124: yari
hundun1124: shiyet
summerwells_18: huwat?
hundun1124: lahat ng guys na nakakausap ko sinasabi na mlamang pawala na din
summerwells_18: kulang kulang ang mga words mo
hundun1124: sabe ko balak ko mag gy
summerwells_18: kase ang mga guys..once they say na they want a cool off..tagal na nilang iniisip yun
hundun1124: para makasama sya tapos ganito pa nangyari
hundun1124: tagal nila iniisip na makikipag cool off or tagal nila iisipin if babalikan pa ako
hundun1124: kita kme ni kaje later
summerwells_18: first one. ang mga guys kase..hindi sila pabugsu bugso mag decide
summerwells_18: kita kayo?
summerwells_18: what time?
hundun1124: di nya pa alam pero i need a cheerleader
hundun1124: 2am daw
hundun1124: sama ka?
summerwells_18: huwat?!?!
summerwells_18: madaling araw yun eh
summerwells_18: what time's yer off?
hundun1124: during her lunch
hundun1124: 130am
summerwells_18: sa friday morning na lang u want?
summerwells_18: diba off mo ng friday?
hundun1124: yuh
summerwells_18: gusto mo magkita? magbadminton or something..after kase ng shift namen ng thurs. we play badminton. but i can make room for you
hundun1124: nye make room lang for me e for sure iyakan blues yun
summerwells_18: ok lang
summerwells_18: minsan lang naman tayo mag bonding eh
summerwells_18: ehehehe
summerwells_18: i can drop the badminton game so we can meet up. have coffee or sumthin
hundun1124: balak ko kse lumayas muna
hundun1124: lumayo
hundun1124: baka sa lolo ko or subic
summerwells_18: wait...kelan?
summerwells_18: leave ka na ba this weekend?
hundun1124: i dunno
hundun1124: di pa nga ko nakakapag paalam e
summerwells_18: mag paalam ka na kaya
hundun1124: tapos ayaw pa ako payagan mag leave
summerwells_18: nyarks
hundun1124: nagpaalama
hundun1124: nagpaalam
hundun1124: ayaw kse they know what happened
summerwells_18: patay
summerwells_18: kase pag nagabsent ka lam nila na wala kang sakit nun
hundun1124: oo nga e
hundun1124: honestly you think babalik pa yun
summerwells_18: si aids..kung babalik sayo?
hundun1124: yes
summerwells_18: i honestly dunno
summerwells_18: but i hope you two clear things out
hundun1124: SHES NOT HERE
hundun1124: BELINDA IS IN THE TOILET
hundun1124: CRING
hundun1124: CRYING
hundun1124: ARE YOU HER FRIEND?
hundun1124: ARE YOU NEAR OUR OFFICE LANG?
summerwells_18: yes i'm her friend
summerwells_18: i'm in ortigas
summerwells_18: but i'll ring a friend in makati to meet up w/ belle
hundun1124: OKAY
hundun1124: SHE'S A BIT BETTER NOW BUT WE DON'T WANT HER TO GO HOME ALONE
summerwells_18: alright
summerwells_18: thanks
hundun1124: SINO YUNG FRIEND?
summerwells_18: she's supposed to meet up w/ r friend at arnd 230am but i texted her to see belle kagad.
hundun1124: HELLO,
summerwells_18: yes po
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW IF PARATING NA YUNG FRIEND NYO?
hundun1124: SHE'S BETTER NOW
summerwells_18: she'll meet up with bel around 2am
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW IF BELINDA ALLERGIC TO ANY MEDICINE?
summerwells_18: why you are asking?
hundun1124: THE NURSE WANTS TO GIVE HER SOME MEDICINES TO CALM HER DOWN
hundun1124: IM TRYING TO CONTACT AIDS BUT HE'S NOT RESPONDING?
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW?
summerwells_18: and what will aids do if you call him? he's in cebu
hundun1124: BAKA ALAM NGA LANG
hundun1124: THE NURSE DOESNT WANT TO GIVE HER ANY MEDICINE BEFORE NYA DAW MALAMAN KUNG MAY ALLERGY SYA TO SOMETHING
hundun1124: SHIT IM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE
hundun1124: ..NO NOT YOU
hundun1124: HIM!
summerwells_18: i know..i wanna wring his neck also
hundun1124: MATIGAS DIN PALA ULO NI BELS
summerwells_18: don't let her drink anything yet. i'm pushing r friend to hurry up and meet up with belle already
hundun1124: WHERE WILL THEY MEET SO WE CAN BRING HER THERE?
summerwells_18: shit! i have no idea...wait alng
hundun1124: NURSE SAID THAT BELS HAS MIGRAINE HISTORY
summerwells_18: r friend doesn't know also
summerwells_18: san kaya sila pede mag meet
summerwells_18: sa pbcom manggaling yung friend namen
hundun1124: WE CAN BRING HER DOWN SA FRONT NG BUILDING NAMIN
hundun1124: SAN YUN?
hundun1124: A ALAM KO NA
hundun1124: SA FRONT NG BUILDING NAMIN
hundun1124: NEAR THE JOLLYJEEP?
summerwells_18: sa likod daw. sa valero. likod ng pbcom
hundun1124: SA CORNER?
summerwells_18: yes po
hundun1124: SA PBCOM TLAGA?
hundun1124: NA BUILDING A
summerwells_18: yup
hundun1124: SORRY MAKULIT AKO
hundun1124: KSE MAHABA YUNG AREA
summerwells_18: as in yung pbcom daw
hundun1124: OK
hundun1124: WE'LL BRING HER THERE NA
hundun1124: SANA LANG SUMUNOD SA AMIN
summerwells_18: naku!
hundun1124: DI NA SYA BINIGYAN NG MEDS NG NURSE KSE DI DAW ATA PWEDE E
summerwells_18: sabihin nyo kikitain na sha ni kaje
hundun1124: SORRY A AT BOBITA YUNG NURSE NURSAN NAMIN
summerwells_18: hahaa
summerwells_18: ok ang
summerwells_18: my friend will be at the lobby of pbcom at exactly 2
hundun1124: OK
hundun1124: THANKS SUMMERWELLS_18
summerwells_18: thanks for taking care of belle
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cesxy: ok will do
cesxy: lemmo know too ayt
cesxy: hehe
cesxy: mamaya pa ko mga 830 e
hundun1124: ok
hundun1124: sorry im not so uppity today
cesxy: y? wuz goin on? aids?
hundun1124: yep
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: di na kme ata
cesxy: omg! y? wat happened?
hundun1124: tampuhan that led to one thing and another......
cesxy: so sino nakipagbreak or nagpahiwatig? sino mas galit?
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: sya. wala naman galit but sabe nya time to think daw
cesxy: naku! :-O
hundun1124: cool off daw muna for lack of a better term
hundun1124: told him na i though he doesnt belive in that
hundun1124: but sabe nya because im that important to him that he just wants time to think daw muna
cesxy: shit
cesxy: naku
cesxy: naiiyak ka?
cesxy: ang tanga ng tanong ko sori
hundun1124: yep
cesxy: do u feel da same?
hundun1124: im trying not to
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: that i want time to think-yes but not to the point of breaking up
cesxy: bel basta sabay tayo mamaya. if uw ant i lunch mo na din un
cesxy: shux
hundun1124: si tiny kanina napaiyak ako kse nag joke sya baout me having aids
cesxy: i know exactly how u feel...
cesxy: hahaha sori natwa ko
hundun1124: nadyahe na ata sya kaya biglang umalis
hundun1124: :))
cesxy: hehe
cesxy: hug kita now
hundun1124: thanks
cesxy: shit if ders anythin i can do...
cesxy: sori bel a
hundun1124: its ok :|
cesxy: naglunch ka na ba?
hundun1124: not yet
cesxy: gusto mo sabay nalang tayo ng mga 830?
cesxy: or 15 mo lang un
hundun1124: pwde 9?
cesxy: ok
cesxy: kung di ko na matiis, mauna na ko
cesxy: atleast nagoverlap
cesxy: now na
hundun1124: ok
cesxy: break?
cesxy: 15
cesxy: yosi?
hundun1124: i cant e
hundun1124: later
hundun1124: pwede?
cesxy: ay lapit na ko endshift e
cesxy: sori
hundun1124: you there
cesxy: sup?
hundun1124: potangina!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
hundun1124: sabe ni anton may 3rd party daw ata
cesxy: OMG!
cesxy: y?
cesxy: how?
cesxy: i mean howd he know?
cesxy: ill go there
cesxy: wait
hundun1124: galing syang cebu
cesxy: im fishing info from itos
cesxy: ok lang?
cesxy: bel!
cesxy: read this
cesxy: ces: u der?
itos: nope
itos: heheheheces: baliw!
itos: sup dawg?
ces: have a question
cesxy: itos: what?
ces: tagal ka ba cebu da last time u went there?
itos: i just got back this morning
ces: hmmm...
itos: why?
ces: wait lang mamaya ko na kaw tanong abt wat happened to u and ur girl....
hundun1124: sorry was talking to anton
hundun1124: o ano daw?
hundun1124: aids and him are friends
cesxy: wala
cesxy: wait
cesxy: ill send it to u
hundun1124: you sent it na?
cesxy: wait
cesxy: ces: do u know aids?
ces: forcedesk?
itos: yup
ces: quiet ka lang pls
itos: ok
ces: did u see him wit anyone wen u wer there?
ces: be honest pls
itos: he was with me. why?
ces: with u lang?
itos: why?
ces: do u know if he's hooking up wit anyone
ces: pls keep this to urself
itos: ok, why? whats up?
ces: pls itos if u know anything spill
itos: why whats wrong?
ces: cuz his girl heard of som shit
itos: what?
ces: infidelity
ces: hehe
cesxy: ces: cmon itos
ces: so wat?
ces: meron no?
itos: wala dude
ces: u swear?!
itos: yup
ces: not dat u know of
ces: or wala talaga
ces: sori kulit
itos: wala dude, he's with me all the time
ces: ok cool
ces: THANKS ITOS!
hundun1124: is he telling the truth?
hundun1124: would you know if he is?
cesxy: yep
hundun1124: thanks ces
hundun1124: i owe you
braveheart0731: hon
braveheart0731: uy
braveheart0731: pansinin mo naman ako
braveheart0731: :(
braveheart0731: alis na ako
braveheart0731: i love you
braveheart0731: i hope that you can forgive me for the silliness that i've done
braveheart0731: i very sorry for insulting and hurting you
braveheart0731: i really am
braveheart0731: i hope we can talk
braveheart0731: please take care
braveheart0731: i love you
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braveheart0731: hon
braveheart0731: how r u na?
braveheart0731: i want to talk
braveheart0731: pansinin mo naman ako please
hundun1124: i'm sorry but i'm done talking
braveheart0731: we haven't talked yet
braveheart0731: all that you did was to give up on me
braveheart0731: i didn't do anything to hurt you
hundun1124: i tried to but you hid
hundun1124: that's enough
braveheart0731: i didn't hide or intentionally not answer your calls
braveheart0731: i was very sick
braveheart0731: and am still sick
hundun1124: o yeah right
braveheart0731: hindi ba ako pwede magkasakit
braveheart0731: ?
braveheart0731: hindi ba ako makatulog kasi may sakit ako
braveheart0731: ?
hundun1124: o yeah you WERE sick
braveheart0731: I am not making excuses
hundun1124: i called 2x sa hotel, sa cell mo, sa ofc cell
braveheart0731: yes i know
braveheart0731: that's why i texted you agad when i woke up kanina around 3am
braveheart0731: bec i knw you were worrying
braveheart0731: i didn't call na coz i was thinking that it was already late and you could already be sleeping
braveheart0731: m sure you were not already in the mood to talk
braveheart0731: i let the day pass coz i knw that you're angry at me
braveheart0731: and i wanted to make sure that we can talk na hindi ka na masyado galit
braveheart0731: i was sick and still am
braveheart0731: i forced myself to go to work lang coz 3 lang kame sa GY tonight
braveheart0731: i barely eat bec wala akong gana and panlasa
braveheart0731: i hope you can forgive me
braveheart0731: please understand
braveheart0731: i wasn't doin anything foolish, and i never want you to get hurt
braveheart0731: please hear me out
braveheart0731: m sorry for making you worry last night
braveheart0731: i didn't mean to
hundun1124: of course we never mean anything right?
hundun1124: but we still do it
hundun1124: pero we don't mean it
braveheart0731: i was sleeping
braveheart0731: i can't stand up hanggang kaninang hapon
braveheart0731: m at work right now bec i drank yung energy drink ko
braveheart0731: so ast makayanan ko lang at least to sit up straight
braveheart0731: and try to finish kung ano lang kaya ko
braveheart0731: please believe me
braveheart0731: please
braveheart0731: i know that you're having a hard time trusting and believing me, but please try
braveheart0731: i won't waste our relationship because you are important to me
braveheart0731: i need you
braveheart0731: and i love you
braveheart0731: please believe me
hundun1124: you just wasted it
hundun1124: you had enough energy to go to work but you couldnt pick up the phone
braveheart0731: i was so sick and was sleeping the whole evening
braveheart0731: i didn't intend not to pick up the phone
braveheart0731: please naman believe me
braveheart0731: if i heard that you we're calling, then i would have answered
braveheart0731: i am not making any excuses
hundun1124: how can you hear me calling when you turned off your phone?
braveheart0731: i didn't turn off my phone
braveheart0731: my battery went dead
braveheart0731: ikaw din naman namamatayan ng phone
hundun1124: how can you not hear me calling when i called your hotel phone and you disconnected me?
braveheart0731: imposible ba yun na mawalan ako ng battery?
braveheart0731: i didn't hear any calls
braveheart0731: i never picked up my hotel room phone
braveheart0731: what time did you call ba?
hundun1124: ask the receptionist
braveheart0731: i already slept when we last talked on the cellphone til 3am kanina
braveheart0731: i didn't pick up the phone bec i didn't hear any calls
hundun1124: akala ko ba alam mo
braveheart0731: you texted me na you called and i saw your missed calls sa 2 phones
braveheart0731: i am not throwing our relationship away just like that belle
braveheart0731: and m not gonna make you end it
braveheart0731: i want to live the life that i wanted for us
braveheart0731: and m not goin to waste it
hundun1124: too late
braveheart0731: y did you disconnected my call
braveheart0731: look
braveheart0731: i need you to believe me
braveheart0731: please
braveheart0731: you have to
braveheart0731: please talk to me
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hundun1124: bye
braveheart0731: hey
braveheart0731: i want to talk to you
braveheart0731: hindi mo naman sinasagot tanong ko e
braveheart0731: can we talk?
braveheart0731: please
hundun1124: what for
braveheart0731: ayaw mo na ba sa akin?
hundun1124: y?
braveheart0731: dahil may sakit ako and wasn't able to answer you call?
braveheart0731: i don't want to lose you
hundun1124: your actions speak otherwise
hundun1124: you're losing me everyday
braveheart0731: at bakit?
braveheart0731: ano ba ginagawa ko
braveheart0731: ?
hundun1124: anong at bakit?
braveheart0731: what did i do ba?
hundun1124: nothing
braveheart0731: ayaw mo naman pag-usapan
braveheart0731: how can we ever make this work
braveheart0731: how can i avoid hurting you?
hundun1124: nothing works
braveheart0731: if you don't wont lemme know
braveheart0731: you always give up easily
braveheart0731: ayaw mo ako bigyan ng chance
braveheart0731: you think that im a hopeless case
hundun1124: chance to what?
hundun1124: to hurt me?
braveheart0731: a chance to make our relationship work
hundun1124: that's it! nothing works
braveheart0731: can't we try to make it work?
hundun1124: what work?
braveheart0731: our relationship
braveheart0731: i want it to work out
hundun1124: why?
hundun1124: for what?
braveheart0731: because you are important to me
hundun1124: i dont think so
braveheart0731: bakit mo naman nasabi yun?
hundun1124: you have double standards when it comes to our relationship i cannot do the things that you dont want me to do while you can
hundun1124: your work is more important than me
braveheart0731: hindi ba kapanipaniwala na may sakit ako now and i was not able to answer your call
braveheart0731: my work is not important compared to you
hundun1124: that just comes second to the actual issue
braveheart0731: i came here bec i want to have a better future for us
hundun1124: so you'd have a better life
braveheart0731: i want a better life for us
hundun1124: you can do better w/o me
braveheart0731: paano mo naman nalaman?
hundun1124: your life will be better w/o me
hundun1124: you can do the things that you wnt to do w/o me
braveheart0731: but then i can't say that i have a life w/out you
hundun1124: u dont need me
hundun1124: you never did
hundun1124: i never felt that you needed me
braveheart0731: so everything is nothing pala
braveheart0731: for you
hundun1124: i love you and you are my life
braveheart0731: i love you too
hundun1124: you know that
braveheart0731: and i can't go on without you
braveheart0731: lemme know when you're ready to talk
hundun1124: but you will never need me
braveheart0731: l be waiting
hundun1124: i was ready to talk then
hundun1124: but not now
braveheart0731: if i didn't need you, nor wanted you then i wouldn't be taking an extra mile to explain to you what happened
braveheart0731: i was sick
braveheart0731: and m sorry if i was not able to answer your call
braveheart0731: i really am
braveheart0731: i was not making ganti or sumtn
braveheart0731: i didn't hear your call wen i was asleep
braveheart0731: that's it
braveheart0731: i know you're hurt and tired
braveheart0731: just lemme know wen you want to talk
braveheart0731: m not soliciting pity from you but i wan't you to know that i've been sick since the weekend.
braveheart0731: take care hon
braveheart0731: i really miss you
braveheart0731: remember that i love you
hundun1124: i know
hundun1124: and it hurts
braveheart0731: It shouldn't hurt lalo na if you know
hundun1124: if i know what?
braveheart0731: that i love you so much
hundun1124: it hurts because you do
hundun1124: and because i do
hundun1124: i want to say goodbye na but i can't
hundun1124: because i need you even if you dont
braveheart0731: don't you do that
hundun1124: because you're my life even if i'm not
braveheart0731: i don't want to lose you
braveheart0731: you are my life hon
braveheart0731: i just need to make this move for our future
braveheart0731: if you weren't my life then i wouldnt be making sacrifices for us
braveheart0731: i would not even bother
braveheart0731: this not a comfortable situation
braveheart0731: bein away from you
braveheart0731: and its so hard
braveheart0731: i don't want to part ways with you
braveheart0731: not now
braveheart0731: not ever
hundun1124: we have to
braveheart0731: please hear me out
braveheart0731: we don't have to
braveheart0731: you know that
hundun1124: ill talk to you latet
hundun1124: later
hundun1124: my sisted is sleepy na
braveheart0731: where is she?
hundun1124: and wants to go home
braveheart0731: sige
braveheart0731: text me na lang so i can call you
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summerwells_18: hey
hundun1124: hey
summerwells_18: san ka nagpunta kahapon>
hundun1124: wala sa hws lang
summerwells_18: e ano yung ni text mo?
hundun1124: aids asked where i was and i told him i was with you
hundun1124: and sabe ko di na ill leave muna and if he wants to reach me to text you and kaje
summerwells_18: sos
summerwells_18: o, ano nang nangyari?>
hundun1124: wala
hundun1124: he needs time off daw tlaga
hundun1124: you read my blog
summerwells_18: yuh
summerwells_18: tsk..tsk...haay
summerwells_18: crying ladies indeed
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: you'll be able to sort it out...
hundun1124: parang hindi na ata e
summerwells_18: well at least be ready for anything taht'll happen...it's either you reconcile wit him or now
hundun1124: yeah i know
summerwells_18: not apla
hundun1124: sana we get back together
hundun1124: sana
summerwells_18: sana
summerwells_18: que sera sera
hundun1124: because i dunno na tlaga what ill do if hinde
summerwells_18: sos...you'll survive if ever mangyari ang ayaw mo
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: *hugs*
hundun1124: tangina
hundun1124: ganito ko pala sya kamahal
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: yuh
summerwells_18: tignan mo..
summerwells_18: haay
hundun1124: mei, honestly, di ko tlaga alam
summerwells_18: i know..and it's doubly hard coz he's not here
hundun1124: babalik sya this sat
summerwells_18: yun nga
hundun1124: pero di ata kme magkikita
summerwells_18: but i bet you can't wait til then
hundun1124: next thursday kme maguusap
summerwells_18: nyarks
summerwells_18: bakit?
hundun1124: kse yung yung restd day namin
hundun1124: pareho
hundun1124: same rest day na kme
hundun1124: tapos balak ko pa mag gy na din para makasam sya tapos ganito pa nangyaro
hundun1124: yari
hundun1124: shiyet
summerwells_18: huwat?
hundun1124: lahat ng guys na nakakausap ko sinasabi na mlamang pawala na din
summerwells_18: kulang kulang ang mga words mo
hundun1124: sabe ko balak ko mag gy
summerwells_18: kase ang mga guys..once they say na they want a cool off..tagal na nilang iniisip yun
hundun1124: para makasama sya tapos ganito pa nangyari
hundun1124: tagal nila iniisip na makikipag cool off or tagal nila iisipin if babalikan pa ako
hundun1124: kita kme ni kaje later
summerwells_18: first one. ang mga guys kase..hindi sila pabugsu bugso mag decide
summerwells_18: kita kayo?
summerwells_18: what time?
hundun1124: di nya pa alam pero i need a cheerleader
hundun1124: 2am daw
hundun1124: sama ka?
summerwells_18: huwat?!?!
summerwells_18: madaling araw yun eh
summerwells_18: what time's yer off?
hundun1124: during her lunch
hundun1124: 130am
summerwells_18: sa friday morning na lang u want?
summerwells_18: diba off mo ng friday?
hundun1124: yuh
summerwells_18: gusto mo magkita? magbadminton or something..after kase ng shift namen ng thurs. we play badminton. but i can make room for you
hundun1124: nye make room lang for me e for sure iyakan blues yun
summerwells_18: ok lang
summerwells_18: minsan lang naman tayo mag bonding eh
summerwells_18: ehehehe
summerwells_18: i can drop the badminton game so we can meet up. have coffee or sumthin
hundun1124: balak ko kse lumayas muna
hundun1124: lumayo
hundun1124: baka sa lolo ko or subic
summerwells_18: wait...kelan?
summerwells_18: leave ka na ba this weekend?
hundun1124: i dunno
hundun1124: di pa nga ko nakakapag paalam e
summerwells_18: mag paalam ka na kaya
hundun1124: tapos ayaw pa ako payagan mag leave
summerwells_18: nyarks
hundun1124: nagpaalama
hundun1124: nagpaalam
hundun1124: ayaw kse they know what happened
summerwells_18: patay
summerwells_18: kase pag nagabsent ka lam nila na wala kang sakit nun
hundun1124: oo nga e
hundun1124: honestly you think babalik pa yun
summerwells_18: si aids..kung babalik sayo?
hundun1124: yes
summerwells_18: i honestly dunno
summerwells_18: but i hope you two clear things out
hundun1124: SHES NOT HERE
hundun1124: BELINDA IS IN THE TOILET
hundun1124: CRING
hundun1124: CRYING
hundun1124: ARE YOU HER FRIEND?
hundun1124: ARE YOU NEAR OUR OFFICE LANG?
summerwells_18: yes i'm her friend
summerwells_18: i'm in ortigas
summerwells_18: but i'll ring a friend in makati to meet up w/ belle
hundun1124: OKAY
hundun1124: SHE'S A BIT BETTER NOW BUT WE DON'T WANT HER TO GO HOME ALONE
summerwells_18: alright
summerwells_18: thanks
hundun1124: SINO YUNG FRIEND?
summerwells_18: she's supposed to meet up w/ r friend at arnd 230am but i texted her to see belle kagad.
hundun1124: HELLO,
summerwells_18: yes po
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW IF PARATING NA YUNG FRIEND NYO?
hundun1124: SHE'S BETTER NOW
summerwells_18: she'll meet up with bel around 2am
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW IF BELINDA ALLERGIC TO ANY MEDICINE?
summerwells_18: why you are asking?
hundun1124: THE NURSE WANTS TO GIVE HER SOME MEDICINES TO CALM HER DOWN
hundun1124: IM TRYING TO CONTACT AIDS BUT HE'S NOT RESPONDING?
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW?
summerwells_18: and what will aids do if you call him? he's in cebu
hundun1124: BAKA ALAM NGA LANG
hundun1124: THE NURSE DOESNT WANT TO GIVE HER ANY MEDICINE BEFORE NYA DAW MALAMAN KUNG MAY ALLERGY SYA TO SOMETHING
hundun1124: SHIT IM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE
hundun1124: ..NO NOT YOU
hundun1124: HIM!
summerwells_18: i know..i wanna wring his neck also
hundun1124: MATIGAS DIN PALA ULO NI BELS
summerwells_18: don't let her drink anything yet. i'm pushing r friend to hurry up and meet up with belle already
hundun1124: WHERE WILL THEY MEET SO WE CAN BRING HER THERE?
summerwells_18: shit! i have no idea...wait alng
hundun1124: NURSE SAID THAT BELS HAS MIGRAINE HISTORY
summerwells_18: r friend doesn't know also
summerwells_18: san kaya sila pede mag meet
summerwells_18: sa pbcom manggaling yung friend namen
hundun1124: WE CAN BRING HER DOWN SA FRONT NG BUILDING NAMIN
hundun1124: SAN YUN?
hundun1124: A ALAM KO NA
hundun1124: SA FRONT NG BUILDING NAMIN
hundun1124: NEAR THE JOLLYJEEP?
summerwells_18: sa likod daw. sa valero. likod ng pbcom
hundun1124: SA CORNER?
summerwells_18: yes po
hundun1124: SA PBCOM TLAGA?
hundun1124: NA BUILDING A
summerwells_18: yup
hundun1124: SORRY MAKULIT AKO
hundun1124: KSE MAHABA YUNG AREA
summerwells_18: as in yung pbcom daw
hundun1124: OK
hundun1124: WE'LL BRING HER THERE NA
hundun1124: SANA LANG SUMUNOD SA AMIN
summerwells_18: naku!
hundun1124: DI NA SYA BINIGYAN NG MEDS NG NURSE KSE DI DAW ATA PWEDE E
summerwells_18: sabihin nyo kikitain na sha ni kaje
hundun1124: SORRY A AT BOBITA YUNG NURSE NURSAN NAMIN
summerwells_18: hahaa
summerwells_18: ok ang
summerwells_18: my friend will be at the lobby of pbcom at exactly 2
hundun1124: OK
hundun1124: THANKS SUMMERWELLS_18
summerwells_18: thanks for taking care of belle
*********************************************************'
cesxy: ok will do
cesxy: lemmo know too ayt
cesxy: hehe
cesxy: mamaya pa ko mga 830 e
hundun1124: ok
hundun1124: sorry im not so uppity today
cesxy: y? wuz goin on? aids?
hundun1124: yep
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: di na kme ata
cesxy: omg! y? wat happened?
hundun1124: tampuhan that led to one thing and another......
cesxy: so sino nakipagbreak or nagpahiwatig? sino mas galit?
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: sya. wala naman galit but sabe nya time to think daw
cesxy: naku! :-O
hundun1124: cool off daw muna for lack of a better term
hundun1124: told him na i though he doesnt belive in that
hundun1124: but sabe nya because im that important to him that he just wants time to think daw muna
cesxy: shit
cesxy: naku
cesxy: naiiyak ka?
cesxy: ang tanga ng tanong ko sori
hundun1124: yep
cesxy: do u feel da same?
hundun1124: im trying not to
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: that i want time to think-yes but not to the point of breaking up
cesxy: bel basta sabay tayo mamaya. if uw ant i lunch mo na din un
cesxy: shux
hundun1124: si tiny kanina napaiyak ako kse nag joke sya baout me having aids
cesxy: i know exactly how u feel...
cesxy: hahaha sori natwa ko
hundun1124: nadyahe na ata sya kaya biglang umalis
hundun1124: :))
cesxy: hehe
cesxy: hug kita now
hundun1124: thanks
cesxy: shit if ders anythin i can do...
cesxy: sori bel a
hundun1124: its ok :|
cesxy: naglunch ka na ba?
hundun1124: not yet
cesxy: gusto mo sabay nalang tayo ng mga 830?
cesxy: or 15 mo lang un
hundun1124: pwde 9?
cesxy: ok
cesxy: kung di ko na matiis, mauna na ko
cesxy: atleast nagoverlap
cesxy: now na
hundun1124: ok
cesxy: break?
cesxy: 15
cesxy: yosi?
hundun1124: i cant e
hundun1124: later
hundun1124: pwede?
cesxy: ay lapit na ko endshift e
cesxy: sori
hundun1124: you there
cesxy: sup?
hundun1124: potangina!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
hundun1124: sabe ni anton may 3rd party daw ata
cesxy: OMG!
cesxy: y?
cesxy: how?
cesxy: i mean howd he know?
cesxy: ill go there
cesxy: wait
hundun1124: galing syang cebu
cesxy: im fishing info from itos
cesxy: ok lang?
cesxy: bel!
cesxy: read this
cesxy: ces: u der?
itos: nope
itos: heheheheces: baliw!
itos: sup dawg?
ces: have a question
cesxy: itos: what?
ces: tagal ka ba cebu da last time u went there?
itos: i just got back this morning
ces: hmmm...
itos: why?
ces: wait lang mamaya ko na kaw tanong abt wat happened to u and ur girl....
hundun1124: sorry was talking to anton
hundun1124: o ano daw?
hundun1124: aids and him are friends
cesxy: wala
cesxy: wait
cesxy: ill send it to u
hundun1124: you sent it na?
cesxy: wait
cesxy: ces: do u know aids?
ces: forcedesk?
itos: yup
ces: quiet ka lang pls
itos: ok
ces: did u see him wit anyone wen u wer there?
ces: be honest pls
itos: he was with me. why?
ces: with u lang?
itos: why?
ces: do u know if he's hooking up wit anyone
ces: pls keep this to urself
itos: ok, why? whats up?
ces: pls itos if u know anything spill
itos: why whats wrong?
ces: cuz his girl heard of som shit
itos: what?
ces: infidelity
ces: hehe
cesxy: ces: cmon itos
ces: so wat?
ces: meron no?
itos: wala dude
ces: u swear?!
itos: yup
ces: not dat u know of
ces: or wala talaga
ces: sori kulit
itos: wala dude, he's with me all the time
ces: ok cool
ces: THANKS ITOS!
hundun1124: is he telling the truth?
hundun1124: would you know if he is?
cesxy: yep
hundun1124: thanks ces
hundun1124: i owe you
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
(I miss you I miss you)
(I miss you I miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
(I miss you I miss you)
(I miss you I miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight
Don't settle for the one you can live with. Fight for the one you can't live without.
I did. I fought for that one person and I lost...he was my Waterloo...he was, as I thought, the love of my life and the person God sent to me to spend the rest of my days with..but I was wrong...dead wrong...as I said before he brought me straight up to the high heavens and to hell...where I still am...I'm still trying to get over him...I'm still trying to erase all the love I had for him and trying to erase of hurts and memories I had of him...I can't wait for the day when i wake and I won't think about him anymore...that I won't cry over him anymore...that i won't love him anymore...when that day comes, you mark my word, you can never go back...and I'll never go back to you...just like what happened to the first guy who broke my heart...it took a long time for me to recover and when I did, it was too late na for him. He's been trying to court me for years now-may boyfriend ako or wala...but everytime I tell him no. Recently I did try to go out with him but its not the same anymore...I dont like him like how I used to like him...One of these days Adrian, you will be in the same boat... you will love me the way I loved you...one day you will think of me the way I thought of you...one day you will cry for me the way I cried for you and one day you will want me but I won't want you..
How does it feel that you are the cause why 2 people broke up? How does it feel to be called the third party, the querida, the kabit...doesn't it hurt...yet you are and you don't care...i hope and pray to God that you will not experience the same hurt that I experienced...I hope and pray to God that you will never cry the same amount of tears that I cried...I hope and pray to God that you will never feel how it is to be betrayed...how it is to see your world suddenly crumble...how to have that one person you love and cherish taken from you...I hope and pray to God that you will never feel how it is to love and NOT be loved in return...I hope and pray that you will never experience what I went through just because of him...NEVER do I wish that of anyone...it's too painful...I almost died because of what happened...but do you care? did both of you care while you were too busy "loving each other"...i guess not...though you never spoke to me about it...though you never asked for my forgiveness, I give it to you...I forgive you and I pray to God that one day I will be able to erase all the hurts both of you caused...I asked God for forgiveness for hating you...and I have asked Him to englighten you on what you did and to make you realize what YOU did...you won't realize that now because you're still busy being happy but remember, God is just. that's why he created karma...one of these days you will meet her...and when that day comes...if you need a friend.....you can come to me...that was said with tears in my eyes...with my hurt out in the open...with no malice but the hope that you never get to experience what I went through.....no one deserves that kind of suffering..no, not even you....
..God uses your hurts and disappointments for you to be able to fulfill your purpose in this life...rick warren
I did. I fought for that one person and I lost...he was my Waterloo...he was, as I thought, the love of my life and the person God sent to me to spend the rest of my days with..but I was wrong...dead wrong...as I said before he brought me straight up to the high heavens and to hell...where I still am...I'm still trying to get over him...I'm still trying to erase all the love I had for him and trying to erase of hurts and memories I had of him...I can't wait for the day when i wake and I won't think about him anymore...that I won't cry over him anymore...that i won't love him anymore...when that day comes, you mark my word, you can never go back...and I'll never go back to you...just like what happened to the first guy who broke my heart...it took a long time for me to recover and when I did, it was too late na for him. He's been trying to court me for years now-may boyfriend ako or wala...but everytime I tell him no. Recently I did try to go out with him but its not the same anymore...I dont like him like how I used to like him...One of these days Adrian, you will be in the same boat... you will love me the way I loved you...one day you will think of me the way I thought of you...one day you will cry for me the way I cried for you and one day you will want me but I won't want you..
How does it feel that you are the cause why 2 people broke up? How does it feel to be called the third party, the querida, the kabit...doesn't it hurt...yet you are and you don't care...i hope and pray to God that you will not experience the same hurt that I experienced...I hope and pray to God that you will never cry the same amount of tears that I cried...I hope and pray to God that you will never feel how it is to be betrayed...how it is to see your world suddenly crumble...how to have that one person you love and cherish taken from you...I hope and pray to God that you will never feel how it is to love and NOT be loved in return...I hope and pray that you will never experience what I went through just because of him...NEVER do I wish that of anyone...it's too painful...I almost died because of what happened...but do you care? did both of you care while you were too busy "loving each other"...i guess not...though you never spoke to me about it...though you never asked for my forgiveness, I give it to you...I forgive you and I pray to God that one day I will be able to erase all the hurts both of you caused...I asked God for forgiveness for hating you...and I have asked Him to englighten you on what you did and to make you realize what YOU did...you won't realize that now because you're still busy being happy but remember, God is just. that's why he created karma...one of these days you will meet her...and when that day comes...if you need a friend.....you can come to me...that was said with tears in my eyes...with my hurt out in the open...with no malice but the hope that you never get to experience what I went through.....no one deserves that kind of suffering..no, not even you....
..God uses your hurts and disappointments for you to be able to fulfill your purpose in this life...rick warren
Apr 19, 2004
So if I'm wearing glasses ibig sabihin bulag ako? So what if one is wearing glasses? Why should it be your business? And how the hell did you get the idea na its only blind people who can wear glasses..is you brain that minute dear? If you're tryin to be funny..don't..you'd booed off stage if you do a stand up act...if you're trying to be a laitera...iha, you dunno who you're talking to...just lemme know when I CAN start making YOU lait...
I don't get it...how could someone not want his or her own child??? There are a lot of women out there who would die to have their own child...who would do anything just to be able to cradle their own flesh and blood in their arms...how can someone not want something so precious...I lost mine...
"You First Believed"
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace
So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And you showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
I don't get it...how could someone not want his or her own child??? There are a lot of women out there who would die to have their own child...who would do anything just to be able to cradle their own flesh and blood in their arms...how can someone not want something so precious...I lost mine...
"You First Believed"
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace
So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And you showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Apr 18, 2004
More about the jeanboy thingie..I decided to distance myself from him the other day kse I was getting attached na to him and I dont want that..not yet (scaredy cat)... and at the same time I coulnd't see him reciprocating what I was doing consistently..there are moments na ok and sobrang ok meron naman time na deadma...BUT BUT BUT something happened yesterday while I was in Enchanted that turned the tables on me...di ko pala sya pwede iwan ngayon not when he is going through a very emotional time...sorry I cant make kwento what about..that's not part of my blog na basta...so sige mag stay tayo...bahala na muna si batman kung ano mangyari...hhhaaayyyyyy How do I get myself into these things?
"how can you assume to be friends with someone when all you think about when you look at him is how much more you really want?"
-joey, DAWSON'S CREEK
"how can you assume to be friends with someone when all you think about when you look at him is how much more you really want?"
-joey, DAWSON'S CREEK
To be young, gifted and depressed
By Cathy Babao Guballa, Contributor
Inquirer News Service
Teenage suicide
LIKE the proverbial thief in the night, suicide shatters every family that it touches. More so when it is a teener who passes away. When suicide takes place, everyone- friends, family, classmates-is left grappling, trying to make sense of the tragedy that has suddenly taken place.
Recent months have shown an alarming rise in the number of adolescent and young adult suicides, their stories often exaggerated, circulating around the schools and universities where these young people once belonged to.
Then there are the suicides which are made public due to the nature or stature of the families involved.
Suicide is defined as the decision to deliberately end one's life. In the United States, suicide is the second leading
cause of death among children and adolescents. In the Philippines, according to Dr. Liza Espinosa-Rondain, a
psychiatrist at the Makati Medical Center and Center for Family Ministries (Cefam) at the Ateneo de Manila University, statistics show that completed suicide more often than not takes place among 18- to 27-year-olds, and that 37 percent of suicide attempts are completed.
Rondain adds that the most common methods used are those of hanging and poisoning. Peak periods are reported to be during Christmas, February and the opening of a new school year.
"There are much more stressors and expectations, especially when it comes to adolescent relationships, during these periods," Rondain explains.
Myths about suicide
She further cites several myths associated with teen suicide. The first myth is that people who talk
about or threaten suicide don't really mean it. "Parents and friends need to be sensitive and should take this kind of talk seriously," she stresses.
It is also untrue that suicides frequently occur out of the blue, that thoughts of suicide are temporary states of mind, and that whatever crisis young people will go through will pass.
"More often than not, the suicide has long been considered and there has been a period of depression prior to it. Again, the people around the adolescent need to be sensitive to the signs and signals being given," says Rondain. Lastly, it is a myth that suicide attempts won't be repeated again because of shame.
Rondain says statistics show that four out of five-indeed, a high rate-try again. "Closer monitoring is really a must for those who have been caught attempting suicide. Just because you were able to catch it [the first time] doesn't mean [the suicidal person] is already safe," she says.
Open communication lines
"Tell the person that you are worried and listen to what s/he has to say. Ask direct questions and if there is a plan, but don't act shocked when the person tells you about it," she says.
"Don't debate on whether it is right or wrong, and never promise to keep the youngster's intention a secret. You also have to ensure that s/he will be safe until you are able to notify an appropriate adult who is responsible for
the teener's care."
Rondain also adds that it is important to give assurance that something is being done and that the troubled person can call for help anytime.
"After the risk is overcome, you need to monitor closely, as many suicide attempts recur three months after the initial attempt," she explains.
Carandang's paper, on the other hand, provides some insights and recommendations for parents and families with adolescents so as to prevent trouble from further escalating. Adults, she says, need to go beyond the faæade of indifference and break that wall to see the intense emotions inside their children.
"Just like their songs with loud 'turn-off' melodies, you will find the meaningful lyrics once you go beyond the
'noise,' " she says. An adolescent also needs to be "touched emotionally" by at least one significant adult. "Someone who values them or to whom they know they matter," she says.
The myth of "all for the family" or "for the family only" can prevent the adolescent and other members from
expressing themselves, seeking autonomy and identity and leading a healthy life for themselves.
"Balancing family with individual concerns is important in the adolescent stage," says Carandang.
Family members, especially fathers, need to find ways to reach out to their adolescent children effectively. Parents need to be aware of adolescent need for approval and affirmation even if the adolescents do not show it.
"They also still look for limits from their parents, but this should be done in a respectful and not insulting manner. The adolescent must be given a say, a role in his or her own development in the spirit of genuine participation," Carandang concludes.
By Cathy Babao Guballa, Contributor
Inquirer News Service
Teenage suicide
LIKE the proverbial thief in the night, suicide shatters every family that it touches. More so when it is a teener who passes away. When suicide takes place, everyone- friends, family, classmates-is left grappling, trying to make sense of the tragedy that has suddenly taken place.
Recent months have shown an alarming rise in the number of adolescent and young adult suicides, their stories often exaggerated, circulating around the schools and universities where these young people once belonged to.
Then there are the suicides which are made public due to the nature or stature of the families involved.
Suicide is defined as the decision to deliberately end one's life. In the United States, suicide is the second leading
cause of death among children and adolescents. In the Philippines, according to Dr. Liza Espinosa-Rondain, a
psychiatrist at the Makati Medical Center and Center for Family Ministries (Cefam) at the Ateneo de Manila University, statistics show that completed suicide more often than not takes place among 18- to 27-year-olds, and that 37 percent of suicide attempts are completed.
Rondain adds that the most common methods used are those of hanging and poisoning. Peak periods are reported to be during Christmas, February and the opening of a new school year.
"There are much more stressors and expectations, especially when it comes to adolescent relationships, during these periods," Rondain explains.
Myths about suicide
She further cites several myths associated with teen suicide. The first myth is that people who talk
about or threaten suicide don't really mean it. "Parents and friends need to be sensitive and should take this kind of talk seriously," she stresses.
It is also untrue that suicides frequently occur out of the blue, that thoughts of suicide are temporary states of mind, and that whatever crisis young people will go through will pass.
"More often than not, the suicide has long been considered and there has been a period of depression prior to it. Again, the people around the adolescent need to be sensitive to the signs and signals being given," says Rondain. Lastly, it is a myth that suicide attempts won't be repeated again because of shame.
Rondain says statistics show that four out of five-indeed, a high rate-try again. "Closer monitoring is really a must for those who have been caught attempting suicide. Just because you were able to catch it [the first time] doesn't mean [the suicidal person] is already safe," she says.
Open communication lines
"Tell the person that you are worried and listen to what s/he has to say. Ask direct questions and if there is a plan, but don't act shocked when the person tells you about it," she says.
"Don't debate on whether it is right or wrong, and never promise to keep the youngster's intention a secret. You also have to ensure that s/he will be safe until you are able to notify an appropriate adult who is responsible for
the teener's care."
Rondain also adds that it is important to give assurance that something is being done and that the troubled person can call for help anytime.
"After the risk is overcome, you need to monitor closely, as many suicide attempts recur three months after the initial attempt," she explains.
Carandang's paper, on the other hand, provides some insights and recommendations for parents and families with adolescents so as to prevent trouble from further escalating. Adults, she says, need to go beyond the faæade of indifference and break that wall to see the intense emotions inside their children.
"Just like their songs with loud 'turn-off' melodies, you will find the meaningful lyrics once you go beyond the
'noise,' " she says. An adolescent also needs to be "touched emotionally" by at least one significant adult. "Someone who values them or to whom they know they matter," she says.
The myth of "all for the family" or "for the family only" can prevent the adolescent and other members from
expressing themselves, seeking autonomy and identity and leading a healthy life for themselves.
"Balancing family with individual concerns is important in the adolescent stage," says Carandang.
Family members, especially fathers, need to find ways to reach out to their adolescent children effectively. Parents need to be aware of adolescent need for approval and affirmation even if the adolescents do not show it.
"They also still look for limits from their parents, but this should be done in a respectful and not insulting manner. The adolescent must be given a say, a role in his or her own development in the spirit of genuine participation," Carandang concludes.
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