Here is a sad song that I used to sing and listen to because I always thought that this was the theme song of my life....Its kinda sad :( Not all of us were blessed to have very good looks or a good life (moneyed and all) but hey! That is how life is....It sucks...Seems a bit cliche but ganun tlaga ohey! ....I learned the truth at seventeen.......nuninuninuninu.....

At Seventeen
by Janis Ian


I learned the truth at seventeen
That love was meant for beauty queens
And high school girls with clear skinned smiles
Who married young and then retired.
The valentines I never knew
The Friday night charades of youth
Were spent on one more beautiful
At seventeen I learned the truth.
And those of us with ravaged faces
Lacking in the social graces
Desperately remained at home
Inventing lovers on the phone
Who called to say come dance with me
and murmured vague obscenities
It isn't all it seems
At seventeen.
A brown eyed girl in hand me downs
Whose name I never could pronounce
said, Pity please the ones who serve
They only get what they deserve.
The rich relationed hometown queen
she marries into what she needs
A guarantee of company
And haven for the elderly.
Remember those who win the game
Lose the love they sought to gain
Indebentures of quality
And dubious integrity.
Their small town eyes will gape at you
in dull surprise when payment due
Exceeds accounts received
At seventeen.
To those of us who know the pain
Of valentines that never came,
And those whose names were never called
When choosing sides for basketball.
It was long ago and far away
The world was younger than today
And dreams were all they gave for free
To ugly duckling girls like me.
We all play the game and when we dare
To cheat ourselves at solitaire
Inventing lovers on the phone
Repenting other lives unknown
That call and say, come dance with me
and murmur vague obscenities
At ugly girls like me
At seventeen.

so syempre sobrang updated to hindi ba....punyemas tamad na ko to the max..shiyet...
last saturday (october 18) we stayed in Discovery for Marc and Kitz's "finally together" party...the party was ok...but we really didn't mingle. we just stayed sa room and watched cable and ate syempre.....We went there with Mishka, Anna, Jerome and Adrian so that we can dress up there na and but whatever was needed for the party...it was an open party but your ticket so that you can go in is a bottle of either red wine or vodka or better yet bc! When we got there Ica and Nins were there na..dapat may balloons kaso di pumayag ang discovery kaya iniwan nalang sa car ni ica..wawa naman...sayang..good thing di lumipad yung car nya... from the hws anna, adrian, jerome and I were all in our hws clothes...in tagalog..naka pambahay pa! astig..naka rating ng discovery in tsinelas and butas butas na damit...akala ata squatter kme...hahaha....tamad pa kme maligo pagdating dun kaya ayun dumating na si vinca and pat (arriola) and we were still in our pamabahay clothes...after we took a bath, we went to podium to eat dinner at sitio...shit!we (adrian, jerome and I) were so famished!!!!! ayun si jeron kain karpintero ulet....we talked about what nasty stuff Kitz was spreading against me and Aids....tangina buti sana kung totoo da ba e hello puro figment ng kanyang imagination....before that kse when we were still in the hotel, anna, vince and I were talking with other people sa tabi and along the conversation ( i dunno kung paano nag bring up) bigla nalang sinabi ni vince na "oo nga e nagsasayang ka nga daw ng tubig sabe ni kitz.." Me naman, because of the noise wasn't able to understand it kaya smile nalang ako tapos si Anna sabe nya " Bels, totoo." I just shrugged my shoulders since I wasn't able to hear what Vince said kaya when we got back sa room I asked Anna about it and dun nya sa akin sinabi yung sinabi ni Vince....whaddafuck!!!!!! pota! if she was something to say dapat sa harap namin not behind our backs...just thinking about it makes me wanna make her sugod na...kaya after that incident Adrian decided (as in no buts na) that we should move out na daw. We were planning to move out mid november before my mom came home since my mom asked to go back sa house but this kinda speeded things up a bit...bwisit tlaga...At first I thought that she was ok but it turns out that she isn't pala...para walang gulo and respeto nalang kay A since she was the one who referred us to her we'll just go nalang with no rekalamo about the whole thing...bahala nalang sa kanya si lord...kaya ata nawala yung bag nya e...i know its masama for saying this and for wishing this to anyone but baka karma na din na nanakaw yung bag coz of the lies she was spreading against us....si jerome din aalis na kse sya din naiinis na but since wala pa syang work and money (walang pera pero may 2 gold cards sa wallet) kaya di pa sya makaalis...so teka....asan na ba ko sa wento ko???? A sa megamall after dinner, nag ikot ikot muna kme keber na may mga naghihintay sa amin coz kme nga bibili ng pulutan at cups (hehehe)...sale sa megamall pero wala naman ako mabili tsaka kse dame tao nabbwisit na ko sa init at gulo...after an hour or 2 of making ikot we bought the stuff na and went back to the room na...basta kme nila Adrian and jerome dun lang kme sa room and didnt; mingle coz bad trip na rin coz of what we discovered plus we really didn't like the people...

tomorrow is my last day...due to some swap chorva I managed to get thursday to saturday off...tapos sunday baka 430pm na sked ko since that's the date when the rotation will take place...yehey!....san kayao nice pumunta...hay my gadz di na ko magyaya sa mga friendsters ko at baka ma-disappoint nanamn ako no! hmph! (hint hint hint)..Adrian is thinking na we might go sa Tagaytay but we haven't decided anything yet....bahala na...

shiyet over personal ako tengengot...makapag break na nga muna.....