It's New Year's eve and I'm here in the office :/ I've been spending my Christmases and New Years' and all the holidays (kahit na coup de'etat pa) in the office for the past couple of years. By choice if you may wonder. That is because I like going to the office on such days. Aside from the big money ($$$$$), there is also no reason for me to stay in the house since my family except for stupid dog are all in the states. But now that they're all here I kinda wanted to stay sa house for this new year-at least but I guess its not meant to be tlaga at wla akong mahanap na ka-swap and wala na din VL allocation. bummer! Both for the 31st and the 1st :( Thinking of taking my first unplanned pTO for the year since it's been such a long time since I've been with my family and my lolo who I heard can't walk na daw.

Blessed Be Everyone!!!

My Dear dad and brother arrived this morning!!! Got to sleep around 4am then around 730pm woke up because my kuosy brother jumped on top of me. I think I almost broke my back. So now I'm sleepy sleepy sleeeeeeeeepppppyyyyyy.......zz.zz.z.z.z.z.z....

My dad got me a nice -very nice Digicam $300 daw :) The pics below are the front and back sides of my new kewl DC. For more information about it visit this site






When my dad gave it pa to me sinabi nya pa " for my favorite" and kaya when my mom heard it selos agad sya at binida nanaman si Stupid Dog ..ha! corny shoes lang nakuha nya-white shoes at that....bwahahahaha...i'm so sama tlaga pero even if he's by brother (*choke *choke* choke*) I don't feel guilty. Kse naman e -kups sya. as in! My lola gave me din another bag-DG bag ....happy happy new year na tlaga..but of course I'm happy (despite of my mom's nagging and ever present mood swings) coz my whole family is here YEY!

I noticed that I've recently been very interested with websites, html, hi tech phones and other hi-tech stuff...am I becoming a computer or techie geek?

Saw my "cousins" Meian, Beng, kaje and Emer yesterday...it's been awhile the last time we saw each other kse always busy always busy. Can't talk much about what happened at mahirap na (I learn from Meian's experience). shiyet. ang hirap magkwento when you know you can't make kwento.

Here is where I plan to get married. The second choice is in St. James Alabang. A bit freaky maybe but I'm one of those girls who has a secret wedding (not so secret anymore) notebook where I list all the things that I want fior my future wedding...the actual date and groom nalang tlaga :) hehehehe

opened my blog today and I couldn't see my blog pics...what's wrong??? Deleted my cookies but its still the same...nuninununu..patience my dearie....


saw the pics from my Cebu trip....bummer just one pic of me in Cebu INSIDE THE HOTEL....whadda#($&$&#$????? Told Adrian that it means that I have to go back to Cebu hihihihihi...(hint hint) sayang the pics that we took...of the humongous Fernan Bridge, TOP, Fort SanPedro (I've kwento later about this), Magellan's Cross, superb views of the clouds and and the islands from the airplane (where I saw Island Cove (the only place that I could really name) and of adrian sleeping..the guy who always sleeps-ALWAYS. Sayang the pics tlaga... :(

Now to my Fort San Pedro kwento. Think Intramuros but in a smaller scale. There's this nook where a wishing well was erected. That was the first thing that we saw when we got in (entrance fee 15 pesos/person). There was a board at the back of the well (which was very deep when I looked) and painted on that board was the picture of the devil. Being a "supernatural magnet", the area gave me the creeps immediately and Adrian noticed it that's why he asked me to get out of the area immediately. So off we went to another part of the fort, we were about to use one of the mossy staircases when I saw the wishing well again. This time I had a top view. Being the wierdo that I am, couldn't resist to take a picture of the creepy well. Got my camera and just when I was about to take a picture, a creepy looking hand shot up from the lower left part of the camera screen. I shouted at Adrian to take out his fingers although I already was thinking that it was not his fingers since it was long and leafy like (jagged at the the tip). We didn't look at the other nooks and doors of the place since we were both scared shit already. Good thing there wasn't much to see. But lesson learned: NEVER GO TO OLD HISTORICAL PLACES WHERE OLD SOULS ROAM. Geez when will I ever learn. When will this "thing" ever stop from functioning???? I really hate being a "supernatural magnet". I hate seeing souls and talking to them...why should I care about their problems when I can't even solve mine?

poopers!!!!! Adrian just told me that some of the pics that we took in Cebu didn't turn out well. ^#*#$&$^$ Can't wait for my dear father to get home coz he says that he just bought me an IO pentaz (digicam) woohooo! Sana nga lang di stir tatay ko da ba!

uh-oh it's almost 830pm gotta finish my food..blog later

I'm back...I've been trying to add a picture and I'm trying out a suggestion made by a friend of mine and see if it'll work



This is Adrian my boyfriend...he says that he's panget in this pic but I say otherwise..he's my gay-granny magnet better half...he always get invites and whatever messages in his Friendster account hihihi


yey! it worked ....yipeeeeee...now to just fien tune some of the images I placed on the side at medyo big ito....

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"I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star in someday else's sky, but why, why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine?" Pearl Jam, Black

"symbols of love: roses send for no ocassion, eyes tend not to dart, hugs that never seem to end, one final glance before you part."

"If your love is a half-measure, half-empty or half full, will you ever have the pleasure of love given without measure?"

"Our expiration date for our love has long past expired. We still hold on as if it could be good again."

A fiend of mine was feeling sad during Christmas:

hundun1124: o baket?
m: nevermind....
hundun1124: y o y sweetie?
hundun1124: christmas na christmas sad girl ka?
hundun1124: you should be happy
m: ganyan talaga
hundun1124: forget about boys muna
m: u really cant have everything
hundun1124: but you can be content muna with what you have
hundun1124: and be able to find happiness from it
m: il be ok....
hundun1124: you should be ok!




Merry Christmas everyone. May you have lotsa lotsa gifts(whether emotional or actual gifts) from whoever your personal Santa Claus is!!! Mwah!

sleepy sleepy sleepy...I only had 3-4 hours of sleep because Adrian and I had to go to the mall very early to finish our Christmas shopping. poor adrian. he was so sleepy and tired na for lack of sleep din for 2 straight days.

went to the gym again after about a week or two of not gyming...should I have it cut na or not? i'm so tamad na and wla na naman atang nangyayari sa akin e...i'm thinking of trying out another kind of diet pill...i need to diet again at tumaba nanaman ako when I went to Cebu (yyummmmmyyy lechon and all the other foods that we tried out....sarap!!!) diet gym diet pill..wala naman nangyayari e...#*$%Y$@^! eto naman si sweetik puro sabe na sexy daw ako (:::rolls eyes:::)

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back from a much much needed holiday...now back to reality...back to work

tama ba naman na itambak ang LAHAT ng trabaho sa akin??? So ano na ang ginawa ni...itago nalang natin sya sa pangalang...shaider (courtesy of my ever matalino and gwapong seatmate Kirkie)...lahat na ng trabaho sa akin??? at baket ganun? i think dapat ata humingi na ako ng dagdag sa sweldo...over worked but under paid...what else is new in PS...

Location: CEBU!!!

A vacation finally :)

Left Manila friday morning at exactly 1:30am buti na nalang Cebupacific made good in there company "motto" that they are always on time coz I was itching to get here in Cebu ASAP! The flight was a bit scary parang asa roller coaster at puro turbulence ang nadadaanan so by the time we landed we were "stirred but not shaken". The Mactan was a tad small for an international airport. Way small. The airport police got me an airport cab that asked for a 300 payment. 300???kala ko less than 200 lang? kala ko everything in Cebu was mura..i guess some things are the same wherever you go (yes, meron din mga cab drivers who refuses to convey passengers). The fare was a bit steep but ok na din. pang christmas na ni manong cab driver and he did give me some information on where to go when I want to buy cheap stuff so pwede na din tsaka for Cebu at 3am the ride was malayo din kaya ok na.

gotta do some reports muna..hay trabaho pa din pagdating dito

1. List your five favorite beverages.
:::coke coke coke coke coke:::

dagdag na din ang ripe mango shake pala

2. List your five favorite websites.
my blog, inq7,net, cnn.com,friendster and coach.com!!!!

3. List your five favorite snack foods.
a lot! i don't even know where to begin

4. List your five favorite board and/or card games.
millionaires and monopoly only

5. List your five favorite computer and/or game system games.
age of empires, starcraft, counterstrike

"it's my last day today"

People are dumbfounded everytime I say that...totoo naman na last day ko today e then I'm off to Cebu....balik ko nga lang next week ...hehehehe

woohoooo! off i'm off to Cebu! Makakapagbakasyon ulet ako...buti nalang di ko kasabay si "pooh" kungdi 1 hour and so ito na pasakit at kabobohan na conversation...as if I care how good he is and how devoted he is to his girlfriend. I know I know mi ultimo laitera ako pero MY GADZ! Conversations with him at right there in the gutters man! Ok lang na puro about him yung conversation e pero kung may dagdag na istir ay iba nang usapan ito :/ Hopefully na nga lang when we're in Cebu we don't run into him that often...

This year alone has been a travel year for me and Adrian. Early March we went to HongKong and China. Last May we went to Puerto Galera. My first time in a public beach and my first trip out of Luzon (I mean locally) then now to Cebu. Huwaw..I'm finally being able to fulfill one of my dreams of being able to travel...I plan to make a travel website and hopefully turn it into an on-line business...sana.......

sabe ko na nga ba minsan may pagka crappy tong quizilla e. Loads of self confidence??? yeah right!!!!! even if some peopme would think that I'm madaldal I'm actually a very very shy person. NO KIDDING. Man, the numerous times I'd fake that I'm looking at something just to avoid looking at someone first...pathetic but true. Maybe it's one of the reasons why people think that I'm either a snob or passive.


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your skin, open to conversation, and happy to
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you to events becoz you are the type of lively
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aaaaawwwww wonder what my sweetik would think about this...



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A Fellow Blogger
echoed the same sentiments that I had about Saddam Hussein's capture. Better Osama than Saddam.

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ayaw nya mag post puro X! X ! X! wag na nga i'll get nlang my own domain name

So they finally got him after months of playing the cat and mouse game. For the Iraqis, I am hopeful for them (can't say anything for us, though) but for Saddam, well, it's karma. Although, I pittied him when I saw his pic on cnn.com . Who wants to be taken prisoner anyway especially if your used to the kind of life Saddam Hussein had lived. But I pittied him. Well as one Iraqi said, you never kick a man when he is down. That came from a man whose only son was killed by Saddam's son and who was left blind by Saddam.

Another piece of story is the death of Secretary Blas Ople. Here's is the linkSec. Blas Ople. He comes from a breed of politicians who spoke well, acted approprietly and who were gentlemen. His death means and end of era for Philippine politics. Well actually may natitira pa. Si former Senator Jovito Salonga.

I love history. Merlin. King Arthur. Medieval History. Word War 2. Politics. Vietnam War. Royalty...everything...when I read books or watch movies about a certain era it makes me want to go back in time to experience the grandeur of that certain era.....hay day dreaming...

TO EVERYONE: any suggestions for a good domain name????? I'll be getting my own but I dunno what to register. So if you have any suggestions, lemme know either via e-mail or the tag board. THANKS!

Went to Glorietta and Greenbelt today. Man, dame tao! Bought some gifts na...shit gotta keep it under the budget...the more mura the better...gotta keep all the expenses in check at madame pa akong babayaran!!!

I was able to fix my schedule so that I'd be able to go to Cebu this week till early next week. My only problem is when ako aalis. I can leave either on Thursday or Friday morning kaso Thursday night I have a Christmas dinner naman with old friends of mine that I miss na so much but the thing is sayang naman yung rest day ko if I don't go on the 18th. Sayang din yung shopping hours since planning ahead...if 19th ako dumating sa Cebu, syempre breakfast muna then I can shop till noon with Aids then go back sa hotel since he has to sleep because he has work that night. Stay lang the hotel or sa office till the next day. Then saturday daw, Arjay is planning to bring us to Bohol for the weekend. Balik sunday but I dunno what time If morning makakapagshop pa siguro ako but if not then sa gabi nalang to go out lang (buhuhuhuhu no shopping) then monday shop ulet half of the day or do some sight seeing then Adrian's scheduled flight is after lunch so dapat ganun din ako. Thing is I haven't told him that Ive fixed everything na and that makakapunta na ako sa Cebu. So I guess I better tell him na since kailangan mag jive ang sked namin ...so much for surprises...

I'm gonna post this muna at baka mawala nanaman ito...

@&#$$&%!!!!!

did some stupid things in my old blog and inadvertently deleted it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the old entries are still there but I want the old interface...i'm thinking of going back to CrimsonBlog since you can post pics in your blog there...back to square one...

it's been a couple of days since I wrote (typed) here..been busy busy busy..dame Q, dame reports, dame utos...i've also been very busy trying to find the cheapest place fare going to Cebu. The lowest that we found was around 4k all in but I've to leave Manila before the 18ht and leave Cebu on or before the 18th din. Since I don't want that naman I'm trying to find the best and cheapest rate available..kahit na very early am flight!

We spoke this morning-early morning. I had no choice but to answer the phone since he was calling na sa landline and the noise woke my mom and sister. He kept on saying sorry. But I don't think he really knows why I was angry at him. I had to actually explain to him what happened and what I was angry about. He kept on saying sorry and how he missed me-A LOT. Surprisingly, I believe him. Not because he was crying but because I know him. He wouldn't say something he does not mean-that's what got him into trouble in the first place!

He understands that I still need to think things over. Time to heal. Time to absorb what happened. Time to pick up some of the pieces. I did ask him to not ask me to not to be angry. Buti nga di ako nagwala e. If he were in my place he would have. Knowing him, he would have raised holy hell. Time to heal muna....

After my shift yesterday (bale early monday morning na) , I took a walk. Just around Valero lang. I needed time to think. The walk did me good.


Someday
by Nickelback


How the hell did we wind up like this?
Why weren't we able?
To see the signs that we missed
try to turn the tables.
I wish you would unclench your fists,
And unpack your suitcase
lately theres been to much of this
but don't think its too late

Chorus:
nothings wrong
just as long
as you know that someday I will
someday
some how
gonna make it alright, but not right now
I know youre wondering when(you're the only one that knows that)
someday
some how
gonna make it alright, but not right now
I know you're wondering when

well I'd hope that since we're here anyway
we can end up saying
things that we always needed to say
so we can end up staying
now the stories played out like this
just like a paperback novel
lets re-write an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

Chorus

(you're the only one that knows that)

How the hell did we wind up like this?
Why weren't we able?
To see the signs that we missed
try to turn the tables.
Now the stories played out like this
just like a paperback novel
lets re-write an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror
nothings wrong
just as long

Chorus

I know 're wondering when
(you're the only one that knows that)
I know you’re wondering when
(you're the only one that knows that)
I know you're wondering when

Beauty Tips

Below is a wonderful poem Audrey Hepburn wrote when asked to share her "beauty tips." It was read at her funeral years later.

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it

once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed,

revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at

the end of each of your arms.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands;
one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.

Audrey Hepburn has always been one of my favorite movie stars. I didn't know she was so wise too.

Went to Glorietta early today with the intent of starting my Christmas Shopping (and therapy na din) and only to be met by a throing of shoppers-pami-pamilya ito! Glorietta was like a palengke!!! After a few rounds, decided to go to the office early to do some OT work good girl belle good girl *pat on the back*


Was out smoking at around 230-3am when Adrian called. He just got back sa hotel room daw nya. Man was he drunk. Not drunk as in drunk but his words were slurring. Wow what a way to talk to someone you've been waiting to talk to the whole day tapos lasing lang pala. Well the day started fine yesterday. We spoke around noon and he asked me what I wanted as pasalubong and the day just started to slide from there...He just said something that was very hurtful but despite of that I waited for him till 930pm thus the comment I entered yesterday. Well, he went out pala last night without making paalam. His rule is that I have to ask for his permission if I wanna go out or go somewhere and sya din same thing. But yesterday he didn't. I don't remember if he ever did say anything to me about it but it still doesn't erase the fact that he did not ask for my permission. What's so irritating is that if situations were reversed he would have raised hell about the whole thing. So going back, we stayed on the phone about a couple of minutes when suddenly-silence. He fell asleep pala. This got me more furious. Stayed on the line for a couple of more minutes when his hotel phone rang. Who would have called at this time of the night??????????????? Well he woke up and when he asked whoever it was on the phone: "sino to" my line suddenly gets disconnected...yes, you do the sleuthing sherlock. He does not call after 10-15 minutes. By this time I was calm na. Vey calm. I didn't bother to answer the phone anymore nor am I answering any of the calls and messages that he sent for the day. I just couldn't care less.

Why the calmness? It's not that I don't care. I do but it's better this way. This, in fact, is the first and last time I'm gonna think and talk about this thing. The lesser it is on my mind the easier for me.

Such irony...when was it ever easy to get hurt? When was it easy to pick up the pieces of your broken heart...

For this year Sec. Donald Rumsfeld was voted as Foot in Mouth award and this is what he said:

"Reports that say something hasn't happened are always interesting to me, because as we know, there are known knowns; there are things we know we know," Rumsfeld told a news briefing.

"We also know there are known unknowns; that is to say we know there are some things we do not know. But there are also unknown unknowns -- the ones we don't know we don't know."

Here's another one from a new California governor

I think that gay marriage is something that should be between a man and a woman."

Five rules to be happy.

1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.

Been waiting for 930pm to come...just remembered rest day pala...

me, i have a difficult time going out..the pagpapaalam is like your making paalam sa dad mo when you were in grade school for your first date tapos him.....his excuse is "i just said yes pero its not final pa naman" or "nayaya lang e". typical male. fucker why should I bury myself no!?!?!?! I'm gonna have a blast. Not to worry people..he seldom if not rarely reads this and by the time he does I had the time of my life na.. :P


Why do people stay in relationship? why do they even try to find their life's mate---soulmate, if you will, so rigorously as if there's a pot of gold at the end of their "looking-journey"....i'm not in the mood to expound on this tonight...I am a bit pooped (had less than 5 hours of sleep kanina) and lonely and sad.

To think that only yesterday
I was cheerrful
bright and gay
looking forward to well who wouldn't do
the role I was about to play
but as if to knock me down
reality came around
and without so much
as a mere touch
cut me into little pieces
leaving me to doubt talk about
god in his mercy who if
he really does exist
why did he desert me in my hour of need
I truly am indeed
alone again naturally.


it's been 2 days since Adrian left.....just lost...I really haven't actually felt the loneliness that one feels when the person you've been with leaves but I'm getting there...yes, I am getting there and it's not something that I am looking forward to...I've been that same road before and i can say that it's a road that I would never wish on someone to tread on...

Been very busy lately...

Just a recap of what happened since the last time i wrote

Thursday: Just stayed sa house the whole time. Quality time with my relatives.

Friday: Went to Glorietta. Just bought tela for my gown. Went out with Adrian sa gabi. Just drove around the metro. The manila bay looks spiffy. Mayor Atienza allowed some resto owners to put up bars in that area. The nice thing about it is that the establishments were all set up in bahay kubos instead of them putting up buildings that'll just cover up the beautiful view. We went around the CCP area (no, we did not go to Luneta hahahaha) just to look at the new stuff that they put up there. May StarCity na. Aliw Theatre where some international and local artists had performed before. A new thingie that just opened is a light and sound show of some kind. From the outside you see replicas of the forbidden city, that palace you see in the Red Square in Moscow, etc filled with lights inside and may giant lanterns din! We went home around 2am na. oh yeah we went to Intramuros din...such a sad state it is in now. May mga squatters na inside. Such a waste..kala ko ba wow philippines na?!?!?!?!?!

Saturday: Was s'posed to go to the gym but I was tamad na. So I just lazed around till the time I had to go get up to prepare for work.

Sunday: same thing work work work

Sweetie and I had our lunch walk again. Just talked about things and what were gonna do pag asa Cebu na sya. Absolutely love our late night walks. When we used to be together, we'd walk just around the block or sa street lang just to talk or hold hands. ganun lang. tapos uwi. sleep.

Miss those times. It's one way for me to just shut up.

Monday: Whadda**** dame queue both in E-mail and voice. Darn that ICANN e-mail drop. Time for OT. More moolah pambili ng mga luho at regalo.

Did ot for an hour. Ang totoo wla naman ako ginawa. daldal kse e. reports on the side lang ;)

When he made me hatid, i asked him again if pwede wag na sya tumuloy sa Cebu and he answered that he;'s doing it for our 'future' and I go what future? Baka mag chicks ka pa dun and he answered "I found na my Mrs. Alvarez why should I look pa." shacks. kilig ako dun a :)

Speaking of future, my mom asked me when I'll be getting married and the ever defensive me answered in one breath "di pa no. tagal pa. ano ko sira." Hay naku, ano ba namang sagot yan...Di nya alam bata pa lang ako may dream wedding book na ko...I'm more prepared than my brother kaya!

Here's a song that I really really like...


KANLUNGAN - Noel Cabangon


Panapanahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon


Natatandaan mo pa ba
Nang tayong dalawa ay unang nagkita
Panahon ng kamusmusan
Sa piling ng mga bulaklak at halaman
Doon tayo nag simulang
Mangarap at tumula


Natatandaan mo pa ba
Inukit mong puso sa punong mangga
At inalay kong gumamela
Magkahawak-kamay sa dalampasigan
Malayang tulad ng mga ibon
Ang gunita ng ating kahapon


Ang mga puno't halaman
Ay kabiyak ng ating gunita
Sa pag-lipas ng panahon
Bakit kailangang din lumisan


Panapanahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon


Ngayon ikaw ay nagbalik
At tulad ko rin ang iyong pananabik
Makita ang dating kanlungan
Tahanan ng ating tula at pangarap
Ngayon ay naglaho na
Saan hahanapin pa?


Lumilipas ang panahon
Kabiyak ng ating gunita
Ang mga puno't halaman
Bakit kailangang lumisan


Panapanahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon


Lumilipas ang panahon
Kabiyak ng ating gunita
Ang mga puno't halaman
Bakit kailangang lumisan


Panapanahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon

my mom, lola and sister are here na!

Just as I was sleeping our doorbell rang and our always noisy dogs started raising hell...fucker..ingay ingay hirap na nga makatulog..i was cursing while I was on my way to the door and vowed to give whoever it was hell for waking me up just as I was about to sleep...when, lo and behold, it was my mom, sister and lola na pala! Turned out that their plane touched down a couple of hours than the appointed time...Got to sleep na around 7am and woke up around 930..so sana di ako bangag during my shift da ba...i'm so happy...may tao na ulet sa hws...may ksama na ko sa kwismas :)

its damn frustrating

I've been "gyming" religiously-as in everyday- and nothing is happening. For the first few days I started this "go to the gym cult" I'd weigh myself everyday and instead of losing weight I was getting heavier. Everyone says its because of the developing muscles..o sya sige..so I conjured up a new training plan for myself and concentrated on the cardio and my target areas are: abs and upper arms (flabby glabby)...so i've been doing that for the last 2 weeks and i'm on my third week na but albeit the hard work NATING ES HAPENENG!!!!!!!! I looked at myself (...taba taba taba...) in the mirror after gym...actually I flailed my arms to check if my arms are still like a waving flag and, sad to say, they still are...bayang magiliw.... I piched my stomach and lo and behold malaki pa din...nynyenye....@$*Y*#$* I'm so frustrated na! What else should I do pa ba???????? fucker... I stay long na nga sa treadmill and other cardio machines..did more reps sa free weights and abs..don't eat too much and still nada. nil. go back kaya to taking hydroxycut? bahala na. i've no money din to buy those damned pills.

A week from now Adrian will be leaving for Cebu and he'll be staying there for 1-3 months depends on how good or bad the new RTA will be. I hope s/he's not a slow learner so that he can go home asap. The deal at first was that they'll fly him back during the holidays. Holidays as in a couple of days before christmas and after the new year na sya babalik sa Cebu tapos now they said na they'll fly him to Manila mga 24 and back to Cebu on Christmas Day or early morning the 26th. Shit. PS tlaga puro BS. He wants to me to go with him to Cebu and he'll pay for it daw but I really can't. Aside from my mom, sister and lola are coming home there are other things din where we can spend the money on like pambayad ng credit card bills and shopping shopping shopping..tsaka na ang travel travel. So next week I'll be a lonely girl. i don't have kasama anymore...wala na akong driver...wala nang ...bleep bleep...I just hope that this trip will do something for him. That'll it'll help him to advance in his chosen career. Me, eto ganito pa din...bagay nga tlaga ako na sa house lang...housewife ba.

3 days to go!!! My mom, sister and lola are arriving na! Yipee...may buhay na ulet sa house and I have na kakampi against stupid dog. For those who doesn't know stupid dog is my -ugh- older brother. Simply put HE IS KUPAL. I've managed throught years to prove that it's not just me who hates him but a lot of people who by single interaction with him had arrived at the same conclusion that he is KUPAL. I don't wanna ruin my happiness by making kwento about him..let's not ruin the year!

kainis...i had been planning a despedida for Adrian a couple of weeks back but I had to tell him about kse he told me that his cousin was planning a christmas party for them (cousins). I told him para at least he can tell his cousin not to schedule the same time na I scheduled my party for him but lo and behold his cousin scheduled the same day the 28th @)#*$&%&%*%U% hay naku wag na nga tapos he had the gall to tell me pa "we're attending a party this friday sa south side!" He knows na I hate that term and the fact na he was so excited pa and that he chose to forget my supposedly surprise despedida makes me tick...pota wala ng party party pumunta ka ng Cebu mag isa ngayon. Whoops there goes my Cebu trip....bwahahahaha...I also don't like going to their family's gathering. Actually when I say gathering yung mga young ones lang and not the titos, titas and his parents. Basta pag pupunta ako kailangan pag wala na yung mga yun or di tlaga sila kasama. Why...because ..i dunno ask HIM Sometimes i feel like I'm dating a high school kid and I'm the guy and he's the girl who's trying to conceal our relationship from her parents...he doesn't know that I'm kinda pissed off na (don't worry he does not read my blog on a regular basis). We're both old enough to get married and I feel like we're a pair of high school kids or a couple engaged in an illicit affair...it sucks...i never really voiced out my opinion regarding this..i'm not the type...but it definitely sucks..it's one of those things that you just put aside and don't think about so that you don't feel the pain or the uneasiness...it's one of those things that when you think about it makes you think why and you feel hurt and hollow inside...basta! it's kinda difficult to explain the feeling basta its not nice...haayyyy (very very heavy sighing)

Another reason why i don't like going is because he leaves me. I don;t have any one na ka close sa family nya except his brothers siguro but of course they'd mingle with their cousins so me, all quiet and feeling shitty sa isang sulok...i told him na about it before but he ALWAYS "forgets". I'm not the type who'd start a conversation with just anyone e me pa! And some of the people there din are not the type of people I'd go with coz some of them are loudy and rowdy and their "jokes" are downright corny...shit, if I go I should be practicing na my fake authentic looking smile..bummer...



32 Flavors

squint your eyes and look closer
I'm not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster
I am thirty-two flavors and then some
and I'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you're going to get hungry
and eat most of the words you just said

both my parents taught me about good will
and I have done well by their names
just the kindness I've lavished on strangers
is more than I can explain
still there's many who've turned out their porch lights
just so I would think they were not home
and hid in the dark of their windows
til I'd passed and left them alone

and god help you if you are an ugly girl
course too pretty is also your doom
cause everyone harbors a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room
and God help you if you are a phoenix
and you dare to rise up from the ash
a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
while you are just flying back

I'm not trying to give my life meaning
by demeaning you
and I would like to state for the record
I did everything that I could do
I'm not saying that I'm a saint
I just don't want to live that way
no, I will never be a saint
but I will always say

squint your eyes and look closer
I'm not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster
I am thirty-two flavors and then some
And I'm beyond your peripheral vision
So you might want to turn your head
Cause someday you might find you're starving
and eating all of the words you said

swinged by a couple of blogs during the first half of my shift and found some interesting links:::

Fantasy, Ancient, and Symbolic Fonts http://www.geocities.com/timessquare/alley/1557/fonts1.htm
Hobo Signs & Symbols http://www.slackaction.com/signroll.htm#
Academy of Sorcery http://www.academyofsorcery.com/index.htm

:::so, where do I sign up:::

The Best page in the Universe http://maddox.xmission.com/
and for PC users:

http://www.tomwilson.com/david/accents/alt_key_chars.doc


Saw a funny "article" made by a fellow "blogger" (what a term) To the owner of this article, I forgot to take note of your url. Pahiram lang :) ay white girl pala sya...pa-borrow!

Oneness

You know the kind of toothbrush holder that has four holes in the top, so the average American family can share it? That's the type Doug and I have in the master bath.

Two toothbrushes, four holes. Lots of space to stake a claim. Perfect, right?

When I place my wet toothbrush in the holder, I put it directly opposite his, with the bristles facing out, on the side closest to my sink. Kind of like when I turn away from him in a queen-sized bed, and prefer to face my end table.

When Doug puts his brush away, he snuggles it into the vacant hole right next to my brush, even if mine is still dripping wet, and he points the bristles squarely in my direction.

What's more, I am gathering evidence that he even turns my brush's bristles to face his so they're nearly touching, almost kissing.

It kind of freaks me out. It's like our toothbrushes have boundary issues.

The thing is, our toothbrushes are identical, having been free gifts from the dentist in exchange for giving him our retirement money every six months. Sometimes, if they're nestled too close together in their little spot, I cannot tell them apart. The older they get, the closer they come to resemble each other, even though he is much harder on his than I am on mine.

My little brush struggles in vain to hang onto its identity. They're a great couple, but sometimes this oneness thing can be overwhelming.

There's a brand new purple toothbrush in the linen closet that I'm thinking of using. If I do, I'll sidle it up nice and close to that white one in the next hole over, and lose my fear of confusing one with the other.

And then I'll hop in bed and roll to the middle to kiss the man I love.

TESTS TESTS..

39% bitch!
which is higher than the worldwide average 38%

The Purity Test 66%
The Personality Test Dreamer

Nakita ko ang umaga today. I had to get up very early in the morning for my PDT and today is the first time that I woke up at this time of the day...on my way to work 2 people commented that I was masungit..whaddafuck....if di ko lang kayo neighborhood...bwist...sa office people were asking what was wrong and one had the audacity to ask if I had sore eyes...masyadong maaga may araw na matagal ko nang di nakikita sa ganitong oras kakagising ko lang nakatulog ako ng ula una ng umaga so......shut!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm too tired to blog...dame nonsense escalated e-mails...dame reports...na dapat di naman ako gumagawa...pota!

I have so many kwento pa naman..it's 330am na and di pa din ako makauwi sa dame ng gusto kong gawin and I can't even decide where to begin...

i gotta go na..i'm going home na but before that WE gotta talk...WW3 kme...that's one of my many kwentos....off to my rest day..finally!

shiyet. oic na nga ko. pakeng shet. well...sometimes we gotta do what we gotta do..buti nalang di pa ko pinapa skill sa tier 2..god no! sana they forgot...hihihi...pero Mike gave me some sup tasks na..actually, i've been some of those tasks long before I was an oic medyo somekindasorta official na nga lang...i'm not telling anyone though..yung mga seatmates ko lang (***waves at Kirk the insane baby munchkins and the owdster ***)

i gotta go na..my sundo is here na....

Got a cool matrix effect thingie on the net kaso when I tried it out and corny kse you can't program it...bummer

how is that no matter what you there would always be that one person (or 2 or 3...) that you though is your friend and turns out that that person is such a faker....Adrian filed for a .5 pto last night and he texted his work mates about it just to let them know. This "guy/girl" backstabber accidentally sent him the same text that he sent with the comment about him being kups. The message was supposed to be sent to another person. Adrian got riled up about it. He does not get riled up so quickly. Believe me if I tell you that he is the most patient and understanding person that you'd ever meet. I'm not saying this coz I'm his girl but because it's the truth. So now you know why we get along no matter how bitchy and bossy I am. I just told him nalang to send the message back to that backstabber. Ha. Fuck I'm the one who's all riled up because of that bitch. Makes me wanna slap her. How can someone do that or say something bad about a person who is such an angel to a fault. argh!.. Nakakairita....

Why do I say that he's such an angel....
1. Tangina! kaya ba naman nya ko tiisin e. I'm not naman the devil incarnate but when I do have my moods..putcha...I plead the fifth to self incrimination...

2. He listens to what I say and what I'm not saying. Sometimes he remember things na you said and forgot about.

3. He'll give you the stars if he can but since he can't he gave me heaven on earth instead. If he had his way, I won't have to spend a cent when we go out but since pays for his siblingS (take note S) tuition he can't pay for everything

4. Such a family-oriented and religious (the second really does not matter to me) person. Minsan di na pwede pero pag sa family kakayanin kahit umaabuso na

5. happy boy (as opposed to masungit me). Makita lang ako nyan naka colgate smile na agad. You always feel na he's eager and excited to see you kahit na ilang hours pa lang kayo di nagkikita. You always feel wanted, loved and that feeling na he loves you even if he's miles away from you.haaayy

6. Kwento boy. Verbatim mag kwento.

7. Madaling utusan...house trained ba...hahahahaha! (Baby dona sweetie :) hehehe )

8. Has a nice voice...dyan ako nabola..think craig david singing a sweet mellow song..

9. Remembers dates may it be our anniversary or someone's birthday. A true romantic at heart and gentleman too. Not just to me but to anyone!

10. The type of guy who will go back to the middle of the street just to help an old lady to cross.

11. Will do everything to make you comfy when you go out.

12. Kaibigan na di mahirap dalhin. Kaibigan na pang matagalan.

13. Wakes up in the middle of the night even if he's so sleepy to check on me

14. When I'm having one of my bad back episodes and I need to lie down sa floor, he makes sure that the floor is clean, put a blanket and a pillow to make me comfortable and plop himself down beside me. Matutulog din sya sa floor.

15. .....bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppp! oops, di na pwede ito. X na e ;)


Think Aidan of SATC ***good-hearted, good-looking, emotionally honest and ready to commit***

Kaya tuloy minsan napapasimba ako e...thank you lord a.

1. What food do you like that most people hate?
****pancit canton with sabaw!

2. What food do you hate that most people love?
****curry..blech

3. What famous person, whom many people may find attractive, is most unappealing to you?
****britney spears! WTT!!!!

4. What famous person, whom many people may find unappealing, do you find
attractive?
****duh....
5. What popular trend baffles you?
****the tops with the ruffles thing and polka dots!

Woke up sweating! I hate sweating! My aircon's busted. Nagyeyelo ito! (Lagyan ko kaya ng ice tray)..I've to ask the aircon man to check on it although my dad sez na it needs cleaning lang daw..Yeah right...kaya ko buhatin ang aircon! There's so many things that I need to get repaired sa house but of course kailangan yung aircon and fridge ko muna sa room..mas importante yun e..hehehehe...

Just read my friend's blog..huhuhuhu dapat sumama ako sa Subic..putcha ano naman kse magagawa ko e wala na ko money pati si honey no money din..when my mother dear arrives HA! mayaman ako...

Finally my back pain disapperead! pakeng shet the whole day I had difficulty doing mundane tasks such as bending over (to get some thing lang po!) or sitting down and after drinking my second pain killer and after hours of putting hot compress on my tailbone nwala din sya...hay salamat

whaddya think of the new skin??? nicey nicey?

it's not yet done...i'll look pa for things to put in...to clutter it!

i was so bored at work yesterday (yes I was in the office s'posedly to work but I was just surfing) that I tried out some words in google and I found me! medyo kewl sa una.. first try: belinda perez peoplesupport and second: belinda perez friendster and you'll see my blog..galeng galeng....

I was offered to be and sme-oic and until now I remain to be undecided. This should be a stepping stone for me but I know how an sme life works..i live with one and I really do not want to to take supervisory calls e ang sarap sarap ng buhay ko ngayon. I go to work and just answer e-mails. With no person on the other line shouting and cursing at you. Adrian does not want me to accept it din but I really dunno....it is a stepping stone na din...think think think.....

spoke to my mom, dad and brother last sunday...ha! told them to buy me PS2 para I can watch na my dvds! Told my mom din if she could come home earlier than December 4. Syempre para may kasama na ko sa hws and para I have money na ulet and of course, after several years of not experiencing christmas I finally get to experience it again! haaaayyy salamat! Every Christmas and New Year, I'd be one of those people who would want to be at work instead of staying at home at pag Christmas as in during the day I'm asleep! What a way to spend the holidays..all by yourself..stupid dog doesn;t count...saya ay dog not my brother...blech!

Was all by myself sa shift till 730pm. shit. dame e-mails tuloy. Adrian went to the province. I would have wanted to go to our provincebut can't coz of work. Haaaayy work work work...next week I'm s'posed to go Subic with my girlfriends but I'm not sure If I can. As usual work. Our shifts are so weird. An example would e my shift which is 430pm. The time is normal but what is weird is that ako lang mag isa sa shift na yun. Why? LLLoooooonnngggg explanation.

We went back no to our respective houses. I would have wanted for us to stay or at least kahit si Adrian but he didn't want to stay without me. Me naman I've to go home coz my folks are coming home this month. Sana we find a halfway house, if not our own at least with friends.

Next week I've to make pa-sukat na kay manag glo for my wedding gown..well, hehe, not MY wedding but of stupid dog's. Hay naku, I really can't understand why for heaven's name ako ang ginawa na maid of honor e I hardly know the bride much less the groom who happens to be my brother..bwisit...isn't there some sort of law for this?

Just took a personality disorder test...uh-oh!

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

Paranoid
Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long grudges.

Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

Antisocial
A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.

Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

Histrionic
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

Narcissistic
Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

Avoidant
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

Dependent
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.

Obsessive-Compulsive
Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.

Whew naubos din ang queue..

according to www.kabalarians.com:

Your name of Maria gives you the desire to understand and to help others but, at the same time you can become too involved in their problems and, as a result, worry too much. You desire a home and family of your own and have the ability to create understanding and harmony in family association as you are pliable, forgiving, and tactful. You love children and would not hesitate to care for any children who might need you. Whenever possible, you avoid argument and turmoil because you prefer not to face an issue if it means hurting anyone's feelings. You shrink from sordidness and poverty because you feel very deeply for anyone in unfortunate circumstances. Though you recognize your responsibilities, you are inclined to put things off until you are forced to take action. If given the opportunity, you could develop musical and artistic abilities.

Health Weaknesses

This name is a fairly healthy influence, although it does not give you as much vitality as many people have. Any tension centres in the fluid functions causing overweight, varicose veins, swelling of the legs and ankles, kidney trouble, bladder trouble, or female problems.

For my second name:

As Belinda you are rather serious-minded, responsible, and stable. You have the gift of tact and diplomacy, and possess a charming, easy-going nature which endears you to others. You have a serious desire to understand the heart and mind of everyone, and could be very effective in a career or in volunteer work where you are handling people and serving in a humanitarian way. This name also gives you a love of home and family, and as a parent you would likely be fair and understanding. You remember the thoughtful little expressions of affection and appreciation that mean so much to others, and you have the ability to create a warm and loving environment. However, you tend to put things off and avoid facing issues because of a lack of confidence and uncertainty. You often need encouragement from someone before you can come to a decision.

Health Weaknesses

This name creates a generally well-balanced and healthy nature, but any weakness in the health would cause problems in the fluid functions, such as kidney or bladder trouble, overweight, or swelling of the legs and ankles.

i'm back! Just got back from a 3 day rest day...sarap..puro malls ang pinuntahan ko..nyarks...hongkong..gallera..ek plans that all went bust!

Thursday: stayed muna sa hws in Makati. Chilled with Kits till around 4 then went home na....ha! buti nalang maayos...mukhang nalaman ata nila na uuwi ako kaya nagayos ng bahay..hihihihi...just fixed my room a bit but dumpred all my stuff sa room ng parents ko since I have to ask the housekeeper to clean it pa...nanood lang ng tv the whole night..slept at around 3...had a very difficult time sleeping coz I'm so sanay na may katabi ako :::my sweetik::: hay naku that's one of the many things that I'll miss when we move out...sarap sarap kaya may katabi..especially if sya yung katabi mo...shiyet....there are some things na akala mo sa movies lang nangyayari pero may gush**** with my sweetik it all comes true...i'm not saying this because we're together but for real tlaga...have you ever slept with a guy in the nook of his arms all night without him telling you to move off in the middle of the night? Men usually will tell you to but with him he'll cuddle with you the whole night..if he feels na I'm not in bed he'll get up from the bed and look for me...nag aalala na yan. Madalas sumasakit yung back and it entails me to sleep sa floor para mawala yung sakit. Even if I don't ask him to, he'll lie down with me sa floor and insists on doing so...

Friday (Family day): He and his sister made me sundo sa hws. Went to greenhills and met up with jerome. Ate sa Le Ching. As usual bentang benta nanaman yung kaibigan ko na yun. Sa tagal naming inikot yung greenhills wla akong nabili ni isa.. :( huhuhuhu.... At 5pm we fetched Arnold at their Aunt's house and went to ATc (naks ATC na ko a!) ikot ikot kme as usual then afterwards we went to their house to bring his siblings home and stayed for a bit then we went sa house sa makati to drop off Jerome and get some stuff para iuwi then Adrian made me hatid na....wawa naman sya...puro drive ang ginawa....di man lang nag reklamo....

Saturday: hay salamt di family day...he made me sundo..kaso di pa ko nakakaligo coz walang water sa hws! so sabe nya sa gym nalang daw ako maligo..o sya sige na nga...we went to dampa to eat lunch (walang ligo ligo ito a) but he gave me a tour of the new Macaoagal Highway then after lunch dumaan lang kme sa hws nila to drop off the food then went to Fitness First Alabang to make ligo then went to Ayala Alabang to hear mass sana kaso tapos na so we just said a little prayer then went to Cuenca Park coz may bazaar sila dun...wala naman nabili at same din naman na nakita ko sa greenhills then we went to festival mall. Ate in Pizza Hut then did our monthly grocery shopping....family habit....grocery once a month for our stuff ;) naks.....he gave me the tour again of our 'future village' ..may gush mukha seryoso ata si sweetik at sa Ayala Alabang daw ako itititira...hmmmm pwede na pwede na...hehehe....di naman bawal mangarap e...we went to their house to drink with his siblings...naku ayun seryoso usapan till 2am si kuya nagsesermon....since Adrian was too tipsy to bring me home dun nalang ako nag sleep sa bed nya. sya sa bed ni Andrew. Si Arnold sa own bed nya. Si Andrew na dislocate sa room ng parents nya...binuksan pa yung aircon ng kapatid...special daw kse e..sweet naman...

today start of my new shift..430pm...well so far so good...i haven't settled in yet so do ko pa naffeel if it's a good shift or not...

Here is a sad song that I used to sing and listen to because I always thought that this was the theme song of my life....Its kinda sad :( Not all of us were blessed to have very good looks or a good life (moneyed and all) but hey! That is how life is....It sucks...Seems a bit cliche but ganun tlaga ohey! ....I learned the truth at seventeen.......nuninuninuninu.....

At Seventeen
by Janis Ian


I learned the truth at seventeen
That love was meant for beauty queens
And high school girls with clear skinned smiles
Who married young and then retired.
The valentines I never knew
The Friday night charades of youth
Were spent on one more beautiful
At seventeen I learned the truth.
And those of us with ravaged faces
Lacking in the social graces
Desperately remained at home
Inventing lovers on the phone
Who called to say come dance with me
and murmured vague obscenities
It isn't all it seems
At seventeen.
A brown eyed girl in hand me downs
Whose name I never could pronounce
said, Pity please the ones who serve
They only get what they deserve.
The rich relationed hometown queen
she marries into what she needs
A guarantee of company
And haven for the elderly.
Remember those who win the game
Lose the love they sought to gain
Indebentures of quality
And dubious integrity.
Their small town eyes will gape at you
in dull surprise when payment due
Exceeds accounts received
At seventeen.
To those of us who know the pain
Of valentines that never came,
And those whose names were never called
When choosing sides for basketball.
It was long ago and far away
The world was younger than today
And dreams were all they gave for free
To ugly duckling girls like me.
We all play the game and when we dare
To cheat ourselves at solitaire
Inventing lovers on the phone
Repenting other lives unknown
That call and say, come dance with me
and murmur vague obscenities
At ugly girls like me
At seventeen.

so syempre sobrang updated to hindi ba....punyemas tamad na ko to the max..shiyet...
last saturday (october 18) we stayed in Discovery for Marc and Kitz's "finally together" party...the party was ok...but we really didn't mingle. we just stayed sa room and watched cable and ate syempre.....We went there with Mishka, Anna, Jerome and Adrian so that we can dress up there na and but whatever was needed for the party...it was an open party but your ticket so that you can go in is a bottle of either red wine or vodka or better yet bc! When we got there Ica and Nins were there na..dapat may balloons kaso di pumayag ang discovery kaya iniwan nalang sa car ni ica..wawa naman...sayang..good thing di lumipad yung car nya... from the hws anna, adrian, jerome and I were all in our hws clothes...in tagalog..naka pambahay pa! astig..naka rating ng discovery in tsinelas and butas butas na damit...akala ata squatter kme...hahaha....tamad pa kme maligo pagdating dun kaya ayun dumating na si vinca and pat (arriola) and we were still in our pamabahay clothes...after we took a bath, we went to podium to eat dinner at sitio...shit!we (adrian, jerome and I) were so famished!!!!! ayun si jeron kain karpintero ulet....we talked about what nasty stuff Kitz was spreading against me and Aids....tangina buti sana kung totoo da ba e hello puro figment ng kanyang imagination....before that kse when we were still in the hotel, anna, vince and I were talking with other people sa tabi and along the conversation ( i dunno kung paano nag bring up) bigla nalang sinabi ni vince na "oo nga e nagsasayang ka nga daw ng tubig sabe ni kitz.." Me naman, because of the noise wasn't able to understand it kaya smile nalang ako tapos si Anna sabe nya " Bels, totoo." I just shrugged my shoulders since I wasn't able to hear what Vince said kaya when we got back sa room I asked Anna about it and dun nya sa akin sinabi yung sinabi ni Vince....whaddafuck!!!!!! pota! if she was something to say dapat sa harap namin not behind our backs...just thinking about it makes me wanna make her sugod na...kaya after that incident Adrian decided (as in no buts na) that we should move out na daw. We were planning to move out mid november before my mom came home since my mom asked to go back sa house but this kinda speeded things up a bit...bwisit tlaga...At first I thought that she was ok but it turns out that she isn't pala...para walang gulo and respeto nalang kay A since she was the one who referred us to her we'll just go nalang with no rekalamo about the whole thing...bahala nalang sa kanya si lord...kaya ata nawala yung bag nya e...i know its masama for saying this and for wishing this to anyone but baka karma na din na nanakaw yung bag coz of the lies she was spreading against us....si jerome din aalis na kse sya din naiinis na but since wala pa syang work and money (walang pera pero may 2 gold cards sa wallet) kaya di pa sya makaalis...so teka....asan na ba ko sa wento ko???? A sa megamall after dinner, nag ikot ikot muna kme keber na may mga naghihintay sa amin coz kme nga bibili ng pulutan at cups (hehehe)...sale sa megamall pero wala naman ako mabili tsaka kse dame tao nabbwisit na ko sa init at gulo...after an hour or 2 of making ikot we bought the stuff na and went back to the room na...basta kme nila Adrian and jerome dun lang kme sa room and didnt; mingle coz bad trip na rin coz of what we discovered plus we really didn't like the people...

tomorrow is my last day...due to some swap chorva I managed to get thursday to saturday off...tapos sunday baka 430pm na sked ko since that's the date when the rotation will take place...yehey!....san kayao nice pumunta...hay my gadz di na ko magyaya sa mga friendsters ko at baka ma-disappoint nanamn ako no! hmph! (hint hint hint)..Adrian is thinking na we might go sa Tagaytay but we haven't decided anything yet....bahala na...

shiyet over personal ako tengengot...makapag break na nga muna.....

i'm so fucking bored na with work! di na ko nag aanswer ng e-mails..i wanna resign na!!!!!!!!!!!

so what should I do ba???

Your Name: maria belinda perez
Your Date of Birth: 09/15/1977
Your Question or Information: should i resign now?

Past Algiz - Protection, fortunate influences, fate on your side, victory and success, good luck and personal strength.

Present Lagaz - Intuition, imagination, success in studies, creativity, vitality and passion (especially for women).

Future Ing - Fertility, successful conclusion to issue or situation, ending one cycle and beginning another.

Cast the runes here:
Rune Caster

almost all tools are down right now....teka...work nanaman....another topic...

it's shift bid week and I'm # 2 sa ranking so I now have the upper hand when choosing shifts...BUT BUT BUT...the shifts are so panget! I might try the 10x4 na shift coz i only go to work 4 days a week yun nga lang its an 11 hour shift which includes a 1 hour lunch and 2 15 minute breaks and 15 minutes pala for personal....so bale thats 9 and a hald hours of work..well not really work since I'm in the e-mail team and the work load is VERY VERY light.....this time I wanna have weekends off para people would want to swap with me. I was s'posed to have weekends of na sana for my current shift but I'd rather have weekdays off coz i like working during weekends because we practically get paid for doing nothing but a team mate of mine wanted weekends off so I gave it na to her and when I need weekends off people wouldn't want to swap with me coz they'd rather stay home on weekends so now I'll get the best shift then swap nalang with whoever wants to have weekends off pero not permanently "sliding sliding" lang is the term sweetik called it. But nga the shifts are so panget. If i don't get the 10x4 shifts the 8x5 shifts na meron for morning and afternoon are either so early or so late. Actually I like the 430pm shift but the rest days are panget thursday and friday plus there's no tugma na shift for sweetik coz their availbale shifts are only 6am, 1pm or 930pm....hay naku, kaninis NEVER na kme nag ka sabay ng shift and rest days....sana he gets promoted para flexi time na sya :) hihihihihihi

so fucking bored...as usual....

tonight i'm s'posed to go to this party in Ortigas but I dont wanna go...don't like the crowd but Adrian insists that we go coz one of the bday celebrants is his best friend. shit. i dunno..i told him that I'd rather stay at home on a saturday night that be with those kinds of people....last year was the first and last time that I hung out with them...well not really with but...you get the picture....i talked to sweetik's friends lang and NOT TO THEM....the other people are not really his friends but his bestfriends' friends na naging friends nya na din...bus still they are not MY friends! so what will happen kaya later...i bet we'll go then hung out for an hour or two then go somewhere after..sana mga 15 minutes lang or else...i can wait naman sa car e....eat and run nalang sana baka makayanan ko pa...shit! sweetik just called and sabe nya we're going there daw >:( arrggghhhh...sana nalang walang manloloko sa akin about being fat and sana the food is masarap or else makakapatay ako ng tao!

just finished experimenting with some new colors and fonts for my blog..ang hirap ng html!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for 2 straight days maganda ang horoscope ko...pag di pa gumanda ang aking kinabukasan..patayan na to!..but who??? ngerk...

Virgo Daily Horoscope
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by Astrocenter.com

Add a spark to your life today, dear Virgo. It could be that things are getting stale and boring for you. If this is the case, consider the possibility that you are simply not challenging yourself nearly enough. Remember that you are responsible for lighting your own fire. You have the perfect opportunity to get something started today, so go for it. Feel free to bring in other people to help get your mind in motion.

Just got my daily horoscope via e-mail...i just hope that it's true...

For my sweetik:
Leo Daily Horoscope
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by Astrocenter.com

Are you technically single, but very deeply involved with someone, dear Leo? If so, don't be surprised if today you receive a proposal of marriage. Events over the past few days have brought you very close together, and have greatly intensified the bond between you. Your partner may want to legalize that bond. Do you? If there is even the smallest doubt, give yourself some time to think. Acting on impulse is not a good idea right now.

For me:
Virgo Daily Horoscope
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by Astrocenter.com

Exciting news could come to you today, dear Virgo, that could bring a lot of joy into your life. Your income may soon skyrocket, and more opportunities to advance yourself professionally should start coming thick and fast. You may even receive public acknowledgment in some way. This isn't the end of the line, however - this is only the beginning! You'll be glad to know you can expect this trend to continue for some time.

was s'posed to meet up with my friends in eastwood but Jon and a couple of other people said na traffic was horrible and that the place was crawling with basura na daw (read: trashy looking people) so I decided not to go. Sayang jon was gonna make me hatid pa naman since he was also s'posed to go there. well next time nalang. my friend texted me naman na I didn't miss much anyway so it didn't matter I went or not.

Another friend asked if I wanted naman to go to greenbelt and hang out lang over coffee but I declined and said na I had a previous gimik when it truth I wasn't gonna go na anymore to the first....damned traffic and those beer guzzlers! I opted to stay home nalang sa house and catch up on my sleep....i also wasn't feeling that well since I drank several medicines during the day kaya I was feeling surprisingly very hungry and wuzzy fuzzy...unfortunately I got to sleep na around 2am :(

Later tonight I have a long overdue with Adrian...he's gonna hear mass, drop off his brother somewhere then make me sundo after my shift ends at 10pm...i dunno yuet what we're gonna do or where we're going basta it's nice to be able to get out again. Before we lived together, we'd always go out every wednesday, since that was our common restday and first do whatever errands we have like paying the bills, then go to the gym together, do some shopping if it was shopping week then watch a movie or go to timezone and play all the kiddie games so we'd get a lot of tickets. we actually have around 200-300 tickets now but I heard that they dont give out tickets anymore and that the credit or number of tickets are just shown in your time zone card..nagtitipid na rin sila...

Was wrong with me??? I have this ultra freak "fascination" with my beau's exes. Not naman fascination.....pero weird tlaga...like hearing stories about what they did...where they went..etc..and found livejournal of one of his ex on the net and with great intense tinapos ko ito in one sitting...F R E A K Y!!!!! He's getting pissed na nga with me coz I always ask him to make kwento about his "chicks" before we sleep para pampatulog for me...he always says na wala na syang kwento pero later on he's starting to blab na...sus.

another freaky confession, as friendster I only check out girls not guys..naka qualify na yung user search ko na dapat puro girls lang na lookig for men and between the ages 24-28...lesbo tendencies...i don't think so...ask my sweetik pa...

ang kweepy in a nice way ng friendster! been seeing a lot of grade school (AC Antipolo), High school and college batch and school mates...teka nasulat ko na ata ito e..hahahaha...anyways, on to my daldal....hmph...nwala na ko sa momentum ko...well i'll go na muna......

ppsstttt....just saw a girl walk by..i've been seeing her for the longest time and everyday I have this gargantuan itching of approaching her and taking her to marks and take her shopping for a new bra...my gads! ang laki ng boos na pero its ...zoinks! as in asa stomach nya na ata..sus ...panget na nga sya panget pa hinaharap nya sa buhay..poor little..este big girl.....

Runecaster v1.1

Your Name: Maria Belinda H. Perez
Your Date of Birth: 09/15/1977
Your Question or Information: what will happen to me

Past Gebo - Gifts, partnerships on all realms, sex magick, brilliance, integration of energies.

Present Ing - Fertility, successful conclusion to issue or situation, ending one cycle and beginning another.

Future Fehu - Increase of wealth and possessions, protection of valuables. Used to send energy on its way, fire in its uncontrolled, primal state.

Cast the runes here:
Rune Caster


....comment: parang di ata ito truly.....C R A P

its a slow day as usual...3 e-mails palang ako since I started my shift at 1pm. I really love my shift!!! And of course, the people I'm with. Jon is the hearthrob. Although I really cannot figure out why...hehehe...he really is mabait. that I can say. The other seatmate is ats. athea. For some odd reason bigla kmeng nagka "S" sa "owfis" nicknames namin. Her atS. Moi, belS. well, what can I say about her.....wla...ats is ats. nice to be with. puro kalokohan din. kasama sa laitan. lakas kumai but she never gets fat! arggghhhhhh!

something that made my day sira yesterday. they blocked friendster.com sa office. bwisit! wala na tuloy ako mapuntahan! hay naku, why do people insists of making other peoples lives miserable...KJ! i signed both for ringo and myspace.com but I like the latter better...parang friendster ang interface...almost....but whaddaheck! bwisit pa din sila for blocking friendster!

Last night, we went to Kroc in Greenbelt 3 to meet up with Adrian's cousins. Well, it wasn't really fun..pwede na...something to do on a weekend pero it could have been more fun.....i was damned bored..wala naman ako makausap ng matino tapos Adrian left me pa!!!! argh!!!!!!!!! bwiseeetttt! as if naman closely closely kme ng mga kamg anak nya no! he loveeessss doing that.....nakakainis...gave him a piece of my mind when we left his cousins na to go to Segafredo to meet up with our housemates...

I haven't been going out lately...as in months na ata...pathetic!..i miss my friends....my girlfriends....invited them before for dinner but only 2 confirmed..everyne was busy ....huhuhuhu....some of them even forgot my birthday..the gall! friendsters nga sila!

10:15pm na..i wanna go home and sleep or watch dvd....but i'm still waiting for Adrian..as usual OT nanaman sya for 30 minutes daw...hhhrrrrrr.....i asked him earlier If OT sya tonight and he said no...hay naku..buti nalang I didn't close my computer yet...this is what I looove about my job and my touchpoint..unlimited surfing ::::: yAy! (except for the surf controL >:| )

i'm a nag...yes I am....i'm bossy..yes I am...i'm a bitch....somekinda....i'm laitera....yes..to the point that I if given a chance I can make it a habit....so ano ba to..i'm making lait myself..hehehe...no naman..i'm just trying to.....i dunno...naawa na kse ako kay Aids.not awa as in awa...compared to other people i have it good and for me to treat him shabbily..well may hangganan din yan and baka mapundi and iwan nya nalang ako...shiyet! i know pa naman several women who would love to fill my spot!

more about those women next time! gotta go...ciao!

B e l i n d a

what's wrong with blogspot today? I can't modify my main template no matter what I do...hay naku...nakakairita a...minsan na nga lang ako sipagin mag blog down time naman...bwiseeettt..i'll do this nalang another day...see yah!

1. Who is your favorite singer/musician? Why?
:::::lots! lots!:::::

2. What one singer/musician can you not stand? Why?
..........salbakuta!

3. If your favorite singer wasn't in the music business, do you think you would still like him/her as a person?

i dunno

4. Have you been to any concerts? If yes, who put on the best show?

last concert was feb of 2002...i'm not sure which one exactly but it was either Bryan McKnight or Freestyle with Side A..galeng galeng....

5. What are your thoughts on downloading free music online vs. purchasing albums? Do you feel the RIAA is right in its pursuit to stop people from dowloading free music?


......s_u_c_k_s_

THAT"S IT PANSIT

TheSpark's DeathTest

"I'm afraid we have some bad news. Please, you might want to stay seated."



Mark your calendar or Palm V. You can expect to die on:


August 17, 2050
at the age of 72 years old.


On that date you will most likely die from:

Cancer (43%)
Heart Attack (11%)
Suicide (9%)
Homicide (6%)
Alien Abduction (6%)


more tests...more tests...more tests... (in school I hated tests tapos now puro ako tests tests...)..o eto daw kung kelan ako mamatay...HALA! hay naku..bahala na tlaga kung kelan ako mamamatay....

Last monday was my 26th birthday! punyemas 26 na ko and san na ko nakarating????? wla wla wla....eto rep pa din. at least e-mail na. consuelo de bobo...hay naku....kelan ba uurong ang aking career? or when will I be able to find a better job???

When I was young, all I ever wanted to be was a housewife and a mother. During one retreat that I attended, we were asked what our greated ambition were and I was the only one who answered "to be a good mom and house wife". The retreat master didn't know what to say and I remember him asking me If I had any other dream no matter how small and I smiled and said no. Paki mo ba e yun yung dream ko no!!! Well, unfortunately, at this age..(yeah yah yeah i'm 16 este 26....)...I'm neither...well I guess that's how life is...pero at least I already found my sweetik....thank God for small miracles...

Last monday night, I uttered a small prayer...well not really a prayer...bulong lang kay Lord na sana the next few days will be malamig and lo and behold...it's been raining since Tuesday morning..thankS Gods! sarap tuloy matulog..tapos may katabi pa ko....woooohhhooooo!!!!!

Got this from one blogs that I visited...

"There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldnt expect you to understand that or even believe in it, but trust me; there are some LOVE that don't go away. and maybe that makes them crazy, but I think we should all be lucky to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity, somebody who never lets go, somebody who cherishes you forever... "

yey! rest day ko na bukas...found out the result of the recent promotion bruhaha and as expected I didn't make it...well ganyan tlaga...ano buzzzz kelan ba tlaga ako mppromote!?!?!? well i guess i better start doing some kissing of the ass and pabibo...yuuuccckkkk...but hey sometimes you really have to do it para mapansin ka...my current sup asked if I wanted to transfer to gy para daw ma utilize ang "talents" ko...TALENTS???? what fucking talents???? namputcha..di naman ako marunong tumulay sa rope or kumain ng apoy.....hay naku....i'm still thinking about it pero I really like my current shift na...not too early and not too late either and I get to sleep in the evening pa! ano ba gagawin ko?..abangan...

Idol


The ULTIMATE personality test
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nakaka addict na tong quizilla na to kahit I know naman na its crap! crap! crap...nakaka aliw lang..
tonight I'm gonna sleep all alone...sweetik went home :( buhuhu....wala na kong extra pillow...it's kinda nice sleeping with him....you have that feeling of warmth.....knowing that you are safe...and syempre you get little hugs and kisses na rin...tsalap....hehehe....i guess tonight I have the whole bed to myself...bwahahahaha......i'm gonna watch some dvds..smoke to death and sleep ..tapos bukas gym nanaman....ha!!!! mikhanh health buff na health buff ako a....

shit! i really gotta lose weight na no! yun nalang birthday gift ko to myself...i'm getting annoyed na with people teasing me about my being fat.....potangina! so what ****** Nakiki ride on na nga lang ako e pero deep inside I'm so fucking pissed...i think that's what I gotta learn to do...say what is on my mind exactly para no BS na from anyone even from Adrian....hay naku...naiirita na ko.......pms pms pms...

"Maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me, and after all..you're my Wonderwall.."

This morning ( mid morning actually), natapos din yung away namin ni aids....as usual ako nanaman si...wala--ikaw..ok lang...basta....whatever.....nagagalit yan kse when we fight ako si (VERY!) quiet girl.....i'm one of those na mamatay ka sa silence ko...i really dunno why I'm like..i just am!.....and it drives him crazy because he never knows what's wrong..why I'm angry and what I want....nagrereklamo na yan pero eto nagtyatyaga pa din sa akin.....for some odd reason he's still loves me and is very very very patient with me ....well....e i won't even ask why na at baka matauha pa yan....Lord thank you nalang po a....it's really just one of those things tlaga na you really have to thank the good lord for ...well for me, it's one of those things that makes me a believer in God...haaayyy lord..kahit papano ang bait bait mo sa akin :)

Eto pang lighten ng moment. This was forwarded to me a couple of months (o year na ata) ago and I saved it kse ang funny:::

1. "Okay, okay! I take it back. Unfuck you!!!"
2.. "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing?!"
3. "How many times do I have to flush before you go away?"
4. "Well this day was a total waste of make-up"
5. "Well aren't we a bloody ray of sunshine?"
6. "Don't bother me, I'm living happily ever after."
7. "Do I look like a fucking people person!"
8. "This isn't an office. It's HELL with fluorescent lighting"
9. "I started out with nothing still have most of it left"
10. "I pretend to work, they pretend to pay me"
11. "YOU!!... off my planet!!!"
12. "Therapy is expensive. Popping bubble plastic is cheap. You choose"
13. "Practice random acts of intelligence and senseless acts of
self-control"
14. "Errors have been made. Others will be blamed"
15. "And your cry-baby, whiny-assed opinion would be.....?"
16. "I'm not crazy. I've been in a very bad mood for 30 years."
17. "Sarcasm is just one more service I offer."
18. "Whatever kind of look you were going for, you missed"
19. "Do they ever shut up on your planet?"
20. "I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable"
21. "Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realise you haven't
gone to sleep yet"
22. "Back off!! You're standing in my aura."
23. "Don't worry. I forgot your name too."
24. "I just want revenge. Is that so wrong?"
25. "I work 45 hours a week to be this poor."
26. "Nice perfume. Must you marinate in it."
27. "Not all men are annoying. Some are dead."
28. "Wait...I'm trying to imagine you with a personality"
29. "Chaos, panic and disorder . . . my work here is done."
30. "Ambivalent? Well yes and no."
31. "You look like shit. Is that the style now?"
32. "Earth is full. Go home."
33. "Aw, did I step on your poor little bitty ego?"
34. "I'm not tense, just terribly, terribly alert."
35. "A hard-on doesn't count as personal growth."
36. "You are depriving some village of an idiot."
37. "If assholes could fly, this place would be an airport"

YOU EAT PEOPLE!!!


what's YOUR deepest secret?
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I EAT people???? ha! baka during....hehehehe




so if I come from dark water....ano daw ako??? parang ayoko ata to a...yikes:::::::

etong quizilla na to ok sana pero laging wrogn spelling...i'm PULL????? ...Di ako yan a...


You come from Dark Water. You are solitary and
find peace in yourself, or maybe you're
turmoiled but PULL off peace.


Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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Tomboy


What's your sexual appeal?
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hhhmmmm.......ang babaw ko no??? napaka mundane daw ng test na to..hellooo! e bakit nyo ginawa?....e hello bat ko naman tinake??? hehehe


eto next:

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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THIS IS DEFINITELY ME! ME! ME! ME! ME!

I was in stitches while watching Finding Nemo! Sobrang laugh trip lalo na tong si Dory (voice over: Ellen Degeneres).....I think I'm gonna watch later ulet....

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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ako ba ito?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

it's a sunday and I'm in the office...pathetic no??? well, it's my fault din naman. I had the choice before to have weekends off but I chose tuesday and wednesday off because I like going to work on weekends! yeah yeah yeah..pathetic...but not for me...i go to work on weekends which are always slow days meaning few calls and few e-mails from customers and I get to surf and roam around and I get to pay 7++.00 as my usual pay rate....

there's a big sale in glorietta that I'm dying to go to...nanganagti a tong mga kamay at paa ko BUT....I have to control my slef...breathe in...breathe out...breathe in...breathe out...at kung hindi purita ako for the next 2 weeks till the next sweldo.....good thing my sweetik bought me new shoes...the shoes was, when i first saw it a weeks back, was pegged at around 900-1200 but we got it for only 475! nice pa din naman yung condition ng shoes ..di naman mukhang nasuot na ng taong may kachichas...yuck!

I did all of my reports today....DAMENG REPORTS! and I'm still not finished! arrrgghhh..baket naman kse ako pa ang napagdiskitahan e.....

I got interviewed na last thursday by 2 sups....we'll it wasn't as smooth as I wanted it to be and sympre I was nervous din naman kaya ayun...stutter and blab to the max ako! ...i think I just heard my promotion going down the drain....buhuhuhuhu....bwisit na buhay to o!


got this e-mail na sobrang funny...i'll copy and paste it...


BREAK UP LINES

Ano yung mga chakang break up lines na nagamit na sa inyo? Share ko lang ang mga break lines ng ba....meron pa kayong mas grabe pa???



"I just realized that I don't want to be touched."

-- Whaddafuckisdat?!


"I'm confused and I need some time out to find myself!!!"

-- Eto flashlight, go look for yourself!


"maybe this is not the right time for us."

--anak ng tipaklong! di na kita tatanggapin ulit no?!



"Di kita maalagaan ng tulad ng iniexpect mo. You deserve someone better. That's not me."

-- eh niligawan mo pa ako at pinasagot? jerk huh!


"Lasing lang ako kagabi. Sorry."

-- Oo nga at nag enjoy ka pa! a**h***


Ito kinwento sa akin ng friend ko, na sinabi daw sa kanya ng boyfriend niya. "We are too different from each other." To which my angry friend retorted: "Tama ka diyan! I'm a woman, you're a wuss."


true lies and true lines:

"we have to meet other people to see what it's like to be with someone else. i'm giving you that choice. if you come back to me, we'll both be better from having chosen freely"

-- ano raw?


"Someday, hahanapin kita, when we're both ready. When we don't care about the odds. Kung tayo talaga, tayo rin in the end, di ba?"

-- ULUL!!! Wala ka nang babalikan!


"I really think that we should break up."

"Why?"

"Because I don't know if I still love you."

-- Ouch pare! Oks lang sana kung ganun lang eh...tapos next week may kasama na siyang iba. olrayt sa okei!


"I just realized I haven't had time to walk my dog.. "

-- ?????????

"its not you, its me..."

-- ket?, whats wrong with you?... kunyari, patay malisya para pahirapan sya.. hihihi...


"sorry ha.. kaya kita niligawan kasi gusto ko lang mapalapit sa kuya mo.. "
-- waaaahhhh badiday pala...
"pero dont worry... ako na lang ang magkukulot sa iyo... libre lagi..."
-- waaahhh may pampalubag loob pa... hehehe

"hindi ko kayang buhayin ang buong pamilya mo.. kaya paalam na lang..."
-- sabay takbo.. hehehe

"teka, anong araw nga ba dapat ikaw nasa schedule ko..."

-- hehehe..naka-playboy...

"pasensiya na..pero hindi ko na talagang kayang tiisin..kamukhang-kamukha ka noong aso kong namatay..."

.. reality check... eto yung normal na dahilan kung bakit may
break-up...ayaw lang umamin ng karamihan sa mga lalaki...

lalaki sa babae:

... sawa na ako sa iyo at napaka-routine ng ginagawa natin lagi...

... mas maganda yung nakilala kong bebot at mas masaya kasama kesa sa iyo..ikaw kasi boring...

... ang hilig mong mag-nag... puro ka selos-dito selos doon.. nakakapika na..grrrrr..

... sorry hindi na kita feel kasama..

... wala na akong time para sa iyo kasi ang tutuo may nililigawan na akong iba..


babae sa lalaki:

... para ka kasing bakla kaya ayaw ko na sa iyo mas maarte ka pa sa akin..

... ang dami mo namang restriction.. nasasakal na ako.. bakit kasal na ba tayo at marami akong nde puedeng gawin..

... kaya lang naman kita sinagot kasi wala akong partner sa JS prom...

... kaya lang naman kita sinagot kasi pinilit ako ng barkada ko.. pero sa tutuo lang walang akong feelings sa iyo..

... sorry ha.. may nakita akong mas pogi at cute kesa sa iyo..

... sensya ka na ha.. pagod na akong maghintay at sumakay sa jeep o kaya sabus... feel ko na naman yung may Car- racter..

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o...wasn't it funny.......