you

i stayed up all night
i watched all the shows but i couldnt remember what they were
i wrote down all the words but i couldnt decipher them
i puffed all the cigs but my lips got burnt and i didnt even mind it
i drank all the coke but it wouldnt satisfy me

only you will
and i hope you feel the same way

i hope that you have sleepless nights about me
i pray you live through days and nights as if you were a zombie
i implore that see the faces in front of you like they were mirror images

and i know that i have hurt you just as you had hurt me

while working early monday morning i got sick. wanted to go home coz my back was killing me but i couldnt. not when i had tons of things to do. 'round 11 i couldnt hunker down my shoulders anymore. not when i was already seeing double. so i went home thinking that I still had a lot of things to do. by nightfall i knew i couldnt go to work. i called in sick. i was sick but i couldnt sleep. why? bec i was thinking of work. i was getting sick bec of work and yet I was still thinking about it. i barely have enough time for myself and my kids all because of my thankless job and there I was thinking about it. fuck.