Times like these, this would be one of the best lines to read. It's a song from Barry Manilow -- "One of These Days".... Show his loss girl!!!

One of these Days
One of these very ordinary days
You're gonna call my name
And I won't be there

After the days
After these very very many days
You're gonna see the light
And I won't be there

And on that day
Somehow I'll find the stregth to stay away
I won't give in
I will not let myself be taken in... again
Oh no my friend

One of these days
Out of the blue you'll start remembering
And I won't care
'Cause I won't be there

Oh, and on that day
I swear I'll find the strength somehow to stay away
I won't give in
I will not let myself be taken in... again
Oh no my friend

That's what I say
That's what I tell myself... I won't give in
So try it someday
And you'll see that I won't be there
No, you know, no, I won't be there...

- Myls :o) -

I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship (Casablanca)

A rebound guy he is definitely not...di na pala...it started to be that but how can you not like him (not fall muna...) when ....so many reasons why...basta now he makes me smile and forget about all that is bad about the world...is he healing me? maybe...

when I told him i'll be leaving soon na nga this is what he texted me:

"I could convince you to stay belle..but it'd take time. I believe its like a painting, you gotta draw it with feelings so that the colors will appear in harmony..pag minadali hindi ganun kaganda result"

For one, he is realistic...I am, too, now...I'm used to being sweet talked and being given promises of the stars and the moon but all was for naught...that guys turned out to be a 2 faced lying asshole-loser...he is now sinking in his own quicksand..i got out of mine and Im standing up as tall as I can..this time I'll make it...yes, there will be moments which is natural but again I will not fall back...one day you will see one day you will see...

First cut is the deepest

Would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it comes to loving me he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again (tryyy)
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it comes to loving me he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
'Cause if you want I'll try to love again (try to love again)
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know, the first cut is the deepest
When it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it comes to loving me he's worst

The first cut is the deepest baby i know
The first cut is the deepest try to love again...

I HATE MIND GAMES!!! (Jonathan Caballero)

Last night I felt like a high school girl who was waiting for her KRAS! hahahaha..everyone was laughing at me and teasing me kse I couldn't sit still while waiting for my sundo..

so after many touch ups later, he finally arrived sa office.....I showed him the right way to go to our office kse daw he'll make me sundo ulet tonight...yiheeee....honestly, he was not even my type at first but ...a like this....I first saw him when he went to my house last friday night..as he alighted (nakanaman...) from his car he seemed soooo appealing...hhmmm mukhang fafable nga ito...but as the night progressed (syempre we all thought dadaan lang pero wait there's more...he stayed till 5am!)...being the laitera that I was...may mga sablay din pala sa kanya and he wasn't really type...if we were in a different time and situation I wouldn't have given him the time of the day...bbbuuuttttt...i kinda like the attention...i like the way he sang...i like the fact that he loves the same music that I like..i likey likey his body..surfer body ito..parng long but buffed...yihheeee...(oops laway..)...but he sang my all time favorite song (moon river) and this almost made me fall in love(????? o ibaba ang mga kilay a..)...

Moon river, wider than a mile, I'm crossing you in style someday,
Oh, dream maker, you heartbreaker...Wherever you're goin',
I'm goin' your way

Two drifters, off to see the world,
There's such a lot of world to see,
We're after the same rainbow's end
Waitin' round the bend My Huckleberry friend,
Moon river and me.

So Jean (no, not you jean my team mate), maybe you're were sent for me a reason just as Adrian was sent for me for a reason..I am realizing that now....Adrian was sent to me so that I could open my heart again...so that I could lessen my idealistic ideas....so i could find my family...you left me but I found myself and my family...So jean (again).....we dunno yet why you were sent for me a reason but let's take everything slooooow...

Overjoyed
(Stevie Wonder)

Over time, I've been building my castle of love
Just for two, though you never knew you were my reason
I've gone much too far for you now to say
That I've got to throw my castle away

Over dreams, I have picked out a perfect come true
Though you never knew it was of you I've been dreaming
The sandman has come from too far away
For you to say come back some other day

And though you don't believe that they do
They do come true
For did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me

Over hearts, I have painfully turned every stone
Just to find, I had found what I've searched to discover
I've come much too far for me now to find
The love that I've sought can never be mine

And though you don't believe that they do
They do come true
For did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me

And though the odds say improbable
What do they know
For in romance
All true love needs is a chance
And maybe with a chance you will find
You too like I
Overjoyed, over loved, over you, over you

William Remot says eto daw dapat ang aking theme song...feel free to dance as you sing the song..

At first I was afraid I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong and I learned how to
get along
And now your back, from outta space
I just walked in to find you here with
that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I’d have known for just one second
you’d be back to bother me
Go on now go walk out the door
Just turn around now cuz your not
welcome anymore
Weren’t you the one who tried to hurt
me with goodbye
Did ya think I’d crumble
Did ya think I’d crumble did ya think
I’d lay down and die
Oh no not i, I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love I
know ill stay alive
Ive got all my life to live I’ve got
all my love to give
Ill survive I will survie hey hey
(music)
It took all the strength I had not to
fall apart
And tried so hard to mend the pieces
of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights just
feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry, but now I hold my head
up high
And you see me..somebody new,
Im not that chained up little person
still in love with you
And so you felt like dropping in and
just expect me to be free
But now I’m saving all my loving for
someone whos loving me
Go on now go walk out the door
Just turn around now cuz your not
welcome anymore
Werent you the one who tried to break
me with goodbye
Did ya think I’d crumble did ya think
I’d lay down and die
Oh no not I i will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love I
know ill stay alive
Ive got all my life to live I’ve got
all my love to give
Ill survive..i will survive ohh go on
now go
Walk out the door just turn around now
cuz your not welcome anymore
....continuing chorus......

Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see."--Mark Twain

I created my very own first breakup rule: Destroy all pictures where he looks sexy and you look
happy. Breakup rule No. 2: Until emotionally stabilized, enter no stores. Breakup rule No. 3:
Never stop thinking about him, even for a moment because that's the moment he'll appear. And
finally, the most important breakup rule: No matter who broke your heart or how long it takes
to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends.
---Carrie (Sex and the City)

A bit disoriented when I woke up coz my mom wasn't there. Turns out she went to Pampanga pala coz they'll be getting mangoes...hhmmm sarap!

Met up with my friend Dennis early this afternoon and over lunch and yosi he made kwento that his girlfriend of 4 years and him just broke up...my poor friend...sorry den, i can really help you this time since I'm going through the same shit right now...we were like 2 drunkards sitting right there in my sala nakatunganga...

A friend gave my number to some guy friends of her and we--eellll....the first guy: he's not exactly gwapo pero he has somekindasorta appeal...i dunno how to describe it though..basta..he was so masipag to text me the whole day tapos friday night he went to our house and stayed till 5am..kala ko dadaan lang yun pala...iba na ito! he was mabait naman and makwento sobra ..into breeding dogs (or is that dog breeding)...they have their own cable company in quezon...he used to be a seminarian..a singer (they had an album with Ivory records...and he's buffed! buffed in a sexy way not parang balloon! the secong guy wasn;t such a texter...he's also into animals since he has his own pet shop in Bulacan (yikes!)..my friend tells me na tlaga nagpapahanap daw sya ng ka date...turns out that he knows my kabarkadas since he was their ka batch in San Beda..small world.

A third guy who I comminicated last thursday, is a former classmate in AC Antipolo. Yes, Ac Antipolo used to have boys from Kinder to grade 4 till they phased it out. A true blue atenista. if your from assumption you'd be familiar with the Cuyugan Buses which they own..he's a surfer...and a trainer in C-cubed (how do they spell it?) but i think he's panget pa e..but he's the absolute sweetest tlaga..if you have time you can check out my testimonial for him in his profile..in my list ang name nya Gani :)

Saturday night naman, more of sunday morning na when I ended my shift, a guy who has been making me kulit if I could go out with him or for him to pick me up tried to kiss me when I finally said yes for him to make me sundo....WTF!!! why do I attract the worse kinds of guys anyway....

how do i write my hurt...how do i write how my heart feels..what do I say...are words enough to describe how I feel...if my heart could cry out its sound will be heard till the high heavens and the deepest part of hell...if my eyes could over flow I would drown in my own tears...my heart is beating so fast that it hurts...is this pain? is this pain never gonna end? will the tears never cease to pour out from my red and swollen eyes? when will this end? When will all my woes leave me....leave me and let me be...

"Sometimes when you hold out for everything, you walk away with nothing."
---Ally McBeal