eto ang Merry Christmas tlaga! San ka pa? Ayos! Timing is everything tlaga!

...sala sa lamig...sala sa init...anak ng!

the veil closes for me...no more...no more..no more chance to get hurt...

An Old Fashioned Christmas
(Frank Sinatra)

Give me an old fashioned christmas, an old fashioned christmas,
Family faces, wide open spaces, covered with snow, Right now my mom there in the kitchen, basting the christmas bird, You'll have to take my word, you can't find that at the automat.
An old fashioned fireplace, give me an old fashioned fireplace,
My heart remembers smoldering embers, warming your glow,
I'd trade that whole manhattan skyline, the shimmering steel and
chrome,
For one old fashioned christmas back home.


Just a few more hours and its gonna be its gonna be my fourth Christmas in the office...

unlike most people I don't have anyone to go home to pag Christmas..pag new year..pag labor day...pag holy week....pag Nov. 1...or any holiday for that matter...
My hope for everyone is that this never happens to you....



Merry Christmas everyone :)

Kisses and Hugs from me...know that I wish nothing but joy and happiness for you and may God bless you and keep you.

Blessed Be!

From Seed:

"I may not know your pain, but I know mine...
and I know my pain comes and goes.
it goes when I begin to trust again...
trust the other person to be doing what they have to be doing
trust that I myself am ok, and I'm going through what I need to be going through right now for some reason.

trust God to take care of me - to provide the best for me....for us...

but only when I....we trust Him.

in other words

when I become "detached" from the outcome.
when I let it be - and know the best is yet to come...when I let go.

and by the way- what does it feel like when i let go?
peace.
that's the only single word to describe it.
it's goodit brings clarityit lets me live again...it lets me take care

¤ The face can speak of a thousand emotions but it can easily mask what the heart truly feels. Don't be fooled...for the happiest face may be masking the most hurting heart. ¤


what do you know of my hurt
what do you know of how my tears fell for you
what do you know of my pain
I held on for you...

But you will never hear anything from me...the more hurt I feel the quieter I become


They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can't control

They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named
There's a part of my world that' s fading away

You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can't try, I can't try, I can't try...

No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away

Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive

I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know