December 10 na! Ako ang pinakamaligayang nilalang sa buong mundo. lahat nagsshopping na. cept me. lahat nagplano na kung ano gagawin nila sa christmas bonus nila. cept me. lahat gumigimik na kung sansan. cept me. lahat binibilang na kung magkano nalang ang natitira sa kanilang christmas bonus. cept me. lahat nagwworry na bakit ang bilis maubos ang christmas bonus nila. cept me. lahat naiinis na sa haba ng mga lines sa mga atm machines. cept me. lahat nagwworry na san mas ok bumili sa divisoria or sa greenhills. cept me. lahat nagpapakasaya na sa piling ng kanilang mga christmas bonus. cept me.

kase nakalimutan ako ng aking magaling na companya. wla pa akong Christmas Bonus. Lahat meron na daw. cept me. ayos!

Renee: "Snow White. Cinderella. All about gettin' a guy. Being saved by the guy. Today it's The Little Mermaid, Aladdin, Pocahontas. All about gettin' a guy."

Ally: "So basically we're screwed up because of..."

Renee: "Disney."


it all started when my dad got me an old tape (read: betamax) of Pinocchio and Sleeping Beauty. I was young then so it was quite mind boggling for me to like a movie because of storyline or lighting or whatever movie review jargon one can think of. I learned to love Disney Movies because...well, because they're nice...usual kiddie emotion. Then came more Disney movies for me..graduated to Mills and Boon...to Sweet Dreams (Yes, dearies, in THAT order!) to sweet Valley High to Judith McNaught books...yada yada yada..it was downward spiral from then...

Such mediums fuzzed my mind and made me the romantic fool that I am now (Foooollleesssshhh!)...I grew up (For lack of a better term) thinking that there would be some Knight in shining armor riding in his arabian horse to appear one day in my down trodden life to rescue me from my tower and sweep me off my feet...it was never taught in life 101 or even in Love102 that such scenarios DO NOT EXIST! (Huuuwwaaatt!!!) It was just another figment of some joker's over active imagination or gonads to let the world think that such pathetic beliefs do exist. My bubble had to be pop-ed through the ol'e tried and tested way of getting hurt by a man...ooppsss there goes my bubble...mooooooooommmmmmmmmmmm!

Algebra, Eco or how to dissect a frog never made sense to me. If love was taught in gradeschool and Highschool it would've been more useful to me. WHY was such things never taught in highschool? or in gradeschool? Y'think I should sue Assumption and all the nuns? HA! I was taught how to write the much envied Assumption writing. I was taught how to market or how to sew an apron but never was I taught how not to believe in men's lies or how to protect my heart. If I was then maybe I wouldn't be as fucked as I am now.

At least I know how to write the Assumption way. flawlessly. San ka pa?

Now where's my writing book? Maybe with more practice I'd be able to get a hang of all these....

some RULES to follow...LISTEN UP!

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.


2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him alone.

4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

6. Don't force an attraction.

7. Slower is better.

8. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

9. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship,but don't let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.

11. Don't settle.

12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

13. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship--take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?

14. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

15. Honorable men take care of their business and aren't involved in a whole lot of mess.

16. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

17. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he doesn't want you.

18. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.

20. Always put yourself and your happiness first.

21. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

23. Like from the show Sex and the City, if he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.

24. Be honest and upfront.

25. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.

26. Don't fall for the "I'm confused role". Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out (but don't wait for him, move on).

27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).

28. There's more than physical abuse, there's emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them...flee.

29. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.

30. Don't let him place rules on you that he is not willing to follow himself -- double-standard.

31. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more
education or in a better job.

32. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

33. Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't have you!

34. Don't compete with other woman, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.

35. If you think he is cheating, he probably is. Confront him right away and if you feel he's lying, let him go.

36. Actions speak louder than words.

37. Never let a man define who you are.

38. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.

39. Never borrow someone else's man.

40. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

41. Just because he says he loves you, doesn't mean that he won't hurt you and it doesn't mean that you are meant to be with him.

42. To use painful hard-won wisdom -- 'get it right' the next time.

43. Know that you deserve to be the number one person in the life of the #1person in your life.

44. Love is a verb ...

45. Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying to make someone unavailable-available, someone ungiving-giving, and someone unloving-loving.

46. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

47. All men are NOT dogs.

48. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street.

49. If you don't love self...you can't love anyone else.

50. You cannot mend someone else's broken heart.

51. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about
baggage...deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

52. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complementary...not supplementary.

53. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

54. NEVER give more in a relationship than you are getting out of it.

55. Never become your man's "therapist".

56. When actions and words conflict, believe the actions. Respond to the actions.

57. A real healthy relationship requires two people. One person can end it - but it takes two to make it work.

58. Don't fall for the "I'm not the loving type"...when a man loves you there is nothing in this world (within reason) that he wouldn't do for you.

59. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him he takes it for granted.

60. Give him his space...let him go out with his boys, don't pressure him to spend time with you, You cant force a man to hang out with you.

61. If you wouldn't allow your daughter to be with him you shouldn't.

62. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

63. Never move into his mother's house.

64. Provide financially for yourself and don't depend on anyone.

65. Never co-sign for a man.

66. Never believe you have the perfect guy and he is so innocent.

67. Never spoil your man; let him spoil you.

68. Never let a man mess up your credit.

69. When it's time to let go; let go.

70. Good men should be treated like good men.

71. Don't play games.

72. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

73. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

74. Compatibility in terms of educational attainment, values, beliefs, personal and career goals, and socioeconomic status, are important.

75. Never date a guy who wears colored contacts

"Memories is a good thing if you don't have to deal with the past." (Before Sunset)

I'm na psy-psycho na! argh! i know you have to accept someone's past pero bat ganun...isang malaki and malalim na HAAAAYY!

I can accept the reasoning that you parted as friends and you treasure the happy moments and whatever BS you wanna give me but treasuring it to the point na you keep your pictures sa wallet and sa phone?....isang malaki and malalim na HAAAAYY!

..more pa later...basta psycho na ko!

...its coming over you its coming over me
im crashing like a tidal wave and i dont wnna be stranded...

wasn't able to blog. wasn't able to finish doing my christmas decors. i wasn't able to finish watching my dvds. i wasn't able to have my eye glasses fixed. i wasn't able to pay my bills...why? i was busy being happy...