...i saw a good friend walk down the aisle with tears in her eyes and happiness spewing from her lips...



Someday when I'm awfully low
When the world is cold
I feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight.
Oh, but you're lovely with your smile so warm
And your cheek so soft
There is nothing for me to love you
And the way you look tonight
With each word your tenderness grows
Tearing my fear apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose touches my foolish heart
Lovely, never ever change
Keep that breathless charm
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight...



...Wishin', and hopin', and thinkin', and prayin'....


"You're probably drumming your fingernails on the white linen tablecloth the way you do when you're really feeling down. Perhaps even looking at those nails thinking, "God, I should have stopped in all my evil plotting to have that manicure.""


No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends.

My "old" friends...in the end, when all our dreams have passed...when all the love songs has been sung...when the bell has tolled for us...when all our tears has turned to rust...our laughter would still reverberate...our Jon jokes would still be corny...our kwentos would still be replayed.....maybe we'd all end up together...and we'd still dance just like how we danced tonight...

"Maybe there won't be marriage, maybe there won't be sex, but by God there'll be dancing!"

"What holds you back is the fact that you keep the negativity of the past alive in your mind. When you focus on the past disappointments, limitations and shortcomings it brings them into the present; focus instead on the possibilities of the future."

Been sick since January 1...when I got to the office that day someone even commented na I so look like 2004..right on dude! Since that day, my body rejects any solid food...can't sleep properly..I easily tire...was even s'posed to have my self checked sa hospital but stubborn me decided against it. no way am i gonna be cooped up for days in the hospital! but i'm better now..ate my first solid food w/o throwing it up last wednesday. Thanks to those people who asked, told me to go home and even gave me sabaw to make sure that I eat ***heart***

salamat salamat :)

thursday was loner's day for me...a good book and music are my bestest buddies...thanks to Lord Jeffrey Archer , LIVE and Kitchiefor accompanying me.

During my loner's walk, i discovered a chapel in the monstrous mall and found myself praying for friends who i knew needed all the help that they can get from the big guy above...as for me...i prayed...for peace of mind..for calmness in my heart...for happiness...for love above all else....as Derrick said, a panacea...send me mine Lord...send me mine soon...the air is already thinning for me...i can hardly breathe...the water is up to my ears and i am drowning...drowning...slowly..painfully drowning...in my own tears...

I have never taken Life
Yet I have often paid the price
And you, you are a victim of this age
And the guilt that hangs around your neck
Has got me locked up in a cage

You've got to learn to live until no end
But first you must learn to swim
All over again
Because...

Pain lies on the riverside
And Pain will never say goodbye
Pain Lies on the Riverside
So put you feet in the water
Put your head in the water
Put your soul in the water
And join me for a swim tonight

I have forever, always tried
To stay clean and constantly baptized
I am aware that the river's banks are dry
And to wait for a flood
Is to wait for life

I've got to learn to live until no end
But first I must learn to swim all
Over again,
Because...

Pain lies on the Riverside.

CONFUSION

"Boys frustrate me. I hate all their indirect messages, I hate game playing. Do you like me or don't you? Just tell me so I can get over you." - Kirsten Dunst

I suddenly realized that I haven't really been posting things that happened to me but vague entries that only people who I see and talk to every day would be able to understand or "get"....so to those who I forgot...my sincere apologies...

as i said 2004 didn't end on a high note for me...why...sorry this is something that I'd rather not talk about now...but just a gist...just to whet you imagination...let's just say that just when I thought it's ok for me to let down my well built defenses...that just when I thought it's ok to take the risk...just when I thought it's ok to trust someone...i was wrong...dead wrong...I took a great risk for NOTHING. My apologies..today is not the right time to blog about this..not when my heart is still hurting...I'll keep quiet muna...because that is just how I am...the more hurt I am the quieter I become...

"If little by little you stop loving me I shall stop loving you little by little. If suddenly you forget me... do not look for me, for I shall already have forgotten you." -Pablo Neruda



December 31st 11:50pm..new year's eve in the office...my fourth...we rushed down to the street to join the countdown...5..4..3..2..1...its 2005!

Me : aba! wla pang nagttext sa akin a! Kung sino unang mag ttext sa akin sya na ang mamahalin ko pang habang buhay

***beep beep***
Me : Wylmer! Di ka kasali..pang end of the world-pag bingi at bulag na tayo-pang last resort groom kita..hindi ka kasali!!!!!!
Wyl: ***guffaws***

***beep beep***

Me : Hala! (shows text to Wylmer...looks at the texter...)
Me : (To myself) No comment!


nagrereturn of the comeback ka ba?

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Maria Agatha Belinda Bettina Eugenie' Victoria...Belinda...Maribel...Belle (only if we're close please!)...a.k.a HÜndÜn

MARIA
Usage: Italian, Portuguese, German, Scandinavian, Dutch, Greek, Polish, Czech, Romanian, English, Finnish, Icelandic
Pronounced: mah-REE-ah
Latinate form of MARY. This was the name of several queens of Portugal. It was also borne by the 18th-century Habsburg queen Maria Theresa, whose inheritance of the domains of her father, the Holy Roman Emperor Charles VI, began the War of the Austrian Succession.

Although the name Maria creates the urge to work in harmony with others, we point out that it causes a superior, interfering expression. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, worry and mental tension. Your name of Maria gives you the desire to understand and to help others but, at the same time you can become too involved in their problems and, as a result, worry too much. You desire a home and family of your own and have the ability to create understanding and harmony in family association as you are pliable, forgiving, and tactful. You love children and would not hesitate to care for any children who might need you. Whenever possible, you avoid argument and turmoil because you prefer not to face an issue if it means hurting anyone's feelings

BELINDA
Usage: English
Pronounced: be-LIN-da
The meaning of this name is not known for certain. The first element could be related Italian bella "beautiful". The second element could be related to Germanic lind "serpent, dragon" or linde "soft, tender".

Although the name Belinda creates the urge to be reliable and responsible, we emphasize that it causes procrastination, lack of confidence, and the inability to realize your goals and ambitions. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, and worry or mental tension. As Belinda you are rather serious-minded, responsible, and stable. You have the gift of tact and diplomacy, and possess a charming, easy-going nature which endears you to others. You have a serious desire to understand the heart and mind of everyone, and could be very effective in a career or in volunteer work where you are handling people and serving in a humanitarian way. This name also gives you a love of home and family, and as a parent you would likely be fair and understanding.

extras:

Belinda is a moon of Uranus. It is named after the heroine of Alexander Pope's The Rape of the Lock. Other than its size and orbit, virtually nothing is known about it.

Belinda is the name of a fictional character in Alexander Pope's The Rape of the Lock.

Belinda is a novel written by Anne Rice under the pseudonym "Anne Rampling