last night, met up with Karla, Rica and Nina. except for Karla, we were all ex-es of a group of guys belonging to one barkada. Rica used to be with Inigo. Nina used to be with Edwin. Me with Carroll. Going strong pa din si Karla with Leo. Sana they end up together na nga. No more heartaches please. It was a night of kwentos and kwentos and kwentos. Mainly about "our boys". The ex-es and other boys as well. It was nice being with them again. They seem to be a breathe of fresh air in an otherwise smog filled room. There we were 4 girls talking about our lives loves and faith. How nice. If I'd grow old, they would be the group I'd be having tea with during afternoons. a bunch of nice girls we were. all wanting the same thing. a nice man to be with for the rest of our lives. how simple yet hard.
have you ever woken up and the first thought in your mind was something bad? I did. just this morning. it wasn't more of a thought but a feeling. pain. we're the best of friends now, yknow...he visits every so often...its been a bad week...very bad week...prang back to square one ako ngayon...i'm so lost...dazed...hurt...i am suffering...when will this stop? when will the tears just dry up...kelan ako mamamanhid? its been 3 months and its stil the same...will it ever stop...it's so painful that i literally crumple to the floor..writhing in pain...and at the same time trying to breathe...ayoko nang masaktan...ayoko nang umiyak...ayoko na! ayoko na! but how can you tell that to someone...to someone like me...its so easy for you to say: get up and move on! don't think about it, forget about him he's a loser...it's easy for you to say that because hindi kayo yung nasasaktan...if i can show you how my pain looks like or or how it feels, the mere sight of it is something that will give you nightmares...the feeling will literally knock you off your feet...words cannot properly express how i have been feeling...masyadong masakit...and i have been feeling that for 3 months na...and counting....as i've said before I will never wish this kind of pain to anyone...another person will not be able to live it through...i can't...i'm already on borrowed time, i suspect...i already attempted twice...the last one just last week and that was already the worst...a third attempt might be the successful one...
I used to pray for God to give me strength..I didn't pray for us to get back together anymore if God doesn't want to....but lately....i accepted that I still love him and would still want to try it out with him kaya now I pray for us to be able to get back together (soon) if only he deems it so a=or if he thinks that it will do us good...but aside from that I'm bargaining with God to give us one more chance and promising that we will be both better Christians, sibling, son and daughter..better person...just one chance to correct our mistakes...and if after that one chance it still does not work out then we will let go of each other...all i'm asking is for one chance.....i don't know if God will say yes...and if he does when .....i hope sometime soon...very soon...Lord, just one chance is all I am asking...wouldn't you pray with me, dear?
This made my blue sunday a bit brighter. A testimonial from Jon in friendster: thank you Jon...God wanted me to smile for a minute and this is what he sent.... :)
She just simply brightens up our day in the office! Good mood ako when she's around!ü heheü Take a picture of her using a black and white roll of film....it'll come out colored!! naks!ü She casts a glow effortlessly and adds color to everything! Just imagine how many people have bad days whenever she's having one herself! So don't let anything or anyone take that glaring smile off your face k!?
Got this Ayn's from blog:
(The song whose lyrics I have included below is the translated song from the movie My Sassy Girl. The song
is originally sung in Korean.)
I believe
I believe
That although you are gone
This cannot be the end, can it?
I believe
That your journey back to me
Is just delayed, isn't it?
I remember so well
That I hurt myself as I cry
I hope you don't cry as I do
I hope you won't cry as you leave
I know you will return someday
Because I believe
I will wait for you, just you
I believe you should not cry
When you think about my pain
I believe my tears will bring you back to me
My eyes cannot forget
That it is you who made them cry
I hope you don't cry as I do
(Chorus)
My tears will bring you back to me
My eyes cannot forget
That it is you who make them cry
The world was not so beautiful
Beneath the same sky
All alone I cry
But I will wait here
Just for you
Even if waiting is hopeless
It's already enough
To think of love
Time means nothing to me
I will wait for you, just you
Just you...
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2 people sent this to me yesterday....and somehow it lifted my spirits.....to feel that you're needed...to feel that someone out there thinks and loves you.....its such a heartwarming thought......it makes me feel that my life has purpose...in the end..under all the pain the tears the suffering...all i wanted was to love and to be loved in return...is that too much to ask for...
You are Everything To Somebody
Right now at this very minute-----------
someone
is very proud of you
someone
is thinking of you
someone
cares about you
someone
misses you
someone
wants to talk to you
someone
wants to be with you
someone
hopes you aren't in trouble
someone
is thankful for the support you have
provided
someone
wants to hold your hand
someone
hopes everything turns out all right
someone
wants you to be happy
someone
wants you to find them
someone
is celebrating your successes
someone
wants to give you a gift
someone
think you ARE a gift
someone
hopes you are not too cold, or too hot
someone
wants to hug you
someone
loves you
someone
wants to lavish you with small gifts
someone
admires your strength
someone
is thinking of you and smiling
someone
wants to be your shoulder to cry on
someone
wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun
someone
thinks the world of you
someone
wants to protect you
someone
would do anything for you
someone
wants to be forgiven
someone
is grateful for your forgiveness
someone
wants to laugh with you about old times
someone
remembers you and wishes you were there
someone
is praising God for you
someone
needs to know that your love is unconditional
somebody
values your advice
someone
wants to tell you how much they care
someone
wants to stay up watching old movies with you
someone
wants to share their dreams with you
someone
wants to hold you in their arms
someone
wants YOU to hold them in your arms
someone
treasures your spirit
someone
wishes they could STOP time because of you
someone
praises God for your friendship and love
someone
can't wait to see you
someone
wishes that things didn't have to change
someone
loves you for who you are
someone
loves the way you make them feel
someone
wants to be with you
someone
is hoping they can grow old with you
someone
hears a song that reminds them of you
someone
wants you to know they are there for you
someone
is glad that you're their friend
someone
wants to be your friend
someone
stayed up all night thinking about you
someone
is alive because of you
someone
is remorseful after losing your friendship
someone
is wishing that you would notice them
someone
wants to get to know you better
someone
believes that you are their soul mate
someone
wants to be near you
someone
misses your guidance and advice
someone
values your guidance and advice
someone
has faith in you
someone
trusts you
someone
needs you to send them this letter
someone
needs your support
someone
needs you to have faith in them
someone
needs you to let them be your friend
someone
will cry when they read this
Apr 24, 2004
i am trying to help myself and I am trying to help you because I can't do it alone....
How to Help Someone Who is Feeling Suicidal
When a friend or loved one is feeling suicidal, this can be a frightening experience. There is no fool-proof formula to prevent a suicide, but the following are steps compiled from what most suicide prevention organizations recommend
Here's How:
1. Be aware of the warning signs: depression, final arrangements, giving away of possessions, sudden elevated mood, self-destructiveness, and talk of suicide.
2. Be calm and accepting.
3.Give them your full attention; show that you take their feelings very seriously. A suicide attempt is never just a ploy for attention. It is a cry for help.
4. Do not be afraid to ask if they are thinking of suicide. You are not giving them ideas that they haven't already had.
5. Ask if they have a plan and a means to carry out a suicide. Those who have a definite plan are in the most immediate danger.
6. Don't leave them alone. If you must leave, contact someone you trust to take over.
7. Listen attentively and encourage them to share what they are feeling. Allowing them to vent will lessen some of the pressure they feel inside.
8. Avoid the urge to problem-solve or offer judgment on how bad things really are. How serious the problem is is less important than how serious it feels to them.
9. Keep them talking. As they tire, they will lose momentum and be less likely to act on their feelings.
10. Offer them a reason to go on in whatever form they will accept. Love of their children, hope that they can get well, even fear of a failed suicide attempt: all can help them hang on a bit longer until they get the treatment they need.
11. Encourage them to seek professional help as soon as possible. Let them know that depression is an illness and that it is very treatable. Help them make arrangements and take them to their appointment if necessary.
12. If you feel they are in immediate danger, don't hesitate to the emergency number in your area. It is not a betrayal of friendship to get your loved one help. They may feel angry at the time, but this will pass.
Tips:
There is no right or wrong thing you can say. Just be yourself.
Seek support for yourself afterwards to talk about your own feelings.
Places you can take a suicidal person for help: a crisis center, ER, mental health center, or their own psychiatrist or family doctor.
What do people who feel suicidal want?
Someone to listen. Someone who will take time to really listen to them. Someone who won't judge, or give advice or opinions, but will give their undivided attention.
Someone to trust. Someone who will respect them and won't try to take charge. Someone who will treat everything in complete confidence.
Someone to care. Someone who will make themselves available, put the person at ease and speak calmly. Someone who will reassure, accept and believe. Someone who will say, "I care."
What do people who feel suicidal not want?
To be alone. Rejection can make the problem seem ten times worse. Having someone to turn to makes all the difference. Just listen.
To be advised. Lectures don't help. Nor does a suggestion to "cheer up", or an easy assurance that "everything will be okay." Don't analyze, compare, categorize or criticize. Just listen.
To be interrogated. Don't change the subject, don't pity or patronize. Talking about feelings is difficult. People who feel suicidal don't want to be rushed or put on the defensive. Just listen
****
Ambivalence is a marked feature of a suicidal person. Many don't want to die, but simply want a way to escape an unbearable situation.
How to Help Someone Who is Feeling Suicidal
When a friend or loved one is feeling suicidal, this can be a frightening experience. There is no fool-proof formula to prevent a suicide, but the following are steps compiled from what most suicide prevention organizations recommend
Here's How:
1. Be aware of the warning signs: depression, final arrangements, giving away of possessions, sudden elevated mood, self-destructiveness, and talk of suicide.
2. Be calm and accepting.
3.Give them your full attention; show that you take their feelings very seriously. A suicide attempt is never just a ploy for attention. It is a cry for help.
4. Do not be afraid to ask if they are thinking of suicide. You are not giving them ideas that they haven't already had.
5. Ask if they have a plan and a means to carry out a suicide. Those who have a definite plan are in the most immediate danger.
6. Don't leave them alone. If you must leave, contact someone you trust to take over.
7. Listen attentively and encourage them to share what they are feeling. Allowing them to vent will lessen some of the pressure they feel inside.
8. Avoid the urge to problem-solve or offer judgment on how bad things really are. How serious the problem is is less important than how serious it feels to them.
9. Keep them talking. As they tire, they will lose momentum and be less likely to act on their feelings.
10. Offer them a reason to go on in whatever form they will accept. Love of their children, hope that they can get well, even fear of a failed suicide attempt: all can help them hang on a bit longer until they get the treatment they need.
11. Encourage them to seek professional help as soon as possible. Let them know that depression is an illness and that it is very treatable. Help them make arrangements and take them to their appointment if necessary.
12. If you feel they are in immediate danger, don't hesitate to the emergency number in your area. It is not a betrayal of friendship to get your loved one help. They may feel angry at the time, but this will pass.
Tips:
There is no right or wrong thing you can say. Just be yourself.
Seek support for yourself afterwards to talk about your own feelings.
Places you can take a suicidal person for help: a crisis center, ER, mental health center, or their own psychiatrist or family doctor.
What do people who feel suicidal want?
Someone to listen. Someone who will take time to really listen to them. Someone who won't judge, or give advice or opinions, but will give their undivided attention.
Someone to trust. Someone who will respect them and won't try to take charge. Someone who will treat everything in complete confidence.
Someone to care. Someone who will make themselves available, put the person at ease and speak calmly. Someone who will reassure, accept and believe. Someone who will say, "I care."
What do people who feel suicidal not want?
To be alone. Rejection can make the problem seem ten times worse. Having someone to turn to makes all the difference. Just listen.
To be advised. Lectures don't help. Nor does a suggestion to "cheer up", or an easy assurance that "everything will be okay." Don't analyze, compare, categorize or criticize. Just listen.
To be interrogated. Don't change the subject, don't pity or patronize. Talking about feelings is difficult. People who feel suicidal don't want to be rushed or put on the defensive. Just listen
****
Ambivalence is a marked feature of a suicidal person. Many don't want to die, but simply want a way to escape an unbearable situation.
Emotionally you're an idiot.
Almost didn't make it last wednesday...almost didn't...I almost lost it if it weren't for my persistent friends and for the prayers of everyone...i already disconnected the phonelines...made sure I was alone...fixed my stuff...wrote my goodbye letter...prayed the rosary and 300 "souls in the purgatory prayer"...and I asked God for forgiveness...until someone made a desperate attempt to reach out to me...God bless his soul ( and mine na din...)...I was crying and crying the whole night...asking God to take away the pain and the hurt...bargaining with him that if he does I'd be a good girl for the rest of my life...and he did. just for that night lang naman, he took away the hurt because he made me sleep and the next thing I know I had the sun in my face...
That episode was my cry for help...it means that I really don't want to die but I need help...it means na i want to die because the pain and hurt was so unbearable........and because I feel that I am already a burden to everyone...an emotional vampire...and i never want that to happen...it means na...i need help because I can't help myself
"Sometimes an attempted suicide is, in effect, a cry for help. And surely family members and friends want to do the right thing for the one who has lost hope. Of course, it will not help to use expressions such as: "Stop feeling sorry for yourself," "A lot of people are worse off than you are" or, "All of us have a bad day now and then." Instead, why not be a real friend and a good listener? Yes, try to help the despondent one to see that life is worth living.
French author Voltaire wrote: "The man who, in a fit of melancholy, kills himself today, would have wished to live had he waited a week." Well, then, how can people in despair discover that life is worthwhile?
"Suicide is not about dying, it's about stopping pain,"
In the future...if this happens again...say a prayer for me...whenever you have time..say the Souls in the purgatory prayer..you never know..It might be my soul you're helping.....
"ETERNAL REST GRANT TO THEM, O, LORD AND PERPETUAL LIGHT SHINE UPON THEM."
*******
I will dedicate and sacrifice my every thing for just a second's worth to find my story's ending.
And I wish I could know the directions that I take,and all the choices that I make,
will end up all for nothing.
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Is it something more than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Help me carry on.
Show me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
to navigate the darkness.
You'll be ending me, if I come in suddenly.
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.
Is it something more
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.
So when the hell will I know (know know know know know know...).
How much further do I have to go?
And how much longer 'til I finally know?
'Cause I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me,
in front of me!
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Is it something more than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer
Almost didn't make it last wednesday...almost didn't...I almost lost it if it weren't for my persistent friends and for the prayers of everyone...i already disconnected the phonelines...made sure I was alone...fixed my stuff...wrote my goodbye letter...prayed the rosary and 300 "souls in the purgatory prayer"...and I asked God for forgiveness...until someone made a desperate attempt to reach out to me...God bless his soul ( and mine na din...)...I was crying and crying the whole night...asking God to take away the pain and the hurt...bargaining with him that if he does I'd be a good girl for the rest of my life...and he did. just for that night lang naman, he took away the hurt because he made me sleep and the next thing I know I had the sun in my face...
That episode was my cry for help...it means that I really don't want to die but I need help...it means na i want to die because the pain and hurt was so unbearable........and because I feel that I am already a burden to everyone...an emotional vampire...and i never want that to happen...it means na...i need help because I can't help myself
"Sometimes an attempted suicide is, in effect, a cry for help. And surely family members and friends want to do the right thing for the one who has lost hope. Of course, it will not help to use expressions such as: "Stop feeling sorry for yourself," "A lot of people are worse off than you are" or, "All of us have a bad day now and then." Instead, why not be a real friend and a good listener? Yes, try to help the despondent one to see that life is worth living.
French author Voltaire wrote: "The man who, in a fit of melancholy, kills himself today, would have wished to live had he waited a week." Well, then, how can people in despair discover that life is worthwhile?
"Suicide is not about dying, it's about stopping pain,"
In the future...if this happens again...say a prayer for me...whenever you have time..say the Souls in the purgatory prayer..you never know..It might be my soul you're helping.....
"ETERNAL REST GRANT TO THEM, O, LORD AND PERPETUAL LIGHT SHINE UPON THEM."
*******
I will dedicate and sacrifice my every thing for just a second's worth to find my story's ending.
And I wish I could know the directions that I take,and all the choices that I make,
will end up all for nothing.
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Is it something more than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Help me carry on.
Show me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
to navigate the darkness.
You'll be ending me, if I come in suddenly.
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.
Is it something more
than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark,
looking for the answer.
So when the hell will I know (know know know know know know...).
How much further do I have to go?
And how much longer 'til I finally know?
'Cause I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me,
in front of me!
Show me what it's for, make me understand it.
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.
Is it something more than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark, looking for the answer
Just a clarification re: the YM conversation that I posted. My tone was angry and hurt because for 2 weekends he was always "cannot be reached". No explanation was given to me as to why every weekend he would be supposedly asleep and cannot answer the phone. For 2 weeks. Imagine worrying about someone for 2 weeks and he did not even deign to give me any plausible explanation as to where he was basta he was asleep or he was sick and did not hear the phone...how could someone be sick enough to not answer the phone but can go to work??? Mas mahirap ata pumasok kesa sumagot ng telepono...
Apr 21, 2004
Lord, help me walk another mile, just one more mile. I'm tired of walkin' all alone.
Lord, help me smile another smile, just one more smile. I know I just can't make it on my own. I never thought I needed help
before. I thought that I could do things by myself. Now I know I just can't take it any more. With a humble heart, on bended knee. I'm beggin' you, please, for help.
Lord, help me smile another smile, just one more smile. I know I just can't make it on my own. I never thought I needed help
before. I thought that I could do things by myself. Now I know I just can't take it any more. With a humble heart, on bended knee. I'm beggin' you, please, for help.
Apr 20, 2004
EXORCISE ALL MY GHOSTS:
braveheart0731: hon
braveheart0731: uy
braveheart0731: pansinin mo naman ako
braveheart0731: :(
braveheart0731: alis na ako
braveheart0731: i love you
braveheart0731: i hope that you can forgive me for the silliness that i've done
braveheart0731: i very sorry for insulting and hurting you
braveheart0731: i really am
braveheart0731: i hope we can talk
braveheart0731: please take care
braveheart0731: i love you
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braveheart0731: hon
braveheart0731: how r u na?
braveheart0731: i want to talk
braveheart0731: pansinin mo naman ako please
hundun1124: i'm sorry but i'm done talking
braveheart0731: we haven't talked yet
braveheart0731: all that you did was to give up on me
braveheart0731: i didn't do anything to hurt you
hundun1124: i tried to but you hid
hundun1124: that's enough
braveheart0731: i didn't hide or intentionally not answer your calls
braveheart0731: i was very sick
braveheart0731: and am still sick
hundun1124: o yeah right
braveheart0731: hindi ba ako pwede magkasakit
braveheart0731: ?
braveheart0731: hindi ba ako makatulog kasi may sakit ako
braveheart0731: ?
hundun1124: o yeah you WERE sick
braveheart0731: I am not making excuses
hundun1124: i called 2x sa hotel, sa cell mo, sa ofc cell
braveheart0731: yes i know
braveheart0731: that's why i texted you agad when i woke up kanina around 3am
braveheart0731: bec i knw you were worrying
braveheart0731: i didn't call na coz i was thinking that it was already late and you could already be sleeping
braveheart0731: m sure you were not already in the mood to talk
braveheart0731: i let the day pass coz i knw that you're angry at me
braveheart0731: and i wanted to make sure that we can talk na hindi ka na masyado galit
braveheart0731: i was sick and still am
braveheart0731: i forced myself to go to work lang coz 3 lang kame sa GY tonight
braveheart0731: i barely eat bec wala akong gana and panlasa
braveheart0731: i hope you can forgive me
braveheart0731: please understand
braveheart0731: i wasn't doin anything foolish, and i never want you to get hurt
braveheart0731: please hear me out
braveheart0731: m sorry for making you worry last night
braveheart0731: i didn't mean to
hundun1124: of course we never mean anything right?
hundun1124: but we still do it
hundun1124: pero we don't mean it
braveheart0731: i was sleeping
braveheart0731: i can't stand up hanggang kaninang hapon
braveheart0731: m at work right now bec i drank yung energy drink ko
braveheart0731: so ast makayanan ko lang at least to sit up straight
braveheart0731: and try to finish kung ano lang kaya ko
braveheart0731: please believe me
braveheart0731: please
braveheart0731: i know that you're having a hard time trusting and believing me, but please try
braveheart0731: i won't waste our relationship because you are important to me
braveheart0731: i need you
braveheart0731: and i love you
braveheart0731: please believe me
hundun1124: you just wasted it
hundun1124: you had enough energy to go to work but you couldnt pick up the phone
braveheart0731: i was so sick and was sleeping the whole evening
braveheart0731: i didn't intend not to pick up the phone
braveheart0731: please naman believe me
braveheart0731: if i heard that you we're calling, then i would have answered
braveheart0731: i am not making any excuses
hundun1124: how can you hear me calling when you turned off your phone?
braveheart0731: i didn't turn off my phone
braveheart0731: my battery went dead
braveheart0731: ikaw din naman namamatayan ng phone
hundun1124: how can you not hear me calling when i called your hotel phone and you disconnected me?
braveheart0731: imposible ba yun na mawalan ako ng battery?
braveheart0731: i didn't hear any calls
braveheart0731: i never picked up my hotel room phone
braveheart0731: what time did you call ba?
hundun1124: ask the receptionist
braveheart0731: i already slept when we last talked on the cellphone til 3am kanina
braveheart0731: i didn't pick up the phone bec i didn't hear any calls
hundun1124: akala ko ba alam mo
braveheart0731: you texted me na you called and i saw your missed calls sa 2 phones
braveheart0731: i am not throwing our relationship away just like that belle
braveheart0731: and m not gonna make you end it
braveheart0731: i want to live the life that i wanted for us
braveheart0731: and m not goin to waste it
hundun1124: too late
braveheart0731: y did you disconnected my call
braveheart0731: look
braveheart0731: i need you to believe me
braveheart0731: please
braveheart0731: you have to
braveheart0731: please talk to me
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hundun1124: bye
braveheart0731: hey
braveheart0731: i want to talk to you
braveheart0731: hindi mo naman sinasagot tanong ko e
braveheart0731: can we talk?
braveheart0731: please
hundun1124: what for
braveheart0731: ayaw mo na ba sa akin?
hundun1124: y?
braveheart0731: dahil may sakit ako and wasn't able to answer you call?
braveheart0731: i don't want to lose you
hundun1124: your actions speak otherwise
hundun1124: you're losing me everyday
braveheart0731: at bakit?
braveheart0731: ano ba ginagawa ko
braveheart0731: ?
hundun1124: anong at bakit?
braveheart0731: what did i do ba?
hundun1124: nothing
braveheart0731: ayaw mo naman pag-usapan
braveheart0731: how can we ever make this work
braveheart0731: how can i avoid hurting you?
hundun1124: nothing works
braveheart0731: if you don't wont lemme know
braveheart0731: you always give up easily
braveheart0731: ayaw mo ako bigyan ng chance
braveheart0731: you think that im a hopeless case
hundun1124: chance to what?
hundun1124: to hurt me?
braveheart0731: a chance to make our relationship work
hundun1124: that's it! nothing works
braveheart0731: can't we try to make it work?
hundun1124: what work?
braveheart0731: our relationship
braveheart0731: i want it to work out
hundun1124: why?
hundun1124: for what?
braveheart0731: because you are important to me
hundun1124: i dont think so
braveheart0731: bakit mo naman nasabi yun?
hundun1124: you have double standards when it comes to our relationship i cannot do the things that you dont want me to do while you can
hundun1124: your work is more important than me
braveheart0731: hindi ba kapanipaniwala na may sakit ako now and i was not able to answer your call
braveheart0731: my work is not important compared to you
hundun1124: that just comes second to the actual issue
braveheart0731: i came here bec i want to have a better future for us
hundun1124: so you'd have a better life
braveheart0731: i want a better life for us
hundun1124: you can do better w/o me
braveheart0731: paano mo naman nalaman?
hundun1124: your life will be better w/o me
hundun1124: you can do the things that you wnt to do w/o me
braveheart0731: but then i can't say that i have a life w/out you
hundun1124: u dont need me
hundun1124: you never did
hundun1124: i never felt that you needed me
braveheart0731: so everything is nothing pala
braveheart0731: for you
hundun1124: i love you and you are my life
braveheart0731: i love you too
hundun1124: you know that
braveheart0731: and i can't go on without you
braveheart0731: lemme know when you're ready to talk
hundun1124: but you will never need me
braveheart0731: l be waiting
hundun1124: i was ready to talk then
hundun1124: but not now
braveheart0731: if i didn't need you, nor wanted you then i wouldn't be taking an extra mile to explain to you what happened
braveheart0731: i was sick
braveheart0731: and m sorry if i was not able to answer your call
braveheart0731: i really am
braveheart0731: i was not making ganti or sumtn
braveheart0731: i didn't hear your call wen i was asleep
braveheart0731: that's it
braveheart0731: i know you're hurt and tired
braveheart0731: just lemme know wen you want to talk
braveheart0731: m not soliciting pity from you but i wan't you to know that i've been sick since the weekend.
braveheart0731: take care hon
braveheart0731: i really miss you
braveheart0731: remember that i love you
hundun1124: i know
hundun1124: and it hurts
braveheart0731: It shouldn't hurt lalo na if you know
hundun1124: if i know what?
braveheart0731: that i love you so much
hundun1124: it hurts because you do
hundun1124: and because i do
hundun1124: i want to say goodbye na but i can't
hundun1124: because i need you even if you dont
braveheart0731: don't you do that
hundun1124: because you're my life even if i'm not
braveheart0731: i don't want to lose you
braveheart0731: you are my life hon
braveheart0731: i just need to make this move for our future
braveheart0731: if you weren't my life then i wouldnt be making sacrifices for us
braveheart0731: i would not even bother
braveheart0731: this not a comfortable situation
braveheart0731: bein away from you
braveheart0731: and its so hard
braveheart0731: i don't want to part ways with you
braveheart0731: not now
braveheart0731: not ever
hundun1124: we have to
braveheart0731: please hear me out
braveheart0731: we don't have to
braveheart0731: you know that
hundun1124: ill talk to you latet
hundun1124: later
hundun1124: my sisted is sleepy na
braveheart0731: where is she?
hundun1124: and wants to go home
braveheart0731: sige
braveheart0731: text me na lang so i can call you
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summerwells_18: hey
hundun1124: hey
summerwells_18: san ka nagpunta kahapon>
hundun1124: wala sa hws lang
summerwells_18: e ano yung ni text mo?
hundun1124: aids asked where i was and i told him i was with you
hundun1124: and sabe ko di na ill leave muna and if he wants to reach me to text you and kaje
summerwells_18: sos
summerwells_18: o, ano nang nangyari?>
hundun1124: wala
hundun1124: he needs time off daw tlaga
hundun1124: you read my blog
summerwells_18: yuh
summerwells_18: tsk..tsk...haay
summerwells_18: crying ladies indeed
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: you'll be able to sort it out...
hundun1124: parang hindi na ata e
summerwells_18: well at least be ready for anything taht'll happen...it's either you reconcile wit him or now
hundun1124: yeah i know
summerwells_18: not apla
hundun1124: sana we get back together
hundun1124: sana
summerwells_18: sana
summerwells_18: que sera sera
hundun1124: because i dunno na tlaga what ill do if hinde
summerwells_18: sos...you'll survive if ever mangyari ang ayaw mo
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: *hugs*
hundun1124: tangina
hundun1124: ganito ko pala sya kamahal
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: yuh
summerwells_18: tignan mo..
summerwells_18: haay
hundun1124: mei, honestly, di ko tlaga alam
summerwells_18: i know..and it's doubly hard coz he's not here
hundun1124: babalik sya this sat
summerwells_18: yun nga
hundun1124: pero di ata kme magkikita
summerwells_18: but i bet you can't wait til then
hundun1124: next thursday kme maguusap
summerwells_18: nyarks
summerwells_18: bakit?
hundun1124: kse yung yung restd day namin
hundun1124: pareho
hundun1124: same rest day na kme
hundun1124: tapos balak ko pa mag gy na din para makasam sya tapos ganito pa nangyaro
hundun1124: yari
hundun1124: shiyet
summerwells_18: huwat?
hundun1124: lahat ng guys na nakakausap ko sinasabi na mlamang pawala na din
summerwells_18: kulang kulang ang mga words mo
hundun1124: sabe ko balak ko mag gy
summerwells_18: kase ang mga guys..once they say na they want a cool off..tagal na nilang iniisip yun
hundun1124: para makasama sya tapos ganito pa nangyari
hundun1124: tagal nila iniisip na makikipag cool off or tagal nila iisipin if babalikan pa ako
hundun1124: kita kme ni kaje later
summerwells_18: first one. ang mga guys kase..hindi sila pabugsu bugso mag decide
summerwells_18: kita kayo?
summerwells_18: what time?
hundun1124: di nya pa alam pero i need a cheerleader
hundun1124: 2am daw
hundun1124: sama ka?
summerwells_18: huwat?!?!
summerwells_18: madaling araw yun eh
summerwells_18: what time's yer off?
hundun1124: during her lunch
hundun1124: 130am
summerwells_18: sa friday morning na lang u want?
summerwells_18: diba off mo ng friday?
hundun1124: yuh
summerwells_18: gusto mo magkita? magbadminton or something..after kase ng shift namen ng thurs. we play badminton. but i can make room for you
hundun1124: nye make room lang for me e for sure iyakan blues yun
summerwells_18: ok lang
summerwells_18: minsan lang naman tayo mag bonding eh
summerwells_18: ehehehe
summerwells_18: i can drop the badminton game so we can meet up. have coffee or sumthin
hundun1124: balak ko kse lumayas muna
hundun1124: lumayo
hundun1124: baka sa lolo ko or subic
summerwells_18: wait...kelan?
summerwells_18: leave ka na ba this weekend?
hundun1124: i dunno
hundun1124: di pa nga ko nakakapag paalam e
summerwells_18: mag paalam ka na kaya
hundun1124: tapos ayaw pa ako payagan mag leave
summerwells_18: nyarks
hundun1124: nagpaalama
hundun1124: nagpaalam
hundun1124: ayaw kse they know what happened
summerwells_18: patay
summerwells_18: kase pag nagabsent ka lam nila na wala kang sakit nun
hundun1124: oo nga e
hundun1124: honestly you think babalik pa yun
summerwells_18: si aids..kung babalik sayo?
hundun1124: yes
summerwells_18: i honestly dunno
summerwells_18: but i hope you two clear things out
hundun1124: SHES NOT HERE
hundun1124: BELINDA IS IN THE TOILET
hundun1124: CRING
hundun1124: CRYING
hundun1124: ARE YOU HER FRIEND?
hundun1124: ARE YOU NEAR OUR OFFICE LANG?
summerwells_18: yes i'm her friend
summerwells_18: i'm in ortigas
summerwells_18: but i'll ring a friend in makati to meet up w/ belle
hundun1124: OKAY
hundun1124: SHE'S A BIT BETTER NOW BUT WE DON'T WANT HER TO GO HOME ALONE
summerwells_18: alright
summerwells_18: thanks
hundun1124: SINO YUNG FRIEND?
summerwells_18: she's supposed to meet up w/ r friend at arnd 230am but i texted her to see belle kagad.
hundun1124: HELLO,
summerwells_18: yes po
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW IF PARATING NA YUNG FRIEND NYO?
hundun1124: SHE'S BETTER NOW
summerwells_18: she'll meet up with bel around 2am
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW IF BELINDA ALLERGIC TO ANY MEDICINE?
summerwells_18: why you are asking?
hundun1124: THE NURSE WANTS TO GIVE HER SOME MEDICINES TO CALM HER DOWN
hundun1124: IM TRYING TO CONTACT AIDS BUT HE'S NOT RESPONDING?
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW?
summerwells_18: and what will aids do if you call him? he's in cebu
hundun1124: BAKA ALAM NGA LANG
hundun1124: THE NURSE DOESNT WANT TO GIVE HER ANY MEDICINE BEFORE NYA DAW MALAMAN KUNG MAY ALLERGY SYA TO SOMETHING
hundun1124: SHIT IM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE
hundun1124: ..NO NOT YOU
hundun1124: HIM!
summerwells_18: i know..i wanna wring his neck also
hundun1124: MATIGAS DIN PALA ULO NI BELS
summerwells_18: don't let her drink anything yet. i'm pushing r friend to hurry up and meet up with belle already
hundun1124: WHERE WILL THEY MEET SO WE CAN BRING HER THERE?
summerwells_18: shit! i have no idea...wait alng
hundun1124: NURSE SAID THAT BELS HAS MIGRAINE HISTORY
summerwells_18: r friend doesn't know also
summerwells_18: san kaya sila pede mag meet
summerwells_18: sa pbcom manggaling yung friend namen
hundun1124: WE CAN BRING HER DOWN SA FRONT NG BUILDING NAMIN
hundun1124: SAN YUN?
hundun1124: A ALAM KO NA
hundun1124: SA FRONT NG BUILDING NAMIN
hundun1124: NEAR THE JOLLYJEEP?
summerwells_18: sa likod daw. sa valero. likod ng pbcom
hundun1124: SA CORNER?
summerwells_18: yes po
hundun1124: SA PBCOM TLAGA?
hundun1124: NA BUILDING A
summerwells_18: yup
hundun1124: SORRY MAKULIT AKO
hundun1124: KSE MAHABA YUNG AREA
summerwells_18: as in yung pbcom daw
hundun1124: OK
hundun1124: WE'LL BRING HER THERE NA
hundun1124: SANA LANG SUMUNOD SA AMIN
summerwells_18: naku!
hundun1124: DI NA SYA BINIGYAN NG MEDS NG NURSE KSE DI DAW ATA PWEDE E
summerwells_18: sabihin nyo kikitain na sha ni kaje
hundun1124: SORRY A AT BOBITA YUNG NURSE NURSAN NAMIN
summerwells_18: hahaa
summerwells_18: ok ang
summerwells_18: my friend will be at the lobby of pbcom at exactly 2
hundun1124: OK
hundun1124: THANKS SUMMERWELLS_18
summerwells_18: thanks for taking care of belle
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cesxy: ok will do
cesxy: lemmo know too ayt
cesxy: hehe
cesxy: mamaya pa ko mga 830 e
hundun1124: ok
hundun1124: sorry im not so uppity today
cesxy: y? wuz goin on? aids?
hundun1124: yep
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: di na kme ata
cesxy: omg! y? wat happened?
hundun1124: tampuhan that led to one thing and another......
cesxy: so sino nakipagbreak or nagpahiwatig? sino mas galit?
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: sya. wala naman galit but sabe nya time to think daw
cesxy: naku! :-O
hundun1124: cool off daw muna for lack of a better term
hundun1124: told him na i though he doesnt belive in that
hundun1124: but sabe nya because im that important to him that he just wants time to think daw muna
cesxy: shit
cesxy: naku
cesxy: naiiyak ka?
cesxy: ang tanga ng tanong ko sori
hundun1124: yep
cesxy: do u feel da same?
hundun1124: im trying not to
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: that i want time to think-yes but not to the point of breaking up
cesxy: bel basta sabay tayo mamaya. if uw ant i lunch mo na din un
cesxy: shux
hundun1124: si tiny kanina napaiyak ako kse nag joke sya baout me having aids
cesxy: i know exactly how u feel...
cesxy: hahaha sori natwa ko
hundun1124: nadyahe na ata sya kaya biglang umalis
hundun1124: :))
cesxy: hehe
cesxy: hug kita now
hundun1124: thanks
cesxy: shit if ders anythin i can do...
cesxy: sori bel a
hundun1124: its ok :|
cesxy: naglunch ka na ba?
hundun1124: not yet
cesxy: gusto mo sabay nalang tayo ng mga 830?
cesxy: or 15 mo lang un
hundun1124: pwde 9?
cesxy: ok
cesxy: kung di ko na matiis, mauna na ko
cesxy: atleast nagoverlap
cesxy: now na
hundun1124: ok
cesxy: break?
cesxy: 15
cesxy: yosi?
hundun1124: i cant e
hundun1124: later
hundun1124: pwede?
cesxy: ay lapit na ko endshift e
cesxy: sori
hundun1124: you there
cesxy: sup?
hundun1124: potangina!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
hundun1124: sabe ni anton may 3rd party daw ata
cesxy: OMG!
cesxy: y?
cesxy: how?
cesxy: i mean howd he know?
cesxy: ill go there
cesxy: wait
hundun1124: galing syang cebu
cesxy: im fishing info from itos
cesxy: ok lang?
cesxy: bel!
cesxy: read this
cesxy: ces: u der?
itos: nope
itos: heheheheces: baliw!
itos: sup dawg?
ces: have a question
cesxy: itos: what?
ces: tagal ka ba cebu da last time u went there?
itos: i just got back this morning
ces: hmmm...
itos: why?
ces: wait lang mamaya ko na kaw tanong abt wat happened to u and ur girl....
hundun1124: sorry was talking to anton
hundun1124: o ano daw?
hundun1124: aids and him are friends
cesxy: wala
cesxy: wait
cesxy: ill send it to u
hundun1124: you sent it na?
cesxy: wait
cesxy: ces: do u know aids?
ces: forcedesk?
itos: yup
ces: quiet ka lang pls
itos: ok
ces: did u see him wit anyone wen u wer there?
ces: be honest pls
itos: he was with me. why?
ces: with u lang?
itos: why?
ces: do u know if he's hooking up wit anyone
ces: pls keep this to urself
itos: ok, why? whats up?
ces: pls itos if u know anything spill
itos: why whats wrong?
ces: cuz his girl heard of som shit
itos: what?
ces: infidelity
ces: hehe
cesxy: ces: cmon itos
ces: so wat?
ces: meron no?
itos: wala dude
ces: u swear?!
itos: yup
ces: not dat u know of
ces: or wala talaga
ces: sori kulit
itos: wala dude, he's with me all the time
ces: ok cool
ces: THANKS ITOS!
hundun1124: is he telling the truth?
hundun1124: would you know if he is?
cesxy: yep
hundun1124: thanks ces
hundun1124: i owe you
braveheart0731: hon
braveheart0731: uy
braveheart0731: pansinin mo naman ako
braveheart0731: :(
braveheart0731: alis na ako
braveheart0731: i love you
braveheart0731: i hope that you can forgive me for the silliness that i've done
braveheart0731: i very sorry for insulting and hurting you
braveheart0731: i really am
braveheart0731: i hope we can talk
braveheart0731: please take care
braveheart0731: i love you
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braveheart0731: hon
braveheart0731: how r u na?
braveheart0731: i want to talk
braveheart0731: pansinin mo naman ako please
hundun1124: i'm sorry but i'm done talking
braveheart0731: we haven't talked yet
braveheart0731: all that you did was to give up on me
braveheart0731: i didn't do anything to hurt you
hundun1124: i tried to but you hid
hundun1124: that's enough
braveheart0731: i didn't hide or intentionally not answer your calls
braveheart0731: i was very sick
braveheart0731: and am still sick
hundun1124: o yeah right
braveheart0731: hindi ba ako pwede magkasakit
braveheart0731: ?
braveheart0731: hindi ba ako makatulog kasi may sakit ako
braveheart0731: ?
hundun1124: o yeah you WERE sick
braveheart0731: I am not making excuses
hundun1124: i called 2x sa hotel, sa cell mo, sa ofc cell
braveheart0731: yes i know
braveheart0731: that's why i texted you agad when i woke up kanina around 3am
braveheart0731: bec i knw you were worrying
braveheart0731: i didn't call na coz i was thinking that it was already late and you could already be sleeping
braveheart0731: m sure you were not already in the mood to talk
braveheart0731: i let the day pass coz i knw that you're angry at me
braveheart0731: and i wanted to make sure that we can talk na hindi ka na masyado galit
braveheart0731: i was sick and still am
braveheart0731: i forced myself to go to work lang coz 3 lang kame sa GY tonight
braveheart0731: i barely eat bec wala akong gana and panlasa
braveheart0731: i hope you can forgive me
braveheart0731: please understand
braveheart0731: i wasn't doin anything foolish, and i never want you to get hurt
braveheart0731: please hear me out
braveheart0731: m sorry for making you worry last night
braveheart0731: i didn't mean to
hundun1124: of course we never mean anything right?
hundun1124: but we still do it
hundun1124: pero we don't mean it
braveheart0731: i was sleeping
braveheart0731: i can't stand up hanggang kaninang hapon
braveheart0731: m at work right now bec i drank yung energy drink ko
braveheart0731: so ast makayanan ko lang at least to sit up straight
braveheart0731: and try to finish kung ano lang kaya ko
braveheart0731: please believe me
braveheart0731: please
braveheart0731: i know that you're having a hard time trusting and believing me, but please try
braveheart0731: i won't waste our relationship because you are important to me
braveheart0731: i need you
braveheart0731: and i love you
braveheart0731: please believe me
hundun1124: you just wasted it
hundun1124: you had enough energy to go to work but you couldnt pick up the phone
braveheart0731: i was so sick and was sleeping the whole evening
braveheart0731: i didn't intend not to pick up the phone
braveheart0731: please naman believe me
braveheart0731: if i heard that you we're calling, then i would have answered
braveheart0731: i am not making any excuses
hundun1124: how can you hear me calling when you turned off your phone?
braveheart0731: i didn't turn off my phone
braveheart0731: my battery went dead
braveheart0731: ikaw din naman namamatayan ng phone
hundun1124: how can you not hear me calling when i called your hotel phone and you disconnected me?
braveheart0731: imposible ba yun na mawalan ako ng battery?
braveheart0731: i didn't hear any calls
braveheart0731: i never picked up my hotel room phone
braveheart0731: what time did you call ba?
hundun1124: ask the receptionist
braveheart0731: i already slept when we last talked on the cellphone til 3am kanina
braveheart0731: i didn't pick up the phone bec i didn't hear any calls
hundun1124: akala ko ba alam mo
braveheart0731: you texted me na you called and i saw your missed calls sa 2 phones
braveheart0731: i am not throwing our relationship away just like that belle
braveheart0731: and m not gonna make you end it
braveheart0731: i want to live the life that i wanted for us
braveheart0731: and m not goin to waste it
hundun1124: too late
braveheart0731: y did you disconnected my call
braveheart0731: look
braveheart0731: i need you to believe me
braveheart0731: please
braveheart0731: you have to
braveheart0731: please talk to me
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hundun1124: bye
braveheart0731: hey
braveheart0731: i want to talk to you
braveheart0731: hindi mo naman sinasagot tanong ko e
braveheart0731: can we talk?
braveheart0731: please
hundun1124: what for
braveheart0731: ayaw mo na ba sa akin?
hundun1124: y?
braveheart0731: dahil may sakit ako and wasn't able to answer you call?
braveheart0731: i don't want to lose you
hundun1124: your actions speak otherwise
hundun1124: you're losing me everyday
braveheart0731: at bakit?
braveheart0731: ano ba ginagawa ko
braveheart0731: ?
hundun1124: anong at bakit?
braveheart0731: what did i do ba?
hundun1124: nothing
braveheart0731: ayaw mo naman pag-usapan
braveheart0731: how can we ever make this work
braveheart0731: how can i avoid hurting you?
hundun1124: nothing works
braveheart0731: if you don't wont lemme know
braveheart0731: you always give up easily
braveheart0731: ayaw mo ako bigyan ng chance
braveheart0731: you think that im a hopeless case
hundun1124: chance to what?
hundun1124: to hurt me?
braveheart0731: a chance to make our relationship work
hundun1124: that's it! nothing works
braveheart0731: can't we try to make it work?
hundun1124: what work?
braveheart0731: our relationship
braveheart0731: i want it to work out
hundun1124: why?
hundun1124: for what?
braveheart0731: because you are important to me
hundun1124: i dont think so
braveheart0731: bakit mo naman nasabi yun?
hundun1124: you have double standards when it comes to our relationship i cannot do the things that you dont want me to do while you can
hundun1124: your work is more important than me
braveheart0731: hindi ba kapanipaniwala na may sakit ako now and i was not able to answer your call
braveheart0731: my work is not important compared to you
hundun1124: that just comes second to the actual issue
braveheart0731: i came here bec i want to have a better future for us
hundun1124: so you'd have a better life
braveheart0731: i want a better life for us
hundun1124: you can do better w/o me
braveheart0731: paano mo naman nalaman?
hundun1124: your life will be better w/o me
hundun1124: you can do the things that you wnt to do w/o me
braveheart0731: but then i can't say that i have a life w/out you
hundun1124: u dont need me
hundun1124: you never did
hundun1124: i never felt that you needed me
braveheart0731: so everything is nothing pala
braveheart0731: for you
hundun1124: i love you and you are my life
braveheart0731: i love you too
hundun1124: you know that
braveheart0731: and i can't go on without you
braveheart0731: lemme know when you're ready to talk
hundun1124: but you will never need me
braveheart0731: l be waiting
hundun1124: i was ready to talk then
hundun1124: but not now
braveheart0731: if i didn't need you, nor wanted you then i wouldn't be taking an extra mile to explain to you what happened
braveheart0731: i was sick
braveheart0731: and m sorry if i was not able to answer your call
braveheart0731: i really am
braveheart0731: i was not making ganti or sumtn
braveheart0731: i didn't hear your call wen i was asleep
braveheart0731: that's it
braveheart0731: i know you're hurt and tired
braveheart0731: just lemme know wen you want to talk
braveheart0731: m not soliciting pity from you but i wan't you to know that i've been sick since the weekend.
braveheart0731: take care hon
braveheart0731: i really miss you
braveheart0731: remember that i love you
hundun1124: i know
hundun1124: and it hurts
braveheart0731: It shouldn't hurt lalo na if you know
hundun1124: if i know what?
braveheart0731: that i love you so much
hundun1124: it hurts because you do
hundun1124: and because i do
hundun1124: i want to say goodbye na but i can't
hundun1124: because i need you even if you dont
braveheart0731: don't you do that
hundun1124: because you're my life even if i'm not
braveheart0731: i don't want to lose you
braveheart0731: you are my life hon
braveheart0731: i just need to make this move for our future
braveheart0731: if you weren't my life then i wouldnt be making sacrifices for us
braveheart0731: i would not even bother
braveheart0731: this not a comfortable situation
braveheart0731: bein away from you
braveheart0731: and its so hard
braveheart0731: i don't want to part ways with you
braveheart0731: not now
braveheart0731: not ever
hundun1124: we have to
braveheart0731: please hear me out
braveheart0731: we don't have to
braveheart0731: you know that
hundun1124: ill talk to you latet
hundun1124: later
hundun1124: my sisted is sleepy na
braveheart0731: where is she?
hundun1124: and wants to go home
braveheart0731: sige
braveheart0731: text me na lang so i can call you
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summerwells_18: hey
hundun1124: hey
summerwells_18: san ka nagpunta kahapon>
hundun1124: wala sa hws lang
summerwells_18: e ano yung ni text mo?
hundun1124: aids asked where i was and i told him i was with you
hundun1124: and sabe ko di na ill leave muna and if he wants to reach me to text you and kaje
summerwells_18: sos
summerwells_18: o, ano nang nangyari?>
hundun1124: wala
hundun1124: he needs time off daw tlaga
hundun1124: you read my blog
summerwells_18: yuh
summerwells_18: tsk..tsk...haay
summerwells_18: crying ladies indeed
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: you'll be able to sort it out...
hundun1124: parang hindi na ata e
summerwells_18: well at least be ready for anything taht'll happen...it's either you reconcile wit him or now
hundun1124: yeah i know
summerwells_18: not apla
hundun1124: sana we get back together
hundun1124: sana
summerwells_18: sana
summerwells_18: que sera sera
hundun1124: because i dunno na tlaga what ill do if hinde
summerwells_18: sos...you'll survive if ever mangyari ang ayaw mo
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: *hugs*
hundun1124: tangina
hundun1124: ganito ko pala sya kamahal
hundun1124: :((
summerwells_18: yuh
summerwells_18: tignan mo..
summerwells_18: haay
hundun1124: mei, honestly, di ko tlaga alam
summerwells_18: i know..and it's doubly hard coz he's not here
hundun1124: babalik sya this sat
summerwells_18: yun nga
hundun1124: pero di ata kme magkikita
summerwells_18: but i bet you can't wait til then
hundun1124: next thursday kme maguusap
summerwells_18: nyarks
summerwells_18: bakit?
hundun1124: kse yung yung restd day namin
hundun1124: pareho
hundun1124: same rest day na kme
hundun1124: tapos balak ko pa mag gy na din para makasam sya tapos ganito pa nangyaro
hundun1124: yari
hundun1124: shiyet
summerwells_18: huwat?
hundun1124: lahat ng guys na nakakausap ko sinasabi na mlamang pawala na din
summerwells_18: kulang kulang ang mga words mo
hundun1124: sabe ko balak ko mag gy
summerwells_18: kase ang mga guys..once they say na they want a cool off..tagal na nilang iniisip yun
hundun1124: para makasama sya tapos ganito pa nangyari
hundun1124: tagal nila iniisip na makikipag cool off or tagal nila iisipin if babalikan pa ako
hundun1124: kita kme ni kaje later
summerwells_18: first one. ang mga guys kase..hindi sila pabugsu bugso mag decide
summerwells_18: kita kayo?
summerwells_18: what time?
hundun1124: di nya pa alam pero i need a cheerleader
hundun1124: 2am daw
hundun1124: sama ka?
summerwells_18: huwat?!?!
summerwells_18: madaling araw yun eh
summerwells_18: what time's yer off?
hundun1124: during her lunch
hundun1124: 130am
summerwells_18: sa friday morning na lang u want?
summerwells_18: diba off mo ng friday?
hundun1124: yuh
summerwells_18: gusto mo magkita? magbadminton or something..after kase ng shift namen ng thurs. we play badminton. but i can make room for you
hundun1124: nye make room lang for me e for sure iyakan blues yun
summerwells_18: ok lang
summerwells_18: minsan lang naman tayo mag bonding eh
summerwells_18: ehehehe
summerwells_18: i can drop the badminton game so we can meet up. have coffee or sumthin
hundun1124: balak ko kse lumayas muna
hundun1124: lumayo
hundun1124: baka sa lolo ko or subic
summerwells_18: wait...kelan?
summerwells_18: leave ka na ba this weekend?
hundun1124: i dunno
hundun1124: di pa nga ko nakakapag paalam e
summerwells_18: mag paalam ka na kaya
hundun1124: tapos ayaw pa ako payagan mag leave
summerwells_18: nyarks
hundun1124: nagpaalama
hundun1124: nagpaalam
hundun1124: ayaw kse they know what happened
summerwells_18: patay
summerwells_18: kase pag nagabsent ka lam nila na wala kang sakit nun
hundun1124: oo nga e
hundun1124: honestly you think babalik pa yun
summerwells_18: si aids..kung babalik sayo?
hundun1124: yes
summerwells_18: i honestly dunno
summerwells_18: but i hope you two clear things out
hundun1124: SHES NOT HERE
hundun1124: BELINDA IS IN THE TOILET
hundun1124: CRING
hundun1124: CRYING
hundun1124: ARE YOU HER FRIEND?
hundun1124: ARE YOU NEAR OUR OFFICE LANG?
summerwells_18: yes i'm her friend
summerwells_18: i'm in ortigas
summerwells_18: but i'll ring a friend in makati to meet up w/ belle
hundun1124: OKAY
hundun1124: SHE'S A BIT BETTER NOW BUT WE DON'T WANT HER TO GO HOME ALONE
summerwells_18: alright
summerwells_18: thanks
hundun1124: SINO YUNG FRIEND?
summerwells_18: she's supposed to meet up w/ r friend at arnd 230am but i texted her to see belle kagad.
hundun1124: HELLO,
summerwells_18: yes po
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW IF PARATING NA YUNG FRIEND NYO?
hundun1124: SHE'S BETTER NOW
summerwells_18: she'll meet up with bel around 2am
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW IF BELINDA ALLERGIC TO ANY MEDICINE?
summerwells_18: why you are asking?
hundun1124: THE NURSE WANTS TO GIVE HER SOME MEDICINES TO CALM HER DOWN
hundun1124: IM TRYING TO CONTACT AIDS BUT HE'S NOT RESPONDING?
hundun1124: WOULD YOU KNOW?
summerwells_18: and what will aids do if you call him? he's in cebu
hundun1124: BAKA ALAM NGA LANG
hundun1124: THE NURSE DOESNT WANT TO GIVE HER ANY MEDICINE BEFORE NYA DAW MALAMAN KUNG MAY ALLERGY SYA TO SOMETHING
hundun1124: SHIT IM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE
hundun1124: ..NO NOT YOU
hundun1124: HIM!
summerwells_18: i know..i wanna wring his neck also
hundun1124: MATIGAS DIN PALA ULO NI BELS
summerwells_18: don't let her drink anything yet. i'm pushing r friend to hurry up and meet up with belle already
hundun1124: WHERE WILL THEY MEET SO WE CAN BRING HER THERE?
summerwells_18: shit! i have no idea...wait alng
hundun1124: NURSE SAID THAT BELS HAS MIGRAINE HISTORY
summerwells_18: r friend doesn't know also
summerwells_18: san kaya sila pede mag meet
summerwells_18: sa pbcom manggaling yung friend namen
hundun1124: WE CAN BRING HER DOWN SA FRONT NG BUILDING NAMIN
hundun1124: SAN YUN?
hundun1124: A ALAM KO NA
hundun1124: SA FRONT NG BUILDING NAMIN
hundun1124: NEAR THE JOLLYJEEP?
summerwells_18: sa likod daw. sa valero. likod ng pbcom
hundun1124: SA CORNER?
summerwells_18: yes po
hundun1124: SA PBCOM TLAGA?
hundun1124: NA BUILDING A
summerwells_18: yup
hundun1124: SORRY MAKULIT AKO
hundun1124: KSE MAHABA YUNG AREA
summerwells_18: as in yung pbcom daw
hundun1124: OK
hundun1124: WE'LL BRING HER THERE NA
hundun1124: SANA LANG SUMUNOD SA AMIN
summerwells_18: naku!
hundun1124: DI NA SYA BINIGYAN NG MEDS NG NURSE KSE DI DAW ATA PWEDE E
summerwells_18: sabihin nyo kikitain na sha ni kaje
hundun1124: SORRY A AT BOBITA YUNG NURSE NURSAN NAMIN
summerwells_18: hahaa
summerwells_18: ok ang
summerwells_18: my friend will be at the lobby of pbcom at exactly 2
hundun1124: OK
hundun1124: THANKS SUMMERWELLS_18
summerwells_18: thanks for taking care of belle
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cesxy: ok will do
cesxy: lemmo know too ayt
cesxy: hehe
cesxy: mamaya pa ko mga 830 e
hundun1124: ok
hundun1124: sorry im not so uppity today
cesxy: y? wuz goin on? aids?
hundun1124: yep
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: di na kme ata
cesxy: omg! y? wat happened?
hundun1124: tampuhan that led to one thing and another......
cesxy: so sino nakipagbreak or nagpahiwatig? sino mas galit?
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: sya. wala naman galit but sabe nya time to think daw
cesxy: naku! :-O
hundun1124: cool off daw muna for lack of a better term
hundun1124: told him na i though he doesnt belive in that
hundun1124: but sabe nya because im that important to him that he just wants time to think daw muna
cesxy: shit
cesxy: naku
cesxy: naiiyak ka?
cesxy: ang tanga ng tanong ko sori
hundun1124: yep
cesxy: do u feel da same?
hundun1124: im trying not to
cesxy: :(
hundun1124: that i want time to think-yes but not to the point of breaking up
cesxy: bel basta sabay tayo mamaya. if uw ant i lunch mo na din un
cesxy: shux
hundun1124: si tiny kanina napaiyak ako kse nag joke sya baout me having aids
cesxy: i know exactly how u feel...
cesxy: hahaha sori natwa ko
hundun1124: nadyahe na ata sya kaya biglang umalis
hundun1124: :))
cesxy: hehe
cesxy: hug kita now
hundun1124: thanks
cesxy: shit if ders anythin i can do...
cesxy: sori bel a
hundun1124: its ok :|
cesxy: naglunch ka na ba?
hundun1124: not yet
cesxy: gusto mo sabay nalang tayo ng mga 830?
cesxy: or 15 mo lang un
hundun1124: pwde 9?
cesxy: ok
cesxy: kung di ko na matiis, mauna na ko
cesxy: atleast nagoverlap
cesxy: now na
hundun1124: ok
cesxy: break?
cesxy: 15
cesxy: yosi?
hundun1124: i cant e
hundun1124: later
hundun1124: pwede?
cesxy: ay lapit na ko endshift e
cesxy: sori
hundun1124: you there
cesxy: sup?
hundun1124: potangina!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
hundun1124: sabe ni anton may 3rd party daw ata
cesxy: OMG!
cesxy: y?
cesxy: how?
cesxy: i mean howd he know?
cesxy: ill go there
cesxy: wait
hundun1124: galing syang cebu
cesxy: im fishing info from itos
cesxy: ok lang?
cesxy: bel!
cesxy: read this
cesxy: ces: u der?
itos: nope
itos: heheheheces: baliw!
itos: sup dawg?
ces: have a question
cesxy: itos: what?
ces: tagal ka ba cebu da last time u went there?
itos: i just got back this morning
ces: hmmm...
itos: why?
ces: wait lang mamaya ko na kaw tanong abt wat happened to u and ur girl....
hundun1124: sorry was talking to anton
hundun1124: o ano daw?
hundun1124: aids and him are friends
cesxy: wala
cesxy: wait
cesxy: ill send it to u
hundun1124: you sent it na?
cesxy: wait
cesxy: ces: do u know aids?
ces: forcedesk?
itos: yup
ces: quiet ka lang pls
itos: ok
ces: did u see him wit anyone wen u wer there?
ces: be honest pls
itos: he was with me. why?
ces: with u lang?
itos: why?
ces: do u know if he's hooking up wit anyone
ces: pls keep this to urself
itos: ok, why? whats up?
ces: pls itos if u know anything spill
itos: why whats wrong?
ces: cuz his girl heard of som shit
itos: what?
ces: infidelity
ces: hehe
cesxy: ces: cmon itos
ces: so wat?
ces: meron no?
itos: wala dude
ces: u swear?!
itos: yup
ces: not dat u know of
ces: or wala talaga
ces: sori kulit
itos: wala dude, he's with me all the time
ces: ok cool
ces: THANKS ITOS!
hundun1124: is he telling the truth?
hundun1124: would you know if he is?
cesxy: yep
hundun1124: thanks ces
hundun1124: i owe you
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
(I miss you I miss you)
(I miss you I miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
(I miss you I miss you)
(I miss you I miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight
Don't settle for the one you can live with. Fight for the one you can't live without.
I did. I fought for that one person and I lost...he was my Waterloo...he was, as I thought, the love of my life and the person God sent to me to spend the rest of my days with..but I was wrong...dead wrong...as I said before he brought me straight up to the high heavens and to hell...where I still am...I'm still trying to get over him...I'm still trying to erase all the love I had for him and trying to erase of hurts and memories I had of him...I can't wait for the day when i wake and I won't think about him anymore...that I won't cry over him anymore...that i won't love him anymore...when that day comes, you mark my word, you can never go back...and I'll never go back to you...just like what happened to the first guy who broke my heart...it took a long time for me to recover and when I did, it was too late na for him. He's been trying to court me for years now-may boyfriend ako or wala...but everytime I tell him no. Recently I did try to go out with him but its not the same anymore...I dont like him like how I used to like him...One of these days Adrian, you will be in the same boat... you will love me the way I loved you...one day you will think of me the way I thought of you...one day you will cry for me the way I cried for you and one day you will want me but I won't want you..
How does it feel that you are the cause why 2 people broke up? How does it feel to be called the third party, the querida, the kabit...doesn't it hurt...yet you are and you don't care...i hope and pray to God that you will not experience the same hurt that I experienced...I hope and pray to God that you will never cry the same amount of tears that I cried...I hope and pray to God that you will never feel how it is to be betrayed...how it is to see your world suddenly crumble...how to have that one person you love and cherish taken from you...I hope and pray to God that you will never feel how it is to love and NOT be loved in return...I hope and pray that you will never experience what I went through just because of him...NEVER do I wish that of anyone...it's too painful...I almost died because of what happened...but do you care? did both of you care while you were too busy "loving each other"...i guess not...though you never spoke to me about it...though you never asked for my forgiveness, I give it to you...I forgive you and I pray to God that one day I will be able to erase all the hurts both of you caused...I asked God for forgiveness for hating you...and I have asked Him to englighten you on what you did and to make you realize what YOU did...you won't realize that now because you're still busy being happy but remember, God is just. that's why he created karma...one of these days you will meet her...and when that day comes...if you need a friend.....you can come to me...that was said with tears in my eyes...with my hurt out in the open...with no malice but the hope that you never get to experience what I went through.....no one deserves that kind of suffering..no, not even you....
..God uses your hurts and disappointments for you to be able to fulfill your purpose in this life...rick warren
I did. I fought for that one person and I lost...he was my Waterloo...he was, as I thought, the love of my life and the person God sent to me to spend the rest of my days with..but I was wrong...dead wrong...as I said before he brought me straight up to the high heavens and to hell...where I still am...I'm still trying to get over him...I'm still trying to erase all the love I had for him and trying to erase of hurts and memories I had of him...I can't wait for the day when i wake and I won't think about him anymore...that I won't cry over him anymore...that i won't love him anymore...when that day comes, you mark my word, you can never go back...and I'll never go back to you...just like what happened to the first guy who broke my heart...it took a long time for me to recover and when I did, it was too late na for him. He's been trying to court me for years now-may boyfriend ako or wala...but everytime I tell him no. Recently I did try to go out with him but its not the same anymore...I dont like him like how I used to like him...One of these days Adrian, you will be in the same boat... you will love me the way I loved you...one day you will think of me the way I thought of you...one day you will cry for me the way I cried for you and one day you will want me but I won't want you..
How does it feel that you are the cause why 2 people broke up? How does it feel to be called the third party, the querida, the kabit...doesn't it hurt...yet you are and you don't care...i hope and pray to God that you will not experience the same hurt that I experienced...I hope and pray to God that you will never cry the same amount of tears that I cried...I hope and pray to God that you will never feel how it is to be betrayed...how it is to see your world suddenly crumble...how to have that one person you love and cherish taken from you...I hope and pray to God that you will never feel how it is to love and NOT be loved in return...I hope and pray that you will never experience what I went through just because of him...NEVER do I wish that of anyone...it's too painful...I almost died because of what happened...but do you care? did both of you care while you were too busy "loving each other"...i guess not...though you never spoke to me about it...though you never asked for my forgiveness, I give it to you...I forgive you and I pray to God that one day I will be able to erase all the hurts both of you caused...I asked God for forgiveness for hating you...and I have asked Him to englighten you on what you did and to make you realize what YOU did...you won't realize that now because you're still busy being happy but remember, God is just. that's why he created karma...one of these days you will meet her...and when that day comes...if you need a friend.....you can come to me...that was said with tears in my eyes...with my hurt out in the open...with no malice but the hope that you never get to experience what I went through.....no one deserves that kind of suffering..no, not even you....
..God uses your hurts and disappointments for you to be able to fulfill your purpose in this life...rick warren
Apr 19, 2004
So if I'm wearing glasses ibig sabihin bulag ako? So what if one is wearing glasses? Why should it be your business? And how the hell did you get the idea na its only blind people who can wear glasses..is you brain that minute dear? If you're tryin to be funny..don't..you'd booed off stage if you do a stand up act...if you're trying to be a laitera...iha, you dunno who you're talking to...just lemme know when I CAN start making YOU lait...
I don't get it...how could someone not want his or her own child??? There are a lot of women out there who would die to have their own child...who would do anything just to be able to cradle their own flesh and blood in their arms...how can someone not want something so precious...I lost mine...
"You First Believed"
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace
So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And you showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
I don't get it...how could someone not want his or her own child??? There are a lot of women out there who would die to have their own child...who would do anything just to be able to cradle their own flesh and blood in their arms...how can someone not want something so precious...I lost mine...
"You First Believed"
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace
So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And you showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Apr 18, 2004
More about the jeanboy thingie..I decided to distance myself from him the other day kse I was getting attached na to him and I dont want that..not yet (scaredy cat)... and at the same time I coulnd't see him reciprocating what I was doing consistently..there are moments na ok and sobrang ok meron naman time na deadma...BUT BUT BUT something happened yesterday while I was in Enchanted that turned the tables on me...di ko pala sya pwede iwan ngayon not when he is going through a very emotional time...sorry I cant make kwento what about..that's not part of my blog na basta...so sige mag stay tayo...bahala na muna si batman kung ano mangyari...hhhaaayyyyyy How do I get myself into these things?
"how can you assume to be friends with someone when all you think about when you look at him is how much more you really want?"
-joey, DAWSON'S CREEK
"how can you assume to be friends with someone when all you think about when you look at him is how much more you really want?"
-joey, DAWSON'S CREEK
To be young, gifted and depressed
By Cathy Babao Guballa, Contributor
Inquirer News Service
Teenage suicide
LIKE the proverbial thief in the night, suicide shatters every family that it touches. More so when it is a teener who passes away. When suicide takes place, everyone- friends, family, classmates-is left grappling, trying to make sense of the tragedy that has suddenly taken place.
Recent months have shown an alarming rise in the number of adolescent and young adult suicides, their stories often exaggerated, circulating around the schools and universities where these young people once belonged to.
Then there are the suicides which are made public due to the nature or stature of the families involved.
Suicide is defined as the decision to deliberately end one's life. In the United States, suicide is the second leading
cause of death among children and adolescents. In the Philippines, according to Dr. Liza Espinosa-Rondain, a
psychiatrist at the Makati Medical Center and Center for Family Ministries (Cefam) at the Ateneo de Manila University, statistics show that completed suicide more often than not takes place among 18- to 27-year-olds, and that 37 percent of suicide attempts are completed.
Rondain adds that the most common methods used are those of hanging and poisoning. Peak periods are reported to be during Christmas, February and the opening of a new school year.
"There are much more stressors and expectations, especially when it comes to adolescent relationships, during these periods," Rondain explains.
Myths about suicide
She further cites several myths associated with teen suicide. The first myth is that people who talk
about or threaten suicide don't really mean it. "Parents and friends need to be sensitive and should take this kind of talk seriously," she stresses.
It is also untrue that suicides frequently occur out of the blue, that thoughts of suicide are temporary states of mind, and that whatever crisis young people will go through will pass.
"More often than not, the suicide has long been considered and there has been a period of depression prior to it. Again, the people around the adolescent need to be sensitive to the signs and signals being given," says Rondain. Lastly, it is a myth that suicide attempts won't be repeated again because of shame.
Rondain says statistics show that four out of five-indeed, a high rate-try again. "Closer monitoring is really a must for those who have been caught attempting suicide. Just because you were able to catch it [the first time] doesn't mean [the suicidal person] is already safe," she says.
Open communication lines
"Tell the person that you are worried and listen to what s/he has to say. Ask direct questions and if there is a plan, but don't act shocked when the person tells you about it," she says.
"Don't debate on whether it is right or wrong, and never promise to keep the youngster's intention a secret. You also have to ensure that s/he will be safe until you are able to notify an appropriate adult who is responsible for
the teener's care."
Rondain also adds that it is important to give assurance that something is being done and that the troubled person can call for help anytime.
"After the risk is overcome, you need to monitor closely, as many suicide attempts recur three months after the initial attempt," she explains.
Carandang's paper, on the other hand, provides some insights and recommendations for parents and families with adolescents so as to prevent trouble from further escalating. Adults, she says, need to go beyond the faæade of indifference and break that wall to see the intense emotions inside their children.
"Just like their songs with loud 'turn-off' melodies, you will find the meaningful lyrics once you go beyond the
'noise,' " she says. An adolescent also needs to be "touched emotionally" by at least one significant adult. "Someone who values them or to whom they know they matter," she says.
The myth of "all for the family" or "for the family only" can prevent the adolescent and other members from
expressing themselves, seeking autonomy and identity and leading a healthy life for themselves.
"Balancing family with individual concerns is important in the adolescent stage," says Carandang.
Family members, especially fathers, need to find ways to reach out to their adolescent children effectively. Parents need to be aware of adolescent need for approval and affirmation even if the adolescents do not show it.
"They also still look for limits from their parents, but this should be done in a respectful and not insulting manner. The adolescent must be given a say, a role in his or her own development in the spirit of genuine participation," Carandang concludes.
By Cathy Babao Guballa, Contributor
Inquirer News Service
Teenage suicide
LIKE the proverbial thief in the night, suicide shatters every family that it touches. More so when it is a teener who passes away. When suicide takes place, everyone- friends, family, classmates-is left grappling, trying to make sense of the tragedy that has suddenly taken place.
Recent months have shown an alarming rise in the number of adolescent and young adult suicides, their stories often exaggerated, circulating around the schools and universities where these young people once belonged to.
Then there are the suicides which are made public due to the nature or stature of the families involved.
Suicide is defined as the decision to deliberately end one's life. In the United States, suicide is the second leading
cause of death among children and adolescents. In the Philippines, according to Dr. Liza Espinosa-Rondain, a
psychiatrist at the Makati Medical Center and Center for Family Ministries (Cefam) at the Ateneo de Manila University, statistics show that completed suicide more often than not takes place among 18- to 27-year-olds, and that 37 percent of suicide attempts are completed.
Rondain adds that the most common methods used are those of hanging and poisoning. Peak periods are reported to be during Christmas, February and the opening of a new school year.
"There are much more stressors and expectations, especially when it comes to adolescent relationships, during these periods," Rondain explains.
Myths about suicide
She further cites several myths associated with teen suicide. The first myth is that people who talk
about or threaten suicide don't really mean it. "Parents and friends need to be sensitive and should take this kind of talk seriously," she stresses.
It is also untrue that suicides frequently occur out of the blue, that thoughts of suicide are temporary states of mind, and that whatever crisis young people will go through will pass.
"More often than not, the suicide has long been considered and there has been a period of depression prior to it. Again, the people around the adolescent need to be sensitive to the signs and signals being given," says Rondain. Lastly, it is a myth that suicide attempts won't be repeated again because of shame.
Rondain says statistics show that four out of five-indeed, a high rate-try again. "Closer monitoring is really a must for those who have been caught attempting suicide. Just because you were able to catch it [the first time] doesn't mean [the suicidal person] is already safe," she says.
Open communication lines
"Tell the person that you are worried and listen to what s/he has to say. Ask direct questions and if there is a plan, but don't act shocked when the person tells you about it," she says.
"Don't debate on whether it is right or wrong, and never promise to keep the youngster's intention a secret. You also have to ensure that s/he will be safe until you are able to notify an appropriate adult who is responsible for
the teener's care."
Rondain also adds that it is important to give assurance that something is being done and that the troubled person can call for help anytime.
"After the risk is overcome, you need to monitor closely, as many suicide attempts recur three months after the initial attempt," she explains.
Carandang's paper, on the other hand, provides some insights and recommendations for parents and families with adolescents so as to prevent trouble from further escalating. Adults, she says, need to go beyond the faæade of indifference and break that wall to see the intense emotions inside their children.
"Just like their songs with loud 'turn-off' melodies, you will find the meaningful lyrics once you go beyond the
'noise,' " she says. An adolescent also needs to be "touched emotionally" by at least one significant adult. "Someone who values them or to whom they know they matter," she says.
The myth of "all for the family" or "for the family only" can prevent the adolescent and other members from
expressing themselves, seeking autonomy and identity and leading a healthy life for themselves.
"Balancing family with individual concerns is important in the adolescent stage," says Carandang.
Family members, especially fathers, need to find ways to reach out to their adolescent children effectively. Parents need to be aware of adolescent need for approval and affirmation even if the adolescents do not show it.
"They also still look for limits from their parents, but this should be done in a respectful and not insulting manner. The adolescent must be given a say, a role in his or her own development in the spirit of genuine participation," Carandang concludes.
Apr 17, 2004
This was me:
I am making a fool of myself right here
Just to let you know that I love you still
I am making a fool of myself right now
To convince you boy
That we can work this out somehow
but no more. I've learned my lesson and its a lesson that I have taken into heart. No more would anyone be responsible for my own happiness...no one but me...no more with anyone be the center of my life...i would never love the same way ever again...
Maybe one day I'd be able to love someone again as openly as I loved before...maybe someday I'd be able to find my true north star...but until then...I'm a mariner that though it seems na it has lost its way is still determined to find the shore where I can rest my weary heart...
How did I get to be such a mess so soon in my life?
Never thought na I'd post something in ger from Penguin..but i guarantee that its something useful...
The Golden Hour
By Brian Tracy
You become what you think about most of the time. And the most important part of each day is what you think about at the beginning of that day. Take 30 minutes each morning to sit quietly and to reflect on your goals. You'll find when you read the biographies and autobiographies of successful men and women that almost everyone of them began their upward trajectory to success when they begin getting up early in the morning and spending time with themselves.
This is called the Golden Hour. The first hour sets the tone for the day. The things that you do in the first hour prepare your mind and set you up for the entire day. During the first thirty to sixty minutes, take time to think and review your plans for the future.
Here are four things that you can do during that quiet time in the morning. Number one is to review your plans for accomplishing your goals and change your plans if necessary. Number two is think of better ways to accomplish your goals. As an exercise, assume that the way you're going about it is totally wrong and imagine going about it totally differently. What would you do different from what you're doing right now?
Number three, reflect on the valuable lessons that you have learned and are learning as you move toward your goals. Number four, calmly visualize your goal as a reality. Close your eyes, relax, smile, and see your goal as though it were already a reality. Rewrite your major goals everyday in the present tense. Rewrite them as though they already existed. Write “I earn X dollars.” “I have a net worth of X.” “I weigh a certain number of pounds.” This exercise of writing and rewriting your goals everyday is one of the most powerful you will ever learn.
Your life will start to take off at such a speed that you'll have to put on your seatbelt. Remember, the starting point for achieving financial success is the development of an attitude of unshakable confidence in yourself and in your ability to reach your goals. Everything we've talked about is a way of building up and developing your belief system until you finally reach the point where you are absolutely convinced that nothing can stop you from achieving what you set out to achieve.
No one starts out with this kind of an attitude, but you can develop it using the law of accumulation. Everything counts. No efforts are ever lost. Every extraordinary accomplishment in the result of thousands of ordinary accomplishments that no one recognizes or appreciates. The greatest challenge of all is for you to concentrate your thinking single-mindedly on your goal and by the law of attraction, you will, you must inevitably draw into your life the people, circumstances and opportunities you need to achieve your goals.
Once you've mastered yourself and your thinking, you will become a living magnet for ideas and opportunities to become wealthy. It's worked for me and for every successful person I know. It will work for you if you'll begin today, now, this very minute, to think and talk about your dreams and goals as though they were already a reality. When you change your thinking, you will change your life. You will put yourself firmly on the road to financial independence.
Now, here are two things you can do every single day to keep your mind focused on your financial goals:
First, get up every morning a little bit earlier and plan your day in advance. Take some time to think about your goals and how you can best achieve them. This sets the tone for the whole day.
Second, reflect on the valuable lessons you are learning each day as you work toward your goals. Be prepared to correct your course and adjust your actions. Be absolutely convinced that you are moving rapidly toward your goals, no matter what happens temporarily on the outside. Just hang in there!
I am making a fool of myself right here
Just to let you know that I love you still
I am making a fool of myself right now
To convince you boy
That we can work this out somehow
but no more. I've learned my lesson and its a lesson that I have taken into heart. No more would anyone be responsible for my own happiness...no one but me...no more with anyone be the center of my life...i would never love the same way ever again...
Maybe one day I'd be able to love someone again as openly as I loved before...maybe someday I'd be able to find my true north star...but until then...I'm a mariner that though it seems na it has lost its way is still determined to find the shore where I can rest my weary heart...
How did I get to be such a mess so soon in my life?
Never thought na I'd post something in ger from Penguin..but i guarantee that its something useful...
The Golden Hour
By Brian Tracy
You become what you think about most of the time. And the most important part of each day is what you think about at the beginning of that day. Take 30 minutes each morning to sit quietly and to reflect on your goals. You'll find when you read the biographies and autobiographies of successful men and women that almost everyone of them began their upward trajectory to success when they begin getting up early in the morning and spending time with themselves.
This is called the Golden Hour. The first hour sets the tone for the day. The things that you do in the first hour prepare your mind and set you up for the entire day. During the first thirty to sixty minutes, take time to think and review your plans for the future.
Here are four things that you can do during that quiet time in the morning. Number one is to review your plans for accomplishing your goals and change your plans if necessary. Number two is think of better ways to accomplish your goals. As an exercise, assume that the way you're going about it is totally wrong and imagine going about it totally differently. What would you do different from what you're doing right now?
Number three, reflect on the valuable lessons that you have learned and are learning as you move toward your goals. Number four, calmly visualize your goal as a reality. Close your eyes, relax, smile, and see your goal as though it were already a reality. Rewrite your major goals everyday in the present tense. Rewrite them as though they already existed. Write “I earn X dollars.” “I have a net worth of X.” “I weigh a certain number of pounds.” This exercise of writing and rewriting your goals everyday is one of the most powerful you will ever learn.
Your life will start to take off at such a speed that you'll have to put on your seatbelt. Remember, the starting point for achieving financial success is the development of an attitude of unshakable confidence in yourself and in your ability to reach your goals. Everything we've talked about is a way of building up and developing your belief system until you finally reach the point where you are absolutely convinced that nothing can stop you from achieving what you set out to achieve.
No one starts out with this kind of an attitude, but you can develop it using the law of accumulation. Everything counts. No efforts are ever lost. Every extraordinary accomplishment in the result of thousands of ordinary accomplishments that no one recognizes or appreciates. The greatest challenge of all is for you to concentrate your thinking single-mindedly on your goal and by the law of attraction, you will, you must inevitably draw into your life the people, circumstances and opportunities you need to achieve your goals.
Once you've mastered yourself and your thinking, you will become a living magnet for ideas and opportunities to become wealthy. It's worked for me and for every successful person I know. It will work for you if you'll begin today, now, this very minute, to think and talk about your dreams and goals as though they were already a reality. When you change your thinking, you will change your life. You will put yourself firmly on the road to financial independence.
Now, here are two things you can do every single day to keep your mind focused on your financial goals:
First, get up every morning a little bit earlier and plan your day in advance. Take some time to think about your goals and how you can best achieve them. This sets the tone for the whole day.
Second, reflect on the valuable lessons you are learning each day as you work toward your goals. Be prepared to correct your course and adjust your actions. Be absolutely convinced that you are moving rapidly toward your goals, no matter what happens temporarily on the outside. Just hang in there!
Apr 16, 2004
He says she says...when you know that someone you like has a "prior commitment"..o sya sige let's put it bluntly..may commitment sa iba..why should you insist pa yourself to that person?!?!?! I don't get it...put your self in the other person's shoes...you wanna be betrayed? duh!?!?!? I don't think so...so why do it to another person...yeah yeah yeah you tell everyone that you're trying to distance yourself and that you already put a stop to whatever it is that you had going but, hey honey, you're actions speak otherwise...tsk tsk tsk...we're all old enough to know what is wrong and right...i hope you also believe in karma, dearie because you might pass her by one of these days..you're my friend that's why I'm telling you and have told you several times na ikaw na ang umalis sa ganyan na situation...friend ikaw ang third party...ikaw ang third wheel...ikaw ang querida...put yourself in the other girl's shoes do you want your hubby to make kaliwa? I sure hope not. so think. use your mind not your gonads...don't be the poison in someone else's relationship..
"Marriages, I can tell you, don't just suddenly collapse....They're slowly poisoned." (Jude Law)
"Marriages, I can tell you, don't just suddenly collapse....They're slowly poisoned." (Jude Law)
Apr 15, 2004
Girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and
said....You're not pretty you're beautiful. i dont want to be with you forever. i NEED to be with you forever,
and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die...
said....You're not pretty you're beautiful. i dont want to be with you forever. i NEED to be with you forever,
and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die...
Apr 14, 2004
"Sometimes when you hold out for everything, you walk away with nothing."
---Ally McBeal
That's what happened to me...I gave everything and got nothing back... I gambled and I lost---bigtime! There'll be no next time anymore...next time I won't give everything...I'll retain at least 50% to myself...IF there'll be a next time...
Strong Enough
by: Stacie Orrico
As I rest against this cold hard wall,
will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all
my battles had been won
Only to find the war had just begun
Chorus:
Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance with me
Please can I have one chance to start again
Will my weakness fall and and now make me
suffer for a lifetime?
Is there any way to be made whole again
If I be renewed and find forgiveness by
the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plans?
Chorus:
Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance with me
Please can I have one chance to start again
He took my life into His hands
And turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance, is where I'm finally found
That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me,
Oh thank You for my chance to start again
---Ally McBeal
That's what happened to me...I gave everything and got nothing back... I gambled and I lost---bigtime! There'll be no next time anymore...next time I won't give everything...I'll retain at least 50% to myself...IF there'll be a next time...
Strong Enough
by: Stacie Orrico
As I rest against this cold hard wall,
will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all
my battles had been won
Only to find the war had just begun
Chorus:
Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance with me
Please can I have one chance to start again
Will my weakness fall and and now make me
suffer for a lifetime?
Is there any way to be made whole again
If I be renewed and find forgiveness by
the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plans?
Chorus:
Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out and start again?
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance with me
Please can I have one chance to start again
He took my life into His hands
And turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance, is where I'm finally found
That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me,
Oh thank You for my chance to start again
....Inside my womb I kept you,
ever peaceful from the storm...
I knew that you were always safe
and I knew that you were warm.
I never thought I'd lose you
before I saw your face...
but I know that you are happy
and living in a better place.
God must have spared my baby
from some unknown tragedy...
I know He'd never be unkind
or bring hurt and pain to me.
The days ahead will try me
as I come to terms with grief...
but through it all, there's comfort,
and God is my relief.
He'll hold me in His arms awhile
and shelter me with care...
time will take away the pain,
but the love will still be there.
ever peaceful from the storm...
I knew that you were always safe
and I knew that you were warm.
I never thought I'd lose you
before I saw your face...
but I know that you are happy
and living in a better place.
God must have spared my baby
from some unknown tragedy...
I know He'd never be unkind
or bring hurt and pain to me.
The days ahead will try me
as I come to terms with grief...
but through it all, there's comfort,
and God is my relief.
He'll hold me in His arms awhile
and shelter me with care...
time will take away the pain,
but the love will still be there.
Apr 13, 2004
You know I just got this piano, sometimes I sing this song it's called goodnight my someone... and it's about...well,
basically it's a love song about someone you never met but you know is out there. And I dunno we make so few promises
to ourselves as we grow up and one of them is that on our wedding day we walk down the aisle with someone we love. Somebody who does make your heart bounce, I guess. And there are some promises that I think we have to keep.
I wish that I can leave na...need time to recuperate on my own.....
basically it's a love song about someone you never met but you know is out there. And I dunno we make so few promises
to ourselves as we grow up and one of them is that on our wedding day we walk down the aisle with someone we love. Somebody who does make your heart bounce, I guess. And there are some promises that I think we have to keep.
I wish that I can leave na...need time to recuperate on my own.....
due to some friend's insistent demand kse tamad sila hanapin sa friendster si Gani here's my testimonial sa kanya:
ASSUMPTIONISTO! Yep, you read that right. He did study in Assumption from Kinder to Grade 4. FYI. In Grade School, he was the kupalest seatmate but the sweetest too...to me lang ata coz he had a crush on me then (yiiiiheee)..He’d always make me asar but despite of that he has his good sides din naman. He defended me against the salagubangs of a classmate who liked those creepy creatures and sometimes from his pesky sidekicks but the dearest memory I have of him is when he helped heal my bruises coz I scraped my knee when some kid pushed me while playing agawan base.
He found me hiding in some corner trying to hold back my tears and without question he ran to the clinic and next thing I know there he was handing me cotton balls and band aids. Aslagan, as you said, it’s been 15 or so years since we last saw each other but here you are again helping me heal my wounds...destiny??? We never know baka you’re my knight in tarnished and dented armor pala.....so will my surfing lessons be free? O don't forget a March 25 hope your gifts and flowers are not recycled ;P miss ya
ASSUMPTIONISTO! Yep, you read that right. He did study in Assumption from Kinder to Grade 4. FYI. In Grade School, he was the kupalest seatmate but the sweetest too...to me lang ata coz he had a crush on me then (yiiiiheee)..He’d always make me asar but despite of that he has his good sides din naman. He defended me against the salagubangs of a classmate who liked those creepy creatures and sometimes from his pesky sidekicks but the dearest memory I have of him is when he helped heal my bruises coz I scraped my knee when some kid pushed me while playing agawan base.
He found me hiding in some corner trying to hold back my tears and without question he ran to the clinic and next thing I know there he was handing me cotton balls and band aids. Aslagan, as you said, it’s been 15 or so years since we last saw each other but here you are again helping me heal my wounds...destiny??? We never know baka you’re my knight in tarnished and dented armor pala.....so will my surfing lessons be free? O don't forget a March 25 hope your gifts and flowers are not recycled ;P miss ya
Apr 11, 2004
Saturday, April 10, 2004
Virgo Daily Horoscope
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Stop imagining that tall, dark stranger. You have far more important things to think about. For starters, you need to figure out how to react when you actually cross paths with them.
***I can't bear it. Not yet..not ever***
Being Twenty-Something...
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start
realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You
start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you could be doing or maybe you are
looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared. You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is ifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe they love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap
and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that
everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard
as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Virgo Daily Horoscope
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Stop imagining that tall, dark stranger. You have far more important things to think about. For starters, you need to figure out how to react when you actually cross paths with them.
***I can't bear it. Not yet..not ever***
Being Twenty-Something...
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start
realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You
start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you could be doing or maybe you are
looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared. You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is ifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe they love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap
and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that
everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard
as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Apr 10, 2004
If God was able to forgive me for all the bad things that I had done why, a mere mortal me, cannot forgive that one perosn who has caused me so much pain tears heartaches and suffering? And so on Good Friday, after my tearful confession, I texted Adrian and told him that I am already in the process of trying to forgive him for all the pain he has caused:
"I wish you well. I wish you happiness with whoever you are with now.. Know that I am already in the process of trying to forgive you for all the pain heartache suffering and tears you caused. For the lies hurtful words and broken promises i forgive you even though you do not ask for it and do not realize the wrong that you have done. I forgive you."
I did not get a reply to this message and do not expect any. He has truly changed for the worst.
One of these I will narrate the whole story...this for me...not for anyone's dessert on their chismis table...this for me to exorcise my ghost...a ghost that I will kill one way or the other...a ghost that will never ever haunt me...EVER. As I said, I burn bridges when I get mad. And when I do get mad at you, though I have forgiven you, you are now as good as dead to me. You do not exist anymore in my heart and my life and my memory. You will just be a bad dream that I had and will eventually forget once I wake up....As I told Len, I wil find all the pieces of my heart again and one day, my eyes and heart will smile simultaneously...not someday anymore but ONE OF THESE DAYS...
"In everything that is happening in our lives He has a purpose. Be strongand faithful. Hold on! IN every pain, there is an equal joy to itand we will have our time. GOD HAS BETTER PLANS FOR US!"
"I wish you well. I wish you happiness with whoever you are with now.. Know that I am already in the process of trying to forgive you for all the pain heartache suffering and tears you caused. For the lies hurtful words and broken promises i forgive you even though you do not ask for it and do not realize the wrong that you have done. I forgive you."
I did not get a reply to this message and do not expect any. He has truly changed for the worst.
One of these I will narrate the whole story...this for me...not for anyone's dessert on their chismis table...this for me to exorcise my ghost...a ghost that I will kill one way or the other...a ghost that will never ever haunt me...EVER. As I said, I burn bridges when I get mad. And when I do get mad at you, though I have forgiven you, you are now as good as dead to me. You do not exist anymore in my heart and my life and my memory. You will just be a bad dream that I had and will eventually forget once I wake up....As I told Len, I wil find all the pieces of my heart again and one day, my eyes and heart will smile simultaneously...not someday anymore but ONE OF THESE DAYS...
"In everything that is happening in our lives He has a purpose. Be strongand faithful. Hold on! IN every pain, there is an equal joy to itand we will have our time. GOD HAS BETTER PLANS FOR US!"
Apr 8, 2004
"Today is gonna be an uh, a less bad day, I can feel it. Sometimes I wake up and I just know that everything is going to be...less bad. "
am on training and am sleepy...just as i was getting used to my am shift biglang gawin gy for 1 DAYS da ba???
anyway, wednesday night...I cried again...it was good cry. I don't cry or get hurt that easy anymore..ung kagabi it was more of little hurts na na"compile" . my moments are still masama kse tlagang nakatulala ako but I don't cry anymore...now puro anger nalang...my heart is full of anger to the point na I wanna do something for revenge lang .... but I keep on telling myself na I'm better than that...I'M BETTER THAN HIM!
Lord, grant me strength..grant me peace of mind and of heart...
Being Maundy Thursday, my mom, a cousin and I visited 14 churches early this morning from our local church till Manila Cathedral in Intramuros...at syempre mainit...ngayon ko lang nalaman na 4 pesos na pala ang bayad sa jeep...na maraming dogs!!!...na mainit tlaga...na I miss the Benedictine Monks early morning Lauds (aaaa heaven on earth!)...that I'm going back to my one of my old loves which is photography...that you should never walk on a very very full stomach...hhhaaayyy sleepppyyy...All through our the trip, Jean and I were texting...2 days pala sya nag dive...scary...
When we got home, I immediately took bath to take out all the grime and pawis--YYAAAAKKK....but I wasn't able to sleep agad coz my mom wanted me to eat pa. Aside from that my body was already getting used to being awake during daytime...there goes my body clock.....
they blocked friendster in the office...i'll missed that website..oh well baka this is one way of God helping me...
God has been very very good to me:
1. He forgave me despite of everything with no qualms
2. He gave me such wonderful wonderful set of friends (my support group-, team mates, officemates..fred, oman.....EVERYONE but most esp to Vianca, my lifesaver and to Mei for always knocking some sense to me and for Kaje for her strength even if she is going through her own problems...)
3. He gave me my family especially my mom and dad...I value them now more than ever...(my mom spoils me!!! hihihihih)
4. For some of you guys, you might not understand why but I thank God, too, for "JB". To simple "kaw tlaga" text to can you not messages to paulit ulit na texts helps me through my everyday
5. For my exes who have given me their own "words of wisdom" and who till this very day continut to love me...
^*^*^*^*^*^*^
At an airport, I overheard a father and his daughterin their last moments together. They had announced her plane's
departure and standing near the door she said, "Daddy, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough too, Daddy."
They kissed good-bye and she left. He walked over towards the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking,
"Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?"
"Yes, I have," I replied. Saying that brought back memories I had of expressing my love and appreciation for all my Dad had done for me. Recognizing that his days were limited, I took the time to tell him face to face how much he meant to me. So I knew what this man was experiencing. "Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?" I asked.
"I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, her next trip back will be for my
funeral," he said.."When you were saying good-bye I heard you say, 'I wish you enough, may I ask what that means?"
He began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone."
He paused for a moment and looking up as if trying to remember it in fetail, he smiled even more. "When we said, 'I wish
you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with enough good things to sustain them."
He continued and then, turning toward me, he shared the following as ifhe were reciting it from memory:
I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough "Hellos" to get you through the final "Good-bye"
He then began to sob and walked away.
My friends and loved ones, I wish you enough.
They say, "It takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to
appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire lifetime to forget them"
I wish you enough.
am on training and am sleepy...just as i was getting used to my am shift biglang gawin gy for 1 DAYS da ba???
anyway, wednesday night...I cried again...it was good cry. I don't cry or get hurt that easy anymore..ung kagabi it was more of little hurts na na"compile" . my moments are still masama kse tlagang nakatulala ako but I don't cry anymore...now puro anger nalang...my heart is full of anger to the point na I wanna do something for revenge lang .... but I keep on telling myself na I'm better than that...I'M BETTER THAN HIM!
Lord, grant me strength..grant me peace of mind and of heart...
Being Maundy Thursday, my mom, a cousin and I visited 14 churches early this morning from our local church till Manila Cathedral in Intramuros...at syempre mainit...ngayon ko lang nalaman na 4 pesos na pala ang bayad sa jeep...na maraming dogs!!!...na mainit tlaga...na I miss the Benedictine Monks early morning Lauds (aaaa heaven on earth!)...that I'm going back to my one of my old loves which is photography...that you should never walk on a very very full stomach...hhhaaayyy sleepppyyy...All through our the trip, Jean and I were texting...2 days pala sya nag dive...scary...
When we got home, I immediately took bath to take out all the grime and pawis--YYAAAAKKK....but I wasn't able to sleep agad coz my mom wanted me to eat pa. Aside from that my body was already getting used to being awake during daytime...there goes my body clock.....
they blocked friendster in the office...i'll missed that website..oh well baka this is one way of God helping me...
God has been very very good to me:
1. He forgave me despite of everything with no qualms
2. He gave me such wonderful wonderful set of friends (my support group-, team mates, officemates..fred, oman.....EVERYONE but most esp to Vianca, my lifesaver and to Mei for always knocking some sense to me and for Kaje for her strength even if she is going through her own problems...)
3. He gave me my family especially my mom and dad...I value them now more than ever...(my mom spoils me!!! hihihihih)
4. For some of you guys, you might not understand why but I thank God, too, for "JB". To simple "kaw tlaga" text to can you not messages to paulit ulit na texts helps me through my everyday
5. For my exes who have given me their own "words of wisdom" and who till this very day continut to love me...
^*^*^*^*^*^*^
At an airport, I overheard a father and his daughterin their last moments together. They had announced her plane's
departure and standing near the door she said, "Daddy, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough too, Daddy."
They kissed good-bye and she left. He walked over towards the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking,
"Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?"
"Yes, I have," I replied. Saying that brought back memories I had of expressing my love and appreciation for all my Dad had done for me. Recognizing that his days were limited, I took the time to tell him face to face how much he meant to me. So I knew what this man was experiencing. "Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?" I asked.
"I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, her next trip back will be for my
funeral," he said.."When you were saying good-bye I heard you say, 'I wish you enough, may I ask what that means?"
He began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone."
He paused for a moment and looking up as if trying to remember it in fetail, he smiled even more. "When we said, 'I wish
you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with enough good things to sustain them."
He continued and then, turning toward me, he shared the following as ifhe were reciting it from memory:
I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough "Hellos" to get you through the final "Good-bye"
He then began to sob and walked away.
My friends and loved ones, I wish you enough.
They say, "It takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to
appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire lifetime to forget them"
I wish you enough.
Apr 7, 2004
Some of the messages he sent:
"When I first met you, you struck me as a person who has forgotten how to love, and be loved. Do you even
remember what it's like to really be with someone? Maybe what you're afraid of it what you don't know."
When he asked me to go to Quezon so that I can dive and trek with him:
"Only those who dare to move too far would have the chance to know how far they can go..."
When I told him I was gonna leave na:
"...how do I, say goodbye to what we had (though short and sudden)! Its so hard to say goodbye to yesterday."
THis was sent to me by the webmistress of Quoteylicious:
Hardest Things In Love...
*Flashing your smile to someone you don't want to see.
*Bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget.
*Showing that you care.
*Finding a way to mend a broken heart.
*Learning that you've been used by someone you truly love.
*Saying "I Love You" when you mean it and when you don't.
*Letting go of a person you've just learned to love.
*Realizing that you love somebody you've just taken for granted
*Realizing that you love the person you've just broken up with
*Waiting for promises you know (s)he'll never keep
*Saying your love for someone who loves somebody else.
*Reminiscing the good times you shared together
*Shielding your heart to love somebody
*Trying to hide what you really feel
*Having a commitment with someone that you know would not last
*Trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes.
*Sharing the one you love with someone else.
*Loving a person so much
*Giving up someone you never thought of giving up
*Falling in love for the first time
*PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying...
*PRETENDING to be strong...and RECOGNIZING your weakness
*lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have
*Loving someone you haven't seen
*Having the right love at the wrong time
*Exerting effort to make the relationship last or work
*Not being appreciated when you know you've given your best
*Taking the risk to fall in love again.
*Hiding your relationship from someone else
*Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend
*Choosing between 2 persons whom you really love
*Seeing that person continue to be oblivious of your love
*Turning down someone you love dearly but only as a friend
*Listening to him talk about the girl he loves (which is not you) and seeing how his eyes light up as he does so
*Seeing the guy/girl you love staring at a guy/girl who happens to be your friend while you're staring at him/her too....
*Agreeing to go out with the guy/girl you love but when you're at the place already, you do the most stupid thing ever by separating from him/her...
*Getting extremely developed over a guy/girl who's a friend and finding out that he/she likes your best friend
*Seeing your best friend and the guy/girl you love together
*Thinking of him/her every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he/she never even thinks a single *thought of you
*Loving him/her more than he/she loves you...
*Letting go only to find out later on you shouldn't have let go because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper...
*Holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out...
*When the one you love doesn't even know you exist...
*When you both know that you love each other but you're scared of losing the friendship you have...
*When you let go of the person because your bestfriend you love so dearly is in love with the same person you love...
*Saying "I Love You" not knowing how the person will respond/reply
Keeping the feelings to yourself... and when you finally let it out, it's too late
*Letting go even if you really don't want to...having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision
*Bringing back the friendship you once had after a romantic relationship... pretending that nothing happened between the two of you when something really did...
*Having the right love, but on a wrong time
*Letting go. Even when you know it really is for the best
*Having to listen to the one you love talk about the one he/she loves.
*Having to hear "...I've met someone"
*Seeing the one you love with another
*Staying friends even though you both know that you both have very strong feelings for one another.
*Learning to forgive
*Learning to trust and love again
*Believing and convincing oneself the LOVE is not mere feeling but a state of being...
*Having to wonder if what you feel is really love
*Being a fool for the person just to make him/her realize that you love him/her...
*When you know you both love each other very much but your family does not approve of him/her.
*When he/she leaves you knowing that you'll never get to see each other again... and there's no chance of getting back together.
*Falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with.
*Falling in love with your best friend.
*Letting go of someone who was never yours...
*Finding the perfect guy/girl...with only one problem... he/she doesn't love you...
*Helping the one you love "make ligaw" to your friend.
*Seeing the one you love crying for someone else...
*Going on a wait state for this guy/girl who you don't even have a tiny inkling as to how he/she feels about you
*Breaking a friend's trust
*Jeopardizing your friendship because of what you feel for your friend.
*Thinking that he loves you because of what he does for you only to find out that he did it out of pity or whatever...
*Giving your heart to someone who doesn't give a damn about you.
*Not knowing how you really feel...
*Having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he doesn't treat you with the same closeness as before...
*Loving another person to the extent that you already end up hurting yourself... the other person sees it, he/she doesn't care... he/she fails to realize that something good is already staring him/her right in the face, people tell him/her and he/she just ignores them...
*If you love him, and he's just infatuated...
the hardest thing about love - believing it exists.
After you've been hurt..
...learning to forgive
...learning to trust and love again
But the hardest thing really is learning to love yourself. We always forget to do this
Always.
"Ever notice how when you're depressed, or emotionally drained, that your heartbeat is stronger then normal. At times it seems as if it's going to beat right though your chest. I think that it's your hearts way of letting you know
that it's still there. It may have been broken, it may have been ripped out of your chest and stepped on. But it still holds life. And eventually, will once again beat strong, and hopefully, love again."
Hardest Things In Love...
*Flashing your smile to someone you don't want to see.
*Bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget.
*Showing that you care.
*Finding a way to mend a broken heart.
*Learning that you've been used by someone you truly love.
*Saying "I Love You" when you mean it and when you don't.
*Letting go of a person you've just learned to love.
*Realizing that you love somebody you've just taken for granted
*Realizing that you love the person you've just broken up with
*Waiting for promises you know (s)he'll never keep
*Saying your love for someone who loves somebody else.
*Reminiscing the good times you shared together
*Shielding your heart to love somebody
*Trying to hide what you really feel
*Having a commitment with someone that you know would not last
*Trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes.
*Sharing the one you love with someone else.
*Loving a person so much
*Giving up someone you never thought of giving up
*Falling in love for the first time
*PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying...
*PRETENDING to be strong...and RECOGNIZING your weakness
*lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have
*Loving someone you haven't seen
*Having the right love at the wrong time
*Exerting effort to make the relationship last or work
*Not being appreciated when you know you've given your best
*Taking the risk to fall in love again.
*Hiding your relationship from someone else
*Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend
*Choosing between 2 persons whom you really love
*Seeing that person continue to be oblivious of your love
*Turning down someone you love dearly but only as a friend
*Listening to him talk about the girl he loves (which is not you) and seeing how his eyes light up as he does so
*Seeing the guy/girl you love staring at a guy/girl who happens to be your friend while you're staring at him/her too....
*Agreeing to go out with the guy/girl you love but when you're at the place already, you do the most stupid thing ever by separating from him/her...
*Getting extremely developed over a guy/girl who's a friend and finding out that he/she likes your best friend
*Seeing your best friend and the guy/girl you love together
*Thinking of him/her every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he/she never even thinks a single *thought of you
*Loving him/her more than he/she loves you...
*Letting go only to find out later on you shouldn't have let go because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper...
*Holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out...
*When the one you love doesn't even know you exist...
*When you both know that you love each other but you're scared of losing the friendship you have...
*When you let go of the person because your bestfriend you love so dearly is in love with the same person you love...
*Saying "I Love You" not knowing how the person will respond/reply
Keeping the feelings to yourself... and when you finally let it out, it's too late
*Letting go even if you really don't want to...having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision
*Bringing back the friendship you once had after a romantic relationship... pretending that nothing happened between the two of you when something really did...
*Having the right love, but on a wrong time
*Letting go. Even when you know it really is for the best
*Having to listen to the one you love talk about the one he/she loves.
*Having to hear "...I've met someone"
*Seeing the one you love with another
*Staying friends even though you both know that you both have very strong feelings for one another.
*Learning to forgive
*Learning to trust and love again
*Believing and convincing oneself the LOVE is not mere feeling but a state of being...
*Having to wonder if what you feel is really love
*Being a fool for the person just to make him/her realize that you love him/her...
*When you know you both love each other very much but your family does not approve of him/her.
*When he/she leaves you knowing that you'll never get to see each other again... and there's no chance of getting back together.
*Falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with.
*Falling in love with your best friend.
*Letting go of someone who was never yours...
*Finding the perfect guy/girl...with only one problem... he/she doesn't love you...
*Helping the one you love "make ligaw" to your friend.
*Seeing the one you love crying for someone else...
*Going on a wait state for this guy/girl who you don't even have a tiny inkling as to how he/she feels about you
*Breaking a friend's trust
*Jeopardizing your friendship because of what you feel for your friend.
*Thinking that he loves you because of what he does for you only to find out that he did it out of pity or whatever...
*Giving your heart to someone who doesn't give a damn about you.
*Not knowing how you really feel...
*Having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he doesn't treat you with the same closeness as before...
*Loving another person to the extent that you already end up hurting yourself... the other person sees it, he/she doesn't care... he/she fails to realize that something good is already staring him/her right in the face, people tell him/her and he/she just ignores them...
*If you love him, and he's just infatuated...
the hardest thing about love - believing it exists.
After you've been hurt..
...learning to forgive
...learning to trust and love again
But the hardest thing really is learning to love yourself. We always forget to do this
Always.
"Ever notice how when you're depressed, or emotionally drained, that your heartbeat is stronger then normal. At times it seems as if it's going to beat right though your chest. I think that it's your hearts way of letting you know
that it's still there. It may have been broken, it may have been ripped out of your chest and stepped on. But it still holds life. And eventually, will once again beat strong, and hopefully, love again."
Apr 6, 2004
As I was going through my archives here are some nice thingies that I'd like to post again:
AM: Belinda
I WANT: to be happy and content
I HAVE: me, myself and I
I WISH: peace In my heart
I HATE: Adrian for hurting and betraying me
I MISS:
I FEAR: Loneliness
I HEAR: Ono Lisa's rendition of Moon River (Thanks Jeanboy)
I SEARCH: to find my inner self and the one who will love me till my dying breath (yes! I still have that tiny hope in my heart)
I WONDER: WHAT I DID TO DESERVE THE KIND OF TREATMENT I GOT FROM YOU
I REGRET: FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU AND BELIEVEING EVERYTHING YOU SAID
I LOVE: myself....have to learn how to love myself....
I ACHE: in my heart and in my soul...
I ALWAYS: dream
I AM NOT: happy...not yet...not yet but I will be!!!
I DANCE: inside my room
I SING: anytime i want (ssshhhh!!!!!)
I CRY: when i am hurt.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: a bitch.
I WRITE: in my blog
I LOSE:
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED:
I SHOULD: FORGET YOU AND MAYBE ONE DAY FIND IT IN MY HEART TO FORGIVE YOU...YOU WHO DO NOT EVEN KNOW HOW TO ASK FORGIVENESS AND UNTIL NOW CONTINUE TO HURT ME...AND FEIGN INNOCENCE IN DOING SO....YOU WHO UNTIL THIS VERY DAY BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED...YOU WHO BETRAYED ME....YOU WHO LIED TO ME...YOU WHO COMPARED ME TO ANOTHER...YOU WHO I LOVED AND WHO PROMISED ME ALL YOUR TOMORROWS...I HAD HIGH HOPES FOR US....HOPES THAT REACHED THE HIGH HEAVENS BUT IN THE END ONLY FOR YOU TO TAKE ME STRAIGHT TO HELL....
AM: Belinda
I WANT: to be happy and content
I HAVE: me, myself and I
I WISH: peace In my heart
I HATE: Adrian for hurting and betraying me
I MISS:
I FEAR: Loneliness
I HEAR: Ono Lisa's rendition of Moon River (Thanks Jeanboy)
I SEARCH: to find my inner self and the one who will love me till my dying breath (yes! I still have that tiny hope in my heart)
I WONDER: WHAT I DID TO DESERVE THE KIND OF TREATMENT I GOT FROM YOU
I REGRET: FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU AND BELIEVEING EVERYTHING YOU SAID
I LOVE: myself....have to learn how to love myself....
I ACHE: in my heart and in my soul...
I ALWAYS: dream
I AM NOT: happy...not yet...not yet but I will be!!!
I DANCE: inside my room
I SING: anytime i want (ssshhhh!!!!!)
I CRY: when i am hurt.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: a bitch.
I WRITE: in my blog
I LOSE:
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED:
I SHOULD: FORGET YOU AND MAYBE ONE DAY FIND IT IN MY HEART TO FORGIVE YOU...YOU WHO DO NOT EVEN KNOW HOW TO ASK FORGIVENESS AND UNTIL NOW CONTINUE TO HURT ME...AND FEIGN INNOCENCE IN DOING SO....YOU WHO UNTIL THIS VERY DAY BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED...YOU WHO BETRAYED ME....YOU WHO LIED TO ME...YOU WHO COMPARED ME TO ANOTHER...YOU WHO I LOVED AND WHO PROMISED ME ALL YOUR TOMORROWS...I HAD HIGH HOPES FOR US....HOPES THAT REACHED THE HIGH HEAVENS BUT IN THE END ONLY FOR YOU TO TAKE ME STRAIGHT TO HELL....
"I can always tell when something big is about to happen. Whether it's going to be good or bad, I can always tell. I can always feel it coming ...."
This is true..i remember that during the last week of December that I had that God awful feeling of losing him. That's why I asked him not to go but he said that he can't daw and so..the rest is history...
I've always hated being "clairvoyant" if I must use the term...yes, i am able to talk to dead people and spirits...see and feel them...I even have the gift of being able to sometimes see the future...like deja' vu but in a weird sense...bwsit...sana nga lang it came handy when he was about to break my heart da ba??? I am not Madam Auring (ay mahilig sa bata?) or Madam Rose (yer lackheee nhamvher...) I am just plain me so please do not ask me to talk to a dead relative of yours or come up to me and say..may nakikita ka ba now?!?! I just fucking hate that...for appointments, see me in Quiapo every friday..sideline ko yan...hahahahaha.....btw, I believe that every is clairvoyant in different levels...mine is just on higher level than others or mas open yung sensory chorvaness ko than others but if you try to tune into yourself and reflect more, you'd discover that you have the same ability as I do...wag lang abusin and keep to your faith.
This is true..i remember that during the last week of December that I had that God awful feeling of losing him. That's why I asked him not to go but he said that he can't daw and so..the rest is history...
I've always hated being "clairvoyant" if I must use the term...yes, i am able to talk to dead people and spirits...see and feel them...I even have the gift of being able to sometimes see the future...like deja' vu but in a weird sense...bwsit...sana nga lang it came handy when he was about to break my heart da ba??? I am not Madam Auring (ay mahilig sa bata?) or Madam Rose (yer lackheee nhamvher...) I am just plain me so please do not ask me to talk to a dead relative of yours or come up to me and say..may nakikita ka ba now?!?! I just fucking hate that...for appointments, see me in Quiapo every friday..sideline ko yan...hahahahaha.....btw, I believe that every is clairvoyant in different levels...mine is just on higher level than others or mas open yung sensory chorvaness ko than others but if you try to tune into yourself and reflect more, you'd discover that you have the same ability as I do...wag lang abusin and keep to your faith.
Apr 5, 2004
Here is one of the e-mails that was sent to me by Eric... he is one of those people who helped me get through that turbulent part of my life:
-----Original Message-----
From: Roderick Reinoso
Sent: Wednesday, January 21, 2004 4:23 AM
To: Maria Belinda Perez
Subject: some thoughts from me
Hi Belle,
i just want to share with you two poems that i made for my friends. I know we haven't really known each other that much, but just the same I want you to know that if there is anything i can do to help, just ask. i'm here lang, and as my poems will tell you....this s what i am to my friends. Believe me, you'll be able to sort things out. I can help. I've been there too. :)
I'LL BE HERE
In moments when your heart is rent in sorrow
because of the loss of someone dear,
be not afraid for there is someone near
and will help you face tomorrow.
In moments when your heart leaps in happiness
for reasons you cannot explain,
there is someone who is happy with you
and smiles whenever you do.
In moments when the world goes crazy
and you don't know what else to do,
look no further for someone waits for you
to lead you through the twisted maze of life.
In moments when you feel alone
and the world seems to cave you in,
just reach out to me and i'll pull you out
and hold your hand till you're safely by my side.
In moments when you think there is no hope,
when all your decisions are wrong and failures,
don't despair, don't give up on life,
for i'll be here to boost your spirits.
I'll be here for you no matter what happens,
I'll be here for you no matter how many years go by.
For as long as you'll need me i'll be watching over you
even if i may be very far away.
Should there come a time you'll wonder
if you are near to me,
look into my heart and you will see
that you are there right beside me.
I MAY NOT BE
I may not be there to be with you when you party,
but i will be here when you come back
to hear about the stories and fun you had.
I may not be millionaire that can lavish you with gifts,
but I will be here to shower you with my friendship
that will last throughout the years.
I may not be there to hold your hand
when you need to be consoled,
but i will here to listen to whatever you have to say
should you need someone to talk to.
I may not be there to share life's precious moments,
but I will be here to wish you all the best
and to root for your every little success.
I may not be there beside you
to dry the tears streaming down your cheeks,
but I will be here waiting for you
to comfort you and be with you.
I may not be a lot of things, but this much I can promise you.
I will be here for you...every moment...every day...
for as long as you want me to be.
-----Original Message-----
From: Roderick Reinoso
Sent: Wednesday, January 21, 2004 4:23 AM
To: Maria Belinda Perez
Subject: some thoughts from me
Hi Belle,
i just want to share with you two poems that i made for my friends. I know we haven't really known each other that much, but just the same I want you to know that if there is anything i can do to help, just ask. i'm here lang, and as my poems will tell you....this s what i am to my friends. Believe me, you'll be able to sort things out. I can help. I've been there too. :)
I'LL BE HERE
In moments when your heart is rent in sorrow
because of the loss of someone dear,
be not afraid for there is someone near
and will help you face tomorrow.
In moments when your heart leaps in happiness
for reasons you cannot explain,
there is someone who is happy with you
and smiles whenever you do.
In moments when the world goes crazy
and you don't know what else to do,
look no further for someone waits for you
to lead you through the twisted maze of life.
In moments when you feel alone
and the world seems to cave you in,
just reach out to me and i'll pull you out
and hold your hand till you're safely by my side.
In moments when you think there is no hope,
when all your decisions are wrong and failures,
don't despair, don't give up on life,
for i'll be here to boost your spirits.
I'll be here for you no matter what happens,
I'll be here for you no matter how many years go by.
For as long as you'll need me i'll be watching over you
even if i may be very far away.
Should there come a time you'll wonder
if you are near to me,
look into my heart and you will see
that you are there right beside me.
I MAY NOT BE
I may not be there to be with you when you party,
but i will be here when you come back
to hear about the stories and fun you had.
I may not be millionaire that can lavish you with gifts,
but I will be here to shower you with my friendship
that will last throughout the years.
I may not be there to hold your hand
when you need to be consoled,
but i will here to listen to whatever you have to say
should you need someone to talk to.
I may not be there to share life's precious moments,
but I will be here to wish you all the best
and to root for your every little success.
I may not be there beside you
to dry the tears streaming down your cheeks,
but I will be here waiting for you
to comfort you and be with you.
I may not be a lot of things, but this much I can promise you.
I will be here for you...every moment...every day...
for as long as you want me to be.
What goes around comes around.
Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt.
Dance like nobody's watching.
Sing like nobody's listening.
Live like it's Heaven on Earth.
May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.
Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt.
Dance like nobody's watching.
Sing like nobody's listening.
Live like it's Heaven on Earth.
May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.
Virgo Daily Horoscope
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When was the last time you heard all about how wonderful you are? Well, if you can stop cleaning long enough to spend time with dear ones, you'll hear it today. Just don't forget to say thank you.
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by Astrocenter.com
When was the last time you heard all about how wonderful you are? Well, if you can stop cleaning long enough to spend time with dear ones, you'll hear it today. Just don't forget to say thank you.
Apr 4, 2004
"I believe that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them."
I am sooo sleepy
My new sked is now 7am-4pm with fri and sat off. This due to my recent promotion..I just got asked if I want to be an SME. Pero syempre, nakalimutan pa daw ako and they just asked my last friday morning while we were playing badminton!!! tama ba naman yun...it makes me think "you really want me! you really do want me." What I just don't understand is my transition or interim sked from rep to sme ...I was s'posed to be on a rest day today according to my sked as a rep but stan asked me to come in. not for ot but as day 1 of my new position..haaayyyif i went to work pala saturday afternoon, I would've been able to come home mga 2am na tapos wake up around 5am fpr my new 7am sked...thats what i dont get..buti nalang pala i didnt go to work yesterday or else patay ako...actually, patay na nga ko 
coz Ive been sick since friday....after badminton, I went to shang with Myles for a bit of shopping and lunch coz i was sooo sungry...we ate in cibo. she went home ahead of me since may pasok sya that night. Me naman, I immediately slept as soon as I arrived home tapos when I woke up na around 6pm I was burning up with fever...haaayyyy after several days of working my ass off it was my body telling me ...happy birthday! est- to take it easy and rest pala...haaayy.so I didnt go to workl saturday but wasnt able to enjoy the party since I was sick nga..I was able to sleep na around 2am and woke up early for my new shift today...hhaaayyy basta Im sooooo sleepy....one thing also that has been pissing me off is jeanboy...he doest make me pansin...bwisit..mga lalaki tlaga...
Reg sent me in this in memory of Jeanboy:
Why Haven't you called me?
Did you forget me?
I need to know
when were you intending
to break the silence
and let me know?
Mine is the loneliest of numbers
now is the loneliest of times
you're 19 days late
but still I sit and wait, oh
Waiting and waiting
waiting and waiting
waiting and waiting
waiting on you
who have you been seeing
that made you forget me?
I bet you call him
where oh where does he come from?
I bet he lives close by
I bet he's just a friend
mine is the loneliest of numbers
now is the loneliest of times
you're 19 days late
but still I sit and wait, oh
Waiting and waiting
waiting and waiting
waiting and waiting
waiting on you
waiting and waiting
waiting and waiting
you got me waiting
waiting on you
I asked you if you had a good heart
you answered, "yes, I'll never do you harm"
I am sooo sleepy
My new sked is now 7am-4pm with fri and sat off. This due to my recent promotion..I just got asked if I want to be an SME. Pero syempre, nakalimutan pa daw ako and they just asked my last friday morning while we were playing badminton!!! tama ba naman yun...it makes me think "you really want me! you really do want me." What I just don't understand is my transition or interim sked from rep to sme ...I was s'posed to be on a rest day today according to my sked as a rep but stan asked me to come in. not for ot but as day 1 of my new position..haaayyyif i went to work pala saturday afternoon, I would've been able to come home mga 2am na tapos wake up around 5am fpr my new 7am sked...thats what i dont get..buti nalang pala i didnt go to work yesterday or else patay ako...actually, patay na nga ko coz Ive been sick since friday....after badminton, I went to shang with Myles for a bit of shopping and lunch coz i was sooo sungry...we ate in cibo. she went home ahead of me since may pasok sya that night. Me naman, I immediately slept as soon as I arrived home tapos when I woke up na around 6pm I was burning up with fever...haaayyyy after several days of working my ass off it was my body telling me ...happy birthday! est- to take it easy and rest pala...haaayy.so I didnt go to workl saturday but wasnt able to enjoy the party since I was sick nga..I was able to sleep na around 2am and woke up early for my new shift today...hhaaayyy basta Im sooooo sleepy....one thing also that has been pissing me off is jeanboy...he doest make me pansin...bwisit..mga lalaki tlaga...
Reg sent me in this in memory of Jeanboy:
Why Haven't you called me?
Did you forget me?
I need to know
when were you intending
to break the silence
and let me know?
Mine is the loneliest of numbers
now is the loneliest of times
you're 19 days late
but still I sit and wait, oh
Waiting and waiting
waiting and waiting
waiting and waiting
waiting on you
who have you been seeing
that made you forget me?
I bet you call him
where oh where does he come from?
I bet he lives close by
I bet he's just a friend
mine is the loneliest of numbers
now is the loneliest of times
you're 19 days late
but still I sit and wait, oh
Waiting and waiting
waiting and waiting
waiting and waiting
waiting on you
waiting and waiting
waiting and waiting
you got me waiting
waiting on you
I asked you if you had a good heart
you answered, "yes, I'll never do you harm"
Every sunday, I'd take my lunch "early" and hear mass in Greenbelt chapel at 730pm to hear some priest who's homilies were always very enlightening and makes you really really think..kaya nga lang he left na last week...but good thing is that he recorded some of his homilies kaya I'd still be able to hear him when I buy his CDs. kewl.
"it is in our darkest hour that we must have faith" (LOTR)
"it is in our darkest hour that we must have faith" (LOTR)
"i'm not saying he's the one who got away ha! but its worth the read." from jean de leon
In your life, you'll make note of a lot of
people. Ones with whom you shared something
special, ones who will always mean something.
There's the one you first kissed, the one you
first loved, the one you lost your virginity to,
the one you put on a pedestal, the one
you're with... and the one that got away.
Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that
person with who(m)everything was great,
everything was perfect, but the timing was
just wrong. There was no fault in the person,
there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards
just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.
When you're not ready to commit in
that mature manner, it doesn't matter who(m)
you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems
become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers
simply because you're not ready and it shows.
It's not that you and the person you're with are
no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and
little things become the flashpoint of that fact.
Then one day you're ready. You really are. And
when this happens you'll be ready to settle down
with someone. He or she may not be the most
perfect, they might not be the brightest star of
romance to ever have burned in your life, but
it'll work because you're ready. It'll work
because it's the right time and you'll make it
work. And it'll make sense.
So that day comes when you're finally making
sense of things, and you find yourself to be a
different person. Things are different, your
approach is different, you finally understand who
you are and what you want, and you've become
ready because the time has truly arrived.
There's no telling when this day will come.
Hopefully you're single but you could be in a
long-term relationship, you could be married with
three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is
that you've changed, and for some reason, the one
that got away, is the first person you think
about.
You'll think about them because you'll
wonder, "What if she/he were here today?" You'll
wonder, "What if we were together now, with me
as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one
that got away is. The biggest "Whatif?" you'll
have in your life.
If you're married, you'll just have to accept the
fact that the one that got away, got away.
No matter how fairy tale you think your marriage
is, this can happen to the best of us. But
hopefully you're mature enough to realize
that you're already with the one you're with and
this is just another test of your commitment, one
which will just strengthen your marriage when you
get past it.Sure, you'll think about him/her
every so often, but it's alright.It's never nice
to live with a "might have been," but it happens.
Maybe the one that got away is the one who's
already married. In which case it's the same
thing. You just have to accept and know that your
memories of that person will probably bring a
nice little smile to your lips in the future when
you're old and gray and reminiscing.
But if neither of that is the case, then it's
different. What do you do if it's not yet too
late? Simple... find him, find her. Because
the very existence of a "one that got away"
means that you'll always wonder, what if you got
that one?
It doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of
nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might
be "the one that got away" as well for the person
who is your "the one that got away."
You might drop in from out of nowhere and it
won't make a difference. If the timing is finally
right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and
you know, it would be a great feeling, in the end,
to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the
one that almost got away."
Adrian was not the one who got away. He was the one who went away. Carroll was the one who got away for me...sayang...if we could've just been stronger but alas....there really are some things not meant to be...
In your life, you'll make note of a lot of
people. Ones with whom you shared something
special, ones who will always mean something.
There's the one you first kissed, the one you
first loved, the one you lost your virginity to,
the one you put on a pedestal, the one
you're with... and the one that got away.
Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that
person with who(m)everything was great,
everything was perfect, but the timing was
just wrong. There was no fault in the person,
there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards
just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.
When you're not ready to commit in
that mature manner, it doesn't matter who(m)
you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems
become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers
simply because you're not ready and it shows.
It's not that you and the person you're with are
no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and
little things become the flashpoint of that fact.
Then one day you're ready. You really are. And
when this happens you'll be ready to settle down
with someone. He or she may not be the most
perfect, they might not be the brightest star of
romance to ever have burned in your life, but
it'll work because you're ready. It'll work
because it's the right time and you'll make it
work. And it'll make sense.
So that day comes when you're finally making
sense of things, and you find yourself to be a
different person. Things are different, your
approach is different, you finally understand who
you are and what you want, and you've become
ready because the time has truly arrived.
There's no telling when this day will come.
Hopefully you're single but you could be in a
long-term relationship, you could be married with
three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is
that you've changed, and for some reason, the one
that got away, is the first person you think
about.
You'll think about them because you'll
wonder, "What if she/he were here today?" You'll
wonder, "What if we were together now, with me
as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one
that got away is. The biggest "Whatif?" you'll
have in your life.
If you're married, you'll just have to accept the
fact that the one that got away, got away.
No matter how fairy tale you think your marriage
is, this can happen to the best of us. But
hopefully you're mature enough to realize
that you're already with the one you're with and
this is just another test of your commitment, one
which will just strengthen your marriage when you
get past it.Sure, you'll think about him/her
every so often, but it's alright.It's never nice
to live with a "might have been," but it happens.
Maybe the one that got away is the one who's
already married. In which case it's the same
thing. You just have to accept and know that your
memories of that person will probably bring a
nice little smile to your lips in the future when
you're old and gray and reminiscing.
But if neither of that is the case, then it's
different. What do you do if it's not yet too
late? Simple... find him, find her. Because
the very existence of a "one that got away"
means that you'll always wonder, what if you got
that one?
It doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of
nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might
be "the one that got away" as well for the person
who is your "the one that got away."
You might drop in from out of nowhere and it
won't make a difference. If the timing is finally
right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and
you know, it would be a great feeling, in the end,
to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the
one that almost got away."
Adrian was not the one who got away. He was the one who went away. Carroll was the one who got away for me...sayang...if we could've just been stronger but alas....there really are some things not meant to be...
Apr 1, 2004
Times like these, this would be one of the best lines to read. It's a song from Barry Manilow -- "One of These Days".... Show his loss girl!!!
One of these Days
One of these very ordinary days
You're gonna call my name
And I won't be there
After the days
After these very very many days
You're gonna see the light
And I won't be there
And on that day
Somehow I'll find the stregth to stay away
I won't give in
I will not let myself be taken in... again
Oh no my friend
One of these days
Out of the blue you'll start remembering
And I won't care
'Cause I won't be there
Oh, and on that day
I swear I'll find the strength somehow to stay away
I won't give in
I will not let myself be taken in... again
Oh no my friend
That's what I say
That's what I tell myself... I won't give in
So try it someday
And you'll see that I won't be there
No, you know, no, I won't be there...
- Myls :o) -
One of these Days
One of these very ordinary days
You're gonna call my name
And I won't be there
After the days
After these very very many days
You're gonna see the light
And I won't be there
And on that day
Somehow I'll find the stregth to stay away
I won't give in
I will not let myself be taken in... again
Oh no my friend
One of these days
Out of the blue you'll start remembering
And I won't care
'Cause I won't be there
Oh, and on that day
I swear I'll find the strength somehow to stay away
I won't give in
I will not let myself be taken in... again
Oh no my friend
That's what I say
That's what I tell myself... I won't give in
So try it someday
And you'll see that I won't be there
No, you know, no, I won't be there...
- Myls :o) -
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