Word of the Day: aleatory
Pronunciation: /AY-lee-uh-tor-ee/adj :
*dependent on luck or chance
ex: "To find a mate you must go out and get one; you cannot depend on the aleatory vicissitudes of life."
so good luck nalang sa ating lahat a
One thing that I learned from my friend's death is to never forget to tell people how much they mean to you. I texted the people I'm close with how much they mean to me and I got some funny reactions to my text.
One reaction: "Thanks. is there anything I can do for you?"
As Nida Blanca said: "Ang pagmamahal hindi naghihintay ng kapalit. Hindi purkit nagmahal ka ay dapat mahalin ka din ng minamahal mo."
Two reaction: "Ang drama mo, tol"
"Its the drama in our lives that make us strong."
Just shows how the people we love are not 'sanay' hearing from us how much them mean to us because they never heard it! So what are you doing there? Hug that person next to you (if may kabuluhan sila sa buhay nyo..kung ka team mate mo lang ay hampasin mo nalang). Text the people you love and let them know how much they mean to you/or how much you love them...let them know let them know...."remember the last thing you say to people. you never know if its the last thing that you'll ever say to them."
Heaven Give Me Words
(Propaganda)
Take these words they come out wrong
They won't express this old emotional thing
If you could see inside my mind
You'd know the love and feel this passionate thing
You stepped into my locked out world
I felt your touch on my shoulder
You turned my mind right over
Like a child before it learns to speak
I turn to stone, I turn to stone
Heaven give me words to tell you
How I am feeling
What I am needing
Heaven let this message reach you
This desperation
Will stop my heart from beating
I won't be giving in
I'll die if I don't tell you just how I feel
I'll make you truly understand
What kind of man could live with feelings Of steel
I used to be so self contained
When I thought about love
A conversation heart to heart
I must confess this old emotional thing
Before you think that I'm a fool
There's a flame that burns here
Here's a feeling that's so rareIt's my nightmare when I go to speak
I turn to stone, I turn to stone
Heaven give me words to tell you
How I am feeling
What I am needing
Heaven let this message reach you
This desperation
Will stop my heart from beating
Heaven give me words
Heaven give pride
Heaven let this message reach you
You've seen a heart worn on my sleeve
I must express this old emotional thing
Please be a witness to my dreams
Or I'll wake up and say now Can this be real?
Before you think that I'm a fool
There's a flame that burns here
Here's a feeling that's so rare
It's my nightmare when I go to speak I turn to stone, I turn to stone
Heaven give me words to tell you
How I am feeling
What I am needing
Heaven let this message reach you
This desperation
Will stop my heart from beating
Heaven give me words to tell you
How I am feeling
What I am needing
Heaven let this message reach you
This desperation
Will stop my heart from beating
Heaven give me words
Heaven give pride
Heaven let this message reach you
Jul 16, 2004
God is busy taking care of the world...so he sent friends to take care of me in his stead...
hhaaayyy how lucky can I get...all my dear friends in PS almost in overlapping shifts (gets?!)...Jon , Tin, Athea, Ces and Mitch :)
hhaaayyy how lucky can I get...all my dear friends in PS almost in overlapping shifts (gets?!)...Jon , Tin, Athea, Ces and Mitch :)
Athea (a.k.a. ats atcha anthea): is my oldest friend (no pun intended) sa e-mail team. She's my order buddy when we used to be in the same team and shift...kaso for some reason ako lang ang tumataba and sya wala..parang napunta sa hangin ang kinain kahit na minsan mas madame pa syang kinakain kesa sa akin.
Jon (a.k.a. jonathan, jonjon the (angel),pogi,gwaps) is the sweetest guy I know (naks!) sweet kaso slow. sweet kaso corny. sweet kaso lagi nalang ako niloloko kay....sweet kaso di marunong mag scroll. sweet kaso forever na may PMS. pero ok lang kasi sweet naman sya e...wlang logic no? Got that kind of logic from Jon. And mabango din kilikili nya. Next to Lod that is :)
Tin (a.k.a teenteen kristine kristeta kris krissie)....teka wala akong masabe e...basta kakampi ko yan pag humirit si Jon ng mali about love and everythang (squatter!)...basta lab lab ang paguusapan we have the same wave length..pagagalitan nya ko pag nagddrama nanaman ako...
Mitch (a.ka. mitchiko atetitamitch mommymitch shawie) ang nanay ko sa office...pag wala sya sa office quiet lang ako...pag wla sya nakakayosi ako ng madame...pag wala sya nakaka inom ako ng coke ng madame..pag wla sya nakakarinig ako sa radio ng malakas...pag wala sya...sad ako...
Ces (a.ka. cessie sexy) ...ces was there when I needed someone to talk to during the first few days of my insanity stage...my mentor to beer drinking...sya ang kasama ko the very first time I went to a bar...at the ripe age of ..doot-doot...nakapunta din ako sa bar na may dancing dancing at drinking drinking...hahahaha squatter ko!...si ces maingay sa floor...pag wala sya quiet ang floor kse nga maingay sya..pag wala sya...sad ang lahat...
Tin, ako to:
And i don't regret the time we spent
and my time with you
Tin, ako to:
And i don't regret the time we spent
and my time with you
It was not in vain
And i wonder why
and where it all went wrong
and how you lost your hope
you're the reason that i'm gone
and i wonder how how you came to change
and why you lost your way
but i still stay the same
still the same...
And i wonder why
and where it all went wrong
and how you lost your hope
you're the reason that i'm gone
and i wonder how how you came to change
and why you lost your way
but i still stay the same
still the same...
Jul 15, 2004
"...even the strongest have their moments of fatigue." (Nietscheze)
I don't like death...dying and all the hullaballoo thing
although I do have a deathwish myself, I do not like people I know sad and suffering because someone they know died...
I remember that early this year, i had wanted to "go" and I almost did...twice...if it wasn't for friends i would not be here writing this entry and you will be in another blog or maybe doing something worthwile...why did I want to go...because I was coward...because at that time, i couldn't face the pain that I was feeling nor rein in the dam of sadness and loneliness that was overwhelming me...death was the only way i could think of to ease the pain...an old friend died...and no one expected it...i guess it was the only way for him to ease the pain that was gnawing at him...despite the funny demeanor...behind the boy bastos image there was someone who was trying to reach out to you..to me..to us...
old friends at the stroke of midnight...
Carlos, Nico, ADONIS, Tin and Iro at the back
Me and Edwin up front
...Think of Dondi
Laugh, don't cry
I know
He'd want it that way
When ya think of Dondi
Laugh, don't cry
I know
He'd want it that way
Friend of a friend
Friend 'til the end
That's the kind of guy he was
Taken away
So young
Taken away
Without a warning
I don't like death...dying and all the hullaballoo thing
although I do have a deathwish myself, I do not like people I know sad and suffering because someone they know died...
I remember that early this year, i had wanted to "go" and I almost did...twice...if it wasn't for friends i would not be here writing this entry and you will be in another blog or maybe doing something worthwile...why did I want to go...because I was coward...because at that time, i couldn't face the pain that I was feeling nor rein in the dam of sadness and loneliness that was overwhelming me...death was the only way i could think of to ease the pain...an old friend died...and no one expected it...i guess it was the only way for him to ease the pain that was gnawing at him...despite the funny demeanor...behind the boy bastos image there was someone who was trying to reach out to you..to me..to us...
old friends at the stroke of midnight...
Carlos, Nico, ADONIS, Tin and Iro at the back
Me and Edwin up front
...Think of Dondi
Laugh, don't cry
I know
He'd want it that way
When ya think of Dondi
Laugh, don't cry
I know
He'd want it that way
Friend of a friend
Friend 'til the end
That's the kind of guy he was
Taken away
So young
Taken away
Without a warning
Jul 14, 2004
Love Lives On
Those we love are never really lost to us--
we feel them in so many special ways--
through friends they always cared about and dreams they left behind,
in beauty that they added to our days...
in words of wisdom we still carry with us and memories that never will be gone...
Those we love are never really lost to us--
for everywhere their special love lives on.
~ Amanda Bradley ~
how can one die from his own hands...
how can one take his own life...
how can one just end it...
It's not that the person does not want to live anymore...it just that..the pain has become so unbearable...i should know i almost went throught it...twice..but even in death, I was a coward...
Jul 13, 2004
"The greatest glory of living lies not in never falling but in rising every time you fall" (Nelson Mandela)
Just got out of a 4 day rest day wherein 3 days were spent either in front of the TV or my PC. 3 days of doing nothing. 3 days of bumming around. 3 days din na walang ligo at walang toothbrush! hahahahah :P
For 3 days (oo 3 days na!) I practically did nothing...even my food was served where I was...tamad ito! Not that there was any shoratge of gimik but its just that I declined every invitation that I got...even the trip to my dentist was cancelled! Hahaha ganun ako katamad! Besides, gastos lang yun. That's it. No more kwento...my brain is still on restday mode!
Happy Thought
from Paulo Coehlo
You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen. Everyday God gives us the sun -- and also one moment in which we have the ability to change everything that makes us unhappy. Everyday, we try to pretend that we haven't perceived that moment, that it doesn't exist -- that today is the same as yesterday and will be the same as tomorrow. But if people really pay attention to their daily lives, they will discover that magic moment. It may arrive in the instant when we are doing something mundane, like putting our front door key in the lock; it may lie hidden in the quiet that follows the lunch hour or in the thousand and one things that all seem the same to us. But that moment exists -- a moment when all the
power of the stars becomes a part of us and enables us to perform miracles. Joy is sometimes a blessing, but it is often a conquest. Our magic moment helps us to change and sends us off in search of our dreams. Yes, we are going to suffer, we will have difficult times, and we will experience many disappointments -- but all of this is transitory; it leaves no permanent mark. And one day we will look back with pride and faith at the journey we have taken. Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps she won't suffer the way people do when they have a dream to follow. But when that person looks back -- and at some point everyone looks back -- she will hear her heart saying, "What have you done with the miracles that God planted in your days?
What have you done with the miracles that God planted in your days? What have you done with the talents God bestowed on you? You buried yourself in a cave because you
were fearful of losing those talents. So this is your heritage: the certainty that
you wasted your life."
Just got out of a 4 day rest day wherein 3 days were spent either in front of the TV or my PC. 3 days of doing nothing. 3 days of bumming around. 3 days din na walang ligo at walang toothbrush! hahahahah :P
For 3 days (oo 3 days na!) I practically did nothing...even my food was served where I was...tamad ito! Not that there was any shoratge of gimik but its just that I declined every invitation that I got...even the trip to my dentist was cancelled! Hahaha ganun ako katamad! Besides, gastos lang yun. That's it. No more kwento...my brain is still on restday mode!
Happy Thought
from Paulo Coehlo
You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen. Everyday God gives us the sun -- and also one moment in which we have the ability to change everything that makes us unhappy. Everyday, we try to pretend that we haven't perceived that moment, that it doesn't exist -- that today is the same as yesterday and will be the same as tomorrow. But if people really pay attention to their daily lives, they will discover that magic moment. It may arrive in the instant when we are doing something mundane, like putting our front door key in the lock; it may lie hidden in the quiet that follows the lunch hour or in the thousand and one things that all seem the same to us. But that moment exists -- a moment when all the
power of the stars becomes a part of us and enables us to perform miracles. Joy is sometimes a blessing, but it is often a conquest. Our magic moment helps us to change and sends us off in search of our dreams. Yes, we are going to suffer, we will have difficult times, and we will experience many disappointments -- but all of this is transitory; it leaves no permanent mark. And one day we will look back with pride and faith at the journey we have taken. Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps she won't suffer the way people do when they have a dream to follow. But when that person looks back -- and at some point everyone looks back -- she will hear her heart saying, "What have you done with the miracles that God planted in your days?
What have you done with the miracles that God planted in your days? What have you done with the talents God bestowed on you? You buried yourself in a cave because you
were fearful of losing those talents. So this is your heritage: the certainty that
you wasted your life."
Jul 12, 2004
Pronunciation: [ê-pis-tê-'mah-lê-jee or -ji]
Definition 1: (Philosophy) The study of the nature of knowledge: suppositions, conclusions, and all that happens in between—how we know things; the structure of knowledge itself.
Are we all Epistemologists since we seek knowledge: suppositions, conclusions, and all that happens in between....
then what are we really looking for? what goal are we trying to achieve? What ultimate knowledge are we trying to gain?
Definition 1: (Philosophy) The study of the nature of knowledge: suppositions, conclusions, and all that happens in between—how we know things; the structure of knowledge itself.
Are we all Epistemologists since we seek knowledge: suppositions, conclusions, and all that happens in between....
then what are we really looking for? what goal are we trying to achieve? What ultimate knowledge are we trying to gain?
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ppsstttt si Ara at Christian ang nagkatuluyan...hahahaha but I didnt get to watch their version of the wedding..yung kay Ara and Leo lang when ABS had a special show just for their version of the wedding last saturday....hahahaha told you I was bored! I'm not a fan of any of the stars in the teleserye..but Jericho is cute..hhhmmmm...but I like the song from where the title was derived...I AM A SHARON FAN! ha! wlang kokontra!
SANA'Y WALA NG WAKAS
(Sharon Cuneta)
Sana'y wala ng wakas
Kung pag-ibig ay wagas
Paglalambing sa'yong piling
Ay ligaya kong walang kahambing
Kung 'di malimot ng tadhana
Bigyang-tuldok ang ating ligaya
Walang hanggan ay hahamakin
Pagka't walang katapusan kitang iibigin
Kahit na ilang tinik ay kaya kong tapakan
Kung 'yan ang paraan upang landas mo'y masundan
Kahit ilang ulit ako'y iyong saktan
Hindi kita maaaring iwanan
Kahit ilang awit ay aking aawitin
Hanggang ang himig ko'y maging himig mo na rin
Kahit ilang dagat ang dapat tawirin
Higit pa riyan ang aking gagawin
Sana'y wala ng wakas
Kapag hapdi ay lumipas
Ang mahalaga ngayon ay pag-asa
Dala ng pag-ibig saksi buong daigdig
Kung 'di malimot ng tadhana
Bigyang-tuldok ang ating ligaya
Walang hanggan ay hahamakin
Pagka't walang katapusan kitang iibigin
Kahit na ilang tinik ay kaya kong tapakan
Kung 'yan ang paraan upang landas mo'y masundan
Kahit ilang ulit ako'y iyong saktan
Hindi kita maaaring iwanan
Kahit ilang awit ay aking aawitin
Hanggang ang himig ko'y maging himig mo na rin
Kahit ilang dagat ang dapat tawirin
Higit pa riyan ang aking gagawin
'Di lamang pag-ibig ko
'Di lamang ang buhay ko'y ibibigay
Sa ngalan ng pag-ibig mo
Higit pa riyan aking mahal ang alay ko
Jul 11, 2004
Wackiness: 28/100
Rationality: 42/100
Constructiveness: 34/100
Leadership: 46/100
You are an SEDF--Sober Emotional Destructive Follower. This makes you an evil genius. You are extremely focused and difficult to distract from your tasks. With luck, you have learned to channel your energies into improving your intellect, rather than destroying the weak and unsuspecting.
Your friends may find you remote and a hard nut to crack. Few of your peers know you very well--even those you have known a long time--because you have expert control of the face you put forth to the world. You prefer to observe, calculate, discern and decide. Your decisions are final, and your desire to be right is impenetrable.
You are not to be messed with. You may explode.
kaboom!
WHAT IS AN AMBIGRAM?
An ambigram is a word written in such a way that it is legible both rightside-up and upside-down. Ambigrams are an ancient artform. Ambi means "both" and gram means "word".
In front of my pc the whole day trying to fix my blog--err I think destroy it is a more apt word. So far nothing kaya I decided to stop nalang...I'm on my 3rd rest day...I was "given" a 4 day rest day this week due to the new SME sked. Kainis if I had known na I'd have 4 days to rest I would've planned something like go out of town or go on an all night gimik...hay, so far the only gimik I had gone to was last friday's usual movie night...
Rationality: 42/100
Constructiveness: 34/100
Leadership: 46/100
You are an SEDF--Sober Emotional Destructive Follower. This makes you an evil genius. You are extremely focused and difficult to distract from your tasks. With luck, you have learned to channel your energies into improving your intellect, rather than destroying the weak and unsuspecting.
Your friends may find you remote and a hard nut to crack. Few of your peers know you very well--even those you have known a long time--because you have expert control of the face you put forth to the world. You prefer to observe, calculate, discern and decide. Your decisions are final, and your desire to be right is impenetrable.
You are not to be messed with. You may explode.
kaboom!
WHAT IS AN AMBIGRAM?
An ambigram is a word written in such a way that it is legible both rightside-up and upside-down. Ambigrams are an ancient artform. Ambi means "both" and gram means "word".
In front of my pc the whole day trying to fix my blog--err I think destroy it is a more apt word. So far nothing kaya I decided to stop nalang...I'm on my 3rd rest day...I was "given" a 4 day rest day this week due to the new SME sked. Kainis if I had known na I'd have 4 days to rest I would've planned something like go out of town or go on an all night gimik...hay, so far the only gimik I had gone to was last friday's usual movie night...
Jul 10, 2004
"Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, 'Where have I gone wrong?' Then a voice says to me, 'This is going to take more than one night.'" -Charles M. Schulz, Charlie Brown in "Peanuts"
fine. I'll lay off my loser Friendster messages and post something serious...and it's all because of something Jon the (angel) said over yosi and coffee jelly in Starbucks Rockwell last night before we watched Spidey2 (2nd time for me)...I dunno how it got started basta it started nalang w him saying that my jerx (translation: jerk of an ex) DID NOT INTEND TO HURT ME....
...that got me RILED UP!!! My apologies to Jon for raising my voice at that time but I just totally disagree with what you said. If 2 people are in a relationship and one of them suddenly finds or meets someone that they "love" or like (whatever!)more than the person what should they do?
For me, rein that emotion. Why? Because you do not have the right to feel that emotion in the first place. You should be "busy" loving that person you're with. If situations were reversed would you want your significant other feeling in-love or in-like with another person other than you? I bet you don't. If you are having relationship trouble, then, for God's sake, try to resolve it.
Relationship trouble should never be the reason why you feel in-like with another person.
aahhh i had wanted to expound on this...but I feel quesy...hafta to go to the banyo muna..ciao!
...What, what kind of fool
Tears it apart leaving me pained and sorrowed
Losing the love wondering why
Wondering why)
Where will I be tomorrow
Losing you now wondering why
Where will I be tomorrow....
1 of the funniest Friendster Profiles i've read is from this girl
Swiss
Interests: eatin' fish &squid ball, i love Garfield stuff! Pychonalysis, Listenin' 2 soul music, Fashion Mag, Go-Cartin', chillin' w/ my home gals&lads, , reading interesting book, shoppin', Surfin' the net, People watchin', home decoratin', Dining, Clubbin', Light extreme sports.
***SINCE GARFIELD STUFF LANG ANG GUSTO MO SI GARFIELD AYAW MO NA...Pychonalysis MALI NA NGA ANG SPELLING NAGA-ALA PSYCHOLOGIST PA SYA.ANALYZE THIS!!!!...YOU LISTEN TO SOUL MUSIC? KAYA PALA NAGPPAPAKA HIFF HUFF KA PALA SA SPELLIN' MO NG WORDzzzzzz....FASHION MAG..TAKE NOTE ISANG MAG LANG ANG GUSTO NYA...GO CARTIN'? SPELLING AND THAT LINGO AGAIN...SANA LANG INTERESADO SYA SA PAG KAIN AT KUNG HINDI DI NA MAUUPDATE YUNG PROFILE NYA...HHMM MERON PALANG EXTREME SPORTS NA LIGHT?
Favorite Books: The PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE by Rick Warren, Nancy Drew, Psychology Book, European book, , Tuesdays with Morrie, cookin' book, Nursery bookz..
***"Psychology Book, European book,cookin' book, Nursery bookz" MAY LETTER s PO SANA AT TANONG KO LANG..PAG ANG AUTHOR NG ISANG BOOK OR IF THE BOOK WAS PRINTED IN THE US DAPAT BANG TAWAGIN KO DIN SYANG AMERICAN BOOK?
About Me:
Hi everyone? My name is Marie Swiss Therese, But ya can call me by my nick,"Swiss"..hhmmmm...Based on wot I hear from people around me and based on wot I observed bout myself, my actuations & likes, I am jolly, friendly,easy to be with, down to earth, Okay! I can be a bit moody but my heart is usually in the right place.
***IBANG KLASE KA TLAGA...BUT OK LANG YUN YOUR HEART IS IN THE RIGHT PLACE NMAN E..BUT CAN I DRIVE A STAKE THRU IT?
I can say that i'm kinda artistic, fashionable girl,im fondly with pets,im a nature lover, I just can't resist nature! love watchin' scary movies,Love to scare myself!lol'... i love listenin to music and music is my therapy definitely!., i also love light extreme sports...,well reading almost everything that interest me, like European History...And most of all and very impt is that, ....I have a strong faith in God!
***IS THAT A TYPO? IF IT IS SHOULD IT BE FOND OF OR FONDLE?..I CANT RESIST NATURE ALSO...I BREATHE SMOG AS A HOBBY!...CAN I SCARE YOU TO DEATH INSTEAD? EUROPEAN HISTO TAPOS BIGLANG NAG u TURN TO FAITH IN GOD...HUWAW!
Who I Want to Meet: let's see? hmmmm.... people that make me laugh so hard that beverages come spewin' out my nose! hahahah...silly! okay dead serious!..
person who is down to earth,Maturity is very important to me,i love Gentleman,but not old fashion though.God fearing, Loyal, honest, witty...A Man who can carry himself...and he should not be a chain smoker...Sport minded...A person who's ambitious and eager to fulfill his dream career...Know how to set a Goal in Life...with a great sense of humor!...and of corz, very Romantic...i
don't like beating around the bush...Be yerself! PEACE..OOphs..one thing good hygienic practices!...hmmmm
***ARRRGGHHMM..IF YOU SPEW "BEVERAGES THRU YOUR NOSE, AALISAN KITA BIGLA...YOU MUST ALSO HAVE HYGIENIC PRACTICES A!
fine. I'll lay off my loser Friendster messages and post something serious...and it's all because of something Jon the (angel) said over yosi and coffee jelly in Starbucks Rockwell last night before we watched Spidey2 (2nd time for me)...I dunno how it got started basta it started nalang w him saying that my jerx (translation: jerk of an ex) DID NOT INTEND TO HURT ME....
...that got me RILED UP!!! My apologies to Jon for raising my voice at that time but I just totally disagree with what you said. If 2 people are in a relationship and one of them suddenly finds or meets someone that they "love" or like (whatever!)more than the person what should they do?
For me, rein that emotion. Why? Because you do not have the right to feel that emotion in the first place. You should be "busy" loving that person you're with. If situations were reversed would you want your significant other feeling in-love or in-like with another person other than you? I bet you don't. If you are having relationship trouble, then, for God's sake, try to resolve it.
Relationship trouble should never be the reason why you feel in-like with another person.
aahhh i had wanted to expound on this...but I feel quesy...hafta to go to the banyo muna..ciao!
...What, what kind of fool
Tears it apart leaving me pained and sorrowed
Losing the love wondering why
Wondering why)
Where will I be tomorrow
Losing you now wondering why
Where will I be tomorrow....
1 of the funniest Friendster Profiles i've read is from this girl
Swiss
Interests: eatin' fish &squid ball, i love Garfield stuff! Pychonalysis, Listenin' 2 soul music, Fashion Mag, Go-Cartin', chillin' w/ my home gals&lads, , reading interesting book, shoppin', Surfin' the net, People watchin', home decoratin', Dining, Clubbin', Light extreme sports.
***SINCE GARFIELD STUFF LANG ANG GUSTO MO SI GARFIELD AYAW MO NA...Pychonalysis MALI NA NGA ANG SPELLING NAGA-ALA PSYCHOLOGIST PA SYA.ANALYZE THIS!!!!...YOU LISTEN TO SOUL MUSIC? KAYA PALA NAGPPAPAKA HIFF HUFF KA PALA SA SPELLIN' MO NG WORDzzzzzz....FASHION MAG..TAKE NOTE ISANG MAG LANG ANG GUSTO NYA...GO CARTIN'? SPELLING AND THAT LINGO AGAIN...SANA LANG INTERESADO SYA SA PAG KAIN AT KUNG HINDI DI NA MAUUPDATE YUNG PROFILE NYA...HHMM MERON PALANG EXTREME SPORTS NA LIGHT?
Favorite Books: The PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE by Rick Warren, Nancy Drew, Psychology Book, European book, , Tuesdays with Morrie, cookin' book, Nursery bookz..
***"Psychology Book, European book,cookin' book, Nursery bookz" MAY LETTER s PO SANA AT TANONG KO LANG..PAG ANG AUTHOR NG ISANG BOOK OR IF THE BOOK WAS PRINTED IN THE US DAPAT BANG TAWAGIN KO DIN SYANG AMERICAN BOOK?
About Me:
Hi everyone? My name is Marie Swiss Therese, But ya can call me by my nick,"Swiss"..hhmmmm...Based on wot I hear from people around me and based on wot I observed bout myself, my actuations & likes, I am jolly, friendly,easy to be with, down to earth, Okay! I can be a bit moody but my heart is usually in the right place.
***IBANG KLASE KA TLAGA...BUT OK LANG YUN YOUR HEART IS IN THE RIGHT PLACE NMAN E..BUT CAN I DRIVE A STAKE THRU IT?
I can say that i'm kinda artistic, fashionable girl,im fondly with pets,im a nature lover, I just can't resist nature! love watchin' scary movies,Love to scare myself!lol'... i love listenin to music and music is my therapy definitely!., i also love light extreme sports...,well reading almost everything that interest me, like European History...And most of all and very impt is that, ....I have a strong faith in God!
***IS THAT A TYPO? IF IT IS SHOULD IT BE FOND OF OR FONDLE?..I CANT RESIST NATURE ALSO...I BREATHE SMOG AS A HOBBY!...CAN I SCARE YOU TO DEATH INSTEAD? EUROPEAN HISTO TAPOS BIGLANG NAG u TURN TO FAITH IN GOD...HUWAW!
Who I Want to Meet: let's see? hmmmm.... people that make me laugh so hard that beverages come spewin' out my nose! hahahah...silly! okay dead serious!..
person who is down to earth,Maturity is very important to me,i love Gentleman,but not old fashion though.God fearing, Loyal, honest, witty...A Man who can carry himself...and he should not be a chain smoker...Sport minded...A person who's ambitious and eager to fulfill his dream career...Know how to set a Goal in Life...with a great sense of humor!...and of corz, very Romantic...i
don't like beating around the bush...Be yerself! PEACE..OOphs..one thing good hygienic practices!...hmmmm
***ARRRGGHHMM..IF YOU SPEW "BEVERAGES THRU YOUR NOSE, AALISAN KITA BIGLA...YOU MUST ALSO HAVE HYGIENIC PRACTICES A!
Jul 8, 2004
...decided to post some of the messages that i got in Friendster...just for kicks...just to make our days funnier...and worthwhile..hahahaha
My first friendster message:
From: Athea
Subject: My friend Jon
Message: Belle, friendsters na daw kayo ni Jon. Maawa ka na.
COMMENT: This was after Jon deleted me from his friendster list just to see if I'll get a confirmation e-mail. Kumuha pa ng abogado! Tama ba namang pag praktisan kse ako! It took me 3 days to approve his friendster request.
From: Jonathan
Subject: frends na tayo!!!
Message: frends na tayo!!!
COMMENT: Jon still pleading hehehehe :P
STYLisTICS Messages:
1)
From: Drew
Subject: Hey
Message: Belinda is such a nice name, coming to think of
it, I used to have a friend with the same name.
Hmm...
2)
From: Loco
Subject: hi
Message: wow your good looking in all the pic's my name is
luis live in new jersey im puerto rican looking
for love not sex i love the out door going to the
movies the gym to work out if you are looking for
love just pm me ok bye bye for now...
love luis.
3)
From: Antonio
Subject: Re: hi
Message: hey can i add you as a friend?wats your email nga pala.
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
thanks for the compliment :)
Antonio wrote:
I just wanted to say, ang ganda mo naman.You have a great taste in music. i listen to a lot of jobim too. add kita as a friend you want?
ENGLISH 101
1)
From: Tolome
Subject: Hi!
Message: Im used 2 look at the gallery and see ur pic....Im gaining prennd kc...so i hope u'll accept and add me to ur prend list be one of ur prend 2...even u dont know me much....pls...grant my request,here is my email add
matipunong_maginoo@yahoo.com...invite me huh!...tnx...
2)
From: ZappeD
Subject: New Frendz
Message: hi i jst see u in frendster! by d wy im Richard Salamida from coloocan. i jst want 2 be ur frend if its okei 2 u! jst add me
zappedkirstin@yahoo.com thanks c",)
3)
From: Mark
Subject: nothing
Message: ELOW NICE PIC... IM HERE WANT 2 BE UR FREN ...0916 2538312 macky..cn i hve ur ym id
ANO BUZZZZz!!!!
1)
From: ErWiN
Subject: hi
Message: hi youre cute and huggable ha?! nacutan lng ako.kung gus2 mo friends na rin taYO C",)
2)
From: Xhristian
Subject: bonjour mademoiselle
Message: wow your the cutest chick i ever seen here on this site.well if you like eating well i like eating to and maybe cooking cos im a chef.so can i be your friend please maybe someday i can treat you on that turon thing
3)
From:
Deejay
Subject: Re: hi
Message: ang tipid naman gwabe.jejejejeejje..by the way ano e-add mo ako na lang add sau pwwede?thnx po mwahugzzzzzzzzz.......
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
thanks :)
Deejay wrote:
hello...ive seen u in my personal network....and i just wanna be ur frenshipz.nhyahahahahah...i dunno ur e-add.can u add me to your list?by the way im deejay..and my e-add is drexzjames@yahoo.com...thnx
4)
From: Jay
Subject: Re: hello :)
Message: wala lang.. nakita ko lang kc ung pic mo naalala ko lang kaya naisipan ko na e-add kita.
5)
From: Niño
Subject: belinda-maribel
Message: is ur name really belinda-maribel? or maribel-belinda?
***paki mo ba?!?!?!
6)
From: PsYcHo
Subject: manglalait!!!
Message: hey! ur cute luv ko pa naman ung mga chubby...kc huggable, lovable di ba?!? where exactly do you hide?
***ahhmm,away from you siguro no!
7)
From: Derick
Subject: Re: Hi!
Message: can we have a blind data?
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
Sorry but i do not give out my number to anyone i dont know.
Derick wrote:
My cell # k b,can i have it? so we could stay in touch, i hope ur single and wala magagalit, i work in boni, national bookstore, kw sn?
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
manila.yeah i do in makati.
Derick wrote:
So wer u from? u work b? =)
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
thanks for the compliment :)
Derick wrote:
I find u very attractive! pede b mging fren kta?
PANG INTERNATIONAL ANG BEAUTY KO
From: Subhakar
Date: January 20, 2004 8:47 AM
Subject: Greetings from India
Message: Hi !!!!.
Warm Greeting from India. Iam Subhakar, 25/m from India. Iam into Computer Printing Media. My hobbies are singing , reading and playing music a bit.... i woulf love to make friendship with you...
Waiting for your reply
Subhakar
My first friendster message:
From: Athea
Subject: My friend Jon
Message: Belle, friendsters na daw kayo ni Jon. Maawa ka na.
COMMENT: This was after Jon deleted me from his friendster list just to see if I'll get a confirmation e-mail. Kumuha pa ng abogado! Tama ba namang pag praktisan kse ako! It took me 3 days to approve his friendster request.
From: Jonathan
Subject: frends na tayo!!!
Message: frends na tayo!!!
COMMENT: Jon still pleading hehehehe :P
STYLisTICS Messages:
1)
From: Drew
Subject: Hey
Message: Belinda is such a nice name, coming to think of
it, I used to have a friend with the same name.
Hmm...
2)
From: Loco
Subject: hi
Message: wow your good looking in all the pic's my name is
luis live in new jersey im puerto rican looking
for love not sex i love the out door going to the
movies the gym to work out if you are looking for
love just pm me ok bye bye for now...
love luis.
3)
From: Antonio
Subject: Re: hi
Message: hey can i add you as a friend?wats your email nga pala.
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
thanks for the compliment :)
Antonio wrote:
I just wanted to say, ang ganda mo naman.You have a great taste in music. i listen to a lot of jobim too. add kita as a friend you want?
ENGLISH 101
1)
From: Tolome
Subject: Hi!
Message: Im used 2 look at the gallery and see ur pic....Im gaining prennd kc...so i hope u'll accept and add me to ur prend list be one of ur prend 2...even u dont know me much....pls...grant my request,here is my email add
matipunong_maginoo@yahoo.com...invite me huh!...tnx...
2)
From: ZappeD
Subject: New Frendz
Message: hi i jst see u in frendster! by d wy im Richard Salamida from coloocan. i jst want 2 be ur frend if its okei 2 u! jst add me
zappedkirstin@yahoo.com thanks c",)
3)
From: Mark
Subject: nothing
Message: ELOW NICE PIC... IM HERE WANT 2 BE UR FREN ...0916 2538312 macky..cn i hve ur ym id
ANO BUZZZZz!!!!
1)
From: ErWiN
Subject: hi
Message: hi youre cute and huggable ha?! nacutan lng ako.kung gus2 mo friends na rin taYO C",)
2)
From: Xhristian
Subject: bonjour mademoiselle
Message: wow your the cutest chick i ever seen here on this site.well if you like eating well i like eating to and maybe cooking cos im a chef.so can i be your friend please maybe someday i can treat you on that turon thing
3)
From:
Deejay
Subject: Re: hi
Message: ang tipid naman gwabe.jejejejeejje..by the way ano e-add mo ako na lang add sau pwwede?thnx po mwahugzzzzzzzzz.......
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
thanks :)
Deejay wrote:
hello...ive seen u in my personal network....and i just wanna be ur frenshipz.nhyahahahahah...i dunno ur e-add.can u add me to your list?by the way im deejay..and my e-add is drexzjames@yahoo.com...thnx
4)
From: Jay
Subject: Re: hello :)
Message: wala lang.. nakita ko lang kc ung pic mo naalala ko lang kaya naisipan ko na e-add kita.
5)
From: Niño
Subject: belinda-maribel
Message: is ur name really belinda-maribel? or maribel-belinda?
***paki mo ba?!?!?!
6)
From: PsYcHo
Subject: manglalait!!!
Message: hey! ur cute luv ko pa naman ung mga chubby...kc huggable, lovable di ba?!? where exactly do you hide?
***ahhmm,away from you siguro no!
7)
From: Derick
Subject: Re: Hi!
Message: can we have a blind data?
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
Sorry but i do not give out my number to anyone i dont know.
Derick wrote:
My cell # k b,can i have it? so we could stay in touch, i hope ur single and wala magagalit, i work in boni, national bookstore, kw sn?
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
manila.yeah i do in makati.
Derick wrote:
So wer u from? u work b? =)
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
thanks for the compliment :)
Derick wrote:
I find u very attractive! pede b mging fren kta?
PANG INTERNATIONAL ANG BEAUTY KO
From: Subhakar
Date: January 20, 2004 8:47 AM
Subject: Greetings from India
Message: Hi !!!!.
Warm Greeting from India. Iam Subhakar, 25/m from India. Iam into Computer Printing Media. My hobbies are singing , reading and playing music a bit.... i woulf love to make friendship with you...
Waiting for your reply
Subhakar
I was gearing for a serious post today but a message in my friendster just had me scratching my head.
> Jack wrote:
> > CAN W B FRENDS?
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
> thanks for the offer but no thanks :)
Jack wrote:
k. i know an offering is two things its either
you accept it or not. but i always remember my
philosophy "frends come & go"
ANNNNOOOO DDDDAAAWWWW!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Loneliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but its there, and your friends can see it. You constantly feel alone, and need to do things
to fill your time. Your afraid to tell people this, but sooner or later it gets
out in a bad way, and you think you screwed up everything. And when you are in love is when you are sad the most. (Please Vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
brought to you by Quizilla
****
THE PREMISE of this article lies on the principle that sometimes, loving a person doesn't mean it has to be romantic and loving a person for the rest of your life doesn't mean you have to end up marrying them. Can a man and a woman just be friends? I'd say yes and they should be.
Hindi dahil kinaibigan ka, liligawan ka na. Not every guy who befriends you has an ulterior motive. Get over yourself. Don't flatter yourself. There is a reason why he befriended you, but don't automatically assume that it's because he wants to be your so-called boyfriend. If this will be the principle you'll follow every time someone asks you to be his friend, you're gonna miss a great deal from the friendship.
Hindi dahil mabait sa iyo, nililigawan ka na. There are people who are naturally sweet and kind. There are people who are innately good and no matter how wicked you seem, they just find it so easy to be kind to you. It doesn't mean he is courting you. Don't put yourself through unnecessary stress trying to figure out if he's courting you or not.
Because I think if he is, you won't have to guess, you'll know and you'll be very certain about it.
Hindi dahil he talks to you a lot, he loves you na. You don't befriend a person if you absolutely abhor him, right? Chances are you make sense when he talks to you, or you're probably very patient listening to him. The two of you probably connect on some level but why does it always have to be assumed to be romantic? Being two intelligent, mature human beings, you need to accept that it's nice to share a cup of coffee over a stimulating conversation, and that you don't have to automatically put romantic connotation to it. Relieve yourself of the pressure. It's just coffee and a shared interest.
Hindi dahil cute ang friend mo, crush/love mo na siya. This is the most amusing thing that hit me lately. People always assume that because your friend is cute or should I say, hot (because cute is a word you describe your high school crush while hot is a word you use to describe a hunk), "lakas amats mo na for repapips!" Let me just say this, at least from my own personal experience, I'm just nearsighted, I haven't gone blind. I
can still appreciate God's creation! However, there will always be weird things, crazy things, stupid things that will keep you, believe me, from having a crush on him. First of all, you'd know his history with women, enough to judge what's good for you. Second, don't you just hate it when a guy who's absolutely always put together, who looks intelligent enough pronounces the word country as "kawntri" and the word mango as
"meynggo." Call me crazy for judging a person just because he can't pronounce these words right. I admit, I'm crazy.
Hindi dahil you hang out with each other most of the time, you'd end up being boyfriend-girlfriend. Self-explanatory... There are a thousand, no million different reasons why things don't always turn out that way. There is no one proven formula. For all we know, the reason why he likes hanging out with you is because he likes getting kikay tips from you. He probably plans on being kikay himself and he needs a mentor.
A dinner with a guy friend does not necessarily mean equate to a date. Especially if you're paying for your share no. Hello? Three things to consider: the place, the topic and how the two of you actually planned to meet. First, how it was planned. If it were a date expect that he would ask you out at least three days before the actual date to give you some lead time, to give you the notion that you are not just a filler on his schedule. Second, the place. If it were a real date, the both of you would want real food and a place where you could really talk things through. Don't go out with a guy to a movie on Friday night if you're really serious about him. Going to a movie is more like treating him like a "filler" just because you had nothing to do on a Friday night so
you might as well go out. Topic. Ha! You wouldn't be talking about chikang artista, chikang opisina or argue if the one girl's boobs are real or not. You would be probably talking about sensible, quite personal stuff.
I therefore conclude that platonic relationships are never complicated; people just have tendencies to complicate them.
> Jack wrote:
> > CAN W B FRENDS?
Belinda-Maribel wrote:
> thanks for the offer but no thanks :)
Jack wrote:
k. i know an offering is two things its either
you accept it or not. but i always remember my
philosophy "frends come & go"
ANNNNOOOO DDDDAAAWWWW!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Loneliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but its there, and your friends can see it. You constantly feel alone, and need to do things
to fill your time. Your afraid to tell people this, but sooner or later it gets
out in a bad way, and you think you screwed up everything. And when you are in love is when you are sad the most. (Please Vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
brought to you by Quizilla
****
THE PREMISE of this article lies on the principle that sometimes, loving a person doesn't mean it has to be romantic and loving a person for the rest of your life doesn't mean you have to end up marrying them. Can a man and a woman just be friends? I'd say yes and they should be.
Hindi dahil kinaibigan ka, liligawan ka na. Not every guy who befriends you has an ulterior motive. Get over yourself. Don't flatter yourself. There is a reason why he befriended you, but don't automatically assume that it's because he wants to be your so-called boyfriend. If this will be the principle you'll follow every time someone asks you to be his friend, you're gonna miss a great deal from the friendship.
Hindi dahil mabait sa iyo, nililigawan ka na. There are people who are naturally sweet and kind. There are people who are innately good and no matter how wicked you seem, they just find it so easy to be kind to you. It doesn't mean he is courting you. Don't put yourself through unnecessary stress trying to figure out if he's courting you or not.
Because I think if he is, you won't have to guess, you'll know and you'll be very certain about it.
Hindi dahil he talks to you a lot, he loves you na. You don't befriend a person if you absolutely abhor him, right? Chances are you make sense when he talks to you, or you're probably very patient listening to him. The two of you probably connect on some level but why does it always have to be assumed to be romantic? Being two intelligent, mature human beings, you need to accept that it's nice to share a cup of coffee over a stimulating conversation, and that you don't have to automatically put romantic connotation to it. Relieve yourself of the pressure. It's just coffee and a shared interest.
Hindi dahil cute ang friend mo, crush/love mo na siya. This is the most amusing thing that hit me lately. People always assume that because your friend is cute or should I say, hot (because cute is a word you describe your high school crush while hot is a word you use to describe a hunk), "lakas amats mo na for repapips!" Let me just say this, at least from my own personal experience, I'm just nearsighted, I haven't gone blind. I
can still appreciate God's creation! However, there will always be weird things, crazy things, stupid things that will keep you, believe me, from having a crush on him. First of all, you'd know his history with women, enough to judge what's good for you. Second, don't you just hate it when a guy who's absolutely always put together, who looks intelligent enough pronounces the word country as "kawntri" and the word mango as
"meynggo." Call me crazy for judging a person just because he can't pronounce these words right. I admit, I'm crazy.
Hindi dahil you hang out with each other most of the time, you'd end up being boyfriend-girlfriend. Self-explanatory... There are a thousand, no million different reasons why things don't always turn out that way. There is no one proven formula. For all we know, the reason why he likes hanging out with you is because he likes getting kikay tips from you. He probably plans on being kikay himself and he needs a mentor.
A dinner with a guy friend does not necessarily mean equate to a date. Especially if you're paying for your share no. Hello? Three things to consider: the place, the topic and how the two of you actually planned to meet. First, how it was planned. If it were a date expect that he would ask you out at least three days before the actual date to give you some lead time, to give you the notion that you are not just a filler on his schedule. Second, the place. If it were a real date, the both of you would want real food and a place where you could really talk things through. Don't go out with a guy to a movie on Friday night if you're really serious about him. Going to a movie is more like treating him like a "filler" just because you had nothing to do on a Friday night so
you might as well go out. Topic. Ha! You wouldn't be talking about chikang artista, chikang opisina or argue if the one girl's boobs are real or not. You would be probably talking about sensible, quite personal stuff.
I therefore conclude that platonic relationships are never complicated; people just have tendencies to complicate them.
Jul 7, 2004
Jul 6, 2004
According to: Vea, the title of the next Harry Potter book is HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE..can't wait for the next book and next movie...would you believe that I only got hooked on HP when JK Rowling released book 5. before that I refused to read or watch the movie...kse everyone was hooked on it e...hehehe...i'm not called abner for nothing y'know...
What smilie are you? Take the test!
...in continuation of saturday's nakakapagod na gimik, during our tambay in Breton, someone broached the idea of staying in Discovery...hala! eto nanaman kme.."ish-pur" of the moment!!! To cut the story, we went to megamall to buy things that we needed and checked in na sa hotel...haaayy sarap...si meian natulog..si emer and kaje uminom..ako nagkwento...Marc went to the hotel to lend me his shirt and charger. he stayed until 3am kahit we weren't really doing anything...hehehe...after he left, we were still texting..he didn't want to go home pa pala and that he was just driving around sa fort..didn't know na what happened to him since I fell asleep na...I went to the office earing Marc's big red CCP shirt...as soon as some of the reps saw me they asked agad: "Sino ang lalaking kasama mo natulog kagabi." hahaha it just dawned on me na that only one conclusion can be surmised if one goes to work wearing a man's shirt and looking as if di pa sya natutulog..hay friends...WISH KO LANG NO! hahahaha...
Drunken Marc (?)
Meian and I
Crepe Kaje
Nice Beng, Bitchy Emer and Pathetic Meian ;P
The only pic of us all together
Monday afternoon, Carroll made me sundo sa office. He was at the 9th floor of our building which is kinda like the food court floor and as we went out to smoke, the door was being opened by A...hahahaha...as usual, parang wala nanaman kmeng nakita..but I hope he saw me and Carroll as we went out and I hope he saw us kiss din... :P anyway, we just had dinner and coffee and went to our common ever chismosa dentist who kept on asking if we were back together...hahahaha..unfortunately, I started feeling sick before the night ended thus I wasn't able to go to the wake that I was s'posed to go to...
I'll post some of the pics that I took as soon as I am able to upload them.
Drunken Marc (?)
Meian and I
Crepe Kaje
Nice Beng, Bitchy Emer and Pathetic Meian ;P
The only pic of us all together
Monday afternoon, Carroll made me sundo sa office. He was at the 9th floor of our building which is kinda like the food court floor and as we went out to smoke, the door was being opened by A...hahahaha...as usual, parang wala nanaman kmeng nakita..but I hope he saw me and Carroll as we went out and I hope he saw us kiss din... :P anyway, we just had dinner and coffee and went to our common ever chismosa dentist who kept on asking if we were back together...hahahaha..unfortunately, I started feeling sick before the night ended thus I wasn't able to go to the wake that I was s'posed to go to...
I'll post some of the pics that I took as soon as I am able to upload them.
Jul 4, 2004
Jon, this is for you..
8 Ways to Get Rid of A Crush
1. Act like you are madly in love with him/or her
2. Pretend you have stalked them the last 2 weeks
3. Act sad over stupid things( example your pet had a fur ball or you ate cheese) and say you need a shoulder to cry on
4. ask for a piggy back ride to all your classes
5. Ask him/her out at least 10 times a day even if yes is the answer
6. Non stop hug them and love on them
7. Flirt with someone of your own gender.
8. Pretend to be obsessed with odd types of things.
Your horoscope for Saturday, July 3:
Your well-organized schedule will be completely disrupted, thanks to someone you haven't seen in a long, long time. Cancel some appointments, and take a long lunch.
and so I did...
While waiting for my wonderful wonderful friends Meian, Angela (Beng), Emer and Kaje in Cafe Breton in Podium, I once again had the opportunity to read...it was a windy morning..with yosi, a good book and coke..ahh my life was good for THAT moment...until Summerwells arrived hahahahaha labs you meme :)
Before having lunch, hungry beng and I decided to eat dessert muna before heading to Thai in a Box for lunch. baliktad no? Then back to cafe Breton for another round of dessert (mango banana..sarap!) and of course, yosi. Hay as usual, we had all kinds of kwento...to boylets-manlets-kissing buddy-recycled-madilim na veranda-to aawww she has a yaya-yaya can you brush my teeth-to missing in action friends-to pustahan si meian ang mauuna at may laman.....aaahhh again the good times...very good times indeed
8 Ways to Get Rid of A Crush
1. Act like you are madly in love with him/or her
2. Pretend you have stalked them the last 2 weeks
3. Act sad over stupid things( example your pet had a fur ball or you ate cheese) and say you need a shoulder to cry on
4. ask for a piggy back ride to all your classes
5. Ask him/her out at least 10 times a day even if yes is the answer
6. Non stop hug them and love on them
7. Flirt with someone of your own gender.
8. Pretend to be obsessed with odd types of things.
Your horoscope for Saturday, July 3:
Your well-organized schedule will be completely disrupted, thanks to someone you haven't seen in a long, long time. Cancel some appointments, and take a long lunch.
and so I did...
While waiting for my wonderful wonderful friends Meian, Angela (Beng), Emer and Kaje in Cafe Breton in Podium, I once again had the opportunity to read...it was a windy morning..with yosi, a good book and coke..ahh my life was good for THAT moment...until Summerwells arrived hahahahaha labs you meme :)
Before having lunch, hungry beng and I decided to eat dessert muna before heading to Thai in a Box for lunch. baliktad no? Then back to cafe Breton for another round of dessert (mango banana..sarap!) and of course, yosi. Hay as usual, we had all kinds of kwento...to boylets-manlets-kissing buddy-recycled-madilim na veranda-to aawww she has a yaya-yaya can you brush my teeth-to missing in action friends-to pustahan si meian ang mauuna at may laman.....aaahhh again the good times...very good times indeed
Jul 3, 2004
" I miss you so much it hurts"
~Sleepless in Seattle
when I was in Tower Records the other night, I had the..how do I call it..."scariest scare" of my life to date...I was listening to Guy Sebastian sing ...You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here when I heard a very familiar voice call my name...my heart skipped a beat, actually it leaped and I could swear that I held my breath a minute or 2 before I tried to find where voice was...but alas, there was no one...so my heart sulked again...but I could swear that I heard that voice...I heard it on top of the blazing radio...i heard it...i heard it...or was it just my mind playing tricks on me...i guess so...maybe it was my heart crying out...
If You Forget Me
Pablo Neruda
I want you to know one thing
You know how this is
If I look at the crystal moon
At the red branch of the slow autumn at my window
If I touch near the fire the impalpable ash
Or the wrinkled body of the log
Everything carries me to you
As if everything that exists - aromas, light, metals
Were little boats that sail toward
Those isles of yours that wait for me
Well, now
If little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you
little by little
If suddenly you forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you
If you think it long and mad the wind of banners
That passes through my life
And you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart
Where I have roots
Remember
That on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms
And my roots will set off to seek another land
But, if each day, each hour,
You feel that you are destined for me
With implacable sweetness
If each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me
Ahh my love, ahh my own, in me all that fire is repeated
In me nothing is extinguished or forgotten
My love feeds on your love, beloved
And as long as you live,
It will be in your arms without leaving mine
~Sleepless in Seattle
when I was in Tower Records the other night, I had the..how do I call it..."scariest scare" of my life to date...I was listening to Guy Sebastian sing ...You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here when I heard a very familiar voice call my name...my heart skipped a beat, actually it leaped and I could swear that I held my breath a minute or 2 before I tried to find where voice was...but alas, there was no one...so my heart sulked again...but I could swear that I heard that voice...I heard it on top of the blazing radio...i heard it...i heard it...or was it just my mind playing tricks on me...i guess so...maybe it was my heart crying out...
If You Forget Me
Pablo Neruda
I want you to know one thing
You know how this is
If I look at the crystal moon
At the red branch of the slow autumn at my window
If I touch near the fire the impalpable ash
Or the wrinkled body of the log
Everything carries me to you
As if everything that exists - aromas, light, metals
Were little boats that sail toward
Those isles of yours that wait for me
Well, now
If little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you
little by little
If suddenly you forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you
If you think it long and mad the wind of banners
That passes through my life
And you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart
Where I have roots
Remember
That on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms
And my roots will set off to seek another land
But, if each day, each hour,
You feel that you are destined for me
With implacable sweetness
If each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me
Ahh my love, ahh my own, in me all that fire is repeated
In me nothing is extinguished or forgotten
My love feeds on your love, beloved
And as long as you live,
It will be in your arms without leaving mine
Jul 2, 2004
in memory...
Remember that your
loss is shared
by many friends who care
and that you're in our
thoughts and hearts
and in our every prayer
went to megamall to meet up wtih Vianca, kaje and Meian. Since I was kinda late (they were inside the movie house na when me and my yaya arrived), I barely got to speak with Meian who rushed home to sleep. had late lunch in kfc then coffee and yosi at Starbucks...kinda felt out of place...i dunno why...got slightly pissed with something that they said but I was kinda feeling off na sa movie house plang...shit i've been so impatient and pikon for the last couple of days...am I PMS-ing? I don't think so...i think i'm stuck in a rut...mid life crisis...is that you?
Jul 1, 2004
"Are we alive, are we insane Trying to disguise so much pain
Are we alive, or are we betrayed...Who gives a damn about it anyway?" Vertical horizon
something funny..i dowloaded a song in Kazaa entitled "Have you ever by Incubus..when I listened to the song it turns out to be some song by some teeny bopper band er-group...so significant no?
I just decided out of sheer boredom to read a friend's blog. unfortunately, I am unable to let you guys know the url ( see F, I kept my word)...one of his previous posts hit close to home...it was, in a gist, not loving that someone who thinks the world of you...not that I approve of what he but whaddaheck it his life but then again...ahh never mind...its just my heart blabbing...
And to borrow a line or two....
"there is no such thing as falling in love. Because love is an active decision. you don't fall into it. You decide to do so, with both eyes open....
When I realize this - I hope things will never be too late."
..alas, the last line is something that I will never utter again..i have cleaned my slate and made sure that I am at peace with everyone in my past (both those I have hurt and those who hurt me) and am trying to be a better person...more focused and appreciative of what I have...my karma hopefully has been leveled...
"The greatest thing that you'll ever know is to love and to be loved in return."
You're Linus! Some people think you're a little old
for your blanket, but don't listen to them. And
you better watch out for your stalker, Sally.
Which of The Peanuts are you?
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HA! see! even Quizilla agrees...for those who don't know, I still have a security blanket--este pillow..my laway pillow...its my well travelled laway pillow...it goes where I go....it s'posed to be color yellow like the butterfinger chocolate bar but because it hasn't been washed for..YEARS medyo iba na kulaw nya...at ngayon nawawala pa sya..i think TIN made it nakaw..kse she wants that pillow of mine!!!!
met up w my vianca this afternoon. ate in Sentro...kainis di ko na makain yung butong pakwan nila...yehey! she's finally going back to Manila :) yippeee...we are in business girls! Then when Vianca left I waited for Marc in Powerbooks and bought some new books to read...ate in Cafe Bola...music one to check out new songs that I can download hehehe then went to eastwood. meron na palang shops dun...and they close late! we watched his cousin lee's band SHE SAID play in Ipanema. His cousin was gwapo. kamukhang kamukha ni diether Ocampo. swear! Their band was good! galing nung lead singer. puro alternative songs. kaso I was sleepy and it showed when Marc told me na we should go home na...got home around 12 na ata e...something's weird w marc...he wasn't like that naman before...he makes me asikaso na...before wla naman sya paki e...now..not exactly the gentleman pero he...does things that I'm not used to...he offers me his food and if i say yes, sya pa yung naghihiwa and naglalagay sa plate ko..he puts food on my plate at times..he refers to his dad as : "si dad": ...and when he makes me hatid, he waits till makapasok ako and while waiting he opens the window and he also texts me when he's home na...medyo weird...not used to it...
Are we alive, or are we betrayed...Who gives a damn about it anyway?" Vertical horizon
something funny..i dowloaded a song in Kazaa entitled "Have you ever by Incubus..when I listened to the song it turns out to be some song by some teeny bopper band er-group...so significant no?
I just decided out of sheer boredom to read a friend's blog. unfortunately, I am unable to let you guys know the url ( see F, I kept my word)...one of his previous posts hit close to home...it was, in a gist, not loving that someone who thinks the world of you...not that I approve of what he but whaddaheck it his life but then again...ahh never mind...its just my heart blabbing...
And to borrow a line or two....
"there is no such thing as falling in love. Because love is an active decision. you don't fall into it. You decide to do so, with both eyes open....
When I realize this - I hope things will never be too late."
..alas, the last line is something that I will never utter again..i have cleaned my slate and made sure that I am at peace with everyone in my past (both those I have hurt and those who hurt me) and am trying to be a better person...more focused and appreciative of what I have...my karma hopefully has been leveled...
"The greatest thing that you'll ever know is to love and to be loved in return."
You're Linus! Some people think you're a little old
for your blanket, but don't listen to them. And
you better watch out for your stalker, Sally.
Which of The Peanuts are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
HA! see! even Quizilla agrees...for those who don't know, I still have a security blanket--este pillow..my laway pillow...its my well travelled laway pillow...it goes where I go....it s'posed to be color yellow like the butterfinger chocolate bar but because it hasn't been washed for..YEARS medyo iba na kulaw nya...at ngayon nawawala pa sya..i think TIN made it nakaw..kse she wants that pillow of mine!!!!
met up w my vianca this afternoon. ate in Sentro...kainis di ko na makain yung butong pakwan nila...yehey! she's finally going back to Manila :) yippeee...we are in business girls! Then when Vianca left I waited for Marc in Powerbooks and bought some new books to read...ate in Cafe Bola...music one to check out new songs that I can download hehehe then went to eastwood. meron na palang shops dun...and they close late! we watched his cousin lee's band SHE SAID play in Ipanema. His cousin was gwapo. kamukhang kamukha ni diether Ocampo. swear! Their band was good! galing nung lead singer. puro alternative songs. kaso I was sleepy and it showed when Marc told me na we should go home na...got home around 12 na ata e...something's weird w marc...he wasn't like that naman before...he makes me asikaso na...before wla naman sya paki e...now..not exactly the gentleman pero he...does things that I'm not used to...he offers me his food and if i say yes, sya pa yung naghihiwa and naglalagay sa plate ko..he puts food on my plate at times..he refers to his dad as : "si dad": ...and when he makes me hatid, he waits till makapasok ako and while waiting he opens the window and he also texts me when he's home na...medyo weird...not used to it...
Jun 30, 2004
Here is your horoscope
for Wednesday, June 30:
Wherever you are, the good times will start tonight. Yes, it seems a little early, and no, you don't usually behave this way. Isn't that wonderfully liberating? You go!
---> good times?!?!?! what good times? if its the continous laughter I had with Jets over dinner in Teriyaki (i kept on saying Oyster Boy) Boy in Glorietta then I'm headed to happy happy joy joy land...sana sana..im crossing all my fingers and toes....
I had to rush out of the office because the ever makulit Jets was texting me paulit ulit coz I was late for our 715 meeting. A team mate was late getting to the office and I just couldn't leave lang naman like that...so as soon as she arrived I rushed out and waited for a cab under the pouring rain..well, not naman pouring. More of a heavy drizzle. While I was waiting for a cab biglang ko nalang nakita that the guy walking towards me was A. His left shoulder almost brushed my back if I didn't have move agad. Thank God for quick reflexes...well, for the second time that day, our eyes locked...something that I hate happening...because I want him to know that he does not matter in my life..that to me he is nothing...well..as you know friends..that's not so true...that's just the me that I want him to know kahit na deep inside...arrgghhh why can't letting just go be that easy...fuck it!...a tear or two found its way to my cheeks..but as soon as Jets saw me, he knew something was wrong and he hugged me and made me laugh...something that I need to have everyday...jet medicine is what I call it...
It's kinda weird why people in the office tells me na I'm blooming (sorry guys, I really don't respond well to compliments)...i dunno why they say that when deep inside I feel so fucked up...i guess that's the wonder of make up...i make it a point to look my best when i'm in the office and I know na he's gonna be there...if you feel fucked up, it shouldn't show outside..especially infront of the person who made you feel that way...just like what that scientist in the movie Bond said.."...They musn't see you bleed..you must have an escape plan..." Well, I'm not letting him see me bleed...he saw me in that state already..tama na..he had his laugh na...
"I'm like the dumb girl that doesn't get it. I've never been the dumb girl before. It ain't so great."
So far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're just time away
Long ago I reached for you and there you stood
Holding you again could only do me good
Oh, how I wish I could
But you're so far away
One more song about moving along the highway
Can't say much of anything that's new
If I could only work this life out my way
I'd rather spend it being close to you
But you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're so far away
Traveling around sure gets me down and lonely
Nothing else to do but close my mind
I sure hope the road don't come to own me
There's so many dreams I've yet to find
But you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're so far away
Currently listening to:
I absolutely love the movie..that's how women are when they cry...or when they get heartbroken...sometimes worse...
This was what I was s'posed to post a couple of days back...nwala sya kay medyo panget na coz na wala na yung momentum of why I was writing the entry at that time...
Amgine's last post (MiSsiNg yOu) made me sad...lonely...it spoke of what I feel...what I have been feeling...sad...lonely...i miss him...(Both Tin and Jon's gonna kick my ass for this)...i sometimes find myself thinking if he has eaten...what time he went home...looking after what he was wore today...I see him everyday..i bump into him once in a while...and I see him...how happy he seems to be...how I wish that I can be happy too...a question that Rei once asked...bakit kung sino pa ang nanloko sya pa ang masaya ngayon...bakit kung sino pa ang nanakit sya pa ang masaya ngayon....BAKET!
Now I am wishing that I have jackie's strength...
I pray I pray I say I pray for Jackie's strength
When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start coming out.
~ by Elizabeth Bowen (1899-1973) ~
for Wednesday, June 30:
Wherever you are, the good times will start tonight. Yes, it seems a little early, and no, you don't usually behave this way. Isn't that wonderfully liberating? You go!
---> good times?!?!?! what good times? if its the continous laughter I had with Jets over dinner in Teriyaki (i kept on saying Oyster Boy) Boy in Glorietta then I'm headed to happy happy joy joy land...sana sana..im crossing all my fingers and toes....
I had to rush out of the office because the ever makulit Jets was texting me paulit ulit coz I was late for our 715 meeting. A team mate was late getting to the office and I just couldn't leave lang naman like that...so as soon as she arrived I rushed out and waited for a cab under the pouring rain..well, not naman pouring. More of a heavy drizzle. While I was waiting for a cab biglang ko nalang nakita that the guy walking towards me was A. His left shoulder almost brushed my back if I didn't have move agad. Thank God for quick reflexes...well, for the second time that day, our eyes locked...something that I hate happening...because I want him to know that he does not matter in my life..that to me he is nothing...well..as you know friends..that's not so true...that's just the me that I want him to know kahit na deep inside...arrgghhh why can't letting just go be that easy...fuck it!...a tear or two found its way to my cheeks..but as soon as Jets saw me, he knew something was wrong and he hugged me and made me laugh...something that I need to have everyday...jet medicine is what I call it...
It's kinda weird why people in the office tells me na I'm blooming (sorry guys, I really don't respond well to compliments)...i dunno why they say that when deep inside I feel so fucked up...i guess that's the wonder of make up...i make it a point to look my best when i'm in the office and I know na he's gonna be there...if you feel fucked up, it shouldn't show outside..especially infront of the person who made you feel that way...just like what that scientist in the movie Bond said.."...They musn't see you bleed..you must have an escape plan..." Well, I'm not letting him see me bleed...he saw me in that state already..tama na..he had his laugh na...
"I'm like the dumb girl that doesn't get it. I've never been the dumb girl before. It ain't so great."
So far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're just time away
Long ago I reached for you and there you stood
Holding you again could only do me good
Oh, how I wish I could
But you're so far away
One more song about moving along the highway
Can't say much of anything that's new
If I could only work this life out my way
I'd rather spend it being close to you
But you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're so far away
Traveling around sure gets me down and lonely
Nothing else to do but close my mind
I sure hope the road don't come to own me
There's so many dreams I've yet to find
But you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn't help to know you're so far away
Currently listening to:
I absolutely love the movie..that's how women are when they cry...or when they get heartbroken...sometimes worse...
This was what I was s'posed to post a couple of days back...nwala sya kay medyo panget na coz na wala na yung momentum of why I was writing the entry at that time...
Amgine's last post (MiSsiNg yOu) made me sad...lonely...it spoke of what I feel...what I have been feeling...sad...lonely...i miss him...(Both Tin and Jon's gonna kick my ass for this)...i sometimes find myself thinking if he has eaten...what time he went home...looking after what he was wore today...I see him everyday..i bump into him once in a while...and I see him...how happy he seems to be...how I wish that I can be happy too...a question that Rei once asked...bakit kung sino pa ang nanloko sya pa ang masaya ngayon...bakit kung sino pa ang nanakit sya pa ang masaya ngayon....BAKET!
Now I am wishing that I have jackie's strength...
I pray I pray I say I pray for Jackie's strength
When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start coming out.
~ by Elizabeth Bowen (1899-1973) ~
I wrote something last night...but just couldn't finish it just yet...I'll try to finish it tonight...
This is just crap..or is it not...fuck it..this makes me hope pa...
"If two people are meant for each other, it doesnt mean that they are meant for each
other NOW."
~Pacey whitter "Dawson's creek"
ANG TAMANG PANAHON
Nung first year highschool ako una ko siyang nakita. Napahinga pa nga ako ng malalim habang hinahawakan ang armchair ng mahigpit nung pumasok siya sa classroom. Wow, sabi ko sa sarili ko, Ito ang lalaking magpapamemorable ng life ko. At naging siya nga.
So, ayun nagkakilala kami. "O eto si .." sabi ng common friend namin ako naman si " Ay, Nice to meet you.. "( kunwari pa kong di alam ang name nya eh ultimo kung saan siya may nunal sa katawan eh alam ko na) with matching pa cute na smile at looking at him from head to toe. Na amazed pa nga ako kasi ang linis-linis nya at humahalimuyak ang pabango nyang Hugo Boss.. Aaah!!! Pwedeng-pwede!! Ngumiti lang siya sa akin with matching takip ng panyo sa mouth niya. Aba, mahiyain... hmm....Teka...
Ayun naging friends kami. Tawagan sa phone, text sa cellphone exchanging sweet messages throughout highschool. Hanggang naramdaman ko na lang nung isang araw... Yak.. inlove na yata ako!! Hindi naman pwede kasi may nililigawan siya, at nung binasted siya, may
niligawan na naman siya at syempre ako hindi man lang niya ako niligawan. Siguro kasi pag niligawan niya ako wala ng challenge!!! At parang ako na ang nanligaw! Kasi naman lagi ko siyang binibigyan ng gifts pag may occasion basta kung anu-ano ang binibigay ko sa kanya. Hindi naman ako nanghihingi ng kapalit pero napansin ko ni balat ng candy wala siyang binigay sa akin.. kung meron man eh isang ½ crosswise na paper na sapilitan ko pang hiningi ka sa kanya para naman may remembrance ako nung minsan naging magkaklase kami.
Pero in fairness sinayaw naman nya ako nung 2 proms namin. Nandun yung hinawakan nya yung kamay ko papunta sa dance floor infront of everybody na halos mapaiyak ako sa sobrang saya at naisip ko na lang na ayokong matapos ang gabing yun. Sa dami ng papagdaanan ko nung minahal ko siya, napagod na rin ako nung may niligawan uli siya.
Hindi na ko makatiis hanggang nung Graduation namin inamin ko sa kanya na mahal ko talaga siya since first year. Wala akong pakialam kung anong isipin nya basta ang alam ko kailangan ko na sabihin dahil baka hindi na kami magkita. Nakatingin lang siya sa akin huminga sya ng malalim at bigla niyang sinabing.. " Kasi... ano...Friends lang talaga eh." sh*t!!!! Nanlaki ang mata ko non tapos bigla na lang ako tumawa ng malakas "Sabi ko nga eh. Hahaha!" with matching hampas pa sa braso niya. Tapos non eh pinilit ko siyang kalimutan.
Nag college na ko maraming cute pero .... Haaay.... Wala pa ring maka higit sa kanya. May nanligaw naman sa akin nung mga time na yun, Isang cute na fil-am, yung coño kong friend at isang cute na guy na mas bata sa kin ng 3 yrs kaya lang hindi ko sila maiwasang I compare sa kanya. Bakit siya cute sya ngumiti? Bakit siya ang napapangiti niya ako ? Sasagutin ko na sana yung isa dahil hindi na ito normal! Goodluck! Hindi ko pa rin kaya! Bigla kong naisip na KUNG HINDI LANG SIYA.. WAG NA LANG. Naisip ko na minsan lang pala ako umibig.Naisip ko na sa isang lalaki ko lang pala gagawin yung
mga kagagahan at kamamasangan ko. Siya lang talaga ang hinihiyaw ng puso ko. Haaay.. nakakainis!!!
Anyway, hindi ko na siya nakita for 5 years, pero nababalitaan ko pa rin yung mga nangyayari sa kanya. Gumraduate na siya.. (Uuuy, Congrats!), May trabaho na siya ( Goodluck sa job!) May girlfriend na siya ( I'm happy for you...waaah!) at kung anu-ano pa . Tutal naman may career na ko and the money's good at naalagaan ko yung parents ko and I can hang-out with my friends kaya okay lang pero... parang kulang pa rin
dahil naiisip ko pa rin siya. Mas mabuti na rin yung ganito kasi ayun nga sa kanta " I'll know I'll never love this way again" hindi na ko makakapagmahal ng todo-todo na umaapaw uli sa isang lalaki.
Isang hapon habang nagdadrive na ko pauwi napasabak pa ko sa traffic. Napatingin ako sa kanan ko sa katabi kong car. Napansin ko pa nga yung kamay ng driver. Naalala ko yung kamay nung minahal ko sa sobrang kakatsansing sa kamay non eh syempre sinong di
makakamemorize non noh! Anyway, tumingin na ko sa highway. Grabe traffic pa rin!! Birthday pa naman ng friend ko nung highschool at excited na kong makipagtsismisan. Pagtingin ko uli sa kanan sa mamang may cute na kamay eh bigla akong nagulat nakatingin pala sa akin yung driver. Ako naman tong si iwas. After kong nabigo sa pag-ibig nung highschool eh nagsusuplada na ang lola niyo.
After ng matagal na traffic eh nakarating na ko sa party ng friend ko syempre walang humpay na tsismisan at tawanan at balitaan sa mga buhay-buhay namin. Biglang may dumating na car na parang familiar sa akin tapos biglang bumaba yung tao sa loob .. Biglang may nagsalita sa likod ko " Hoy, pare!! Ang tagal mo!" bigla siyang nagsalita with matching punas ng panyo sa noo. " Traffic eh." With matching ngiti at humalimuyak na naman ang Hugo Boss sa ilong ko.
O, HINDEE!! ANG LALAKING NAKASABAY KO SA TRAFFIC NA MAY MAGANDANG KAMAY......
Biglang sabi ng friend ko sa kanya " Teka naalala mo pa ba si...?"
AY WALANG IBA KUNG HINDI ANG TANGING LALAKING MINAHAL KO ALL MY LIFE.
Gusto kong magpalamon sa lupa, magpakalunod at sakalin ang friend ko sa sobrang hiya. Hindi pa ko handang makita siya!!!
Bigla siyang tumingin sa akin at sinabing." OO NAMAN. ALALANG-ALALA."
Whaaat?? Ano uli???
Naalala nya pa ko!!!
At ang hayop kung kaibigan ay iniwan kaming dalawa. Ayun, tanong sya sa kin ng tanong sa buhay ko. Nag-alok siayng ihatid ako sa bahay sabi ko may car ako. Tumawa siya at sabi niyang "Oo nga ikaw nga yung nakita ko sa traffic!!"
Lagi niya akong sinusundo sa office ko, nagdidinner din kami at syempre tinatawagn niya ako sa bahay ko gabi-gabi. Hindi ko alam pero parang bumaligtad yata ang mundo!
After 2 months, naging kami.
After 1 year, nagpakasal na din kami.
Before kaming ikasal sinabi niya sa akin
" Naalala mo nung gumraduate tayo at pinagtapat mo sa akin na mahal mo ko?" Namula na lang ako bigla at nag joke " Ah.. yun? Bata pa ko non!"
Bigla nyang hinawakan ang kamay ko at sinabing " Hindi na tayo bata non. Mas pinili kong makakilala ng mga maling babae kesa maging tayo sa maling panahon na hindi pa tayo handa. Unang kita ko pa lang syo, narandaman ko na ikaw na ang babaeng para sa akin"
Napatingin muna ako sa kamay niya na buong highschool kong pinagnasaan at sa mukha nya. Ano ba to!! Naiiyak ako kasi naiiyak din siya. Totoo ba ito?
At naramdaman ko ang yakap sa amin ni LORD...Kami nga talaga para sa isa't isa
At ito na nga ang tamang panahon...ü
"Sometimes letting go is the only way to move forward..."
This is just crap..or is it not...fuck it..this makes me hope pa...
"If two people are meant for each other, it doesnt mean that they are meant for each
other NOW."
~Pacey whitter "Dawson's creek"
ANG TAMANG PANAHON
Nung first year highschool ako una ko siyang nakita. Napahinga pa nga ako ng malalim habang hinahawakan ang armchair ng mahigpit nung pumasok siya sa classroom. Wow, sabi ko sa sarili ko, Ito ang lalaking magpapamemorable ng life ko. At naging siya nga.
So, ayun nagkakilala kami. "O eto si .." sabi ng common friend namin ako naman si " Ay, Nice to meet you.. "( kunwari pa kong di alam ang name nya eh ultimo kung saan siya may nunal sa katawan eh alam ko na) with matching pa cute na smile at looking at him from head to toe. Na amazed pa nga ako kasi ang linis-linis nya at humahalimuyak ang pabango nyang Hugo Boss.. Aaah!!! Pwedeng-pwede!! Ngumiti lang siya sa akin with matching takip ng panyo sa mouth niya. Aba, mahiyain... hmm....Teka...
Ayun naging friends kami. Tawagan sa phone, text sa cellphone exchanging sweet messages throughout highschool. Hanggang naramdaman ko na lang nung isang araw... Yak.. inlove na yata ako!! Hindi naman pwede kasi may nililigawan siya, at nung binasted siya, may
niligawan na naman siya at syempre ako hindi man lang niya ako niligawan. Siguro kasi pag niligawan niya ako wala ng challenge!!! At parang ako na ang nanligaw! Kasi naman lagi ko siyang binibigyan ng gifts pag may occasion basta kung anu-ano ang binibigay ko sa kanya. Hindi naman ako nanghihingi ng kapalit pero napansin ko ni balat ng candy wala siyang binigay sa akin.. kung meron man eh isang ½ crosswise na paper na sapilitan ko pang hiningi ka sa kanya para naman may remembrance ako nung minsan naging magkaklase kami.
Pero in fairness sinayaw naman nya ako nung 2 proms namin. Nandun yung hinawakan nya yung kamay ko papunta sa dance floor infront of everybody na halos mapaiyak ako sa sobrang saya at naisip ko na lang na ayokong matapos ang gabing yun. Sa dami ng papagdaanan ko nung minahal ko siya, napagod na rin ako nung may niligawan uli siya.
Hindi na ko makatiis hanggang nung Graduation namin inamin ko sa kanya na mahal ko talaga siya since first year. Wala akong pakialam kung anong isipin nya basta ang alam ko kailangan ko na sabihin dahil baka hindi na kami magkita. Nakatingin lang siya sa akin huminga sya ng malalim at bigla niyang sinabing.. " Kasi... ano...Friends lang talaga eh." sh*t!!!! Nanlaki ang mata ko non tapos bigla na lang ako tumawa ng malakas "Sabi ko nga eh. Hahaha!" with matching hampas pa sa braso niya. Tapos non eh pinilit ko siyang kalimutan.
Nag college na ko maraming cute pero .... Haaay.... Wala pa ring maka higit sa kanya. May nanligaw naman sa akin nung mga time na yun, Isang cute na fil-am, yung coño kong friend at isang cute na guy na mas bata sa kin ng 3 yrs kaya lang hindi ko sila maiwasang I compare sa kanya. Bakit siya cute sya ngumiti? Bakit siya ang napapangiti niya ako ? Sasagutin ko na sana yung isa dahil hindi na ito normal! Goodluck! Hindi ko pa rin kaya! Bigla kong naisip na KUNG HINDI LANG SIYA.. WAG NA LANG. Naisip ko na minsan lang pala ako umibig.Naisip ko na sa isang lalaki ko lang pala gagawin yung
mga kagagahan at kamamasangan ko. Siya lang talaga ang hinihiyaw ng puso ko. Haaay.. nakakainis!!!
Anyway, hindi ko na siya nakita for 5 years, pero nababalitaan ko pa rin yung mga nangyayari sa kanya. Gumraduate na siya.. (Uuuy, Congrats!), May trabaho na siya ( Goodluck sa job!) May girlfriend na siya ( I'm happy for you...waaah!) at kung anu-ano pa . Tutal naman may career na ko and the money's good at naalagaan ko yung parents ko and I can hang-out with my friends kaya okay lang pero... parang kulang pa rin
dahil naiisip ko pa rin siya. Mas mabuti na rin yung ganito kasi ayun nga sa kanta " I'll know I'll never love this way again" hindi na ko makakapagmahal ng todo-todo na umaapaw uli sa isang lalaki.
Isang hapon habang nagdadrive na ko pauwi napasabak pa ko sa traffic. Napatingin ako sa kanan ko sa katabi kong car. Napansin ko pa nga yung kamay ng driver. Naalala ko yung kamay nung minahal ko sa sobrang kakatsansing sa kamay non eh syempre sinong di
makakamemorize non noh! Anyway, tumingin na ko sa highway. Grabe traffic pa rin!! Birthday pa naman ng friend ko nung highschool at excited na kong makipagtsismisan. Pagtingin ko uli sa kanan sa mamang may cute na kamay eh bigla akong nagulat nakatingin pala sa akin yung driver. Ako naman tong si iwas. After kong nabigo sa pag-ibig nung highschool eh nagsusuplada na ang lola niyo.
After ng matagal na traffic eh nakarating na ko sa party ng friend ko syempre walang humpay na tsismisan at tawanan at balitaan sa mga buhay-buhay namin. Biglang may dumating na car na parang familiar sa akin tapos biglang bumaba yung tao sa loob .. Biglang may nagsalita sa likod ko " Hoy, pare!! Ang tagal mo!" bigla siyang nagsalita with matching punas ng panyo sa noo. " Traffic eh." With matching ngiti at humalimuyak na naman ang Hugo Boss sa ilong ko.
O, HINDEE!! ANG LALAKING NAKASABAY KO SA TRAFFIC NA MAY MAGANDANG KAMAY......
Biglang sabi ng friend ko sa kanya " Teka naalala mo pa ba si...?"
AY WALANG IBA KUNG HINDI ANG TANGING LALAKING MINAHAL KO ALL MY LIFE.
Gusto kong magpalamon sa lupa, magpakalunod at sakalin ang friend ko sa sobrang hiya. Hindi pa ko handang makita siya!!!
Bigla siyang tumingin sa akin at sinabing." OO NAMAN. ALALANG-ALALA."
Whaaat?? Ano uli???
Naalala nya pa ko!!!
At ang hayop kung kaibigan ay iniwan kaming dalawa. Ayun, tanong sya sa kin ng tanong sa buhay ko. Nag-alok siayng ihatid ako sa bahay sabi ko may car ako. Tumawa siya at sabi niyang "Oo nga ikaw nga yung nakita ko sa traffic!!"
Lagi niya akong sinusundo sa office ko, nagdidinner din kami at syempre tinatawagn niya ako sa bahay ko gabi-gabi. Hindi ko alam pero parang bumaligtad yata ang mundo!
After 2 months, naging kami.
After 1 year, nagpakasal na din kami.
Before kaming ikasal sinabi niya sa akin
" Naalala mo nung gumraduate tayo at pinagtapat mo sa akin na mahal mo ko?" Namula na lang ako bigla at nag joke " Ah.. yun? Bata pa ko non!"
Bigla nyang hinawakan ang kamay ko at sinabing " Hindi na tayo bata non. Mas pinili kong makakilala ng mga maling babae kesa maging tayo sa maling panahon na hindi pa tayo handa. Unang kita ko pa lang syo, narandaman ko na ikaw na ang babaeng para sa akin"
Napatingin muna ako sa kamay niya na buong highschool kong pinagnasaan at sa mukha nya. Ano ba to!! Naiiyak ako kasi naiiyak din siya. Totoo ba ito?
At naramdaman ko ang yakap sa amin ni LORD...Kami nga talaga para sa isa't isa
At ito na nga ang tamang panahon...ü
"Sometimes letting go is the only way to move forward..."
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