Sitting in limbo
( Jimmy Cliff )

Sitting here in Limbo
Waiting for the tide turn.
Yeah, now, sitting here in Limbo,
So many things I've got to learn.
Meanwhile, they're putting up a resistance,
But I know that my faith will lead me on.

Sitting here in Limbo
Waiting for the dice to roll.
Yeah, now, sitting here in Limbo,
Still got some time to search my soul.
Meanwhile, they're putting up a resistance,
But I know that my faith will lead me on.

I don't know where life will take me,
But I know where I have been.
I don't know what life will show me,
But I know what I have seen.
Tried my hand at love and friendship,
That is past and gone.
And now it's time to move along.

Sitting here in Limbo
Like a bird ain't got a song.
Yeah, I'm sitting here in Limbo
And I know it won't be long
'Til I make my getaway, now.
Meanwhile, they're putting up a resistance,
But I know that my faith will lead me on.

I don't know where life will take me,
But I know where I have been.
I don't know what life will show me,
But I know what I have seen.
Tried my hand at love and friendship,
That is past and gone.
And now it's time to move along.

Gonna lead me on now.
Meanwhile, they're putting up resistance,
But I know that my faith will lead me on.
Sitting in Limbo, Limbo, Limbo.
Sitting in Limbo, Limbo, Limbo.
Sitting in Limbo, Limbo, Limbo.
Meanwhile, they're putting up a resistance,
But I know that my faith will lead me on.



temporary happiness

Sa wakas the stars pinned the dhon-keeee!

Here is your horoscopefor Wednesday, September 29:

If it smells good, feels good or makes you think that you'll look better wearing it, you'll gladly shell out lots of your hard-earned pesos to have it. Just don't deplete the bank account.

did some shopping today when I went to megamall. i was planning to buy some "important" stuff lang sana but at the end of the day I wasn't able to buy any of the items on my checklist. The only thing that I was able to cross out was the orientation that I went to which was for Hands on Manila...I get to start next week!!! yey! i get to teach kids!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Love isn’t fucked” she goes on, “It’s just the absence of it that is.”

I usually eat at some restaurant where you don't have to line up and where one can linger to sawa instead i went to Mcdonald's nalng. why? because I wanted to be anonymous...cue mysterious music here...in a restaurant you have to interact with the crew and sometimes with the other people eating in the same restaurant but in the land of sup-ah size me I can be as anonymous as an electric pole. I hate eating alone. may it be sa house or outside. even if i'm eating with someone tapos s/he finishes before I do, nawawalan agad ako ng gana. it's an automatic thing for me. For me it's lonely eating alone. You can't savor the food when you're eating alone because you're trying to eat as fast as you can to be to get out of that resto so you don't have to endure the kawawa-naman-sya-she's-eating-alone stares. I like the chitchats in between mouthfuls. I like the feel of being happy because you're getting stuffed. nothing beats kwentos over a good meal. yum!

GAZZZZZZIIILLLIIOOONNNN thoughts:

a lot of people reacted to my smiley question...sya daw si saddy si frowny at meron pang sumagot with all seriousness: "ang name ni smiley na sad is Mr. Sady Smiley. Smiley yung last name nya." Haaayyyy...***rolls eyes***

my reaction:


Sino sya? hint: hindi sya marunong mag scroll down :D

haven't been blogging religiously...that's how bored I am. Even if I have a lot of things to do sa office I still feel so bo-o-o-red! my mind doesn't function correctly na din...wait..kelan nga ba sya nag function ng tama...gr! (with 1 R)

i had a thought...in the office, I'm the one in charge of doing our sales thingie report and i always include a sales motivational quote in the end for more motivation chicka to...pero what if i, one time lang, put a love quote? What will our manager say?

love quotes/messages:

If I get takot, would you hawak me tight? If I gawa something mali, would you make it right? If I build an apoy, would you bantay the flame? If I sabi I miss u, would you ramdam the same?

" i miss you so much it hurts"

“I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.”

HaLa! Just a thought...a thought that I am seriously toying with...

told you i was bored...and abner too



it's 3am na and i'm still not asleep. how is that when my eyes were all red due to the constant yawning and i'm so sleepy rubbing my eyes thingie when I was at work and here I am at home still awake?

i'm trying to change my template but a quarter way to it I realize that that is so insane...i'm tamad. i don't wanna tire myself out. unfortunately, this is one of those things that my yaya can't do for me...mommy?

i'm going back to my usual self...due to my crummy rest days (wednesday and thursdy) the mall is the gimik place to be for me! Do i sense a hand forming the letter L there? But at least I get to watch old Sharon Movies in the afternoon...little joys

Later i'm going to this seminar with Hands on Manila. It's volunteer group. One things to do off my list. cchheeccckk!

At a talk show after her break-up with Derek Dee, Melanie was asked if she had some words for Derek's mother (whom she partly blamed for the separation). "Oo nga," said Melanie, "pero i-English-in ko para maintindihan niya." She looked into the camera and, with the peremptoriness of royalty, said, "And to you, Mrs. Dee, I have two words for you. Ang labo mo!"

sundays in Makati

i luurrrvvv Makati on sundays. less vehicles less people. sarap. peace and quiet. plus the fact that Makati has sidewalks!

"Everywhere I looked, people were standing in twos
-- it was like Noah's Upper West Side rent-controlled Ark."
(Carrie,SATC)

why is that people always think that you're with someone wherever you go? Go to a resto and the maitre'd wll ask you: Table for 2? Even the servings are good for 2 persons! pak the shet! I'm alone ohh--kkeeeyyyy!

question: pag sad na si smiley? ano na tawag sa kanya? seryosong tanong yan a! pramis!

7am! 7am! (#U$#U%%*#($#$@# punyeta! pwede ba kumuha nalang kayo ng basura at wag na kayong magbulabog ng mga taong gustong matulog pag umaga! fuck it. 10 minutes. pabagalan portion...o fine ayan malayo na..sleep ulet....9am...yaya wakes me up...ang aga naman ya! ...sabe mo 9am ka gisingin..a ganun ba..sige 5 minutes...ya, 5 minutes na ba yun...o fine gumising na at tumayo...kailangan pa natin makita si kraazziiee maglaro...late for the 10am bball game. OMG! si nick! my other crush...fuck...ay si krazzie naglalaro din pala..whatta morning!we won. what else is new..naks!yabang...o red box na...o last song nalang i'll go to work na...neeexxtt!...'Di ba sa simula sinabi mong walang matitiyak ....moon river wider than a mile i'm crossing you in style someday....May isang umagang `di mo hahagkan Ang mata kong `di ka magigisnan Turuan mong ako'y h'wag masaktan Kahit ako para sa `yo Ay `sang hiram At hindi dapat magdamdam....o what! ang squatter no? baket ba! hehehe...o basta next time pag wala akong pasok tara let's ulet!

bored...yes...definitely bored...yes...

o yeah one more kwento...this time its nakakaasar but you just hafta smile kwento...there's this girl who asked me the other day if i really could see or speak to "those we cannot see" (for more mysteriosu effect"...

me: huh? why'd you ask
girl: e kse..yada yada yada yada.....
me: uh...ok lang...
girl: di nga totoo?
me: (inside my mind) lord give me strength!
me: (talking to girl) and? what do you want me to do
girl: baka lang masabe mo sa akin kung bakit ganun
me: (inside my shrinking head) mukha ba ako si jojo acuin or rene mariano
me: (talking to girl) just dont mind it. im sure it nothin

today:
girl: (passed by my table) o mamaya a pag meron tawagin kita
me: ***fake smile*** (talking to my head) ANO BASH! hindi ako spirit questor! hindi ako si madam auring...fuck it....i see braindead people!

"How long must my patience be tested before it is rewarded."

The waiting game...

it is a bit tricky, my dears. you dont' not know if you are to sit or stand or to wait or to give it up or...but what are you to do...what are you to say...you are never given any choices that you can just pick like in a multiple choice test...it is, as always like a wrong minus right exam...you answer or you don't. The waiting game is not an exam or a test...it is not a game of monopoly where you can get a get out of jail card...sometimes, in life, there are no second chances...sometimes in life there are simply no right or wrong answers...sometimes in life there are no multiple choices...sometimes in life there are simply no turning the hands of the time back...sometimes A man does what he can until his destiny is revealed to him and you just have to rely on your self to make the best answer...

SMILE (Though Your Heart Is Breaking)

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

9 cigs and counting


how long must i wait
before the night ends
before the sun begins its ascent
illuminating a once darkened sky

tonight would be just one of those nights
the cigs and the blackened night would be your best friend
and no one else
....yes no one else my dear

and you are resigned to that fate
that you will be alone
that you will be unhappy
that you will be forever looking at the night sky
waiting for that elusive falling star
waiting for that sun to shine on your wet and cold face
but it will not come
it will not bless you with its warmth
it will leave you cold and stark naked and ripe for loneliness to embrace you
you are alone

and I am 10 cigs and counting....
adnileb

got this from Rocketboy:

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on our way home from Edwin's surprise birthday party in 9 pizza 7 chicken in Ortigas, we passed by a shop in Wilson selling christmas stuff na...Leo karla and I were all saying that the year has definitely gone by so fast...whooosshhh....swwwiissshhh......whooosshhh....swwwiissshhh......whooosshhh...swwwiissshhh......whooosshhh swwwiissshhh...(o tama na)...and i was just thinking a couple of days back that I don't even want christmas to come (no pun intended)...

"sometimes the worst thing for one's heart is loneliness." (ally Mcbeal)


"Its easy to stay happy in manila. Just lie to yourself all the time."

Dear Maria Belinda,
Here is your horoscope
for Sunday, September 19:

After all that drama, here's a day to bring you peace of mind, and the sureness that everything will work out exactly as it should. In other words, you're over it. Congrats.


Dear Maria Belinda,
Here is your horoscope
for Sunday, September 20:

You can forget about yesterday -- for now, anyway. The universe is seeing to it that everything is working out just fine. In the meantime, forget holding onto a grudge. Or anything else

~there you have it. the stars sez so...

today is the start of a 3day restday for me tuesday-thursday...so it'll be like i didn't go to work for this week...maybe I should do this often...i wish! i'm so tamad right now that all the things to do in my list have been all re-scheduled! blame it on the weather!

tonight I have a surprise party to go to...nice to be with my old friends again :)

it's a hot HOT day!

my mind was having an internal war. do i wake up now or later. 5 minutes. sleepy wins round 1. round 2 do i have to wake up now or can I just adjust my schedule instead so I can wake up later. sleepy does it again. round 3. you hafta wake up now or you won't be able to do anything at all. TING! wake-ity uppity side wins. argh!

M1 GB3:

auto doors open. first rack...cookie monster mode! 4 cds! wait i'm looking for something else...can i listen to this...fuck...can i buy all 5? you can't...control control...pak the shet!...dee-cisions! dee-cisions! dee-cisions!...bought 2 cds...take note of the others you didn't buy..i shall return for you my precioussss!



scene: Breton GB3

Breton girl: Ma'm...is it the same po ba?
Me : I'm sorry?
Breton girl: same order ma'm?
Me : what order? (sige nga wise guy..eerr girl pala)
Breton girl: Mango Banana Crepe with extra powdered sugar po and coke

anyenye (ala aiza seguerra!)

and that ends my boring sunday in the office. bonk bonk bonk.

"the rock candies have melted and now only diamonds remain" (Clarity in Heavier Things)

Dear Maria Belinda,

Here is your horoscopefor Tuesday, September 14:You're looking at that to-do list and wondering where to start. Your first move should be to tackle the project you like the least, or to make the phone call you've been putting off for the longest

I've been trying to make a list and a list of lists..gets? I'm trying to make a list of goals I want to achieve before year end. I'm trying to make a list of goals and things to do every month. So far, I haven't been entirely successful. Why? because I can't finish it!!!

pak the shet!




as marc sez this song is appropos for me

Where Do I Begin
(Chemical Brothers)

Sunday morning I'm waking up
Can't even focus on a coffee cup
Don't even know who's bed I'm in
Where do I start
Where do I begin
Where do I startWhere do I begin
Sunday morning I'm waking up
Can't even focus on a coffee cup
Don't even know who's bed I'm in
Where do I startWhere do I begin
Where do I startWhere do I begin

what a day! what a day!

...what a birthday it has been...

days creeping towards my birthday, i was feeling the usual birthday blues (read: no one cares about me, no one loves me, i'm so alone, i don't know what to do on my birthday dramatics)...i was really in a bind on what exactly to do on my birthday...in one of my previous entries i even had a list of what I was planning to do but nothing definite panned out so i was stuck with the usual treat everyone for my birthday thingie. treated everyone in the office with pizza and palabok (THANKS TO FRANCHIE FOR HELPING ME OUT!!!) and was s'posed to have a quiet nothing definite dinner with some friends on my birthday. Come wednesday, I was so tamad and i slept late. I got up around 12 noon when I got woken up by my yaya when Jets called to greet me. I was chatting with Mitch telling her na maybe we can move the dinner to a lunch or breakfast in tagaytay instead next sunday since I really wasnt able to invite anyone at all. i wanted to have dinner but somehow my heart was in it. but since I wasn't about to displease mitch and tin who "stayed" in the office just for my dinner so sige I went na din. I was bit delayed when Inigo called up just as I was fixing myself. we talked on the phone for almost an hour (57 minutes mobile call ormoc to manila...good luck to my phone bill!) discussing about...aahhmmm...next time nalang coz it'll be something worth blogging about...anyway, tried to hurry up but as i was on my way it kinda bothered me why tin and mitch weren't hurrying me up and being "assumption" me, i thought na baka there was a surprise waiting for me sa Dencio's. When tin texted me na ive to make them sundo sa office, the thought was still there...baka sa office yung surprise...but when i get there...no surprise pala (hundun bonks her head!)...had to work for a minute or two on an SR that I promised to fix for a customer before we finally headed for Dencio's in Paseo Center. When the manong asked us where we wanted to be seated I even asked Tin and Mitch where they wanna be seated. When tin finally said that we had a table na I thought that maybe they called ahead for reservations. when we were lead to our table it took awhile before it dawned on me that it was myls' back that I was seeing. the same myls who told me that she can't go because she has dinner with her family din. But i thought, maybe she changed her mind or maybe her family dinner finished early. but wait, there's ayn (with the nice bangs)...ayn who, in passing, i invited to the dinner that we were planning. again, i wasn't really up to it that's why i wasnt really inviting anyone at all. aba at may gift pa! aawww..thanks for the book and powerbooks giftcard everyone!mwah! when we were seated, i complained, due to my "oc-ness", why we had such a long table! ggrrr iklian natin i can't take the uneven seating and the empty chairs! but wait there's more (again), Jon and athea appeared suddenly. but my mind seemed to be on a time delay mode before it actually dawned on me that this was actually a surprise dinner! i even looked for athea when we were in the office just to invite her for that supposedly quiet dinner that we were gonna have. how quiet and low key it was s'posed to be? i wore pambahay clothes!!! kakahiya! anyway, so that explains the long table :) ...i was happy. for that moment I WAS HAPPY. I was with my closest friends. i was thinking that if my girls, my mom and sister were there i could die right that very moment. there were also planning pala to pay for the bill for that surprise dinner but I offered. i thought it was nothing. of course i'd pay for it. its my birthday anyway but gauging from their reactions they were really surprised that i actually footed the bill...hahaha who got surprised now! we ended around 930 and left Paseo Center. Mitch and tin went home while Marc, who was also there, and i went to his car. We went around as usual. planned to watched a movie but while waiting for the 11pm showing we went to macapagal highway just for a look see. had coffee in starbucks fort then went home na. when I got home, I checked my blog and saw a tag from Meian (summer) that they were in my surprise party but that I wasnt there...what!?!?!?!?!?! i charged my fone and saw several callback alerts from emer and meian and a comeback message from Vianca. OMG!!! they were there pala in Paseo Center. It turns out that Tin (from what summer narrated) was communicating with her about having surprise dinner for me. HAla! kakahiya! kya pala emer called me up to ask where I was. Being in the middle of dinner and since reception was so bad I wasn't really able to talk to her. i brushed it away thinking that she was in makati because of her new work and that she just happened to call to greet me or something...haaayyyyy!!!! so sayang!!!
so i say again, who got surprised now! i think everyone!

haaayyyy!!! what a mix up! what a surprise! just when i was thinking that it was gonna be another BLAH birhthday here comes my friends turning it to be the best birthday of my life. THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH

with friends like them who needs a boyfriend!?!?!?! ayyy baka may mag react. nah having a guy would just be icing on the cake or maybe extra whipped cream.

sometimes when life deals you a bad card. sometimes when the universe does not conspire to give you your heart's desires. sometimes when people just make your life a living hell. trust God to give you friends who will pull you up from the quagmire that you are living in. trust God to give you friends who will make your heart smile and skip an extra beat. trust God to give you friends who will turn the most depressing day of your life to be the best one that it can ever be.

To everyone who remembered THANK YOU


(l-r) athea jon tin mitch me marc and ayn...myls left na agad :(

...o wlang magrereklamo.blog KO TO!

It's my..drum roll please...27th birthday...what have I achieved so far...not much...my year, as you know, has not been the best..it has been the worst..and being my birthday, i'm not even sure if there's anything to celebrate about...to me, Happy Birthday...or, which i think is more apt, Birthday lang since i'm not so happy naman...so to me, birthday!

Once a year you are given the licensce to be the queen of dramatics and its my turn today. I've got 24 hours and no one's gonna ruin MY day!!!!

my day so far...made libre to the whole floor yesterday...pizza for the afternoon people and pancit malabon (3rd year in a row!) for the gy people...

hafta to go...will make kwento later..have to fix my stuff

* s i g h *

It’s hard to believe
That there’s nobody out there
It’s hard to believe
That I’m all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I don’t ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way

-red hot chilli peppers


A kid wrote:

Dear God,

Thanks for giving me a baby brother, but what I was praying for was a puppy>"

God must've smiled when he read this note just as you are now. Do you pray like a child, talking to God with all your heart without pretense? Simply pouring out your feelings and opening your whole self without hiding anything....Tell God want you want...

....you know my heart Lord....you know my heart...

Here is your horoscope
for Sunday, September 12:


You know what they say about the calm before the storm? Well, you're about to enjoy the calm after the storm. It's not like you haven't earned it, either. Take a deep breath, kick back and relax. It's about time.

Yes! it is about time..but where is the calm!?!?!?!?!?!?!


its 2 days before my birthday..hala! why is it that Im not even excited...i feel so..blah!..nada..nothing..nil (football term)...hhaayyy...patty may just be right..birthday blues...

friday: did my monthly grocery with my yaya and bought some new stuff na din. aba! aba! while I was shopping pati yaya ko nag sshopping na din at nauna pa sya sa akin makabili!

was also able to watch...Troy (shit I cried!) and The Passion of Christ...yes! finally. ako nalang ata ang di nakawatch nun e...so at least now i can relate na..ay..no one makes kwento na pala about that movie...too late :)

saturday: had dinner with my girls and as usual "all star cast nanaman kme. Me, mein, kaje and emer. Viancs and beng didnt go. Had fun with them as usual. 2 things that made my night. was able to watch real madrid (beckham and owen...hhaaayyy!) and saw the cutest guy!!! Since sidebar (ElPueblo) had several TVs set up I was able to watch the game while enjoying the night with my girls. The cutest guy naman asa next table. kaso he had blinkers on ata at di man lang sya nag glance sa amin. fucker! hmph! sorry walang sense tong paragraph na to but so what. basta! i had fun yun lang.

sunday: went to work then Fred made me sundo and from Philam Tower we walked to North park in Makati Ave..yes. walked. i needed time to vent e so told him na we should walk nalang.

monday: went to work. was so tamad pa din. wala. nothing significant happened.

sorry if this entry is so boring. told you i feel so BLAH! (with matching sticking out my tongue for more emphasis)...

quarter life crisis? birthday blues. punyeta! birthday ko naman e...

"No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?"
---Audrey Hepburn as Holly Golightly in Breakfast At Tiffany's

finally it's my restday!

plans..plans...hafta to do my monthly grocery with my yaya...buy some stuff (hala! shopping again)...have my yaya fix my room...i swear she's the only one who can fix it up real nice and all in one day! me, i can't even do it in a week...meet up with my girls since it's Kaje's last weekend before she flies to greener pastures...try to watch all the dvds that i bought last week...oh, can I include rest in between?

"i am eternally lost but always optimistic that I'll find my way in this maze called life"

i'm starting to feel restless. i'm starting to hate my work. i'm starting to feel lost. i'm starting to feel that it's time to move on...a new client maybe...i new line of work...a new company...

"Mikhail: is this really how one find love

Carrie: No,its just what we do to distract ourselves until the real thing comes along"

My friend, mahal, is setting me up on a date hehehehe...after my last que horror blind date i vowed that I'll never go out on a blind date ever again...but here I am agreeing...maria agatha belinda bettina eugenie victoria ..que horror! tristan, an officemate, told me to tell my friend to tell the guy to call me first (phonepal?!?!?!) para we can talk daw muna...o and then...shit...hala! sige! Let's do it...one more time...bring 'em on! So if you have a friend that you wanna set me up with I'm free. Wednesday and thursday...woohoo! for more life!

But please, if you really are my friend, you'd know my requirements...ugh..not really requirement(s)...more of...a whatever requirement is the word...he has to speak WELL! no mouse sounding voices...no f for the p. p for the f. d for the v and v for the d tendency. no braindead men. no reynante like men (read: driver or boy look a like) or else my mom will disown me. no..aahhmmm...a man with a good head and a good heart that'll do. shit dating pa nga lang pala...a basta he has to speak well!

for rent: ME! wednesday thursday lang ;P

fuck it! this entry is so squatter!

i am sleepy!

Copacetic (Adjective)

Pronunciation: [ko-pê-'se-tik]. can be spelled as copsetic, too.

Definition: More than satisfactory, fine, running very smoothly, going quite well.
The term is perfect if you want to express an intensified "O.K." without going so far as "excellent" or "outstanding." "That solution isn't just good, it's positively copacetic." This word has overtones of "congenial", too: "Things are not so copacetic at the office right now; the new director is a bit overbearing."


"Don't damn me when I say a piece of my mind coz silence isn't golden when I'm holding it inside" (Guns and Roses)

i don't care who reads this entry. this is my blog. my world. my thoughts.

this is a delayed reaction to what happened during the weekend (one of the many things) that is still brewing as I type. I didn't wanna blog about since i was still angry and my emotions are still going berserk (they still are...). Schedules got change because of promotions and lack of coverage. First sked gets rolled out. I had the worst sked. 3pm wed thursday off. WTF! Everyone got the skeds that was ideal for them and I get a sucky sked?!?!?! Daya. So friday night a colleague and I tried to fix the sked for everyone's benefit. YES! FOR EvERYONE'S BENEFIT. The sked that we proposed got approved. yey! everyone gets the sked that they want including me 3pm fri sat off. not bad na din. at least i didnt have a loser sked. Come sat am skeds got changed. i got the same restdays but my shift was move an hour later while some got good skeds and the others sucky time. So it was but natural for them to make reklamo about it. But what I don't get is why get mad at me? I didn't give them that sked? That's not the one that we proposed and you know it. So what if I made reklamo. if you had a sucky sked, wouldn't you do the same thing that I did? bet you will. it was never my intention for you to get panget skeds. the new sked (the latest) wasn't the one that we proposed and got approved by the tm so why blame me for it? kse i made reklamo? so the theory is now that no one can make reklamo about his/her getting a panget sked if everyone else got the sked that they wanted? Wow. so much for equal benefits. The no replies and the sungit answers that I got was something that i did not deserve to get. maybe you should've asked first what happened before you jumped into your own conclusions. maybe you should thought first if i had the capability to make you kupal about your skeds just as long as i get the sked that i wanted. if you think that I am..teehhee then maybe thats what i should've done na nga lang. sana we didn't waste so much time drafting that sked that we proposed nalang.

i deserve a sorry for what you did. clearly it was a miscommunication. clearly it was flagellating someone just because one tried to speak a piece of her mind.

lesson to self: bawal magreklamo just as long everyone else got what they wanted.

stuck with a 3pm wed thursday off. so much for having a life.

my turn for YOU entries, tin.

happy birthday to myself!

"It is an unpleasant fact of life that one day you look fabulous, you will not run into the person who causes your pulse rate to break the sound barrier. The day you look like a trogolodyte, that's when you see the person. Events conspire to present you to the beloved in the worst possible light."

I'm sorry this didn't happen to me because no matter what you do I am still prettier than that chona girl kahit mag pang bahay ata ako AND I'm sorry insecure! Darkwinter and I caught her staring at me...now that's not my problem!

I decline to make kwento what happened during the weekend...why? because I remember Ces telling me that "someone" might be reading my blog and we don't want to give them the satisfaction of knowing that they occupy space in my life least of all my blog, right? Tama na I got hassled...ggrrr...HHAASSSSLLLEEE!!!

"Between you and an insipid girl who is easy to control, a guy will choose the insipid girl who is easy to control."