...i saw a good friend walk down the aisle with tears in her eyes and happiness spewing from her lips...



Someday when I'm awfully low
When the world is cold
I feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight.
Oh, but you're lovely with your smile so warm
And your cheek so soft
There is nothing for me to love you
And the way you look tonight
With each word your tenderness grows
Tearing my fear apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose touches my foolish heart
Lovely, never ever change
Keep that breathless charm
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight...



...Wishin', and hopin', and thinkin', and prayin'....


"You're probably drumming your fingernails on the white linen tablecloth the way you do when you're really feeling down. Perhaps even looking at those nails thinking, "God, I should have stopped in all my evil plotting to have that manicure.""


No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends.

My "old" friends...in the end, when all our dreams have passed...when all the love songs has been sung...when the bell has tolled for us...when all our tears has turned to rust...our laughter would still reverberate...our Jon jokes would still be corny...our kwentos would still be replayed.....maybe we'd all end up together...and we'd still dance just like how we danced tonight...

"Maybe there won't be marriage, maybe there won't be sex, but by God there'll be dancing!"

"What holds you back is the fact that you keep the negativity of the past alive in your mind. When you focus on the past disappointments, limitations and shortcomings it brings them into the present; focus instead on the possibilities of the future."

Been sick since January 1...when I got to the office that day someone even commented na I so look like 2004..right on dude! Since that day, my body rejects any solid food...can't sleep properly..I easily tire...was even s'posed to have my self checked sa hospital but stubborn me decided against it. no way am i gonna be cooped up for days in the hospital! but i'm better now..ate my first solid food w/o throwing it up last wednesday. Thanks to those people who asked, told me to go home and even gave me sabaw to make sure that I eat ***heart***

salamat salamat :)

thursday was loner's day for me...a good book and music are my bestest buddies...thanks to Lord Jeffrey Archer , LIVE and Kitchiefor accompanying me.

During my loner's walk, i discovered a chapel in the monstrous mall and found myself praying for friends who i knew needed all the help that they can get from the big guy above...as for me...i prayed...for peace of mind..for calmness in my heart...for happiness...for love above all else....as Derrick said, a panacea...send me mine Lord...send me mine soon...the air is already thinning for me...i can hardly breathe...the water is up to my ears and i am drowning...drowning...slowly..painfully drowning...in my own tears...

I have never taken Life
Yet I have often paid the price
And you, you are a victim of this age
And the guilt that hangs around your neck
Has got me locked up in a cage

You've got to learn to live until no end
But first you must learn to swim
All over again
Because...

Pain lies on the riverside
And Pain will never say goodbye
Pain Lies on the Riverside
So put you feet in the water
Put your head in the water
Put your soul in the water
And join me for a swim tonight

I have forever, always tried
To stay clean and constantly baptized
I am aware that the river's banks are dry
And to wait for a flood
Is to wait for life

I've got to learn to live until no end
But first I must learn to swim all
Over again,
Because...

Pain lies on the Riverside.

CONFUSION

"Boys frustrate me. I hate all their indirect messages, I hate game playing. Do you like me or don't you? Just tell me so I can get over you." - Kirsten Dunst

I suddenly realized that I haven't really been posting things that happened to me but vague entries that only people who I see and talk to every day would be able to understand or "get"....so to those who I forgot...my sincere apologies...

as i said 2004 didn't end on a high note for me...why...sorry this is something that I'd rather not talk about now...but just a gist...just to whet you imagination...let's just say that just when I thought it's ok for me to let down my well built defenses...that just when I thought it's ok to take the risk...just when I thought it's ok to trust someone...i was wrong...dead wrong...I took a great risk for NOTHING. My apologies..today is not the right time to blog about this..not when my heart is still hurting...I'll keep quiet muna...because that is just how I am...the more hurt I am the quieter I become...

"If little by little you stop loving me I shall stop loving you little by little. If suddenly you forget me... do not look for me, for I shall already have forgotten you." -Pablo Neruda



December 31st 11:50pm..new year's eve in the office...my fourth...we rushed down to the street to join the countdown...5..4..3..2..1...its 2005!

Me : aba! wla pang nagttext sa akin a! Kung sino unang mag ttext sa akin sya na ang mamahalin ko pang habang buhay

***beep beep***
Me : Wylmer! Di ka kasali..pang end of the world-pag bingi at bulag na tayo-pang last resort groom kita..hindi ka kasali!!!!!!
Wyl: ***guffaws***

***beep beep***

Me : Hala! (shows text to Wylmer...looks at the texter...)
Me : (To myself) No comment!


nagrereturn of the comeback ka ba?

....From days of long ago, from uncharted regions of the universe, comes a legend; the legend of Voltron, Defender of the Universe, a mighty robot, loved by good, feared by evil. As Voltron's legend grew, peace settled across the galaxy. On Planet Earth, a Galaxy Alliance was formed. Together with the good planets of the solar system, they maintained peace throughout the universe, until a new horrible menace threatened the galaxy. Voltron was needed once more. This is the story of the super force of space explorers, specially trained and sent by the Alliance to bring back Voltron, Defender of the Universe!....

Maria Agatha Belinda Bettina Eugenie' Victoria...Belinda...Maribel...Belle (only if we're close please!)...a.k.a HÜndÜn

MARIA
Usage: Italian, Portuguese, German, Scandinavian, Dutch, Greek, Polish, Czech, Romanian, English, Finnish, Icelandic
Pronounced: mah-REE-ah
Latinate form of MARY. This was the name of several queens of Portugal. It was also borne by the 18th-century Habsburg queen Maria Theresa, whose inheritance of the domains of her father, the Holy Roman Emperor Charles VI, began the War of the Austrian Succession.

Although the name Maria creates the urge to work in harmony with others, we point out that it causes a superior, interfering expression. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, worry and mental tension. Your name of Maria gives you the desire to understand and to help others but, at the same time you can become too involved in their problems and, as a result, worry too much. You desire a home and family of your own and have the ability to create understanding and harmony in family association as you are pliable, forgiving, and tactful. You love children and would not hesitate to care for any children who might need you. Whenever possible, you avoid argument and turmoil because you prefer not to face an issue if it means hurting anyone's feelings

BELINDA
Usage: English
Pronounced: be-LIN-da
The meaning of this name is not known for certain. The first element could be related Italian bella "beautiful". The second element could be related to Germanic lind "serpent, dragon" or linde "soft, tender".

Although the name Belinda creates the urge to be reliable and responsible, we emphasize that it causes procrastination, lack of confidence, and the inability to realize your goals and ambitions. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, and worry or mental tension. As Belinda you are rather serious-minded, responsible, and stable. You have the gift of tact and diplomacy, and possess a charming, easy-going nature which endears you to others. You have a serious desire to understand the heart and mind of everyone, and could be very effective in a career or in volunteer work where you are handling people and serving in a humanitarian way. This name also gives you a love of home and family, and as a parent you would likely be fair and understanding.

extras:

Belinda is a moon of Uranus. It is named after the heroine of Alexander Pope's The Rape of the Lock. Other than its size and orbit, virtually nothing is known about it.

Belinda is the name of a fictional character in Alexander Pope's The Rape of the Lock.

Belinda is a novel written by Anne Rice under the pseudonym "Anne Rampling

"Thank your readers and the critics who praise you, and then ignore them. Write for the most intelligent, wittiest, wisest audience in the universe: Write to please yourself."

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times....

We all have a story to tell. We often judge our own stories as being good or bad, right or wrong. The truth is, each and every one of them not only holds meaning for us but for those around us as well. Our entries...our stories...our moments...our thoughts...our pain and our joys these are the things that happens in our lives that we want to share with other people who, may or may not care. Our stories try to reach out to other people and that in some way says...here I am! Make me a part of your life as I want you to be a part of mine....yes, we hope, too, that amongst the so many bloggers, web surfers and whoever there may be one or two who will perchance drop by our little world (read: blog) WILL care and will give a damn what happens to us...so another year has begun...let us read and be merry...let's start our life's story...be part of my trials and tribulations..my joys and my pains...my living and my dying in almost every breath that I take...here is my life...my story






"Suscipe, Domine, universam meam libertatem. Accipe memoriam, intellectum atque voluntatem omnem. Quidquid habeo vel possideo mihi largitus es; id tibi totum restituo, ac tuae prorsus voluntati trado gubernandum. Amorem tui solum cum
gratia tua mihi dones, et dives sum satis, nec aliud quidquam ultra posco. Amen

"The world has turned and left me here, just where i was before you appeared" (Weezer)

the last entry for 2004...

5 deaths...

1 love lost...

2 what might have beens

so many broken promises

countless tears

innumerable hurt

infinite pain

so many pent up prayers and wishes all sent to the skies and stars above....all remain unanswered...

has God forgotten my address?

when will all the hurt the pain and the tears stop...

annus horribilis as I once described this year...i'm kinda hoping 2005 will be better for me...i almost thought that since this year started on a low note for me that sana it'll end on a high note...and for awhile I almost did think that it was gonna be a happy ending for me for 2004...but, as usual, reality continues to destroy my life...it has been a life on a tight rope...it has been a year that seemed like I was perpetually living in the out house that when I almost thought that I could get out for some whiff of fresh air someone just had to say CUT! Bummer.

"I know I'm not perfect, but I can smile. And I hope that you see this heart behind
my tired eyes." (Dido)


The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
And you gasp for air tonight!!

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

"Maybe I'm happy and I just don't know it." (Ally McBeal)

things that i have to do today:

1. Check my mail and ym messages
2. Fix my room
3. Pay Globe
4. Find a dress for Mitch's Wedding and Dianne's debut
5. Buy a planner
6. Check out Powerbooks' sale
7. List down all DVDs



Something that I read in Inquirer:

Don't dwell on that empty space
By Thelma Sioson San Juan


THIS is one Christmas where we must exert extra effort to find the joy of the season simply because death came one after the other. Never has the yearend seen the front and opinion pages mourning the loss of lives day after day, muting the sound of holiday celebration.

You're surrounded by the news of death near and far, and even of impending loss since you know of at least one relatively young person battling cancer in what must have seemed like an epidemic-no matter how ridiculous a cancer epidemic may sound.

It's a threatening reminder even to the hip and young. What's up with the planets?

Nothing perhaps, it's just the usual cycle. Yet you must steel your heart and keep your heart still so that you catch whatever it is life is trying to tell you. How do you cope with the loss, and how do you listen to its message?

By being quiet and attentive. It is ironic that the drift of the season is surviving the loss. The holiday mood is not euphoric, it is thoughtful and sober.

So how do you cope? No choice but to roll with the punches, so you can muster enough strength to get back on your feet and walk on. In fact, there is no making up for a loss and it is foolhardy to think that an experience could be duplicated or a loved one replaced.

Our friend Alya Honasan even said as much of a dog when her Muffin (her name) died a few weeks ago. Accept and absorb the hurt and wear out the pain. After all, the heart -- along with the rest of the body -- gets fatigued from hurting.

Then -- seize a new moment and live it. The cliché is true, we're just passing by, experiencing moments and people along the way, but never really owning them indefinitely. We can't even retrace our step-that happens only in the mind. There's only the forward motion where time is concerned.

You can't go back, but you can move on. Muster the faith to see only the fullness of the moment, not its emptiness. Don't dwell on that empty space.

Christmas, therefore, is seizing the moment and living it as if it were a blessing, because it is. Let your every moment be an answered prayer. Merry Christmas!

"...You must remember this
A kiss is still a kiss
A sigh is just a sigh
The fundamental things apply
As time goes by....

And when two lovers woo,
They still say, "I love you"
On that you can rely
No matter what the future brings....."

"They say when love knocks on your door, open it. But do you know that sometimes love enters through the back door and before you notice it, its on its way out"

Mom: Hello anak!
Me : Mommy!
Mom : How are you? Are you ok?
Me : kinda... :(
Mom: You want to go home?
Me : Right now..yes...
Mom : Uwi ka na
Me : Di ko po alam e...
Mom : Daddy is sick. You better go home no one's taking care of you there
Me : Give me time ha? ha? ha?
Mom : Always asking for time but you never come home

....at the end, happiness is not a destination: it is a manner of travelling and the way you travelled. happiness is not an end in itself. it is a by-product of working, playing, loving and living.....

WAG NA WAG MONG SASABIHIN
(Kitchie Nadal)

May gusto ka bang sabihin
Ba't di mapakali
Ni hindi makatingin
Sana'y wag mo na tong palipasin
At subukang lutasin Sa mga sinabi mo na
Ibang nararapat sa akinNa tunay kong mamahalin

Wag na wag mong sasabihin
Na hindi mo nadama itong
Pag-ibig kong handang
Ibigay kahit pa kalayaan mo
Ano man ang 'yong akala
Na ako'y isang bituin
Na walang sasambahin'Di ko man ito ipakita
Abot langit ang daing
Sa mga sinabi mo na

At sa gabi sinong duduyan sayo
At sa umaga ang hangin and hahaplos sayo

"...pre, steady ka lang..."

One
U2

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now
You got someone to blame?
You say
One love, one life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
It leaves you, baby
If you don't care for it
Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well, it's too late
Tonight
To drag your past out
Into the light
We're one
But we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other
One
Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the day?
Have you come to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head?
Did I ask too much
More than a lot?
You gave me nothing now
It's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
We will
We hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love, the higher law
Love is a temple
Love, the higher law
You ask me to enter
And then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt
One love
One blood
One life you got
To do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters, brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to carry each other
Carry each other To LoVe...

Anyone who has gone through the agony of losing someone she loves so much will still wish against all odds to have that love back again. But, sometimes a love lost is a love gone forever. No amount of hope can bring to life a relationship that just died a natural death. Set yourself free. Let your heart spread its wings and fly. Remember, it may rain for 40 days and 40 nights, but still will not rain forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of branches where you can find rest. One of these is where you will build your nest and start over again. It's never too late. Remember, you may find love and lose it but, "WHEN LOVE DIES, YOU NEVER HAVE TO DIE WITH IT".

Remember that you cannot be a redeemer all your life. The best way to weigh a relationship is out in the test of fire. You cannot be a sooner of your mistake forever. Remember, we all fail and make wrong decisions but our blunders are meant not to bury us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lessons of life. Loving is always a learning process.

With love, we learn how to care and sacrifice. We learn to share and reach out. We learn to be unselfish and give more than we can. And when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it fells fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we learn that "Life doesn't end where our heartaches begin".

THERE IS NO FUTURE IN A RELATIONSHIP OF LIES AND SELFISHNESS. It's true, there's life in love. But, there can still be life even after losing love if you leave the past behind and let your heart heal and give you the chance to find yourself again. The success of a relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in its consistency. Make a choice not on impulse but a decision based on a healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that "HAPPINESS IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF CHOICE".

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of its when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

"YOU DON'T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE. WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOURSELF. YOU WOULD BETTER OFF GIVING THAT THE DEDICATION AND LOVE TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING". Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.

"IF YOU LOSE LOVE, THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE. CRY IF YOU HAVE TO, BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEAR WASHES AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS BACK TO YOU". And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

A woman on the rebound could easily fall for sweeping emotions and be made to falsely believe that she finally stumbled upon the right man when what she just found is only someone to cover up for the love she lost. A man who makes promises with words and not with actions may never live up to fulfill them. "IT'S TRUE THAT LOVE CAN WAIT FOREVER BUT IT IS CRAZY TO STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW WE FEEL".

Loving someone is never a sin. It is what people do out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin. Don't think only of your feelings for real love doesn't have a place for selfish people. When there is love, there is always sacrifice.

When we love someone, we NEVER easily GIVE UP on that person. Even if we get hurt badly we always try to find a way to ease the pain and learn to understand and forgive. Loving too much doesn't hurt. It is when we expect this love to be reciprocated that we begin to seek approval and acceptance of the things we have done and when we are taken for granted and rejected, we curse the very same love that we once freely and happily offered.

"DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO NEVER REALLY CARED ABOUT HOW YOU WOULD HAVE FELT. OPEN YOUR HEART AGAIN AND GIVE YOURSELF THE CHANCE TO FIND THE MAN WHO WOULD MAKE LOVING WORTH THE PAIN AND THE SACRIFICE. Just like anything else, our love grows weak and extent. Beyond that, it withers without any hope of recovery and soon dies".

God wakes us up in the midst of a storm to teach us a lesson. He takes away people we love, so we can learn to value love itself. He makes us cry so hard so we can see clearly when we open our eyes. He makes us bitter so we can realize that there is no genuine happiness if we think only of our needs and not of others.

Relationships built on jealousy and selfishness is doomed from the very beginning. The hardest part of losing love is letting go and moving on. Most of us cry endlessly over things that could have been but never will be.

"God allows us to experience pain to make us stronger and better persons. He will see us through the most trying and difficult times in our lives and only if we put our trust in Him we can learn to find joy in our tears and happiness in our sorrows".

In many failed relationships, separation comes as the inevitable choice but moving on always proves to be twice as difficult as letting go. Sometimes, the end of a relationship is imposed on us, but our choice to hold on is always beyond the control of circumstances.

Letting go is a decision that can never be dictated on us. It is a resolve we make ourselves. Acceptance is the key to a new beginning and time is the healer of all wounds. Even if the storm casts its fearful shadow, there will always be light after our darkness and lonely moments. There is always a hope for those who believe. There is always a chance for those who try. "Losing someone we may not be a loss at all but a blessing because someone even more is yet to come".

There is nothing wrong in expressing our feelings to someone we love, but "we must always be sensitive to the signals that tell us when to rationalize and be sensible." There comes a time in our lives when we would fall for someone who wouldn't be as interested as we are because his attention is focused on someone else.

There are many times when we love but don't get loved in return. There are times when the sign ahead says stop but we still stubbornly head on. We would say our love is unconditional, but if it really is, then we should never feel bad. But why do we get frustrated when love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about.

Being in love can be the most wonderful thing we could experience but if the feeling begins to consume our whole beings, then we have to stop and let our minds and not our hearts dictate our actions. Only when we learn to accept our fate and understand the meaning of our failures we can truly go on with life without having to look back and cry over the things that could have been but will never be......
"ReAcH FoR YoU... MiSSiNg YoU... SeCrEtLy ReCaLLiNg wHaT HaS BeEn
...I DoN't WaNt To ReMeMBeR"

"I haven't felt the way I feel today
In so long it's hard for me to specify.
I'm beginning to notice how much this
Feels like a waking limb... pins and needles..."



...sala sa lamig sala sa init...

"I've done the marry-go-round,
I've been through the revolving door,
I feel I just met someone I can stand still with for a minute
Don't you wanna stand still with ME?"

isang palatastas sa aking mala teleseryeng buhay:

"It is with great regret that I must confirm that the wizard styling himself Lord - well, you know who I mean - is alive among us again," Minister of Magic Cornelius Fudge

see you in the Summer of 2005 Half-Blood Prince!

eto ang Merry Christmas tlaga! San ka pa? Ayos! Timing is everything tlaga!

...sala sa lamig...sala sa init...anak ng!

the veil closes for me...no more...no more..no more chance to get hurt...

An Old Fashioned Christmas
(Frank Sinatra)

Give me an old fashioned christmas, an old fashioned christmas,
Family faces, wide open spaces, covered with snow, Right now my mom there in the kitchen, basting the christmas bird, You'll have to take my word, you can't find that at the automat.
An old fashioned fireplace, give me an old fashioned fireplace,
My heart remembers smoldering embers, warming your glow,
I'd trade that whole manhattan skyline, the shimmering steel and
chrome,
For one old fashioned christmas back home.


Just a few more hours and its gonna be its gonna be my fourth Christmas in the office...

unlike most people I don't have anyone to go home to pag Christmas..pag new year..pag labor day...pag holy week....pag Nov. 1...or any holiday for that matter...
My hope for everyone is that this never happens to you....



Merry Christmas everyone :)

Kisses and Hugs from me...know that I wish nothing but joy and happiness for you and may God bless you and keep you.

Blessed Be!

From Seed:

"I may not know your pain, but I know mine...
and I know my pain comes and goes.
it goes when I begin to trust again...
trust the other person to be doing what they have to be doing
trust that I myself am ok, and I'm going through what I need to be going through right now for some reason.

trust God to take care of me - to provide the best for me....for us...

but only when I....we trust Him.

in other words

when I become "detached" from the outcome.
when I let it be - and know the best is yet to come...when I let go.

and by the way- what does it feel like when i let go?
peace.
that's the only single word to describe it.
it's goodit brings clarityit lets me live again...it lets me take care

¤ The face can speak of a thousand emotions but it can easily mask what the heart truly feels. Don't be fooled...for the happiest face may be masking the most hurting heart. ¤


what do you know of my hurt
what do you know of how my tears fell for you
what do you know of my pain
I held on for you...

But you will never hear anything from me...the more hurt I feel the quieter I become


They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can't control

They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named
There's a part of my world that' s fading away

You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can't try, I can't try, I can't try...

No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away

Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive

I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

this is exactly how I feel right now...don't mind the fact that this is the new Batman movie poster...look at how the shoulders stoop...overwhelming sadness....

"I'm ok....the next time you hear me say that...stop for a while, decode my smile, look me in the eye, and take a peek inside my soul..."

i feel like a huge cross is perched on my shoulders and with every passing day the weight just keeps on getting heavier and heavier...is this my Via Dolorosa..my dusty road to Galilee before I reach my Golgotha where I can unload my heavy burden?

I feel so alone amongst the people I know and love...I feel so separated from the world...with their knowing smiles and teasing looks...they do not know the cross I bear...they do not know what overwhelming sadness simmers beneath my practiced smile...

would you bear my cross with me?

Alas, t'was not meant for you to carry my cross or to share my load...this back breaking load is for me and me al0ne to bear...no one to share no one to know...

Sa panahon na ang pagmamahal na dadaan sa text...sa panahon ng digital karma...sa panahon ng mabilisang emotions...Bakit di ganito kadali ma-grant ang lahat ng kahilingan ko?

1: say yourself, say the name of the only guy or girl you wanna be with 3 times!

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2. Think of something you wanna accomplish within the next week and say it to your self 6 times!!

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3. If you had 1 wish what would it be? say it to yourself 9 times!!!

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4. Think of something that you want to happen between you and that 1 special person and say it to your self 12 times!!!

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5. Now, here's the hard part! pick only 1 of these wishes and as you scroll down focus and concentrate on it and think on nothing else but that wish & final wish about that one wish that you picked.

After reading this, you have 1 hour to send it out to 15 people, and what you wished for will come true within one week! The more people you send it, the stronger you wish will be! The more, the better!!!!

Kahit na po hindi World Peace or something chorvalu for all mankind kse alam ko na hard yun e so ang kahilingan ko nalang po ay sana bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep...pwede na yun Lord for me. thank you :)

December 10 na! Ako ang pinakamaligayang nilalang sa buong mundo. lahat nagsshopping na. cept me. lahat nagplano na kung ano gagawin nila sa christmas bonus nila. cept me. lahat gumigimik na kung sansan. cept me. lahat binibilang na kung magkano nalang ang natitira sa kanilang christmas bonus. cept me. lahat nagwworry na bakit ang bilis maubos ang christmas bonus nila. cept me. lahat naiinis na sa haba ng mga lines sa mga atm machines. cept me. lahat nagwworry na san mas ok bumili sa divisoria or sa greenhills. cept me. lahat nagpapakasaya na sa piling ng kanilang mga christmas bonus. cept me.

kase nakalimutan ako ng aking magaling na companya. wla pa akong Christmas Bonus. Lahat meron na daw. cept me. ayos!